1. I stopped considering myself a virgin when I was 18 after spending a week in Chicago with a woman that I had worked with and fallen in love with in Alaska over the summer. At that point, I wasn’t sure exactly what counted as women losing their virginity to each other, but something happened that week that was different from anything I had previously experienced.
2. I love, love, love long hair. Women, men, doesn’t matter. The thought of fucking someone with hair flying everywhere is amazing.
3. I was once involved in a three-way makeout session in college with a man and a lady. At the time, I was seventeen, and thought it was so bad-ass that the three of us all went to breakfast together in the morning. We wondered (loudly and often) if the waitress had any suspicions.
4. I almost drunkenly made out with my best female friend in high school. I am glad I did not.
5. I orgasm quickly for a woman. Sometimes it happens WAY too quickly.
6. I dated a woman in college who was great at giving oral sex. Because I would come way too quickly, she would accuse me of faking it. Trust me, I was NOT.
7. I started watching hetero porn this summer and was surprised by how much it turned me on. Not anything professionally done, but I find amateur couples so hot.
8. I love having my fingers sucked.
9. I didn’t have vaginal intercourse with a man until I was 25. I felt very grown-up, for some reason, even though this was something all my friends had been doing for years.
10. I only had one orgasm with this man, and then I broke up with him via Facebook. I still feel a little guilty about it.
11. I think I like the feeling of hard cock pressed up against my leg more than I actually like it inside of me. Maybe I just need to try it again with someone else.
12. I love making out in my tent. That Marmot has seen some action.
13. I really like the idea of a guy coming on me, shooting all over my breasts or belly. That turns me on a lot. Definitely on my “to-do” list.
14. I dated a boy in high school who had long black hair and wanted to make out everywhere: my mother’s car, public parks in our suburb, outside of coffee shops, in my bedroom when my parents were home. Maybe this is why I like the feeling of hard cock against my leg.
15. I love loud moaning, grunting, any kind of sex noise. Sometimes I would hear them when I was retrieving my laundry in college and would stop outside the door to listen and get jealous.
16. I gave my long-term girlfriend her first orgasm EVER in the employee housing of the National Park I was working in at the time. I am still proud of that one.
17. I love playing with my nipples when I masturbate.
18. Having sex with a woman to Ani Difranco may be the most cliché thing ever, but I still enjoy it.
19. My first sexual experience with a man was terrible. I was locked into a neighbor’s house and forced to touch his penis. Maybe this is why I am still afraid to look at them.
20. This person was also technically my first kiss. However, I don’t count him, but rather the long-black-haired boy mentioned in number 14.
21. I started masturbating when I was 13. I don’t think that I got really, really good at it until this year, though.
22. I love the kind of sex that is so frantic that both parties only manage to get their pants off and shirts stay on because the top half of your body becomes somehow, er, less important.
23. I had my first big, penetrative orgasm in the basement of my parents’ house over a winter break during college. Hopefully they are still unaware of this.
24. I get big teacher/professor crushes on my female professors. This makes me afraid to speak in their classes, because I am just SURE THEY CAN TELL that I think about their boobs. (This is silly at my age in graduate school, I know, but it still goes on.)
25. The best place to have any kind of sexual activity occur is the Seaside Farm in Homer, Alaska. Those cabin beds have probably seen more than I like to imagine, but the beach! The raspberry patch! The swing! So beautiful and erotic.
Sunday, February 6, 2011
1. I'm a 22, soon to be 23-year-old woman. But sometimes I'm more like a young girl, and sometimes an old woman. I've slept with only about seven people, I think. Some of the memories are blurry, either because I was drunk at the time or because they didn't mean anything and I've forgotten them. I've never had a relationship. I've never liked anyone enough. Plus I think I'm afraid of emotional intimacy - I hate feeling vulnerable.
2. When I was younger, pubescent hormones and the wonder of discovery made me masturbate in the girls' toilets at school, on the back of a bus, in a dark cinema. What was risqué to me then is now vanilla. I need more to get off. My mind is like a wet slippery slope.
3. Sometimes I wonder if I'm a bad person, because I get off on fantasizing about immoral, taboo things. Normally I reassure myself that there's an important distinction between reality and fantasy, so it's all good.
4. I'm the only person who's ever made me come. I find this irritating but also kind of amusing. That's not to say I don't enjoy sex without orgasms. I just want to know that I'm capable of it. It's amusing, because it's as if I'm the only one with the "magic fingers." I alone have got the power!
5. I prefer girth to length. I love the feeling that I have to stretch to accept someone's genitalia inside me. Less so the feeling of my organs getting pummeled.
6. Instead of boxes and square labels, I look at sexuality as a spectrum. Sometimes I waver along the heterosexual end, sometimes the homosexual end, usually somewhere around the middle. Like a rainbow.
7. I always swallow. I just find the thought of spitting out someone's essence a huge slap in the face to them. And it would totally kill the buzz of what we've just done. Plus, sometimes it doesn't taste all that bad. The healthier the boy, the yummier.
8. My favorite moment in sex is when he comes inside me. He just goes still, probably temporarily unconscious... and I feel like he's given me a special part of himself, and I get to keep it. Me, I feel kind of proud... and cherished.
9. I love erotic fiction. Sexy literature. Mills & Boon novels. Despite being a commitment-phobe, I'm a huge romantic. I know, it's confusing.
10. Fave sex position? Haven't decided yet.... maybe doggy-style? I'm lazy.
11. When I masturbate I mainly stimulate my clit. But sometimes the mood will strike and I'll feel like getting a bit dirty with some anal action. Vaginal penetration is really only ever amazing when someone else is doing it to me.
12. Sometimes I feel pressure to come for the guy's sake. I get self-conscious when I'm not wet enough or into it enough, as if I'm letting him down. I don't want to hurt his feelings... but the more I think during sex, the more removed and distant I become, and the less pleasure I feel. It's a vicious cycle.
13. I was surprised to discover that I'm an exhibitionist. Not so much sex in public, although i have done that incidentally (very drunk). But i love to show off. I get disappointed when the lights aren't on. But having no sight can heighten your other senses too, so whatever.
14. I was a stripper for a year. I mostly loved it, the attention, the dancing, the hedonism, the nudity. I found it empowering. I loved doing something that so many women couldn't bring themselves to do. I like being a rebel, a daredevil, progressive and liberated and self-confident. But I had to get out.... it was lessening my opinion of men. I was beginning to resent and dislike them. And even though my body was in great shape from all the dancing, I could feel the late nights and makeup and booze aging me. Keeping up a sexy, flirtatious and provocative facade for male stimulation while simultaneously holding up a protective barrier is emotionally exhausting too. Some of the things that guys will believe and tell you--half the time I felt like a therapist. I don't know how some of those women do it for years and years. It's got to be one of the hardest (if well paid) jobs in the world, both physically and mentally. But in the end the ups couldn't justify the downs.
15. I'd like to be grabbed and thrown against a wall, over a desk, hands held back, hair pulled, butt slapped and pinched. There is something incredibly erotic about being dominated and out of control. Wild. Animalistic. Sexy. Also it's a huge turn on and ego-stroke to feel the physical evidence of how desperately you can make another person want to possess you.
16. I had a threesome with one of my best girlfriends at the time and her boyfriend. I'd always been attracted to them both, but she instigated it. She told me she'd been having dreams about me, about suckling my nipples, about the three of us dressing up in skimpy lingerie. So we decided to live it out. We all got really drunk, played spin the bottle, I gave them a little striptease, then we spent hours in bed together. It was exciting and nerve-racking and adventurous, if a little complicated... it's hard to choreograph three bodies so that they all fit together well... you've got to be careful no one gets left out. She was the first and only woman I've gone down on. I liked it, but I wasn't very good at it--I had no idea what to do. Unfortunately women aren't taught how to give oral to a woman. I was able to access info about giving blowjobs to guys from an early age... magazines, internet, friends.... but the female anatomy, even though I'm familiar with my own and know how I like to be given head... it's totally different giving it to receiving it. I felt like I was traversing a whole new landscape. I'd like to try it again.
17. I was almost 18 when I lost my virginity. It was sudden and unexpected and intense. It didn't hurt at all, it felt great, but of course, I didn't come. I remember reveling in the feeling of being bruised and tender and swollen between my thighs for days afterward. I felt wanton and womanly. It was awesome.
18. I've found that sensations are usually more intense and thus the sex is better when I've been drinking. I don't know if it's because alcohol heightens the physical nervous system, somehow turns me on more, lowers my inhibitions or simply dulls my thought processes so that I think and worry less, but I tend to be my most sexual when I've had a few.
19. It turns me on if a guy talks dirty while we're doing it, as long as I'm in the heat of the moment. But I'm shy about talking dirty back. I worry about sounding corny or amateurish.
