1 - I'm a 21 y.o. gay male and virgin as they come. And by virgin, I really mean no sexual interaction of any kind with a second person. Not even a kiss, or a handjob, or a mutual jerk-off. Nothing. And here's the kicker: I'm an art student. Yep.
2 - I guess this is due to a number of factors. I was pretty shy growing up, and very overweight, and in a very conservative town. People say I don't look gay, whatever that means. I'm not in the closet (except with family, for now), but it seems I only ever meet straight guys (with girls, that's a different story). I've never been really interested in any of the very few out gay guys I met, and all the guys I've felt any kind of attraction to were, as far as I know, straight (maybe with the exception of one, who might actually have been interested in me, but when I realized this and tried to re-connect, it was too late). And, last but not least, I'm not looking for casual sex.
3 - The closest I've ever come to "experimenting" as a teenager was watching porn with a childhood friend. His eyes were glued to the boobs on the screen, mine were glued to the bulge in his pants. Obviously, nothing happened (besides him having to ride his bike back home with a boner).
4 - I can't seriously imagine myself in a "one thing led to another" scenario. Or anyone else, for that matter. I think the total desert that my sex life has been all my life has lead me to subconsciously elevate any kind of romantic/sexual interaction to the level of myths. Like it's something that simply doesn't ever happen. A situation where two people would be mutually interested in each other at the same time feels like such a farfetched idea - yet, rationally, I know perfectly well it's not.
5 - Despite all this, I never felt like meeting guys online was the way to go. I'm a hopeless romantic. If things don't change, though, I think I might have to force myself to think otherwise. This is getting silly. At this point, casual sex is really not an option (I think. Maybe). I'm not looking for Prince Charming, but is it too much to ask that my first time is with someone I trust and care about?
6 - Technically, I have had my first kiss, both with a girl and with a boy. The former was in kindergarten, with a friend who wanted to be my "girlfriend", the later in primary school, when me and a friend shared a quick peck on the lips to annoy my brother (hey, what do you know, I was already gay and he was already a homophobe). And no, the way I see it, they don't count. My first kiss will be a real one, dammit.
7 - Growing up, I was so glad that I didn't usually look or act effeminate because I was terrified by the idea of someone even suspecting I was gay. Now, however, I feel like I might have a better chance of finding someone if, at least, I looked like I'm into guys. I mean, how am I supposed to get a boyfriend if I don't look like I want one? Again, I'm not in the closet, but it's not like I introduce myself as "hi, my name is X and I'm gay" either. I'm just being me.
8 - I know that people who meet me nowadays don't imagine my clean track record when it comes to relationships. Referring to #2 - I'm A LOT more sociable and confident, I lost enough weight to put me in the ideal weight zone and, even though I'm not a model, I know I'm not a hideous monster either - I've been told I'm good looking, but you can't really trust your friends when they say that. Maybe I suffer from ugly duckling syndrome. Or maybe it's the fact that, among the dozens and dozens of guys I've met in the past two months in my new school, there doesn't seem to be a single gay guy. Either way, I'm still not getting any.
9 - After reading this blog, I'm absolutely delighted so many people experimented with both genders and that there might be more fluidity in the world than I thought. I totally respect when people say they don't want to be labeled and I wholeheartedly agree. I consider myself a very open-minded person. Who can say I'll never be interested in a girl?
10 - ...Yet, even as I typed that last sentence, I didn't really believe myself, to be completely honest. Yes, no one knows what's in store, but my whole life I've never felt the slightest romantic/sexual attraction to any girl. Quite often, I find myself thinking "I really like hanging out with this female friend of mine, if I was straight I'd totally be in love with her", but the most I've ever felt like doing with any of them was hugging and staying up all night talking (seriously). I recall having ONE sex dream (not wet dream) involving a random woman, and even then there was also a couple of my male friends involved. I was, maybe, twelve. So, personally, I don't really have an issue with calling myself "gay". I'm pretty sure I am.
11 - #10 also explains why I never did anything with a girl. I never really felt inclined to even try it. At all.
12 - I used to worry that my penis was small, but it's not really an issue now. It's not big, but I'm pretty sure it's average-ish. I guess I'm a grower, not a shower. Plus, the confidence thing.
13 - When I start getting aroused, I start pre-cumming. When I start pre-cumming, I pre-cum a lot. I don't really have a term of comparison, but I'm pretty sure it's a lot. When I'm jerking off, I usually have to wipe the excess a couple of times to prevent it from running down my dick. I love it, by the way.
14 - I'm bored of porn. I still watch it, but really, I have to try way too hard to find stuff that's not over-produced and obviously fake and it's annoying. Erotic stories are better, much better, but even those used to have a much greater effect on me.
15 - Yet, all the old, tired porno clichés really get my imagination going. You know, the plumber, the construction worker, the neighbour, the hot teacher, the room mate. I wonder what it would be like to have spontaneous sex of that type. I don't think I'd be able to try anything now even if the opportunity presented itself, but maybe I'll think differently when I'm more experienced.
16 - Because I keep to myself (even though that's changing, bit by bit), I think people got the idea I was sort of asexual, or not very interested in sex. However, I'm VERY interested and extremely curious about it - sucking cock in particular. I'm pretty sure it's something I'm going to love doing (actually, now that I think of it, in most of my wet dreams, I was blowing someone). But kissing is definitely number one, simple as it may be. Seeing really passionate kissing between two guys arouses me more than I can admit. I guess I'm a very oral person. Also, I've tried licking my cum and hated the taste, but the idea of swallowing someone else's, or someone swallowing mine, gets me royally turned on. Facials, however, do nothing for me. I find them pretty yucky.
17 - I'm very vanilla. Saliva, sweat and sperm are the only bodily fluids I'd be comfortable with. I'm not interested in any kind of pain or blood or BDSM. If anything, I guess I'd be okay with a bit of watersports, if my partner really wanted, but then only in a "clean" environment (like the shower) and nowhere near my face. But personally - no.
18 - My biggest kink is definitely incest. Those are the stories I usually read. Only in fantasy though, looking from the outside; I have absolutely no sexual interest in anyone in my family. It's a bit weird, now that I think of it.
19 - I find foreskins sexy, but I really don't care when it comes to my partner. I'm really glad I'm uncut, though. I also have a thing for weirdly shaped/unusual cocks.
20 - After a bit of thought, I realized that if I ever fell for a guy and he turned out to be a f-to-m trans person, and he hadn't had a sexual reassignment surgery, I probably wouldn't give a shit. Okay, he wouldn't have a penis, but vaginas don't really disgust me or turn me off by themselves, it's the women attached to them. However, if he still had feminine breasts, that would probably affect me. I don't know why either of these things are so - but they are.
21 - Which reminds me - for some reason, I can't seem to be attracted to guys with long hair, at all. He could be the hottest guy on earth, but if he wears a ponytail, chances are I won't look twice. Again, I have no idea why this is, but it just is. Of course, I'm talking solely of physical attraction, and I don't rule out the possibility of having a relationship with a long-haired dude.
22 - I'm not really comfortable with the idea of being with someone much older, but the truth is, older men get me hot. I once spent a couple of hours on a train sitting next to a man in his forties, wearing a suit. The faint scent of his cologne made me secretly wish he would fuck my brains out. I had a hard-on most of the time.
23 - Because of my inexperience, I'm afraid my ability to withhold my orgasm during my earlier sexual experiences will be similar to that of a 13-year-old. But I'm pretty sure I'll turn out to be a pretty good lover. I got imagination to boot and, stupid as it may sound in this context, I've read a lot.
24 - As a little kid, I used to enact sex scenes between my Barbie and my brother's Action Man. I always felt very attracted to his plastic chest, and I'm pretty sure that, if we'd had two Action Men, Barbie would stay in the toy box quite often.
25 - I've never told anyone this, and I don't think I ever will, but during my teenage years I really wished I was a girl. It just seemed so much easier - I wouldn't have to hide the fact that I was into guys, I could be affectionate to my female friends without people thinking I had second intentions, my lack of talent for team sports would be overlooked. I'm not sure I ever wanted to really be a girl, though, or if I just wanted my life to be easier and being a girl seemed like a better option than liking girls. Nowadays, I just wish I was a much hotter, open and adventurous gay guy. That would be awesome.
Monday, November 22, 2010
1. I'm a 22 year old queer girl. My favorite term for myself is "bisexual dyke."
2. A man broke into my friend's house and raped us both when I was 17. He used a knife on and in us. It goes without saying that this was a traumatic and life-changing experience.
3. After the rape I started drinking heavily and having anonymous sex with a lot of women. I tried to use the experiences I had with them to erase the memory of being violated. It took me years to end this behavior.
4. I am proud of the fact that I triumphed over my sexual assault and am able to enjoy sex. Physical intimacy with someone I love is like therapy to me.
5. I am very sexually experienced. I stopped counting years ago, but if I were to guess I would put the number at 70 women and 20 men.
6. I don't care if people think I'm a slut because of #5; I'm happy with my sexual past and I hope everyone else is, too.
7. I like almost any and everything about sex. The things that lead up to it, the act itself, and the aftermath are all wonderful experiences.
8. I LOVE going down on girls. There are few things I enjoy more in the world than letting her ride my tongue and fingers. I'll spend hours down there if she wants me to; watching a beautiful woman come is so, so sexy.
9. Despite #8, I almost never enjoy receiving oral sex. It just doesn't do it for me. It feels fine, but rarely so much as to get me off.
10. At the same time, I can't stand it when people refuse to go down on me. I have no respect for anyone who won't. So I guess my ideal partner is someone who loves doing it, but who doesn't require it.
11. I have REALLY intense orgasms, but have never been able to multiple. I'm fine with this; one of mine is enough to turn my legs to jelly.
12. My most serious relationship lasted four years and was with a person who started out as my girlfriend and slowly became my boyfriend. I immediately and effortlessly accepted and embraced this and was with him throughout his entire transition. Now he passes effortlessly, and you can't even tell he was born female. I think the relationship left me with a bit of a FtM fetish.