20. I like the idea of an open relationship. No rules, no restrictions or expectations. No chance of being betrayed or feeling guilty. Free love and sex, baby. Yeah. Rock 'n' roll. I know it's probably like communism, though - an excellent ideal in theory, but far from practical.
21. In contrast to #20, I also daydream about a man wanting me with all his being, not being able to live without me, wanting me above all others, forever, and not wanting to share me. Having that unique connection and chemistry. "Soulmate." If my soulmate exists, though, I don't want us to find each other until I've explored and experimented a bit more. Give me a few more years before I become traditional and respectable and settled.
22. I've been single for all my 23 years. I'm proud of being an independent woman who doesn't need a man to validate her own existence. But I do get lonely, a lot. It used to be that I craved sex like women crave chocolate or blokes crave beer. I had this empty, needy feeling in my pussy, this tingly irritating feeling all over my skin, that demanded cock and hands and a warm body. The cravings have subsided as I've gotten older. Now I mainly crave intimacy. I don't care about the sex so much as the companionship, the sharing of intimate feelings and the gentle touching and exploring, the connection. I just want to be able to lay next to a body and enjoy each other's physicality and personality. Is this all just a symptom of maturing?
23. I've been "the other woman." I always swore I'd never betray another fellow female like that, by taking what was hers. But I've discovered that values and morals and principles, like sexual appetite, are constantly in flux, changing and reshaping as your experiences expand and your needs evolve. I actually decided that I would have sex with this guy for my sake, and put myself first, instead of abstaining for her sake, and putting someone else first. It was selfish, but I knew that at the time. I consciously allowed myself to do the selfish thing for once. Was it worth it? Well, I don't regret it. Gosh, it was such a really interesting experiment... You should have seen the drastically different reactions I got from my friends. Some said "Go for it, he's the one in the relationship so he has to shoulder the responsibility, if he doesn't cheat on his girlfriend with you he'll just do it with someone else anyway, it's not your concern." Others were horrified and shocked that I was even considering it. They just thought that it was a sacrilegious, bitchy, treacherous thing to do. I can understand and agree with both points of view. But sometimes living a life that's politically correct and ethically proper and completely selfless is just not living much at all.
24. I've tasted my own menstrual blood. I got the idea from Germaine Greer. She is one of my feminist idols. I don't think it's a big deal... bodily fluids, that is... it really baffles and saddens me that people can be so uptight about what's only natural.
25. I no longer just have sex with anyone, anytime. I just went through about 15 months of self-inflicted celibacy. I've been waiting for something; I'm still waiting. I'm sick of having a good time, then feeling empty and lonely afterward. I want to discover that connection, something more fulfilling. I dunno, maybe I'm looking for love and romance. I've only ever fucked, never "made love." I definitely want to experience it one day... soon. But I'm scared. I'm scared I won't be able to let myself go... I'm scared if I do I'll let them down, or they'll let me down. And I'm scared I'll never find whatever it is I'm looking for.
2. When I was younger, pubescent hormones and the wonder of discovery made me masturbate in the girls' toilets at school, on the back of a bus, in a dark cinema. What was risqué to me then is now vanilla. I need more to get off. My mind is like a wet slippery slope.
3. Sometimes I wonder if I'm a bad person, because I get off on fantasizing about immoral, taboo things. Normally I reassure myself that there's an important distinction between reality and fantasy, so it's all good.
4. I'm the only person who's ever made me come. I find this irritating but also kind of amusing. That's not to say I don't enjoy sex without orgasms. I just want to know that I'm capable of it. It's amusing, because it's as if I'm the only one with the "magic fingers." I alone have got the power!
5. I prefer girth to length. I love the feeling that I have to stretch to accept someone's genitalia inside me. Less so the feeling of my organs getting pummeled.
6. Instead of boxes and square labels, I look at sexuality as a spectrum. Sometimes I waver along the heterosexual end, sometimes the homosexual end, usually somewhere around the middle. Like a rainbow.
7. I always swallow. I just find the thought of spitting out someone's essence a huge slap in the face to them. And it would totally kill the buzz of what we've just done. Plus, sometimes it doesn't taste all that bad. The healthier the boy, the yummier.
8. My favorite moment in sex is when he comes inside me. He just goes still, probably temporarily unconscious... and I feel like he's given me a special part of himself, and I get to keep it. Me, I feel kind of proud... and cherished.
9. I love erotic fiction. Sexy literature. Mills & Boon novels. Despite being a commitment-phobe, I'm a huge romantic. I know, it's confusing.
10. Fave sex position? Haven't decided yet.... maybe doggy-style? I'm lazy.
11. When I masturbate I mainly stimulate my clit. But sometimes the mood will strike and I'll feel like getting a bit dirty with some anal action. Vaginal penetration is really only ever amazing when someone else is doing it to me.
12. Sometimes I feel pressure to come for the guy's sake. I get self-conscious when I'm not wet enough or into it enough, as if I'm letting him down. I don't want to hurt his feelings... but the more I think during sex, the more removed and distant I become, and the less pleasure I feel. It's a vicious cycle.
13. I was surprised to discover that I'm an exhibitionist. Not so much sex in public, although i have done that incidentally (very drunk). But i love to show off. I get disappointed when the lights aren't on. But having no sight can heighten your other senses too, so whatever.
14. I was a stripper for a year. I mostly loved it, the attention, the dancing, the hedonism, the nudity. I found it empowering. I loved doing something that so many women couldn't bring themselves to do. I like being a rebel, a daredevil, progressive and liberated and self-confident. But I had to get out.... it was lessening my opinion of men. I was beginning to resent and dislike them. And even though my body was in great shape from all the dancing, I could feel the late nights and makeup and booze aging me. Keeping up a sexy, flirtatious and provocative facade for male stimulation while simultaneously holding up a protective barrier is emotionally exhausting too. Some of the things that guys will believe and tell you--half the time I felt like a therapist. I don't know how some of those women do it for years and years. It's got to be one of the hardest (if well paid) jobs in the world, both physically and mentally. But in the end the ups couldn't justify the downs.
15. I'd like to be grabbed and thrown against a wall, over a desk, hands held back, hair pulled, butt slapped and pinched. There is something incredibly erotic about being dominated and out of control. Wild. Animalistic. Sexy. Also it's a huge turn on and ego-stroke to feel the physical evidence of how desperately you can make another person want to possess you.
16. I had a threesome with one of my best girlfriends at the time and her boyfriend. I'd always been attracted to them both, but she instigated it. She told me she'd been having dreams about me, about suckling my nipples, about the three of us dressing up in skimpy lingerie. So we decided to live it out. We all got really drunk, played spin the bottle, I gave them a little striptease, then we spent hours in bed together. It was exciting and nerve-racking and adventurous, if a little complicated... it's hard to choreograph three bodies so that they all fit together well... you've got to be careful no one gets left out. She was the first and only woman I've gone down on. I liked it, but I wasn't very good at it--I had no idea what to do. Unfortunately women aren't taught how to give oral to a woman. I was able to access info about giving blowjobs to guys from an early age... magazines, internet, friends.... but the female anatomy, even though I'm familiar with my own and know how I like to be given head... it's totally different giving it to receiving it. I felt like I was traversing a whole new landscape. I'd like to try it again.
17. I was almost 18 when I lost my virginity. It was sudden and unexpected and intense. It didn't hurt at all, it felt great, but of course, I didn't come. I remember reveling in the feeling of being bruised and tender and swollen between my thighs for days afterward. I felt wanton and womanly. It was awesome.
18. I've found that sensations are usually more intense and thus the sex is better when I've been drinking. I don't know if it's because alcohol heightens the physical nervous system, somehow turns me on more, lowers my inhibitions or simply dulls my thought processes so that I think and worry less, but I tend to be my most sexual when I've had a few.
19. It turns me on if a guy talks dirty while we're doing it, as long as I'm in the heat of the moment. But I'm shy about talking dirty back. I worry about sounding corny or amateurish.
20. I like the idea of an open relationship. No rules, no restrictions or expectations. No chance of being betrayed or feeling guilty. Free love and sex, baby. Yeah. Rock 'n' roll. I know it's probably like communism, though - an excellent ideal in theory, but far from practical.
21. In contrast to #20, I also daydream about a man wanting me with all his being, not being able to live without me, wanting me above all others, forever, and not wanting to share me. Having that unique connection and chemistry. "Soulmate." If my soulmate exists, though, I don't want us to find each other until I've explored and experimented a bit more. Give me a few more years before I become traditional and respectable and settled.