13. I used to be only into women, but since going to college have found myself more and more interested in men.
14. I become a 13-year-old boy when I see breasts. They render me nearly speechless and totally retarded. Boobs might be my favorite thing in the world.
15. I've had numerous threesomes, almost all successful and fun, with no awkwardness. They've all been either FFM or all-girls. I've never been in a guy-guy-girl situation.
16. The porn that turns me on the most is all the dirty, nasty stuff I would never enjoy doing in real life. The more hardcore and depraved, the more it turns me on.
17. Until I turned 18, my biggest fantasy was to be an older woman's dirty little secret. Preferably a housewife with kids with a secret lust for young dykes.
18. The hottest sexual experience of my life was with a 30-something mother in the restaurant I worked at bussing tables. She was a belly dancer (the restaurant was middle-eastern themed) and I got wet whenever she performed. One day she shoved me into the employee bathroom and had me suck her clit. It was the sexiest thing I had ever seen or imagined in my life, especially when she came. It never happened again, and I still masturbate to the memory.
20. I love doggy-style and missionary sex. Girl on top feels great too, but it's harder to thrust.
21. Sometimes I want to get pounded by a gigantic cock until I can't see straight and sometimes I want to suck on a girl's clit until she's hoarse from screaming.
22. I recently discovered that I'm just not polyamorous. I wish I were, but it's simply not in my nature. I had to end a great relationship because of this and I'm still upset about it.
23. The daily medication I need to function seriously depletes my sex drive. It also screws with my ability to get wet. It's embarrassing and I hate having a lower sex drive.
24. Drunk sex is very pleasurable to me.
25. My sex motto is that nothing you do in the bedroom is wrong if it perpetuates love (and is consensual).
2. A man broke into my friend's house and raped us both when I was 17. He used a knife on and in us. It goes without saying that this was a traumatic and life-changing experience.
3. After the rape I started drinking heavily and having anonymous sex with a lot of women. I tried to use the experiences I had with them to erase the memory of being violated. It took me years to end this behavior.
4. I am proud of the fact that I triumphed over my sexual assault and am able to enjoy sex. Physical intimacy with someone I love is like therapy to me.
5. I am very sexually experienced. I stopped counting years ago, but if I were to guess I would put the number at 70 women and 20 men.
6. I don't care if people think I'm a slut because of #5; I'm happy with my sexual past and I hope everyone else is, too.
7. I like almost any and everything about sex. The things that lead up to it, the act itself, and the aftermath are all wonderful experiences.
8. I LOVE going down on girls. There are few things I enjoy more in the world than letting her ride my tongue and fingers. I'll spend hours down there if she wants me to; watching a beautiful woman come is so, so sexy.
9. Despite #8, I almost never enjoy receiving oral sex. It just doesn't do it for me. It feels fine, but rarely so much as to get me off.
10. At the same time, I can't stand it when people refuse to go down on me. I have no respect for anyone who won't. So I guess my ideal partner is someone who loves doing it, but who doesn't require it.
11. I have REALLY intense orgasms, but have never been able to multiple. I'm fine with this; one of mine is enough to turn my legs to jelly.
12. My most serious relationship lasted four years and was with a person who started out as my girlfriend and slowly became my boyfriend. I immediately and effortlessly accepted and embraced this and was with him throughout his entire transition. Now he passes effortlessly, and you can't even tell he was born female. I think the relationship left me with a bit of a FtM fetish.
13. I used to be only into women, but since going to college have found myself more and more interested in men.
14. I become a 13-year-old boy when I see breasts. They render me nearly speechless and totally retarded. Boobs might be my favorite thing in the world.
15. I've had numerous threesomes, almost all successful and fun, with no awkwardness. They've all been either FFM or all-girls. I've never been in a guy-guy-girl situation.
16. The porn that turns me on the most is all the dirty, nasty stuff I would never enjoy doing in real life. The more hardcore and depraved, the more it turns me on.
17. Until I turned 18, my biggest fantasy was to be an older woman's dirty little secret. Preferably a housewife with kids with a secret lust for young dykes.
18. The hottest sexual experience of my life was with a 30-something mother in the restaurant I worked at bussing tables. She was a belly dancer (the restaurant was middle-eastern themed) and I got wet whenever she performed. One day she shoved me into the employee bathroom and had me suck her clit. It was the sexiest thing I had ever seen or imagined in my life, especially when she came. It never happened again, and I still masturbate to the memory.
20. I love doggy-style and missionary sex. Girl on top feels great too, but it's harder to thrust.
21. Sometimes I want to get pounded by a gigantic cock until I can't see straight and sometimes I want to suck on a girl's clit until she's hoarse from screaming.
22. I recently discovered that I'm just not polyamorous. I wish I were, but it's simply not in my nature. I had to end a great relationship because of this and I'm still upset about it.
23. The daily medication I need to function seriously depletes my sex drive. It also screws with my ability to get wet. It's embarrassing and I hate having a lower sex drive.
24. Drunk sex is very pleasurable to me.
25. My sex motto is that nothing you do in the bedroom is wrong if it perpetuates love (and is consensual).
Sunday, November 21, 2010
1. I am a 20-year-old heterosexual female. I find women attractive but rarely to the same degree as boys and I've never had romantic feelings for a woman, hence the hetero part. I think labels are sometimes annoying, sometimes useful.
2. I had my first orgasm when I was about seven or so. My best friend and I used to hump things together, without thinking too much about what we were doing.
3. Over the years, I've progressed from humping things to actually touching myself and figuring out how to make myself orgasm with more and more success. Once, I thought I'd test myself, and I managed to come five times in fifteen minutes. I'm still oddly proud of that record. One of my favourite positions is where I lie on my back, pull my legs close and wrap my arms over my thighs and under my calves.
4. My first crush was really intense, unrequited, and took me years to get over. I had a lot of unnecessary angst at that age (about thirteen).
5. Technically, my first kiss was with my best friend, but I only half count it as such because there were no romantic feelings attached.
6. I've kissed one girl and five boys. I've had sex with three boys.
7. I don't feel emotionally equipped to enjoy one night stands. Maybe one day I will but I would rather fuck someone I care about and that cares about me. For me, friends with benefits is a terrible idea. I'm sure it works for some people but I do not see the point.
8. I like menstrual blood. It's not a hardcore kink (I don't really have any of those) but I like it. I've had period sex once but found myself a little disappointed that it wasn't more bloody. I think it's aesthetically pleasing and there's just something sexy about it. A big part of the appeal is about someone embracing even the "icky" parts of me. I also think there's something awesome about a bolder, prettier visual representation of my arousal.
9. My first real boyfriend was wonderful. It was the first, and only, time I've been in love. I don't really believe in the idea of "virginity" but I define it as the first time I had sex. We lasted about six months before I realised I had to end things. He no longer made any effort and it made me miserable so that was that.
10. If someone asked if I had ever cheated on someone, I would say no. However, I do think that I wandered into a slightly grey area at one point.
11. I am an incredibly emotional person. I love sex and love and all the parts in between. Most of the time, I feel content with being single because every other aspect of my life is awesome. I have a pretty good level of confidence and I don't feel any less of a person for not having someone. However, I would like a special someone.
12. So I joined a dating site. It's been pretty fun but there I haven't found anything lasting.
13. I really want to try anal sex and pegging one day. For entirely different reasons, of course.
14. I used to feel very guilty about wanting a boyfriend but I've now come to terms with that. It's not like I don't love my life and it's not like I'll take just anyone to "fill the void."
15. Intimacy, friendship, love and sex are all tied together in my head. I want it all and I won't settle for less. If I want to get off, I can do that by myself, and if I want friendship, I already have that.
16. I enjoy porn but more photography and audio. I guess I like it when there's more left up to the imagination and I guess I find photos and audio are generally more emotional. I've been investigating solo male masturbation videos lately, and they seem to do it for me. I wish there was more audio out there--I think it's so hot!
17. I really love it when I have the chance to be noisy. I love listening to my partner too, but I've always been much louder than any of my partners.
18. I feel incredibly comfortable in my own skin. I used to feel very insecure, but now I love my body.
19. I am a fairly passive lover. I guess I'm just a fairly passive person and I find it hard to make decisions that affect other people. I would like to work on that, though. I would like to ask for more of what I want.
20. I love being kissed or fucked up against a wall or being picked up. I suppose this has to do with my passive nature. I don't like pain but I do enjoy a good spanking. I also like being told what to do so long as it works the other way too and that I feel respected.
21. I really want more cunnilingus. I've had it done to me a number of times but not nearly as much as I've returned the favour. I would love to find a guy who likes getting me off and tasting me as much as I love pleasuring him.
22. That said, I love sucking cock.
23. I thought I had learned everything about my own body and tastes, but I keep getting surprised. Through my long-term boyfriend, I discovered that I can get off through my g-spot and now I can do it myself. Through another boy, I discovered I can come through PIV sex. Through the wonders of the internet, I've learnt that breathing deeply helps improve my orgasms.
24. I'm a chubby chaser. I can find any body type attractive, depending on the person, but husky boys really do it for me. There's something so hot about thick fingers, big, stubbly cheeks, chunky thighs and soft stomachs.
25. I've grown a lot through my various experiences. Emotionally, I keep getting better at letting things go and just being grateful for the experiences I have. I have faith that one day there will be a boy who's just right. In the meantime, it's self portraits, porn, dildos and discussions, here we come!
2. I had my first orgasm when I was about seven or so. My best friend and I used to hump things together, without thinking too much about what we were doing.
3. Over the years, I've progressed from humping things to actually touching myself and figuring out how to make myself orgasm with more and more success. Once, I thought I'd test myself, and I managed to come five times in fifteen minutes. I'm still oddly proud of that record. One of my favourite positions is where I lie on my back, pull my legs close and wrap my arms over my thighs and under my calves.
4. My first crush was really intense, unrequited, and took me years to get over. I had a lot of unnecessary angst at that age (about thirteen).
5. Technically, my first kiss was with my best friend, but I only half count it as such because there were no romantic feelings attached.
6. I've kissed one girl and five boys. I've had sex with three boys.
7. I don't feel emotionally equipped to enjoy one night stands. Maybe one day I will but I would rather fuck someone I care about and that cares about me. For me, friends with benefits is a terrible idea. I'm sure it works for some people but I do not see the point.
8. I like menstrual blood. It's not a hardcore kink (I don't really have any of those) but I like it. I've had period sex once but found myself a little disappointed that it wasn't more bloody. I think it's aesthetically pleasing and there's just something sexy about it. A big part of the appeal is about someone embracing even the "icky" parts of me. I also think there's something awesome about a bolder, prettier visual representation of my arousal.
9. My first real boyfriend was wonderful. It was the first, and only, time I've been in love. I don't really believe in the idea of "virginity" but I define it as the first time I had sex. We lasted about six months before I realised I had to end things. He no longer made any effort and it made me miserable so that was that.
10. If someone asked if I had ever cheated on someone, I would say no. However, I do think that I wandered into a slightly grey area at one point.
11. I am an incredibly emotional person. I love sex and love and all the parts in between. Most of the time, I feel content with being single because every other aspect of my life is awesome. I have a pretty good level of confidence and I don't feel any less of a person for not having someone. However, I would like a special someone.
12. So I joined a dating site. It's been pretty fun but there I haven't found anything lasting.
13. I really want to try anal sex and pegging one day. For entirely different reasons, of course.
14. I used to feel very guilty about wanting a boyfriend but I've now come to terms with that. It's not like I don't love my life and it's not like I'll take just anyone to "fill the void."
15. Intimacy, friendship, love and sex are all tied together in my head. I want it all and I won't settle for less. If I want to get off, I can do that by myself, and if I want friendship, I already have that.
16. I enjoy porn but more photography and audio. I guess I like it when there's more left up to the imagination and I guess I find photos and audio are generally more emotional. I've been investigating solo male masturbation videos lately, and they seem to do it for me. I wish there was more audio out there--I think it's so hot!
17. I really love it when I have the chance to be noisy. I love listening to my partner too, but I've always been much louder than any of my partners.
18. I feel incredibly comfortable in my own skin. I used to feel very insecure, but now I love my body.
19. I am a fairly passive lover. I guess I'm just a fairly passive person and I find it hard to make decisions that affect other people. I would like to work on that, though. I would like to ask for more of what I want.
20. I love being kissed or fucked up against a wall or being picked up. I suppose this has to do with my passive nature. I don't like pain but I do enjoy a good spanking. I also like being told what to do so long as it works the other way too and that I feel respected.
21. I really want more cunnilingus. I've had it done to me a number of times but not nearly as much as I've returned the favour. I would love to find a guy who likes getting me off and tasting me as much as I love pleasuring him.
22. That said, I love sucking cock.
23. I thought I had learned everything about my own body and tastes, but I keep getting surprised. Through my long-term boyfriend, I discovered that I can get off through my g-spot and now I can do it myself. Through another boy, I discovered I can come through PIV sex. Through the wonders of the internet, I've learnt that breathing deeply helps improve my orgasms.
24. I'm a chubby chaser. I can find any body type attractive, depending on the person, but husky boys really do it for me. There's something so hot about thick fingers, big, stubbly cheeks, chunky thighs and soft stomachs.
25. I've grown a lot through my various experiences. Emotionally, I keep getting better at letting things go and just being grateful for the experiences I have. I have faith that one day there will be a boy who's just right. In the meantime, it's self portraits, porn, dildos and discussions, here we come!
Wednesday, November 10, 2010
1. I am a 34-year-old bi-curious woman. I have only been in romantic relationships with men, so I'm reluctant to call myself bisexual, but I am very sexually attracted to women. I am not PC, and I secretly hate all the PC terms for gender and sexuality. I am respectful, though; I will go along with what people prefer to be called.
2. The kinkiest thing I have ever done is pee in a guy's mouth. I got performance anxiety and had a hard time getting started, but once I did, it gushed into his mouth, and he swallowed. We both really enjoyed it.
3. My clit is so sensitive that it is very painful if someone touches it directly. It has to be touched through my hood. My urethra is also extremely sensitive and hurts if it is touched the wrong way.
4. I used to be able to come fairly easily in most positions either by myself or with a partner. A few years ago I went through a period of time where I could hardly come at all. Now it's difficult for me to come when I'm with a partner, and I usually need to be lying flat on my back with my legs straight down for it to happen. I can sometimes come in other positions with a vibrator, but it takes a while. This really bothers me, and I wish it were different, but I'm too lazy to work with myself and relearn how to come in other positions. When I'm with a partner, I have to focus really hard to come, and the closer I get, the quieter and more still I get. Sometimes partners are confused by this.
5. When I masturbate I almost always make myself come as quickly as possible. I start with grand ideas of teasing myself and prolonging my orgasm, but as soon as I get started, I get greedy and want to come right away. The most I've ever come in one session masturbating is five times. The most I've ever come with a partner is twice.
6. I fantasize almost exclusively about fucking women and making them come. For porn to get me off it has to show women having real orgasms. I like amateur and realistic stuff - girl on girl and girls masturbating - the best.
7. I currently have intense sexual crushes on two of my female friends. One of them would probably have sex with me, but I'm too intimidated and shy to make the first move, and I don't think she will initiate, although she likes to flirt with me and tease me.
8. I am submissive and like pain during sex. I have a high pain tolerance. I like being slapped, punched, grabbed, bitten, choked, and having my hair pulled. I also like being dominated, degraded, and feeling used. My favorite thing to be called is a dirty little slut. I love having marks left on me after sex. Once I got a hickey right on the front of my neck the night before I had to go to a wedding. I went to the MAC store and got them to cover it up for me.
9. I once met a bisexual guy off Craigslist in a parking lot, followed him to his male friend's house, watched the two of them have sex, and then joined in. I got to suck a dick and be fucked in the pussy at the same time. I still stay in touch with the guy and hook up with him every now and then.
10. My ex-boyfriend got another girl pregnant while we were together. After we broke up, I had two threesomes with the two of them when she was 8 months pregnant. It was very hot but way too emotionally charged. I'm good friends with her now, but it's a strange relationship peppered with jealousy and mild animosity. I'm still dying to fuck my ex again, and I know I could easily do it, but I also know it would be terrible for all of us and would ruin my relationship with her.
11. The hottest moment of my life was during a MFF threesome with my ex while we were still together. I was eating her out, and he was fucking me from behind. They both came at the same time. I felt like such a stud.
12. The most uninhibited I've ever been during sex was when another ex-boyfriend used to fuck me in the ass. I couldn't believe the things that would come out of my mouth, and I'd have the best orgasms ever. When I was a teenager masturbating, if I stuck my finger in my ass, it would make me come right away. It doesn't do that for me anymore. Now I really have to be in the mood for anal, and I go through long periods of time where I don't feel like doing it.
13. I am very attractive, and guys check me out all the time. In some ways this makes me self-conscious and uncomfortable, but if it stopped happening, I'd be bummed. Despite being checked out all the time, guys rarely hit on me or ask me out. I am aloof and intimidating and awkward and shy.
14. When I first started masturbating in my early teens I did it every night, but then I went to boarding school and had a roommate, and I stopped. I think this really interfered with my sexual development.
15. Every few months or so I have a sex dream that makes me have an orgasm in my sleep.
16. I wish a lot of things were different about my sexuality. I wish I had a higher sex drive. I wish I were one of those girls who could come easily any time and in any position. I wish I were very flirtatious and could pick up guys or girls anytime I wanted. I wish my clit and urethra weren't so sensitive. I wish my sexuality wasn't so tied in with my stress and emotions. My fantasy is that when I meet the right partner, I'll magically be cured of all my sexual problems.
17. I want to fuck a pre-op MtF transsexual. I think it would be so hot. I had a dream once that I was being fucked by a female coworker of mine, and she had a dick.
18. I had abortions when I was 22 and 25. Despite years of therapy and working through my feelings, I still regret them and hate myself for succumbing to pressure from others to have them. I think this has had a major negative impact on my sexuality today, but I feel hopeless about fixing it.
19. I learned a lot about sex from the Clan of the Cave Bear series when I was a preteen. I used to get so turned on reading the sex scenes in those books. Now reading erotica does almost nothing for me.
20. The smell of a guy's armpit is super sexy to me. I like natural body odors and tastes. I used to hate any artificial scents, but my ex used Old Spice deodorant, so now the smell of that turns me on. I also love the smell of heads.
21. I love the idea of group sex, orgies, and swinging, but I am afraid I am too shy to actually do them. I hope to have a partner someday who will encourage me and help me open up.
22. I have had my heart broken or been terribly let down by all of my serious boyfriends. I have the same pattern with my dad. I worry that I won't ever be attracted to a man who won't treat me like this.
23. I read sex blogs incessantly. I got to meet the author of my favorite sex blog, and we hit it off right away. I hooked up with her partner (they have an open relationship), and hopefully we'll all have great threesome sex the next time we see each other.
24. I get really turned on hanging out with groups of guys, the raunchier the better. All that testosterone gets me going. I wish I could be a fly on the wall and know how guys really talk about women when there's no woman in the room. I love girl-watching with guys. I love everything about the way men crave, objectify, and worship women.
25. I love the idea of exploring intimate lovemaking and intense BDSM, but I am also terrified of them and have rarely allowed myself to go there even with long-term partners. Trust and intimacy are really hard for me. I'm more comfortable having casual sex with someone than with dating them.
2. The kinkiest thing I have ever done is pee in a guy's mouth. I got performance anxiety and had a hard time getting started, but once I did, it gushed into his mouth, and he swallowed. We both really enjoyed it.