22. I've been single for all my 23 years. I'm proud of being an independent woman who doesn't need a man to validate her own existence. But I do get lonely, a lot. It used to be that I craved sex like women crave chocolate or blokes crave beer. I had this empty, needy feeling in my pussy, this tingly irritating feeling all over my skin, that demanded cock and hands and a warm body. The cravings have subsided as I've gotten older. Now I mainly crave intimacy. I don't care about the sex so much as the companionship, the sharing of intimate feelings and the gentle touching and exploring, the connection. I just want to be able to lay next to a body and enjoy each other's physicality and personality. Is this all just a symptom of maturing?
23. I've been "the other woman." I always swore I'd never betray another fellow female like that, by taking what was hers. But I've discovered that values and morals and principles, like sexual appetite, are constantly in flux, changing and reshaping as your experiences expand and your needs evolve. I actually decided that I would have sex with this guy for my sake, and put myself first, instead of abstaining for her sake, and putting someone else first. It was selfish, but I knew that at the time. I consciously allowed myself to do the selfish thing for once. Was it worth it? Well, I don't regret it. Gosh, it was such a really interesting experiment... You should have seen the drastically different reactions I got from my friends. Some said "Go for it, he's the one in the relationship so he has to shoulder the responsibility, if he doesn't cheat on his girlfriend with you he'll just do it with someone else anyway, it's not your concern." Others were horrified and shocked that I was even considering it. They just thought that it was a sacrilegious, bitchy, treacherous thing to do. I can understand and agree with both points of view. But sometimes living a life that's politically correct and ethically proper and completely selfless is just not living much at all.
24. I've tasted my own menstrual blood. I got the idea from Germaine Greer. She is one of my feminist idols. I don't think it's a big deal... bodily fluids, that is... it really baffles and saddens me that people can be so uptight about what's only natural.
25. I no longer just have sex with anyone, anytime. I just went through about 15 months of self-inflicted celibacy. I've been waiting for something; I'm still waiting. I'm sick of having a good time, then feeling empty and lonely afterward. I want to discover that connection, something more fulfilling. I dunno, maybe I'm looking for love and romance. I've only ever fucked, never "made love." I definitely want to experience it one day... soon. But I'm scared. I'm scared I won't be able to let myself go... I'm scared if I do I'll let them down, or they'll let me down. And I'm scared I'll never find whatever it is I'm looking for.
Saturday, February 5, 2011
1. I'm an 18-year-old cis-gendered girl. I'm either unsure about my sexual orientation or find it impossible to put a word to it... I guess "fluctuating/developing" would be the best to describe it for now.
2. I take pride in the fact that other people have said I have the most perfect breasts they've ever seen.
3. I've only had one wet dream: I dreamed about masturbating with sex toys in front of my mirror.
4. I started masturbating during my early childhood years, probably about 7 years old. This was before I knew about sex at all--I just did it because it felt good.
5. One day I skipped science club after school just so I could go home and masturbate before my parents got home. I was in the fourth grade.
6. The first time I had an orgasm from another person was in a movie theater on Valentine's Day.
7. A few summers ago, I got involved with a guy who was already in a relationship. We messed around for about 2 months, but eventually I called it off. At the time, I didn't care at all that he had a girlfriend (who had no idea that he was cheating), but I felt awful after we stopped being involved with each other. It turns out the guy was hooking up with several other girls too.
8. I can trace my kinks/fetishes back to several occurrences in my childhood (like most other people with fetishes). That "a-ha" moment when I realized that I was into certain things because of things that happened throughout my life was one of the coolest feelings ever.
9. Very tall people are so arousing to me.
10. From my freshman to sophomore years in high school, I had a crush who eventually I became friends-with-benefits with. We would always make out in the woods, where I gave my first hand job. Eventually I gave him a blowjob, and for some reason we didn't talk for about 3 weeks after that. Things started up again and we hooked up for a while after that, but I eventually stopped answering his text messages and stopped talking to him in school. Now we're complete strangers, but I don't really care. He was pretty boring anyway.
11. I have had a huge crush on the same guy for a little over two years. Even through all the hook-ups with other people, I still hold my crush high above the rest. He happens to also be one of my best friends, which I sometimes worry could complicate things.
12. A few months ago I tried autoerotic asphyxiation for the first time, and it was one of the most phenomenal, euphoric feelings I've ever experienced. I finally understand why people go to great lengths to do that, like risking their lives.
13. I don't ever want to be pregnant, but I definitely don't want to go on birth control pills because I don't want all those extra hormones and chemicals in my body. This is really frustrating for me.
14. Two months ago I got a skin rash that could have possibly been an allergic reaction to latex. This was really upsetting for me not only because I might not be able to use normal condoms, but because I might not be able to wear latex fetish clothing at some point in my life.
15. I am into BDSM, as a dominant. I enjoy consensually inflicting pain on others as well as myself, tying others up, etc. Realizing that I was into this and that lots of other people are too feels really great, and I love having friends who I can talk about this with.
16. My first sex toy that I bought was a Wartenberg pinwheel.
17. Ive only had one submissive fantasy, involving my high school principal. The classic "naughty school girl" roleplay. Even though I've had this one submissive fantasy, I definitely dont consider myself a switch.
18. One goal of mine is to visit Pandora's Box in NYC, a famous BDSM space.
19. When I'm attracted to girls, it's usually very random. They're never really similar to one another. I guess I don't have one "type" of girl that I'm attracted to.
20. I fantasize about threesomes a lot.
21. One of my biggest fantasies is to tie someone up in my shower and drip candle wax down their body.
22. My greatest accomplishment will probably be finding attractive, leather-free bondage gear.
23. I make an effort to only hook up with people if they're vegetarian/vegan. As pretentious as that sounds, why would I want to make out with someone who eats gross animal products if I don't?
24. I'm afraid of losing my virginity somewhere boring. I want it to happen in some exciting situation.
25. I've recently started to become more-than-friends with the guy I mentioned in #11. One night he stayed over at my house while my parents were out of town, and we started getting intimate. Eventually I learned that he has a lot of similar kinks to mine, which is really awesome. I can't wait to take things further with him.
2. I take pride in the fact that other people have said I have the most perfect breasts they've ever seen.
3. I've only had one wet dream: I dreamed about masturbating with sex toys in front of my mirror.
4. I started masturbating during my early childhood years, probably about 7 years old. This was before I knew about sex at all--I just did it because it felt good.
5. One day I skipped science club after school just so I could go home and masturbate before my parents got home. I was in the fourth grade.
6. The first time I had an orgasm from another person was in a movie theater on Valentine's Day.
7. A few summers ago, I got involved with a guy who was already in a relationship. We messed around for about 2 months, but eventually I called it off. At the time, I didn't care at all that he had a girlfriend (who had no idea that he was cheating), but I felt awful after we stopped being involved with each other. It turns out the guy was hooking up with several other girls too.
8. I can trace my kinks/fetishes back to several occurrences in my childhood (like most other people with fetishes). That "a-ha" moment when I realized that I was into certain things because of things that happened throughout my life was one of the coolest feelings ever.
9. Very tall people are so arousing to me.
10. From my freshman to sophomore years in high school, I had a crush who eventually I became friends-with-benefits with. We would always make out in the woods, where I gave my first hand job. Eventually I gave him a blowjob, and for some reason we didn't talk for about 3 weeks after that. Things started up again and we hooked up for a while after that, but I eventually stopped answering his text messages and stopped talking to him in school. Now we're complete strangers, but I don't really care. He was pretty boring anyway.
11. I have had a huge crush on the same guy for a little over two years. Even through all the hook-ups with other people, I still hold my crush high above the rest. He happens to also be one of my best friends, which I sometimes worry could complicate things.
12. A few months ago I tried autoerotic asphyxiation for the first time, and it was one of the most phenomenal, euphoric feelings I've ever experienced. I finally understand why people go to great lengths to do that, like risking their lives.
13. I don't ever want to be pregnant, but I definitely don't want to go on birth control pills because I don't want all those extra hormones and chemicals in my body. This is really frustrating for me.
14. Two months ago I got a skin rash that could have possibly been an allergic reaction to latex. This was really upsetting for me not only because I might not be able to use normal condoms, but because I might not be able to wear latex fetish clothing at some point in my life.
15. I am into BDSM, as a dominant. I enjoy consensually inflicting pain on others as well as myself, tying others up, etc. Realizing that I was into this and that lots of other people are too feels really great, and I love having friends who I can talk about this with.
16. My first sex toy that I bought was a Wartenberg pinwheel.
17. Ive only had one submissive fantasy, involving my high school principal. The classic "naughty school girl" roleplay. Even though I've had this one submissive fantasy, I definitely dont consider myself a switch.
18. One goal of mine is to visit Pandora's Box in NYC, a famous BDSM space.
19. When I'm attracted to girls, it's usually very random. They're never really similar to one another. I guess I don't have one "type" of girl that I'm attracted to.