3. My clit is so sensitive that it is very painful if someone touches it directly. It has to be touched through my hood. My urethra is also extremely sensitive and hurts if it is touched the wrong way.
4. I used to be able to come fairly easily in most positions either by myself or with a partner. A few years ago I went through a period of time where I could hardly come at all. Now it's difficult for me to come when I'm with a partner, and I usually need to be lying flat on my back with my legs straight down for it to happen. I can sometimes come in other positions with a vibrator, but it takes a while. This really bothers me, and I wish it were different, but I'm too lazy to work with myself and relearn how to come in other positions. When I'm with a partner, I have to focus really hard to come, and the closer I get, the quieter and more still I get. Sometimes partners are confused by this.
5. When I masturbate I almost always make myself come as quickly as possible. I start with grand ideas of teasing myself and prolonging my orgasm, but as soon as I get started, I get greedy and want to come right away. The most I've ever come in one session masturbating is five times. The most I've ever come with a partner is twice.
6. I fantasize almost exclusively about fucking women and making them come. For porn to get me off it has to show women having real orgasms. I like amateur and realistic stuff - girl on girl and girls masturbating - the best.
7. I currently have intense sexual crushes on two of my female friends. One of them would probably have sex with me, but I'm too intimidated and shy to make the first move, and I don't think she will initiate, although she likes to flirt with me and tease me.
8. I am submissive and like pain during sex. I have a high pain tolerance. I like being slapped, punched, grabbed, bitten, choked, and having my hair pulled. I also like being dominated, degraded, and feeling used. My favorite thing to be called is a dirty little slut. I love having marks left on me after sex. Once I got a hickey right on the front of my neck the night before I had to go to a wedding. I went to the MAC store and got them to cover it up for me.
9. I once met a bisexual guy off Craigslist in a parking lot, followed him to his male friend's house, watched the two of them have sex, and then joined in. I got to suck a dick and be fucked in the pussy at the same time. I still stay in touch with the guy and hook up with him every now and then.
10. My ex-boyfriend got another girl pregnant while we were together. After we broke up, I had two threesomes with the two of them when she was 8 months pregnant. It was very hot but way too emotionally charged. I'm good friends with her now, but it's a strange relationship peppered with jealousy and mild animosity. I'm still dying to fuck my ex again, and I know I could easily do it, but I also know it would be terrible for all of us and would ruin my relationship with her.
11. The hottest moment of my life was during a MFF threesome with my ex while we were still together. I was eating her out, and he was fucking me from behind. They both came at the same time. I felt like such a stud.
12. The most uninhibited I've ever been during sex was when another ex-boyfriend used to fuck me in the ass. I couldn't believe the things that would come out of my mouth, and I'd have the best orgasms ever. When I was a teenager masturbating, if I stuck my finger in my ass, it would make me come right away. It doesn't do that for me anymore. Now I really have to be in the mood for anal, and I go through long periods of time where I don't feel like doing it.
13. I am very attractive, and guys check me out all the time. In some ways this makes me self-conscious and uncomfortable, but if it stopped happening, I'd be bummed. Despite being checked out all the time, guys rarely hit on me or ask me out. I am aloof and intimidating and awkward and shy.
14. When I first started masturbating in my early teens I did it every night, but then I went to boarding school and had a roommate, and I stopped. I think this really interfered with my sexual development.
15. Every few months or so I have a sex dream that makes me have an orgasm in my sleep.
16. I wish a lot of things were different about my sexuality. I wish I had a higher sex drive. I wish I were one of those girls who could come easily any time and in any position. I wish I were very flirtatious and could pick up guys or girls anytime I wanted. I wish my clit and urethra weren't so sensitive. I wish my sexuality wasn't so tied in with my stress and emotions. My fantasy is that when I meet the right partner, I'll magically be cured of all my sexual problems.
17. I want to fuck a pre-op MtF transsexual. I think it would be so hot. I had a dream once that I was being fucked by a female coworker of mine, and she had a dick.
18. I had abortions when I was 22 and 25. Despite years of therapy and working through my feelings, I still regret them and hate myself for succumbing to pressure from others to have them. I think this has had a major negative impact on my sexuality today, but I feel hopeless about fixing it.
19. I learned a lot about sex from the Clan of the Cave Bear series when I was a preteen. I used to get so turned on reading the sex scenes in those books. Now reading erotica does almost nothing for me.
20. The smell of a guy's armpit is super sexy to me. I like natural body odors and tastes. I used to hate any artificial scents, but my ex used Old Spice deodorant, so now the smell of that turns me on. I also love the smell of heads.
21. I love the idea of group sex, orgies, and swinging, but I am afraid I am too shy to actually do them. I hope to have a partner someday who will encourage me and help me open up.
22. I have had my heart broken or been terribly let down by all of my serious boyfriends. I have the same pattern with my dad. I worry that I won't ever be attracted to a man who won't treat me like this.
23. I read sex blogs incessantly. I got to meet the author of my favorite sex blog, and we hit it off right away. I hooked up with her partner (they have an open relationship), and hopefully we'll all have great threesome sex the next time we see each other.
24. I get really turned on hanging out with groups of guys, the raunchier the better. All that testosterone gets me going. I wish I could be a fly on the wall and know how guys really talk about women when there's no woman in the room. I love girl-watching with guys. I love everything about the way men crave, objectify, and worship women.
25. I love the idea of exploring intimate lovemaking and intense BDSM, but I am also terrified of them and have rarely allowed myself to go there even with long-term partners. Trust and intimacy are really hard for me. I'm more comfortable having casual sex with someone than with dating them.
Tuesday, November 9, 2010
1. Before I start any of this, I tend to keep my sexuality intensely private. I am ashamed of almost all of it to varying degrees, with the exception of my one committed relationship. If you're reading this stuff and it starts to sound too familiar, like you might know me, please skip on to the next one. I don't think I could deal with any friends or family finding this stuff out.
2. I'm a 21-year-old male-bodied bi-gender person. I've only had one sexual partner in my life, although I did finger one girl before that. It didn't last long, though, and I didn't feel anything.
3. The girl who I lost my virginity with is easily one of the hottest women I've ever seen. When I'm around her I tend to think about sex, although I think about sex a lot anyway.
4. We stopped having sex a while back and we're in a rough patch right now. The lack of sex really makes it hard for me to feel like there's a deep connection.
5. Sex is intensely emotional and personal for me. That kind of physical closeness to somebody is amazing, and it makes me really feel like they accept me and my body.
6. I hate my body. A lot of the time I forget what my face looks like. I'm fairly flabby and most of my features I just don't like at all. It's still a mystery to me that that girl found me attractive in the first place.
7. Although I am bi-gendered and don't plan on getting any kind of sexual reassignment surgery, I feel like it would have made so, so much more sense for me to have been born female.
8. I generally prefer the company of women by a lot, probably because they always seem to be way more accepting of my being bi-gendered. I feel like I can just be female around them if I want to. It also makes flirting really fun and easy.
9. My first serious girlfriend helped me crossdress on more than one occasion. It meant so much to me and, when I was all crossdressed, things really felt right. I still couldn't stand my body, but at least I could look how I wanted to in some way.
10. She let me borrow her high heels to go to my school's homecoming one year. I tried to hide them all night, but I never took them off. To this day I am absolutely amazed I did that.
11. Because I grew up as a guy and I was weird anyway--I got picked on a whole lot and became suicidal when I was really young, around 9--I became hyper-masculine in a lot of ways. I haven't cried for 9 years, but I cried all the time when I was a little kid.
12. I still can't bring myself to refer to myself as a girl, even when I'm feeling intensely female. I'm still really scared of it. I wish someone else would do it, though, because I would feel so legitimated. I don't want to tell anyone that.
13. I desperately want to dress as a woman many days, and the fact that I can't kills me. I'm afraid of so much, including violence, lack of employment and being disowned by my family.
14. Part of the reason I'm so scared is that when I came out to my parents my mom said it felt like a death to her. My biological dad was speed-addicted and abusive to her and I was never close to my stepdad until recently, so hearing that devastated me. I came out to her about it when I was 17 and didn't start identifying as queer again until I was almost 21. I'm still afraid to give her the full story and I can't stand the thought of my parents knowing. They are normally liberal people, but neither of my parents--especially my mom--understands what it means to be queer or how it affects me.
15. I think I might be attracted to men. For most of my life I thought I was totally straight but recently I keep seeing more guys and being struck by just how hot they are. I can't imagine anything sexual, but I can imagine being held by them and maybe kissing.
16. Although I'm generally far outside of the mainstream in my tastes in music or movies and I don't ever hang out with these types of people, I do see myself dressing and being a lot like the sorority girl type. There are a lot of them around my campus and, even though they get annoying sometimes, I wish I could be one of them.
17. I can't stand watching sex between anybody. The image of any kind of sex to me is just disgusting, especially straight sex. I've never seen gay male sex, but it still seems like it would be really unpleasant.
18. Because of that, I've never watched porn. I've watched videos of people stripping, but never of sex.
19. I love looking at pornographic pictures on the internet but only ever softcore stuff. I look at this stuff constantly.
20. I masturbate at least once a day. I am totally ashamed of it.
21. I didn't masturbate till I was either 16 or 17. Before that I just got a lot of very embarrassing wet dreams. When I did finally do it, it was because I was crossdressing with a weird-smelling pair of panties I found at a Goodwill (not dirty-smelling, but just that Goodwill sort of smell.) They were pretty ugly. I was trying to stuff my dick in between my legs but it was tricky, so I just kept pushing it back. Eventually I finally came. I was unbelievably ashamed and this is the first time I've ever told the whole story. Since then it's almost been an addiction.
22. I read a huge amount of gender transformation erotica. I've looked at it all over the internet and nothing gets me so horny. The idea of getting turned into a girl--particularly the process of getting a pair of boobs--is ridiculously hot to me.
23. It's even hotter when there's a mental transformation to the air-headed bimbo type of girl. I would love to somehow forcibly be turned into some giggly, dumb blonde girl with a really bimbo-ish voice. Part of this is probably that I pride myself on my intelligence and I really tend to excel in academics. It's sort of like people in power wanting to be the submissive partner in S&M. The process of crossdressing--putting on the clothes and all that--is also really hot to me.
24. Being female--as in actually dressing like a girl and letting myself be a girl--is really non-sexual for me. It just feels really nice and comfortable. However, I would really, really love to be dominated as a girl.
25. A lot of my friends are guys and I don't feel totally comfortable around them because I think they'd be really freaked out by me presenting as female.
2. I'm a 21-year-old male-bodied bi-gender person. I've only had one sexual partner in my life, although I did finger one girl before that. It didn't last long, though, and I didn't feel anything.
3. The girl who I lost my virginity with is easily one of the hottest women I've ever seen. When I'm around her I tend to think about sex, although I think about sex a lot anyway.
4. We stopped having sex a while back and we're in a rough patch right now. The lack of sex really makes it hard for me to feel like there's a deep connection.
5. Sex is intensely emotional and personal for me. That kind of physical closeness to somebody is amazing, and it makes me really feel like they accept me and my body.
6. I hate my body. A lot of the time I forget what my face looks like. I'm fairly flabby and most of my features I just don't like at all. It's still a mystery to me that that girl found me attractive in the first place.
7. Although I am bi-gendered and don't plan on getting any kind of sexual reassignment surgery, I feel like it would have made so, so much more sense for me to have been born female.
8. I generally prefer the company of women by a lot, probably because they always seem to be way more accepting of my being bi-gendered. I feel like I can just be female around them if I want to. It also makes flirting really fun and easy.
9. My first serious girlfriend helped me crossdress on more than one occasion. It meant so much to me and, when I was all crossdressed, things really felt right. I still couldn't stand my body, but at least I could look how I wanted to in some way.
10. She let me borrow her high heels to go to my school's homecoming one year. I tried to hide them all night, but I never took them off. To this day I am absolutely amazed I did that.
11. Because I grew up as a guy and I was weird anyway--I got picked on a whole lot and became suicidal when I was really young, around 9--I became hyper-masculine in a lot of ways. I haven't cried for 9 years, but I cried all the time when I was a little kid.
12. I still can't bring myself to refer to myself as a girl, even when I'm feeling intensely female. I'm still really scared of it. I wish someone else would do it, though, because I would feel so legitimated. I don't want to tell anyone that.
13. I desperately want to dress as a woman many days, and the fact that I can't kills me. I'm afraid of so much, including violence, lack of employment and being disowned by my family.
14. Part of the reason I'm so scared is that when I came out to my parents my mom said it felt like a death to her. My biological dad was speed-addicted and abusive to her and I was never close to my stepdad until recently, so hearing that devastated me. I came out to her about it when I was 17 and didn't start identifying as queer again until I was almost 21. I'm still afraid to give her the full story and I can't stand the thought of my parents knowing. They are normally liberal people, but neither of my parents--especially my mom--understands what it means to be queer or how it affects me.
15. I think I might be attracted to men. For most of my life I thought I was totally straight but recently I keep seeing more guys and being struck by just how hot they are. I can't imagine anything sexual, but I can imagine being held by them and maybe kissing.
16. Although I'm generally far outside of the mainstream in my tastes in music or movies and I don't ever hang out with these types of people, I do see myself dressing and being a lot like the sorority girl type. There are a lot of them around my campus and, even though they get annoying sometimes, I wish I could be one of them.
17. I can't stand watching sex between anybody. The image of any kind of sex to me is just disgusting, especially straight sex. I've never seen gay male sex, but it still seems like it would be really unpleasant.
18. Because of that, I've never watched porn. I've watched videos of people stripping, but never of sex.
19. I love looking at pornographic pictures on the internet but only ever softcore stuff. I look at this stuff constantly.
20. I masturbate at least once a day. I am totally ashamed of it.
21. I didn't masturbate till I was either 16 or 17. Before that I just got a lot of very embarrassing wet dreams. When I did finally do it, it was because I was crossdressing with a weird-smelling pair of panties I found at a Goodwill (not dirty-smelling, but just that Goodwill sort of smell.) They were pretty ugly. I was trying to stuff my dick in between my legs but it was tricky, so I just kept pushing it back. Eventually I finally came. I was unbelievably ashamed and this is the first time I've ever told the whole story. Since then it's almost been an addiction.
22. I read a huge amount of gender transformation erotica. I've looked at it all over the internet and nothing gets me so horny. The idea of getting turned into a girl--particularly the process of getting a pair of boobs--is ridiculously hot to me.
23. It's even hotter when there's a mental transformation to the air-headed bimbo type of girl. I would love to somehow forcibly be turned into some giggly, dumb blonde girl with a really bimbo-ish voice. Part of this is probably that I pride myself on my intelligence and I really tend to excel in academics. It's sort of like people in power wanting to be the submissive partner in S&M. The process of crossdressing--putting on the clothes and all that--is also really hot to me.
24. Being female--as in actually dressing like a girl and letting myself be a girl--is really non-sexual for me. It just feels really nice and comfortable. However, I would really, really love to be dominated as a girl.
25. A lot of my friends are guys and I don't feel totally comfortable around them because I think they'd be really freaked out by me presenting as female.
Monday, November 8, 2010
1. I am a married 37-year-old male and I have a reasonably good sex life with my wife (2-3 times a week). She is the best sexual partner that I have ever had.
2. I have cheated on my wife a couple of times, but never anything as far as intercourse.
3. The last woman that I cheated with gave me the best blowjob of my life. The first woman that I cheated with... I spent about an hour photographing her while she was nude; she then asked me to feel how wet she was, so I slid two fingers inside her (she was very wet) -- nothing else happened beyond that. Afterwards, she complained that I didn't pull out my cock and jerk off while photographing her.
4. My wife has an orgasm 95% of the time that we have sex. Apparently, my cock swells just before I have an orgasm and she really likes the feeling. I have tried to fake orgasms and I have tried to hide the fact that I was about to have an orgasm -- and she can tell every time. I rarely can get my wife to orgasm any other way (and I've tried!)
5. I lost my virginity when I was 17. I was fooling around with a slightly older but MUCH more experienced woman. She got so horny that she begged me to fuck her, which I did without a condom. My brother came home about 10 minutes after we started having sex, so we went elsewhere and finished on a deserted road in my car.
6. My first sexual partner was basically a series of one-night stands. We had sex a half-dozen times, most of which involved her cheating on a long-distance boyfriend. She said that I was better in bed than him, but I think that it was simply because I was so nervous that it took me a long time to get off, giving her the illusion that I had tremendous stamina.
7. I now can almost completely control how long it takes me to have an orgasm (except in the morning, when it always takes me a long time). I can get off in 30 seconds or 60 minutes, whichever you prefer.
8. My ex-wife claimed that I took her virginity but I don't believe her and I never did -- and not because her hymen had already been broken (at the time, it just seemed like she was lying). For about 5 years, that was the only time that I assumed that she was lying. Eventually, I learned that she lied to me almost all of the time (including with cheating on me with several different guys).
9. I enjoy watching porn so much that I sometimes think that I am addicted to it. I particularly like amateur porn in which the woman is very vocal and has an orgasm. I am almost completely unaffected by solo porn, gay porn, lesbian porn, or porn with high production values in which the actors are clearly acting.
10. I really love performing oral sex on a woman. I love the taste and the smell and the subtle motions that her body makes as she enjoys the experience.
11. Although my cock isn't quite 6 inches long, it is thick. None of my partners have complained about it being too small and one of them complained that it was too big. My wife claims that mine is the only cock that has ever gotten her off.
12. I think that my current wife cheats on me when she travels for work. I am almost certain that she is planning to meet one of her ex-boyfriends for sex within the next year. I'm not sure that I care as long as the rest of our relationship is fine.
13. The best orgasm of my life happened when I was grinding on my girlfriend when I was 27. She was a virgin and she had declared that she was waiting until she got married to have sex. We had spent the entire day making out and I was ridiculously horny. I came so hard and so much that it scared me -- it literally felt like I was peeing instead of coming.
14. I average about one orgasm every day. If I skip a day, then I'll usually get off twice the next day. If I get off twice in one day, then I'll skip the next day.
15. I once had sex five times in one day. My then-girlfriend tried to wake me up for a sixth time, but I refused. This still bothers me because one of my fantasies is to be woken up for sex.
16. I have been in love four times -- both of my wives, the girlfriend from #15, and the virgin from #13.
17. Although I am turned on by the thought of receiving oral sex, it's actually rare that I can get off while receiving a blow job (and it usually takes a long time).
18. I once went skinny dipping on a first (blind) date. She was clearly very attracted to me and I wanted to see how far she'd go. While driving to the lake, she declared that she wasn't going to fuck me -- though I am certain that she would have if I had tried. Although we fooled around a few more times after that first date, we never had intercourse. I refused to sleep with her (i.e,. actual slumber) and she refused to have intercourse if I didn't stay the night.
19. I received a blow job from the best friend of my girlfriend from #15.
20. I cheated on my most recent girlfriend before meeting my current wife. We had broken up temporarily, so I started looking for dates via the internet. After we got back together, one of my internet acquaintances invited me over for a night of NSA sex and I accepted.
21. I had sex with the woman from #20 another couple of times after breaking up with my girlfriend and it was awful each time. One time, it literally hurt (for reasons that I do not understand).
22. My current wife is the only person with whom I have had anal sex. The first time, she did it without telling me because she wanted it and I had previously refused. I have had anal sex with her a half-dozen times since then and I enjoy it although she doesn't anymore.
23. I have had sex with my wife several times in public places where we could get caught. The most dangerous was the middle of the day, just off of a busy hiking trail in a state park. The most recent time was on a dock on a lake, at night, during a meteor shower.