20. I fantasize about threesomes a lot.
21. One of my biggest fantasies is to tie someone up in my shower and drip candle wax down their body.
22. My greatest accomplishment will probably be finding attractive, leather-free bondage gear.
23. I make an effort to only hook up with people if they're vegetarian/vegan. As pretentious as that sounds, why would I want to make out with someone who eats gross animal products if I don't?
24. I'm afraid of losing my virginity somewhere boring. I want it to happen in some exciting situation.
25. I've recently started to become more-than-friends with the guy I mentioned in #11. One night he stayed over at my house while my parents were out of town, and we started getting intimate. Eventually I learned that he has a lot of similar kinks to mine, which is really awesome. I can't wait to take things further with him.
Friday, February 4, 2011
Monday, January 24, 2011
1. I am a 21 year old fat cisgendered woman, and have never had sex with another person.
2. I thought I was a lesbian from when I was about 13 to 18 years old. In the eighth grade, I discovered that I had romantic feelings for a close friend of mine. The idea tormented me, but I ended up with the idea that I MUST be a lesbian. (Convenient, because boys didn't care for me too much.) Luckily, she ended up having feelings for me too. My first relationship and first kiss filled me with confidence. Making out was lovely and hot. After this relationship ended, I still stuck with the lesbian monicker, and came out to many people. Through high school, identifying as gay gave me something to be--an identity to align myself with. I found a good group of friends. I helped found our school's Gay-Straight Alliance. When people made rude comments to me, I found the strength to reject those comments through the identity I had forged.
3. Identity and sexual desires didn't really add up in this situation, though. I have been an active masturbator since I was about 8 or 9, and masturbate 2-3 times a week, on average. So, I was actively thinking about my sexual desires a lot. When I would try to imagine myself with women, or imagine women's bodies, I didn't really get much out of it. When I noticed that men turned me on, I repressed those feelings because they conflicted with my supposed identity. I did allow myself to fantasize about being a man penetrating a woman, and that's what I got off on a lot of the time. I don't consider myself a lesbian now, but I wouldn't completely rule out the possibility of having sex with a woman. Right now, I'm not going to go out of my way to seek that out, though.
4. Around the time that I started masturbating and before, I started becoming fascinated with penises. I wanted one. I still do, sometimes. Some of my earlier sexual fantasies involved having a penis and adorning it with things... I don't really know how to describe it besides that. When I discovered the internet, I also discovered that you could see penises on the internet. Oh no. I looked at this one picture of a man's penis and balls in a harness almost every time I was on the internet and my parents weren't around. I really liked the idea that you could constrict it and put it in things, perhaps even under clothing in public.
5. Among my other early sexual fantasies were medical procedures and ceremonial/tribal sex. For the former, I remember being absolutely intrigued by this building near where my mom worked--a urological doctor's office. I wondered what went on in there. I imagined fluids being collected, instruments being inserted, etc. I still think medical play sounds really, really hot. There's something about it that utterly thrills me. I also created a really elaborate culture/religion that I used in many of my sexual fantasies when I was little. The name of this culture escapes me, but the focal point of their religious activities had to do with highly ritualized sexual ceremonies in which one lost their virginity at a certain age, having a high priest/shaman impregnate all the women, etc. The practices were never set in stone, and I shifted and changed them around at will. I do remember that their "language" was simply our language but backwards, as in all the letters were reversed. One easy way to do it, I guess.
6. Up until the middle of high school, a lot of my sexual fantasies took place in an extensive fantasy world. Basically, I would imagine myself stopping time and venturing into this alternate reality that I was the controller of. There was some sort of backstory to this, where this mythological entity bestowed this power unto me, but this wasn't really important, and I have since forgotten the details. The major attraction of this world was a house that contained everything I could ever want in it. I could even step into this machine and change my physical body if I wanted to, and turn into a man. I could create people at will. (I never actually destroyed any people, but I guess I could have. I didn't really want to, though.) Some of my most elaborate fantasies took place there. Since this was my imagination, and money didn't exist, I could create complicated sex machines and medical apparatuses and wear any sort of costume that turned me on. (Later, when I got into doing drugs, I could even use this facility to "experiment" without completely messing my psyche up [which was ultimately what happened as I used more and more "real" drugs.]) Basically, what I'm saying is that imagination rocks, and it was a huge part of my sexual fantasies.
7. In the past few years, I've stopped going into my alternate reality because my sexual fantasies have started becoming about real people who exist in this world. When I was younger I felt incredibly guilty about thinking sexual thoughts about anyone "real", probably because I felt so unattractive and unwanted by real people. I have always been overweight and uncomfortable in social situations, and both of those things led to me not having many romantic encounters at all. Once I started being comfortable with my sexuality, though, I realized that there were actual people who I wanted to boink.
8. Around this time, I got into a really strange relationship with a guy. Neither of us had any idea what we were doing, but I could at least play along better than he could. He was 23, and I was 19 when we started dating, so this was pretty recently. I gave him his first kiss. I thought he was a virgin too, but he wasn't. He had met men from Craigslist to have sex with. When he told me that, I found it unsettling, but I couldn't really put my finger on why. I think I was drawn to him because he was so vulnerable, and I thought that he wasn't going to be able to dominate or control me in any sort of manner. I also was intrigued by him--I knew there were lots of dark and mysterious parts to him that I wanted to know. He was cute. Looked very inquisitive. Beautiful blue eyes and long long long red hair, about at his waist. He seemed absolutely freespirited, not caring whether other people thought he was strange. Intellectually stimulating. Mischievous, like some sort of mythological sprite or devil. I almost thought that because he was so vulnerable, he couldn't hurt me. I was wrong about that one. After he started being in and out of psychiatric hospitals, I started realizing it probably wasn't very healthy for me to be so obsessed with this boy.
9. We "dated" for about a month. It was kind of cute at this point. We snuggled a lot. He was always the little spoon. (He was stick-thin and tiny and such a little boy, so he wasn't going to be the big spoon.) I attempted to make out with him several times, but I just don't think he understood the concept. We talked about it. He didn't really get it. I liked being wanted by somebody, but I knew I wasn't getting what I wanted. Our one sexual experience happened when we locked ourselves in one of the study rooms in his dorm hall to cuddle, and I proposed that he should watch me masturbate. Throughout the experience, he kept on giggling, saying that he didn't know what he should do. I just wanted him to do something, ANYTHING but sit there paralyzed. He didn't touch me except for when he was told to, and not in a D/s way. He told me that it had been really hot, and that it should happen again sometime. I, frankly, felt dead. Horrible. I had finally found someone to share my sexuality with, and he was completely unable to reciprocate my feelings. I thought we had really understood each other, but we really didn't. Both of us have fairly similar personalities, and I realized that neither of us felt that we could open ourselves up to taking chances and being hurt. Neither of us wanted to make a first move because that would make us vulnerable. I didn't want to do anything to hurt him because I thought that he would go off and kill himself if I did something wrong. I ignored myself a lot in our relationship. I focused on helping him get better at the expense of my own mental stability.
10. After we broke up, I still had a very strong emotional and sexual attachment to him. For better or worse, we stayed friends. He ended up staying the object of my sexuality. During the relationship, I fantasized about him taking control--telling me he wanted to fuck me, being firm and dominant (but not forcing me to do anything I didn't want to). After we officially broke up, I started fantasizing about me being the one in control. Tying him up, fucking him senseless. Though he had never been in a relationship before, he had had sex with boys from the internet, so I thought about buying a strap-on and surprising him, even though I knew this would not be a good idea.. He had told me earlier in a particularly intimate conversation that the only sexual fantasy that he has ever had and continues to have is one of being raped and killed. He felt really guilty and embarrassed about that. I certainly didn't want to kill him, and I didn't want to do anything without his consent. I wanted to play it out with him, though. I wanted to make him moan. I wanted to show him that sexual experiences could be positive. I wanted to be the one giving him erections. It hasn't been that long since these fantasies stopped, and I still think about it sometimes.
11. Those fantasies got so intense that they bled into our friendship. I started not being able to interact with him without turning things into a sexual game. I would chide and berate him (jokingly) because it turned me on. If he would ask for things, I would deny him. In those awkward moments where we fell back into touching each other, I would tease him, only letting him get so close to me that he wanted more. I started realizing that, again, this was not healthy. I was playing a one-sided sexual game with someone who wasn't even aware of it. Though he acknowledged his feelings from time to time, I realized that I was manipulating him for my own sexual purposes. I decided to come clean. We sat in my car on a rainy day. It was summer- we had both been at our respective parents' houses, but came back to our college town to visit friends at the same time. After battling vulnerability and embarrassment, I told him what I wanted to do to him. It was extraordinarily hard to say the words, or to even articulate what it was I felt. I knew he wasn't the type of person who would just think I was a freak and leave, but I felt like that would happen. He said he was "flattered" and turned on, but was extremely hesitant to agree to anything. Ultimately, we decided not to experiment. We still talk about sex and tease each other. It drives me crazy. Not in a good way or a bad way, just crazy. I should probably cut that out.