24. When I was younger, I used to shoot come 5 to 10 times when having an orgasm. Now, I mostly just dribble out a small amount of come -- this disappoints me greatly.
25. I regret not exploring sex more with the girlfriend from #20. She loved to swallow; she was bisexual and interested in threesomes; and she clearly would have tried anything that I requested. For some reason, we mostly had vanilla sex.
2. I have cheated on my wife a couple of times, but never anything as far as intercourse.
3. The last woman that I cheated with gave me the best blowjob of my life. The first woman that I cheated with... I spent about an hour photographing her while she was nude; she then asked me to feel how wet she was, so I slid two fingers inside her (she was very wet) -- nothing else happened beyond that. Afterwards, she complained that I didn't pull out my cock and jerk off while photographing her.
4. My wife has an orgasm 95% of the time that we have sex. Apparently, my cock swells just before I have an orgasm and she really likes the feeling. I have tried to fake orgasms and I have tried to hide the fact that I was about to have an orgasm -- and she can tell every time. I rarely can get my wife to orgasm any other way (and I've tried!)
5. I lost my virginity when I was 17. I was fooling around with a slightly older but MUCH more experienced woman. She got so horny that she begged me to fuck her, which I did without a condom. My brother came home about 10 minutes after we started having sex, so we went elsewhere and finished on a deserted road in my car.
6. My first sexual partner was basically a series of one-night stands. We had sex a half-dozen times, most of which involved her cheating on a long-distance boyfriend. She said that I was better in bed than him, but I think that it was simply because I was so nervous that it took me a long time to get off, giving her the illusion that I had tremendous stamina.
7. I now can almost completely control how long it takes me to have an orgasm (except in the morning, when it always takes me a long time). I can get off in 30 seconds or 60 minutes, whichever you prefer.
8. My ex-wife claimed that I took her virginity but I don't believe her and I never did -- and not because her hymen had already been broken (at the time, it just seemed like she was lying). For about 5 years, that was the only time that I assumed that she was lying. Eventually, I learned that she lied to me almost all of the time (including with cheating on me with several different guys).
9. I enjoy watching porn so much that I sometimes think that I am addicted to it. I particularly like amateur porn in which the woman is very vocal and has an orgasm. I am almost completely unaffected by solo porn, gay porn, lesbian porn, or porn with high production values in which the actors are clearly acting.
10. I really love performing oral sex on a woman. I love the taste and the smell and the subtle motions that her body makes as she enjoys the experience.
11. Although my cock isn't quite 6 inches long, it is thick. None of my partners have complained about it being too small and one of them complained that it was too big. My wife claims that mine is the only cock that has ever gotten her off.
12. I think that my current wife cheats on me when she travels for work. I am almost certain that she is planning to meet one of her ex-boyfriends for sex within the next year. I'm not sure that I care as long as the rest of our relationship is fine.
13. The best orgasm of my life happened when I was grinding on my girlfriend when I was 27. She was a virgin and she had declared that she was waiting until she got married to have sex. We had spent the entire day making out and I was ridiculously horny. I came so hard and so much that it scared me -- it literally felt like I was peeing instead of coming.
14. I average about one orgasm every day. If I skip a day, then I'll usually get off twice the next day. If I get off twice in one day, then I'll skip the next day.
15. I once had sex five times in one day. My then-girlfriend tried to wake me up for a sixth time, but I refused. This still bothers me because one of my fantasies is to be woken up for sex.
16. I have been in love four times -- both of my wives, the girlfriend from #15, and the virgin from #13.
17. Although I am turned on by the thought of receiving oral sex, it's actually rare that I can get off while receiving a blow job (and it usually takes a long time).
18. I once went skinny dipping on a first (blind) date. She was clearly very attracted to me and I wanted to see how far she'd go. While driving to the lake, she declared that she wasn't going to fuck me -- though I am certain that she would have if I had tried. Although we fooled around a few more times after that first date, we never had intercourse. I refused to sleep with her (i.e,. actual slumber) and she refused to have intercourse if I didn't stay the night.
19. I received a blow job from the best friend of my girlfriend from #15.
20. I cheated on my most recent girlfriend before meeting my current wife. We had broken up temporarily, so I started looking for dates via the internet. After we got back together, one of my internet acquaintances invited me over for a night of NSA sex and I accepted.
21. I had sex with the woman from #20 another couple of times after breaking up with my girlfriend and it was awful each time. One time, it literally hurt (for reasons that I do not understand).
22. My current wife is the only person with whom I have had anal sex. The first time, she did it without telling me because she wanted it and I had previously refused. I have had anal sex with her a half-dozen times since then and I enjoy it although she doesn't anymore.
23. I have had sex with my wife several times in public places where we could get caught. The most dangerous was the middle of the day, just off of a busy hiking trail in a state park. The most recent time was on a dock on a lake, at night, during a meteor shower.
24. When I was younger, I used to shoot come 5 to 10 times when having an orgasm. Now, I mostly just dribble out a small amount of come -- this disappoints me greatly.
25. I regret not exploring sex more with the girlfriend from #20. She loved to swallow; she was bisexual and interested in threesomes; and she clearly would have tried anything that I requested. For some reason, we mostly had vanilla sex.
Sunday, November 7, 2010
1. I identify as a lesbian. I am going to marry a man. I find no fault with this.
2. I love my body more and more every day thanks to all the beautiful sex-positive blogs out there, my loving fiancee, and all the straight girls that have developed crushes on me.
3. I have had sex while on acid. It was the most glorious, emotional, heart-wrenching, life-changing orgasm I have ever had.
4. My fiancé and I had our first simultaneous orgasm last night.
5. I love being spanked, having my hair pulled, being bitten, and being fucked so hard I can barely stand it. I like pain, it's wonderful.
6. I believe that sex is a very magical, powerful thing. I wish I knew more and more about carnal alchemy.
7. I used to be very quiet and reserved, and I never said what I wanted in bed. Now, I scream so loud you'd swear I woke up the neighbors.
8. I love my vagina. It's warm and comforting and beautiful. I can't wait till it is a home for my children.
9. I thought that my "gaydar" only worked on women, but now I just think that I have some kind of magic that makes women fall for me.
10. My parents were very proactive in my early sex life, informing me and helping me understand that I had options. I am able to have very healthy sexual and emotional relationships because of this.
11. I don't know if I'm polyamorous. I don't think I want to have multiple intimate relationships, I think I just want to have sex with women as well as my fiancé.
12. Sometimes I wish I could be tied up all day waiting for someone to come home and punish me.
13. I like having my face fucked sometimes. It makes me very very wet.
14. It has taken me a long time to get over the word "slut" and other such things. As time goes on I become more accepting of everyone's sexual choices and in turn it is easier for me to be OK with my own.
15. I don't really enjoy anal sex. I enjoy the idea that I am OK with the idea though.
16. I wish I had taken advantage of the situations in which I could have had lasting relationships or sex with certain people up to now. The only reason I didn't then was because I had all these reservations of right and wrong.
17. Freckles will be my downfall.
18. I strive for ejaculation. If I could squirt I think I could die happy.
19. If I ever were to be polyamorous, I don't think I could be comfortable with it until I was comfortable with the idea of my fiancé with other women too, regardless of whether he would want to be with them or not.
20. I still have reservations about him looking at porn, but only because it makes me feel inadequate. I know it's stupid, but I have a mental block about it. It is slowly coming down, though.
21. I have become the token lesbian in my circle of friends, i think.
22. I want to paint a portrait of my vagina.
23. I think ball-gags are incredibly erotic.
24. I like having sex in places other than my bedroom because its' sneaky and reminds of me being a teenager and being ever-so-excited that I was making out with ANYONE. It brings back that excitement and that wetness.
25. My ass is huge, round, and perfect.
2. I love my body more and more every day thanks to all the beautiful sex-positive blogs out there, my loving fiancee, and all the straight girls that have developed crushes on me.
3. I have had sex while on acid. It was the most glorious, emotional, heart-wrenching, life-changing orgasm I have ever had.
4. My fiancé and I had our first simultaneous orgasm last night.
5. I love being spanked, having my hair pulled, being bitten, and being fucked so hard I can barely stand it. I like pain, it's wonderful.
6. I believe that sex is a very magical, powerful thing. I wish I knew more and more about carnal alchemy.
7. I used to be very quiet and reserved, and I never said what I wanted in bed. Now, I scream so loud you'd swear I woke up the neighbors.
8. I love my vagina. It's warm and comforting and beautiful. I can't wait till it is a home for my children.
9. I thought that my "gaydar" only worked on women, but now I just think that I have some kind of magic that makes women fall for me.
10. My parents were very proactive in my early sex life, informing me and helping me understand that I had options. I am able to have very healthy sexual and emotional relationships because of this.
11. I don't know if I'm polyamorous. I don't think I want to have multiple intimate relationships, I think I just want to have sex with women as well as my fiancé.
12. Sometimes I wish I could be tied up all day waiting for someone to come home and punish me.
13. I like having my face fucked sometimes. It makes me very very wet.
14. It has taken me a long time to get over the word "slut" and other such things. As time goes on I become more accepting of everyone's sexual choices and in turn it is easier for me to be OK with my own.
15. I don't really enjoy anal sex. I enjoy the idea that I am OK with the idea though.
16. I wish I had taken advantage of the situations in which I could have had lasting relationships or sex with certain people up to now. The only reason I didn't then was because I had all these reservations of right and wrong.
17. Freckles will be my downfall.
18. I strive for ejaculation. If I could squirt I think I could die happy.
19. If I ever were to be polyamorous, I don't think I could be comfortable with it until I was comfortable with the idea of my fiancé with other women too, regardless of whether he would want to be with them or not.
20. I still have reservations about him looking at porn, but only because it makes me feel inadequate. I know it's stupid, but I have a mental block about it. It is slowly coming down, though.