12. I sometimes feel bitter about still being a virgin (non-voluntarily) at my age, but when I really think about it, me being a virgin just reiterates the fact that I'm just now learning to actually connect to other people, be confident, and let myself be vulnerable. I naturally find it challenging to connect with other people in general, so this barrier isn't just sexual. The times when my bitterness is at its worst are when I am comparing myself to my friends and I realize that they are all more "experienced" than me. I feel like they've lived more life than I have, though some of them are even younger than me. This is an ongoing struggle. Right now, I feel okay about it.
13. My experience of being a fat woman has influenced every part of my life, especially my sexuality. When I was younger I used to think I was doomed or forsaken or something. I grew up fat, and I continue to be fat. After many failed restrictive and disgusting diets of many colors, I realized that it was time for me to stop waiting until I was at a "normal" weight to live my life. This was very recently- I've been in this process of greater acceptance for about a year now. Once I started accepting myself, my sexuality really started blossoming. Now, I feel so much freer thinking about and experiencing my sexuality. I think one of the most radical things a fat person can do is to accept and love their body, and enjoy it in any way possible. That's what I'm trying to do. I want people to look at my body, realize that I am happy, and be challenged by that.
14. The porn I watch tends to be amateur porn. I really like watching men jerk off. I also really like watching them insert catheters or sounds. I also like the idea that the people doing the jerking off are real, and are actually getting off.
15. There's something about cum that is really hot to me. I don't particularly want to give blow jobs, or have semen in my mouth. The idea of that actually kind of turns me off. I like the idea of a man coming all over himself, or in and around my vagina. I like the idea that I could be the one to make a man cum.
16. I don't know if I really have a "type", but I do tend to like guys that are skinnier than me, for better or worse. It's rare when I see someone I find REALLY attractive. I like smart guys, but not ones that sit around and quote philosophers all day. I like long hair, defiance of gender norms, and glasses.
17. I don't really like the idea of someone going down on me. I think I'm kind of self-conscious about the way my body smells. It doesn't smell horrible, normally, but I am afraid my natural stench might upset someone else. My clitoris is also really sensitive- light touches and wetness tend to make it too sensitive. I use a lot of hard pressure above my clitoris when I masturbate- never on the head itself.
18. I tried playing with catheters a couple times. It wasn't as hot as I thought it was going to be, but it was still kind of hot.
19. I have not told anyone this before, but I really think it would be hot to be fucked by a dog. I am embarrassed by this because I am a strong advocate for animal rights and most people who work in this area probably would not find this kosher. I don't want to force a dog to have sex with me. To my understanding, sometimes they want to do it on their own. And I think that would be really hot. It probably will never happen in real life because, ethically, I am strongly for spay/neutering of animals, and neutered dogs tend not to want to fuck around so much. Cat and dog overpopulation is an issue, and so many animals need homes. I think that outweighs the fantasy in this case. I still like thinking about it, though.
20. I like to masturbate before I go to sleep. I have a lot of trouble falling asleep, and more times than not, it helps me along.
21. The only people who have seen me naked besides my sister and parents were a group of people I stayed with on a commune one summer. It was hot as hell outside, and one of the favorite activities on the farm was to venture down to the river and go swimming naked. At first I just wanted to skip that and go hole up in my bunk bed and read a book, but I eventually decided to go. I didn't feel ashamed at all. I was the fattest one there, and for once, I didn't feel like a complete freak. Everyone's bodies were really beautiful and real. I felt really free. We played naked Frisbee. It was great.
22. I like thinking about gay men having sex. The main focus for me is the man on the receiving end, and him being hard and dripping semen. (It sounds really weird writing specific sexual images out. The words are there, but they don't seem to accurately describe what it is I'm getting horny over.)
23. In terms of dominance and submission, I'd like to try them both. In either case, though, there absolutely needs to be consent. I don't want to do anything to anyone that they don't want me to do. In fact, the main factor of D/s sex to me is that both parties really WANT to be doing these things to each other. The submissive party WANTS to be slapped and fucked, and the dominant one WANTS to do the slapping and fucking. I would play out a rape scenario with someone if we discussed it beforehand--I don't think I could handle fucking someone while they are saying no or struggling, even if it was in a fantasy/play situation. If I was the dominant party, I would really get off knowing that my sub wanted me to deny him, wanted me to spank him, wanted me to tease him. I could only do this if I really trusted the other person.
24. I don't really have an interest in having one night stands--I want some emotional involvement going on. I think it's mainly that I don't find most people attractive--it takes someone really special and strange to catch my eye. I won't rule casual sex out. (If I ever go to Burning Man, especially.)
25. I tried to calculate a minimum number of orgasms I've had in my life a couple of times. I've been masturbating since I was nine, at the very very latest. At the very least, I masturbate once a week. I almost always orgasm. So, at the VERY VERY LEAST, I have had 624 orgasms. That sounds like a lot. That is a lot. And they don't ever get boring. :)
2. I thought I was a lesbian from when I was about 13 to 18 years old. In the eighth grade, I discovered that I had romantic feelings for a close friend of mine. The idea tormented me, but I ended up with the idea that I MUST be a lesbian. (Convenient, because boys didn't care for me too much.) Luckily, she ended up having feelings for me too. My first relationship and first kiss filled me with confidence. Making out was lovely and hot. After this relationship ended, I still stuck with the lesbian monicker, and came out to many people. Through high school, identifying as gay gave me something to be--an identity to align myself with. I found a good group of friends. I helped found our school's Gay-Straight Alliance. When people made rude comments to me, I found the strength to reject those comments through the identity I had forged.
3. Identity and sexual desires didn't really add up in this situation, though. I have been an active masturbator since I was about 8 or 9, and masturbate 2-3 times a week, on average. So, I was actively thinking about my sexual desires a lot. When I would try to imagine myself with women, or imagine women's bodies, I didn't really get much out of it. When I noticed that men turned me on, I repressed those feelings because they conflicted with my supposed identity. I did allow myself to fantasize about being a man penetrating a woman, and that's what I got off on a lot of the time. I don't consider myself a lesbian now, but I wouldn't completely rule out the possibility of having sex with a woman. Right now, I'm not going to go out of my way to seek that out, though.
4. Around the time that I started masturbating and before, I started becoming fascinated with penises. I wanted one. I still do, sometimes. Some of my earlier sexual fantasies involved having a penis and adorning it with things... I don't really know how to describe it besides that. When I discovered the internet, I also discovered that you could see penises on the internet. Oh no. I looked at this one picture of a man's penis and balls in a harness almost every time I was on the internet and my parents weren't around. I really liked the idea that you could constrict it and put it in things, perhaps even under clothing in public.
5. Among my other early sexual fantasies were medical procedures and ceremonial/tribal sex. For the former, I remember being absolutely intrigued by this building near where my mom worked--a urological doctor's office. I wondered what went on in there. I imagined fluids being collected, instruments being inserted, etc. I still think medical play sounds really, really hot. There's something about it that utterly thrills me. I also created a really elaborate culture/religion that I used in many of my sexual fantasies when I was little. The name of this culture escapes me, but the focal point of their religious activities had to do with highly ritualized sexual ceremonies in which one lost their virginity at a certain age, having a high priest/shaman impregnate all the women, etc. The practices were never set in stone, and I shifted and changed them around at will. I do remember that their "language" was simply our language but backwards, as in all the letters were reversed. One easy way to do it, I guess.
6. Up until the middle of high school, a lot of my sexual fantasies took place in an extensive fantasy world. Basically, I would imagine myself stopping time and venturing into this alternate reality that I was the controller of. There was some sort of backstory to this, where this mythological entity bestowed this power unto me, but this wasn't really important, and I have since forgotten the details. The major attraction of this world was a house that contained everything I could ever want in it. I could even step into this machine and change my physical body if I wanted to, and turn into a man. I could create people at will. (I never actually destroyed any people, but I guess I could have. I didn't really want to, though.) Some of my most elaborate fantasies took place there. Since this was my imagination, and money didn't exist, I could create complicated sex machines and medical apparatuses and wear any sort of costume that turned me on. (Later, when I got into doing drugs, I could even use this facility to "experiment" without completely messing my psyche up [which was ultimately what happened as I used more and more "real" drugs.]) Basically, what I'm saying is that imagination rocks, and it was a huge part of my sexual fantasies.
7. In the past few years, I've stopped going into my alternate reality because my sexual fantasies have started becoming about real people who exist in this world. When I was younger I felt incredibly guilty about thinking sexual thoughts about anyone "real", probably because I felt so unattractive and unwanted by real people. I have always been overweight and uncomfortable in social situations, and both of those things led to me not having many romantic encounters at all. Once I started being comfortable with my sexuality, though, I realized that there were actual people who I wanted to boink.
8. Around this time, I got into a really strange relationship with a guy. Neither of us had any idea what we were doing, but I could at least play along better than he could. He was 23, and I was 19 when we started dating, so this was pretty recently. I gave him his first kiss. I thought he was a virgin too, but he wasn't. He had met men from Craigslist to have sex with. When he told me that, I found it unsettling, but I couldn't really put my finger on why. I think I was drawn to him because he was so vulnerable, and I thought that he wasn't going to be able to dominate or control me in any sort of manner. I also was intrigued by him--I knew there were lots of dark and mysterious parts to him that I wanted to know. He was cute. Looked very inquisitive. Beautiful blue eyes and long long long red hair, about at his waist. He seemed absolutely freespirited, not caring whether other people thought he was strange. Intellectually stimulating. Mischievous, like some sort of mythological sprite or devil. I almost thought that because he was so vulnerable, he couldn't hurt me. I was wrong about that one. After he started being in and out of psychiatric hospitals, I started realizing it probably wasn't very healthy for me to be so obsessed with this boy.
9. We "dated" for about a month. It was kind of cute at this point. We snuggled a lot. He was always the little spoon. (He was stick-thin and tiny and such a little boy, so he wasn't going to be the big spoon.) I attempted to make out with him several times, but I just don't think he understood the concept. We talked about it. He didn't really get it. I liked being wanted by somebody, but I knew I wasn't getting what I wanted. Our one sexual experience happened when we locked ourselves in one of the study rooms in his dorm hall to cuddle, and I proposed that he should watch me masturbate. Throughout the experience, he kept on giggling, saying that he didn't know what he should do. I just wanted him to do something, ANYTHING but sit there paralyzed. He didn't touch me except for when he was told to, and not in a D/s way. He told me that it had been really hot, and that it should happen again sometime. I, frankly, felt dead. Horrible. I had finally found someone to share my sexuality with, and he was completely unable to reciprocate my feelings. I thought we had really understood each other, but we really didn't. Both of us have fairly similar personalities, and I realized that neither of us felt that we could open ourselves up to taking chances and being hurt. Neither of us wanted to make a first move because that would make us vulnerable. I didn't want to do anything to hurt him because I thought that he would go off and kill himself if I did something wrong. I ignored myself a lot in our relationship. I focused on helping him get better at the expense of my own mental stability.
10. After we broke up, I still had a very strong emotional and sexual attachment to him. For better or worse, we stayed friends. He ended up staying the object of my sexuality. During the relationship, I fantasized about him taking control--telling me he wanted to fuck me, being firm and dominant (but not forcing me to do anything I didn't want to). After we officially broke up, I started fantasizing about me being the one in control. Tying him up, fucking him senseless. Though he had never been in a relationship before, he had had sex with boys from the internet, so I thought about buying a strap-on and surprising him, even though I knew this would not be a good idea.. He had told me earlier in a particularly intimate conversation that the only sexual fantasy that he has ever had and continues to have is one of being raped and killed. He felt really guilty and embarrassed about that. I certainly didn't want to kill him, and I didn't want to do anything without his consent. I wanted to play it out with him, though. I wanted to make him moan. I wanted to show him that sexual experiences could be positive. I wanted to be the one giving him erections. It hasn't been that long since these fantasies stopped, and I still think about it sometimes.
11. Those fantasies got so intense that they bled into our friendship. I started not being able to interact with him without turning things into a sexual game. I would chide and berate him (jokingly) because it turned me on. If he would ask for things, I would deny him. In those awkward moments where we fell back into touching each other, I would tease him, only letting him get so close to me that he wanted more. I started realizing that, again, this was not healthy. I was playing a one-sided sexual game with someone who wasn't even aware of it. Though he acknowledged his feelings from time to time, I realized that I was manipulating him for my own sexual purposes. I decided to come clean. We sat in my car on a rainy day. It was summer- we had both been at our respective parents' houses, but came back to our college town to visit friends at the same time. After battling vulnerability and embarrassment, I told him what I wanted to do to him. It was extraordinarily hard to say the words, or to even articulate what it was I felt. I knew he wasn't the type of person who would just think I was a freak and leave, but I felt like that would happen. He said he was "flattered" and turned on, but was extremely hesitant to agree to anything. Ultimately, we decided not to experiment. We still talk about sex and tease each other. It drives me crazy. Not in a good way or a bad way, just crazy. I should probably cut that out.
12. I sometimes feel bitter about still being a virgin (non-voluntarily) at my age, but when I really think about it, me being a virgin just reiterates the fact that I'm just now learning to actually connect to other people, be confident, and let myself be vulnerable. I naturally find it challenging to connect with other people in general, so this barrier isn't just sexual. The times when my bitterness is at its worst are when I am comparing myself to my friends and I realize that they are all more "experienced" than me. I feel like they've lived more life than I have, though some of them are even younger than me. This is an ongoing struggle. Right now, I feel okay about it.
13. My experience of being a fat woman has influenced every part of my life, especially my sexuality. When I was younger I used to think I was doomed or forsaken or something. I grew up fat, and I continue to be fat. After many failed restrictive and disgusting diets of many colors, I realized that it was time for me to stop waiting until I was at a "normal" weight to live my life. This was very recently- I've been in this process of greater acceptance for about a year now. Once I started accepting myself, my sexuality really started blossoming. Now, I feel so much freer thinking about and experiencing my sexuality. I think one of the most radical things a fat person can do is to accept and love their body, and enjoy it in any way possible. That's what I'm trying to do. I want people to look at my body, realize that I am happy, and be challenged by that.
14. The porn I watch tends to be amateur porn. I really like watching men jerk off. I also really like watching them insert catheters or sounds. I also like the idea that the people doing the jerking off are real, and are actually getting off.
15. There's something about cum that is really hot to me. I don't particularly want to give blow jobs, or have semen in my mouth. The idea of that actually kind of turns me off. I like the idea of a man coming all over himself, or in and around my vagina. I like the idea that I could be the one to make a man cum.
16. I don't know if I really have a "type", but I do tend to like guys that are skinnier than me, for better or worse. It's rare when I see someone I find REALLY attractive. I like smart guys, but not ones that sit around and quote philosophers all day. I like long hair, defiance of gender norms, and glasses.
17. I don't really like the idea of someone going down on me. I think I'm kind of self-conscious about the way my body smells. It doesn't smell horrible, normally, but I am afraid my natural stench might upset someone else. My clitoris is also really sensitive- light touches and wetness tend to make it too sensitive. I use a lot of hard pressure above my clitoris when I masturbate- never on the head itself.
18. I tried playing with catheters a couple times. It wasn't as hot as I thought it was going to be, but it was still kind of hot.
19. I have not told anyone this before, but I really think it would be hot to be fucked by a dog. I am embarrassed by this because I am a strong advocate for animal rights and most people who work in this area probably would not find this kosher. I don't want to force a dog to have sex with me. To my understanding, sometimes they want to do it on their own. And I think that would be really hot. It probably will never happen in real life because, ethically, I am strongly for spay/neutering of animals, and neutered dogs tend not to want to fuck around so much. Cat and dog overpopulation is an issue, and so many animals need homes. I think that outweighs the fantasy in this case. I still like thinking about it, though.
20. I like to masturbate before I go to sleep. I have a lot of trouble falling asleep, and more times than not, it helps me along.
21. The only people who have seen me naked besides my sister and parents were a group of people I stayed with on a commune one summer. It was hot as hell outside, and one of the favorite activities on the farm was to venture down to the river and go swimming naked. At first I just wanted to skip that and go hole up in my bunk bed and read a book, but I eventually decided to go. I didn't feel ashamed at all. I was the fattest one there, and for once, I didn't feel like a complete freak. Everyone's bodies were really beautiful and real. I felt really free. We played naked Frisbee. It was great.
22. I like thinking about gay men having sex. The main focus for me is the man on the receiving end, and him being hard and dripping semen. (It sounds really weird writing specific sexual images out. The words are there, but they don't seem to accurately describe what it is I'm getting horny over.)
23. In terms of dominance and submission, I'd like to try them both. In either case, though, there absolutely needs to be consent. I don't want to do anything to anyone that they don't want me to do. In fact, the main factor of D/s sex to me is that both parties really WANT to be doing these things to each other. The submissive party WANTS to be slapped and fucked, and the dominant one WANTS to do the slapping and fucking. I would play out a rape scenario with someone if we discussed it beforehand--I don't think I could handle fucking someone while they are saying no or struggling, even if it was in a fantasy/play situation. If I was the dominant party, I would really get off knowing that my sub wanted me to deny him, wanted me to spank him, wanted me to tease him. I could only do this if I really trusted the other person.