21. I have become the token lesbian in my circle of friends, i think.
22. I want to paint a portrait of my vagina.
23. I think ball-gags are incredibly erotic.
24. I like having sex in places other than my bedroom because its' sneaky and reminds of me being a teenager and being ever-so-excited that I was making out with ANYONE. It brings back that excitement and that wetness.
25. My ass is huge, round, and perfect.
Friday, November 5, 2010
1. I'm a 26-year-old bio female in a relationship with a bi-ish man.
2. Before I met him I described myself as sorta bi, or simply declined to advertise. Now I know my orientation can best be described as submissive. I like to be fucked. The shape of the person doing the fucking is less important than their qualities as a human being.
3. I like loud, aggressive sex. Biting, hair-pulling, being tossed around like a doll, being told what to do.
4. I really like getting tied up and blindfolded.
5. Last summer, when I still thought of myself as a switch, I considered dating a bi man who was a sub. When he told me that, it was a huge turnoff and I crossed him off my list. Some time after my partner and I got together, he told me he's fucked other men. This is a huge turn-on. The difference? Boyfriend is dominant. Dominance (without arrogance) turns me on in a big way.
6. I've dabbled in consensual nonmonogamy but wouldn't do it again.
7. That being said, if this relationship turns out to be very long term, I wouldn't really mind occasional group play, as long as my partner and I always did it together and always went home alone at the end of the night.
8. The risk of unprotected penetrative sex really turns me on, but it's incredibly important to me that all actual penetrative sex involve condoms, at least until we're fluid-bonded and I'm using hormonal birth control.
9. I've messed around with women before and enjoyed it, but I've never been interested in one romantically and I don't expect that to change.
10. I'll probably never come out to my family as bi/queer/whatever. I'm not afraid of how they'll react. But I don't expect I'll ever have a relationship that isn't straight-appearing, and they don't need to know what I do behind closed doors.
11. Dirty text messages, emails, IMs, etc, don't interest me.
12. Until very recently I didn't much like dirty talk either.
13. I volunteer at a trans health organization and wish to make a career in same. I am utterly fascinated by the trans community and the process of transitioning. On top of that, the most physically beautiful people I've ever seen in my life are trans, and who wouldn't want to see astonishing beauty every day at work?
14. When I was 7 or 8 I played games with a female friend that I now realize involved sexual acts. We never got caught and I'm not ashamed.
15. I've been with my current partner for most of this year, and I feel firmly committed to him, at least for the foreseeable future. But something in me can't stop scoping out every attractive person in my preferred age bracket everywhere I go, and being slightly disappointed when I realize they're in a relationship or not of an orientation that works with mine.
16. I met someone online a few months before I met my partner. I was on the verge of going to meet him in person (he lives a couple hours away) when my partner and I got together. Online friend knows I'm in this relationship but continues to flirt with me from time to time. I let him, because I like the attention, and because I like telling my partner when I get hit on. It makes me feel wanted on both sides.
17. I'm rather overweight and was never attracted to skinny people until I met my last partner. He was rail-thin and dead sexy. But because of that relationship I have a hard time looking at skinny boys without feeling slightly repulsed.
18. I don't need my partners to be fastidious about hygiene, but I really can't stand BO, dirty hair, or gross toenails. If you can shower daily, wash your hair at least every couple of days, and keep your nails short, we'll be fine. I don't feel like this is too much to ask, but I have been teased and even mocked about it before.
19. I like being taken care of, to a certain extent. When I'm having a rough day, I like it when my partner offers to take care of dinner for us, or offers to help me with a chore. I don't like being treated dismissively. This is an aspect of our relationship we need to work on a little more - he sometimes thinks I'm too needy, and I sometimes think he's too much of a jerk.
20. The fact that my partner gets along well with my family and friends, and I with his, is really important to me. I don't like being that couple that ignores loved ones just because we've coupled up.
21. We don't always have frequent sex but almost every time we do, it's mind-blowingly good. Sometimes I wouldn't mind trading quality for quantity, though.
22. I can only climax once, tops, per sexual encounter. Sometimes I don't climax at all. Sometimes I don't even try, because trying to orgasm just gets in the way of the fun. Those are the best encounters, for me.
23. I like it when we mess around a little in the morning before work, just enough for us to get hot and bothered but not enough for either of us to finish. Then I think about it for the rest of the day and fantasize at bedtime. It's like a day-long sex act.
24. I very rarely think of my partner while masturbating. This has been true my whole life. Masturbating for me is a way to explore deep fantasies that my partners usually aren't even privy to.
25. My sister lives nearby and owns some very isolated land. One of my biggest fantasies is to have sex on her front lawn (while she's out of town). Partially it's because I have always wanted to have sex outside, and partially it's because of how transgressive it is to have sex on someone else's property (family no less!). My partner and I almost managed it, once, but he hurt his back shortly before and couldn't come over.
2. Before I met him I described myself as sorta bi, or simply declined to advertise. Now I know my orientation can best be described as submissive. I like to be fucked. The shape of the person doing the fucking is less important than their qualities as a human being.
3. I like loud, aggressive sex. Biting, hair-pulling, being tossed around like a doll, being told what to do.
4. I really like getting tied up and blindfolded.
5. Last summer, when I still thought of myself as a switch, I considered dating a bi man who was a sub. When he told me that, it was a huge turnoff and I crossed him off my list. Some time after my partner and I got together, he told me he's fucked other men. This is a huge turn-on. The difference? Boyfriend is dominant. Dominance (without arrogance) turns me on in a big way.
6. I've dabbled in consensual nonmonogamy but wouldn't do it again.
7. That being said, if this relationship turns out to be very long term, I wouldn't really mind occasional group play, as long as my partner and I always did it together and always went home alone at the end of the night.
8. The risk of unprotected penetrative sex really turns me on, but it's incredibly important to me that all actual penetrative sex involve condoms, at least until we're fluid-bonded and I'm using hormonal birth control.
9. I've messed around with women before and enjoyed it, but I've never been interested in one romantically and I don't expect that to change.
10. I'll probably never come out to my family as bi/queer/whatever. I'm not afraid of how they'll react. But I don't expect I'll ever have a relationship that isn't straight-appearing, and they don't need to know what I do behind closed doors.
11. Dirty text messages, emails, IMs, etc, don't interest me.
12. Until very recently I didn't much like dirty talk either.
13. I volunteer at a trans health organization and wish to make a career in same. I am utterly fascinated by the trans community and the process of transitioning. On top of that, the most physically beautiful people I've ever seen in my life are trans, and who wouldn't want to see astonishing beauty every day at work?
14. When I was 7 or 8 I played games with a female friend that I now realize involved sexual acts. We never got caught and I'm not ashamed.
15. I've been with my current partner for most of this year, and I feel firmly committed to him, at least for the foreseeable future. But something in me can't stop scoping out every attractive person in my preferred age bracket everywhere I go, and being slightly disappointed when I realize they're in a relationship or not of an orientation that works with mine.
16. I met someone online a few months before I met my partner. I was on the verge of going to meet him in person (he lives a couple hours away) when my partner and I got together. Online friend knows I'm in this relationship but continues to flirt with me from time to time. I let him, because I like the attention, and because I like telling my partner when I get hit on. It makes me feel wanted on both sides.
17. I'm rather overweight and was never attracted to skinny people until I met my last partner. He was rail-thin and dead sexy. But because of that relationship I have a hard time looking at skinny boys without feeling slightly repulsed.
18. I don't need my partners to be fastidious about hygiene, but I really can't stand BO, dirty hair, or gross toenails. If you can shower daily, wash your hair at least every couple of days, and keep your nails short, we'll be fine. I don't feel like this is too much to ask, but I have been teased and even mocked about it before.
19. I like being taken care of, to a certain extent. When I'm having a rough day, I like it when my partner offers to take care of dinner for us, or offers to help me with a chore. I don't like being treated dismissively. This is an aspect of our relationship we need to work on a little more - he sometimes thinks I'm too needy, and I sometimes think he's too much of a jerk.
20. The fact that my partner gets along well with my family and friends, and I with his, is really important to me. I don't like being that couple that ignores loved ones just because we've coupled up.
21. We don't always have frequent sex but almost every time we do, it's mind-blowingly good. Sometimes I wouldn't mind trading quality for quantity, though.
22. I can only climax once, tops, per sexual encounter. Sometimes I don't climax at all. Sometimes I don't even try, because trying to orgasm just gets in the way of the fun. Those are the best encounters, for me.
23. I like it when we mess around a little in the morning before work, just enough for us to get hot and bothered but not enough for either of us to finish. Then I think about it for the rest of the day and fantasize at bedtime. It's like a day-long sex act.
24. I very rarely think of my partner while masturbating. This has been true my whole life. Masturbating for me is a way to explore deep fantasies that my partners usually aren't even privy to.
25. My sister lives nearby and owns some very isolated land. One of my biggest fantasies is to have sex on her front lawn (while she's out of town). Partially it's because I have always wanted to have sex outside, and partially it's because of how transgressive it is to have sex on someone else's property (family no less!). My partner and I almost managed it, once, but he hurt his back shortly before and couldn't come over.
Thursday, November 4, 2010
Wednesday, November 3, 2010
1. I am a twenty-six-year-old female who is toying with the label of queer, but I generally just call myself bi. I'm also a switch and poly. I think that may be the end of my sexual identity labels, but there may be more...
2. I like both men and women, but I really do find women to be much sexier and appealing. If there is an attractive man and an attractive woman, I'll check out the woman every time.
3. I'm kinky. I love spanking, hair pulling, rough sex, BDSM of many sorts. My saying used to be, "If you don't have marks after sex, you aren't doing it right."
4. I'm a switch. I've had a Mistress, but sometimes I really just want to be mean and forceful and "take" whoever I'm with. I sometimes like the surrender of submission, but other times I want to rule my partner.
5. I'm not completely out of the closet and I have some major guilt about that, with all the stuff that's happening right now. To not be out is to not fully support the needs of the gay community, but to be out would open me up to discrimination. I'm going to be a teacher and I fear that being openly bi would get me ostracized from working opportunities, which I can't afford to let happen.
6. I've dated two trans women in my life, one who was pre-transition and the other who was mid-transition. They were both wonderful and I respected deeply the hardships they were facing. I never had trouble thinking of them as "female" and enjoyed sex with them both very much. I was occasionally troubled by being open about being with them... I feared being judged and discriminated against.
7. One of my exes was a bit of a furry. I once dressed up in ears and a fluffy fox tail for her, complete with little jingly-bell collar. I felt incredibly sexy and liberated, and I think it would be really hot to be able to do something like that again, but I'm not with anyone interested in it right now.
8. Another of my exes liked foot play. I masturbated him with my feet and he used to suck on them during sex. It was an incredibly intense sensation and I found it hot as hell. I kinda wish the guy I'm with right now was into feet...
9. I lost my virginity when I was 17 in the front seat of a Lincoln Towncar. Afterward, he bought me a fake red rose with a little bear hugging the stem. I found out later, he gave red roses when he felt guilty about something, like when he cheated on me. I still don't like red roses.
10. I've 'taken' the virginity of two people in my life, both women, one cis and one trans.
11. I still fantasize about the first cis woman I was with and wish I could have kept her in my life, even though I'm happy that she's found a life partner.
12. I really really want to date a girl again. I'm poly, but it's currently just me and him and I hunger for a woman's touch like nothing else. I don't even have the words to describe the longing I have sometimes to be with a woman.
13. Men generally bore me. I joke with my fiance that I'm only bi for his sake, otherwise it would be all girls for me. This may be why I'm beginning to think of myself as more queer than anything else...so I don't feel tied to any sort of balance of my desires.
14. I try to be incredibly open to new experiences in the bedroom. This is why, I think, I've had so many cool things happen in my love life.
15. Recently I was reading a magazine to pass the time and they had a quiz on what type of stuff you've done, would like to do, or would never do. There were only five things out of three columns and a whole page that I hadn't done. This didn't make me feel bad about myself; it made me feel bad for the women answering the quiz who had done so little and it made me feel sad that having these basic experiences was so rare that it even had to be asked if they'd been done or not.
16. I think watching two men kiss is incredibly arousing and beautiful. I also like watching man-on-man porn, especially yaoi, and reading gay erotica.
17. Wearing Axe deodorant or men's cologne, jeans and pocket tee, or things like boxers with my sports bra feel incredibly sexy to me and always get me aroused.
18. I also like wearing slinky lingerie, fancy panties, stockings, and dramatic make-up. This also always puts me in the mood.
19. Androgynous women are hot and I can never help giving them a second look. I love how bold and confident and open the look is.
20. When I get sexually aroused, I get incredibly wet. I've been known to even soak through my jeans. I think this is embarrassing as hell and it's always made me incredibly uncomfortable.
21. When I first started masturbating, it was to fantasies of being dominated and trained to be a sex slave. Abject and consumed by lust, imaginary me would fuck and suck eagerly even while claiming to hate it... and that idea always got me off.
22. The more in touch and accepting of my sexuality I get, the less I enjoy fantasies of being made to perform sexual acts. Now I just like doing what I like because I like it and when I masturbate, it's more often to images, stories, or videos of people having great sex consensually... even in the BDSM ones!
23. I've had multiple threesomes in my life... both m/m/f and f/f/f. I've also been in sexual situations with other people watching; the most memorable was when I went down on my first girl while my fiance and her boyfriend played with her breasts and watched us. The f/f/f threesome was the hardest to keep coordinated, rather like a part-sex, part diplomatic role. The m/m/f threesome was much easier, but the relations afterward were more awkward. I still really would like to have a f/f/m threesome. I'd also love to be in a threesome that involved two men who wanted to kiss and play with each other as well, even though I suspect that would be also be a bit more diplomatic.
24. I sometimes wonder if I'm not really just a lesbian and only staying in a 'straight' relationship because it's so much easier socially. I really hope that's not the case, and I really do love my fiance, but the darkest recesses of my mind torture me with it from time to time.
25. When I was in my first sexual relationship, the guy talked me into trying anal. I really liked it at first, but then when I asked him to stop because it started hurting, he finished instead. It left me feeling betrayed and hurt and scared of trying anal ever again, because I didn't feel I could be in control and trust my partner in that situation. It was only really recently that I began working on becoming okay with anal sex. My fiance and I worked on it together and eventually, by playing with each other and me playing with myself, I got to the point where not only could I enjoy anal again, but I have had some of the most mind-blowing orgasms during it, to the point where I now use toys to have anal during masturbation time.
2. I like both men and women, but I really do find women to be much sexier and appealing. If there is an attractive man and an attractive woman, I'll check out the woman every time.
3. I'm kinky. I love spanking, hair pulling, rough sex, BDSM of many sorts. My saying used to be, "If you don't have marks after sex, you aren't doing it right."
4. I'm a switch. I've had a Mistress, but sometimes I really just want to be mean and forceful and "take" whoever I'm with. I sometimes like the surrender of submission, but other times I want to rule my partner.
5. I'm not completely out of the closet and I have some major guilt about that, with all the stuff that's happening right now. To not be out is to not fully support the needs of the gay community, but to be out would open me up to discrimination. I'm going to be a teacher and I fear that being openly bi would get me ostracized from working opportunities, which I can't afford to let happen.
6. I've dated two trans women in my life, one who was pre-transition and the other who was mid-transition. They were both wonderful and I respected deeply the hardships they were facing. I never had trouble thinking of them as "female" and enjoyed sex with them both very much. I was occasionally troubled by being open about being with them... I feared being judged and discriminated against.
7. One of my exes was a bit of a furry. I once dressed up in ears and a fluffy fox tail for her, complete with little jingly-bell collar. I felt incredibly sexy and liberated, and I think it would be really hot to be able to do something like that again, but I'm not with anyone interested in it right now.
8. Another of my exes liked foot play. I masturbated him with my feet and he used to suck on them during sex. It was an incredibly intense sensation and I found it hot as hell. I kinda wish the guy I'm with right now was into feet...
9. I lost my virginity when I was 17 in the front seat of a Lincoln Towncar. Afterward, he bought me a fake red rose with a little bear hugging the stem. I found out later, he gave red roses when he felt guilty about something, like when he cheated on me. I still don't like red roses.
10. I've 'taken' the virginity of two people in my life, both women, one cis and one trans.
11. I still fantasize about the first cis woman I was with and wish I could have kept her in my life, even though I'm happy that she's found a life partner.
12. I really really want to date a girl again. I'm poly, but it's currently just me and him and I hunger for a woman's touch like nothing else. I don't even have the words to describe the longing I have sometimes to be with a woman.
13. Men generally bore me. I joke with my fiance that I'm only bi for his sake, otherwise it would be all girls for me. This may be why I'm beginning to think of myself as more queer than anything else...so I don't feel tied to any sort of balance of my desires.
14. I try to be incredibly open to new experiences in the bedroom. This is why, I think, I've had so many cool things happen in my love life.
15. Recently I was reading a magazine to pass the time and they had a quiz on what type of stuff you've done, would like to do, or would never do. There were only five things out of three columns and a whole page that I hadn't done. This didn't make me feel bad about myself; it made me feel bad for the women answering the quiz who had done so little and it made me feel sad that having these basic experiences was so rare that it even had to be asked if they'd been done or not.
16. I think watching two men kiss is incredibly arousing and beautiful. I also like watching man-on-man porn, especially yaoi, and reading gay erotica.
17. Wearing Axe deodorant or men's cologne, jeans and pocket tee, or things like boxers with my sports bra feel incredibly sexy to me and always get me aroused.
18. I also like wearing slinky lingerie, fancy panties, stockings, and dramatic make-up. This also always puts me in the mood.
19. Androgynous women are hot and I can never help giving them a second look. I love how bold and confident and open the look is.
20. When I get sexually aroused, I get incredibly wet. I've been known to even soak through my jeans. I think this is embarrassing as hell and it's always made me incredibly uncomfortable.
21. When I first started masturbating, it was to fantasies of being dominated and trained to be a sex slave. Abject and consumed by lust, imaginary me would fuck and suck eagerly even while claiming to hate it... and that idea always got me off.
22. The more in touch and accepting of my sexuality I get, the less I enjoy fantasies of being made to perform sexual acts. Now I just like doing what I like because I like it and when I masturbate, it's more often to images, stories, or videos of people having great sex consensually... even in the BDSM ones!
23. I've had multiple threesomes in my life... both m/m/f and f/f/f. I've also been in sexual situations with other people watching; the most memorable was when I went down on my first girl while my fiance and her boyfriend played with her breasts and watched us. The f/f/f threesome was the hardest to keep coordinated, rather like a part-sex, part diplomatic role. The m/m/f threesome was much easier, but the relations afterward were more awkward. I still really would like to have a f/f/m threesome. I'd also love to be in a threesome that involved two men who wanted to kiss and play with each other as well, even though I suspect that would be also be a bit more diplomatic.
24. I sometimes wonder if I'm not really just a lesbian and only staying in a 'straight' relationship because it's so much easier socially. I really hope that's not the case, and I really do love my fiance, but the darkest recesses of my mind torture me with it from time to time.
25. When I was in my first sexual relationship, the guy talked me into trying anal. I really liked it at first, but then when I asked him to stop because it started hurting, he finished instead. It left me feeling betrayed and hurt and scared of trying anal ever again, because I didn't feel I could be in control and trust my partner in that situation. It was only really recently that I began working on becoming okay with anal sex. My fiance and I worked on it together and eventually, by playing with each other and me playing with myself, I got to the point where not only could I enjoy anal again, but I have had some of the most mind-blowing orgasms during it, to the point where I now use toys to have anal during masturbation time.
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