24. I don't really have an interest in having one night stands--I want some emotional involvement going on. I think it's mainly that I don't find most people attractive--it takes someone really special and strange to catch my eye. I won't rule casual sex out. (If I ever go to Burning Man, especially.)
25. I tried to calculate a minimum number of orgasms I've had in my life a couple of times. I've been masturbating since I was nine, at the very very latest. At the very least, I masturbate once a week. I almost always orgasm. So, at the VERY VERY LEAST, I have had 624 orgasms. That sounds like a lot. That is a lot. And they don't ever get boring. :)
Sunday, January 23, 2011
1 I'm male and queer and 21.
2 I look and dress like a guy, but don't want to identify as a man, although I'm not against getting called a boy or a girl.
3 I'm mostly into girls, although I occasionally like cute guys and trans men.
4 Polyamory is where it's at! Well, for me at least it makes the most sense: I suck at getting jealous, I'm good at communicating, and I'm pretty good at thinking everyone is cute.
5 I've had sex with 8 people, but none of them were men of any sort. I've kissed more people than that, including one guy.
6 I don't drink or smoke or really get intoxicated in any way I can avoid. Sometimes it sucks I feel uncomfortable kissing or having sex with drunk people. I sometimes wish people didn't get drunk at all these different social occasions so we could finally kiss or something.
7 I identify as queer mostly because of my leanings toward poly. Having crushes on guys and trans guys is new to me.
8 Third wave feminism is the best kind for me, if you wanna vote/be on top/be submissive/be a sex worker/live your life how you feel, then do it and there's nothing wrong with that.
9 I'm pretty hot, but I've gotten used to it and kinda expect anyone I find attractive to find me attractive. Of course this isn't the case, and I now have a few really good friends who I have the hugest crushes on.
10 I'm so grateful for my roomie and my friend/crush who are always there to hear me talk about how I feel about sexuality and always have my back.
11 I'd like to think I'm good at communicating
12 I've always wanted to be part of a DP, although it's not something I'd know how to go about asking to take part in. I guess bluntly--that's how I usually ask.
13 I hang out with "radical" people most of the time, it's comfortable, but it throws me off when I explain my ideas about sex to people outside of that circle and they're surprised or confused or curious by things I've come to consider normal.
14 Until I get to know you very well, I'll be detached. You won't be able to tell by my behavior, though. I love giving affection and I'm really open to receiving it as well.
15 I'm pretty tall. I'm seeing someone right now that's taller than anyone else I've been with before. It's awesome.
16 I'm curious about being penetrated. I've played with my fingers but I have no idea how I'd handle anything more than fingers, although I'd be open to at least try...
17 I had great sex ed in high school compared to most of my friends. I read a lot about sex online as well. The first time I had sex, I'd read so much I felt as though I knew exactly what I was doing even though I didn't.
18 I wouldn't know what to do past making out if I ended up in bed with a guy. I hope if it happens they have the patience to let me know how we'd go about things.
19 I used to be into "pick up artist" stuff, but I really don't care for it anymore. I just do the whole "be yourself" thing and I have more fun and don't think like a sexist douchebag.
20 I really like going down on girls. I like to hear the moans, feel the twisting, having my chin wet and seeing how different things affect different people.
21 I had sex once without a condom. It wasn't that much fun.
22 I've wanted to be bisexual since high school. I'd like to think it's finally happening, but I'm not getting my hopes up too high.
23 I'm trying to reclaim the word slut, as a self-identified slut.
24 I don't masturbate that often unless I want to last long in sex I may have later that day/night or if I end up at home doing nothing for too long.
25 I totally have a thing for punk girls.
2 I look and dress like a guy, but don't want to identify as a man, although I'm not against getting called a boy or a girl.
3 I'm mostly into girls, although I occasionally like cute guys and trans men.
4 Polyamory is where it's at! Well, for me at least it makes the most sense: I suck at getting jealous, I'm good at communicating, and I'm pretty good at thinking everyone is cute.
5 I've had sex with 8 people, but none of them were men of any sort. I've kissed more people than that, including one guy.
6 I don't drink or smoke or really get intoxicated in any way I can avoid. Sometimes it sucks I feel uncomfortable kissing or having sex with drunk people. I sometimes wish people didn't get drunk at all these different social occasions so we could finally kiss or something.
7 I identify as queer mostly because of my leanings toward poly. Having crushes on guys and trans guys is new to me.
8 Third wave feminism is the best kind for me, if you wanna vote/be on top/be submissive/be a sex worker/live your life how you feel, then do it and there's nothing wrong with that.
9 I'm pretty hot, but I've gotten used to it and kinda expect anyone I find attractive to find me attractive. Of course this isn't the case, and I now have a few really good friends who I have the hugest crushes on.
10 I'm so grateful for my roomie and my friend/crush who are always there to hear me talk about how I feel about sexuality and always have my back.
11 I'd like to think I'm good at communicating
12 I've always wanted to be part of a DP, although it's not something I'd know how to go about asking to take part in. I guess bluntly--that's how I usually ask.
13 I hang out with "radical" people most of the time, it's comfortable, but it throws me off when I explain my ideas about sex to people outside of that circle and they're surprised or confused or curious by things I've come to consider normal.
14 Until I get to know you very well, I'll be detached. You won't be able to tell by my behavior, though. I love giving affection and I'm really open to receiving it as well.
15 I'm pretty tall. I'm seeing someone right now that's taller than anyone else I've been with before. It's awesome.
16 I'm curious about being penetrated. I've played with my fingers but I have no idea how I'd handle anything more than fingers, although I'd be open to at least try...
17 I had great sex ed in high school compared to most of my friends. I read a lot about sex online as well. The first time I had sex, I'd read so much I felt as though I knew exactly what I was doing even though I didn't.
18 I wouldn't know what to do past making out if I ended up in bed with a guy. I hope if it happens they have the patience to let me know how we'd go about things.
19 I used to be into "pick up artist" stuff, but I really don't care for it anymore. I just do the whole "be yourself" thing and I have more fun and don't think like a sexist douchebag.
20 I really like going down on girls. I like to hear the moans, feel the twisting, having my chin wet and seeing how different things affect different people.
21 I had sex once without a condom. It wasn't that much fun.
22 I've wanted to be bisexual since high school. I'd like to think it's finally happening, but I'm not getting my hopes up too high.
23 I'm trying to reclaim the word slut, as a self-identified slut.
24 I don't masturbate that often unless I want to last long in sex I may have later that day/night or if I end up at home doing nothing for too long.
25 I totally have a thing for punk girls.
Saturday, January 22, 2011
1. I am a 19 year old, reasonably straight female, and have had 7 sexual partners.
2. The only sexual action I have had has been while drunk.
3. My first real kiss was with my friend (a girl) at 17. I made out with 4 girls that night, and a few weeks later, the first male 'action' I had was making out with 2 gay guys. (I didn't know a lot of straight guys at the time.) Overall I've made out with 9 girls, 3 of those strangers.
4. The first time I had sex was at 17. I had just met him that night at my friend's brothers 21st. I don't think I even took my shoes off. He was 23 and it was on a table at 4 AM.
5. The second guy I had sex with was also a guy I had met that day. It was my friend's friend, and we pulled 2 couches together and had sex there. He didn't respect me at all, and I went home absolutely covered in hickeys.
6. The third guy was a guy I had met a few times before. He liked my friend first, but she didn't like him. I was the second best option and I gave in because I liked that he was a ginger. He was so small I had to go on top every time we had sex. I deserved a lot better... He asked me out, but broke up with me a day later. It was at a club, I was drunk, he told me he didn't want to see me anymore outside in the smoking area. Being the person I am, the first guy that took an interest in me after the breakup that night ended up taking me home. Even though the ginger guy didn't/doesn't respect me, I still have gotten with him a few times after this event.
7. Over the space of 2 years I think I've made out with about 30 guys... I love the art of kissing. I'm pretty sure my mouth is an erogenous zone. I also love giving blow jobs... I prefer giving head to receiving head, as I love the satisfaction you get when you get someone off.
8. I like to be the one that initiates sex. After I get them riled up I like them to take over, but for the first 10 minutes I want to be the one on top.
9. I've recently discovered I love to be bitten. My most recent sexual partner told me he liked to be bitten on the ear. When he showed me how it was done, I nearly died.
10. I want to have sex with a girl at some point, hopefully this year. I want it to be someone I don't know, someone short and cute with big eyes and a cute sense of fashion. I would go out with a girl, I think, but I've been put off relationships, so I probably won't now, unfortunately.
11. I've never achieved an orgasm with anyone. The only way I can orgasm is if I watch girl wrestling porn or porn where a girl deep-throats a dildo... I'm kind of scared of this fact, as I don't think I ever want to sex wrestle with anyone, and I think this could possibly be desensitizing me to ever being able to orgasm in a normal sexual encounter.
12. The last time I had sex was 2 days ago, with this gorgeous guy. He's my current sexual partner, if you will, even though we're not going out. Whenever we go out, we always end up spending the night getting drunk on opposite sides of the room, then getting together while drunk and spending the next day cuddling and watching movies. There's nothing I love more in this world than being cuddled while watching a good movie. We both admitted to liking each other and that we like being together, but we both have commitment issues and both enjoy sex too much.
13. A week ago I had sex with 2 guys in the same night. I was really drunk and really regret it. They were both jugglers from different counties. I told the second guy I liked him, I think it was because I was drunk and felt vulnerable and lonely. He said he was just into sex.
14. I don't think I will ever enter into a relationship until I meet someone and fall in love with him instantly. There's this guy at college, a mature student. I've never spoken to him once, and even though the lecture halls fit about 800 people I am constantly looking at him, imagining conversations we could someday have. He's never looked at me, I just hope he's never caught me looking at him. If he has done, I don't think there'll ever be a day we get to talk, as I probably seem a complete freak.
15. I've been told I'm very pretty. I'm only 5'1", quite thin but curvy. I've had quite a lot of ass compliments. It's my greatest asset.
16. I want to be madly and deeply in love with someone, but I'm like my dad, and have similar traits to his. He left the home when I was 12, and seems to hate commitment like me. Although I crave 'a prince,' I seem to have awful luck, and I assure myself every day love will never find me, and I won't find love.
17. As you've probably guessed, I'm easy to get into bed. I've often ditched my friends in order to have sex, which I hate, but it's my New Year's resolution to never do it again. My desire to have sex while drunk always clouds my judgment in the most hideous ways.
18. I'm scared if I ever fall hook, line and sinker for a man they'll hurt me, as I have a massive heart that is just dormant. That's why I think I go for guys that don't really like me that much. I know what I'm getting into, so when they finally decide to get with another girl in front of me, as they have done, I won't have expected any less, and it won't hurt as much.
19. I love pain mingled with sex. I like the sensations; pain and pleasure to mingle. I love when guys slap my ass. I also love the feel of getting a massive hickey, just not the after-mark as my mum is now really worried about me as I keep coming home in the morning with a hickey after 'spending the night in my friend's granny's house'. I currently have 2 hickeys from 2 different guys.
20. I want to some day have sex with a girl using a strap-on.
21. I wish I could give up sex and go on a hunt for a real partner, but as soon as there is drink in me I become an animal, and I love drink, followed by sex, way too much.
22. I hope to have sex with ecstasy in my system soon.
23. The further the list goes on, the more I think I'm going to hell, even though I'm atheist, which probably contributes to the 'going to hell' feeling.
24. I keep telling myself I'm happy with the way I am, and that it contributes to my independence and lifestyle, but the more I think about how truly lonely I've always been, the more it hurts... I've started getting a name for myself, and I'm really scared for the future.
25. I hope one day I'll be able to fall in love with someone and show them this list, and they will love me enough not to care, but I'm scared I've become too much like damaged goods.
2. The only sexual action I have had has been while drunk.
3. My first real kiss was with my friend (a girl) at 17. I made out with 4 girls that night, and a few weeks later, the first male 'action' I had was making out with 2 gay guys. (I didn't know a lot of straight guys at the time.) Overall I've made out with 9 girls, 3 of those strangers.
4. The first time I had sex was at 17. I had just met him that night at my friend's brothers 21st. I don't think I even took my shoes off. He was 23 and it was on a table at 4 AM.
5. The second guy I had sex with was also a guy I had met that day. It was my friend's friend, and we pulled 2 couches together and had sex there. He didn't respect me at all, and I went home absolutely covered in hickeys.
6. The third guy was a guy I had met a few times before. He liked my friend first, but she didn't like him. I was the second best option and I gave in because I liked that he was a ginger. He was so small I had to go on top every time we had sex. I deserved a lot better... He asked me out, but broke up with me a day later. It was at a club, I was drunk, he told me he didn't want to see me anymore outside in the smoking area. Being the person I am, the first guy that took an interest in me after the breakup that night ended up taking me home. Even though the ginger guy didn't/doesn't respect me, I still have gotten with him a few times after this event.
7. Over the space of 2 years I think I've made out with about 30 guys... I love the art of kissing. I'm pretty sure my mouth is an erogenous zone. I also love giving blow jobs... I prefer giving head to receiving head, as I love the satisfaction you get when you get someone off.
8. I like to be the one that initiates sex. After I get them riled up I like them to take over, but for the first 10 minutes I want to be the one on top.
9. I've recently discovered I love to be bitten. My most recent sexual partner told me he liked to be bitten on the ear. When he showed me how it was done, I nearly died.
10. I want to have sex with a girl at some point, hopefully this year. I want it to be someone I don't know, someone short and cute with big eyes and a cute sense of fashion. I would go out with a girl, I think, but I've been put off relationships, so I probably won't now, unfortunately.
11. I've never achieved an orgasm with anyone. The only way I can orgasm is if I watch girl wrestling porn or porn where a girl deep-throats a dildo... I'm kind of scared of this fact, as I don't think I ever want to sex wrestle with anyone, and I think this could possibly be desensitizing me to ever being able to orgasm in a normal sexual encounter.
12. The last time I had sex was 2 days ago, with this gorgeous guy. He's my current sexual partner, if you will, even though we're not going out. Whenever we go out, we always end up spending the night getting drunk on opposite sides of the room, then getting together while drunk and spending the next day cuddling and watching movies. There's nothing I love more in this world than being cuddled while watching a good movie. We both admitted to liking each other and that we like being together, but we both have commitment issues and both enjoy sex too much.
13. A week ago I had sex with 2 guys in the same night. I was really drunk and really regret it. They were both jugglers from different counties. I told the second guy I liked him, I think it was because I was drunk and felt vulnerable and lonely. He said he was just into sex.
14. I don't think I will ever enter into a relationship until I meet someone and fall in love with him instantly. There's this guy at college, a mature student. I've never spoken to him once, and even though the lecture halls fit about 800 people I am constantly looking at him, imagining conversations we could someday have. He's never looked at me, I just hope he's never caught me looking at him. If he has done, I don't think there'll ever be a day we get to talk, as I probably seem a complete freak.
15. I've been told I'm very pretty. I'm only 5'1", quite thin but curvy. I've had quite a lot of ass compliments. It's my greatest asset.
16. I want to be madly and deeply in love with someone, but I'm like my dad, and have similar traits to his. He left the home when I was 12, and seems to hate commitment like me. Although I crave 'a prince,' I seem to have awful luck, and I assure myself every day love will never find me, and I won't find love.
17. As you've probably guessed, I'm easy to get into bed. I've often ditched my friends in order to have sex, which I hate, but it's my New Year's resolution to never do it again. My desire to have sex while drunk always clouds my judgment in the most hideous ways.
18. I'm scared if I ever fall hook, line and sinker for a man they'll hurt me, as I have a massive heart that is just dormant. That's why I think I go for guys that don't really like me that much. I know what I'm getting into, so when they finally decide to get with another girl in front of me, as they have done, I won't have expected any less, and it won't hurt as much.
19. I love pain mingled with sex. I like the sensations; pain and pleasure to mingle. I love when guys slap my ass. I also love the feel of getting a massive hickey, just not the after-mark as my mum is now really worried about me as I keep coming home in the morning with a hickey after 'spending the night in my friend's granny's house'. I currently have 2 hickeys from 2 different guys.
20. I want to some day have sex with a girl using a strap-on.
21. I wish I could give up sex and go on a hunt for a real partner, but as soon as there is drink in me I become an animal, and I love drink, followed by sex, way too much.
22. I hope to have sex with ecstasy in my system soon.
23. The further the list goes on, the more I think I'm going to hell, even though I'm atheist, which probably contributes to the 'going to hell' feeling.
24. I keep telling myself I'm happy with the way I am, and that it contributes to my independence and lifestyle, but the more I think about how truly lonely I've always been, the more it hurts... I've started getting a name for myself, and I'm really scared for the future.
25. I hope one day I'll be able to fall in love with someone and show them this list, and they will love me enough not to care, but I'm scared I've become too much like damaged goods.
Tuesday, January 11, 2011
1. I am a 21-year-old female who is mainly attracted to men, but has been attracted to people of all sort of other genders and can’t think of any sexuality label for myself that I care to take on.
2. Until a year ago, I had had slept with 2 people, both of whom were men my age who I was in long-term relationships with. Now, that number is up to six and someone 20 years older than me and a woman were added to my list. 2010 was good for me.
3. The sex workers I have met are some of the most incredible, brilliant, masters of the art of seduction and sexuality that I know.
4. Would BDSM/power play be as interesting if it weren’t for the terrible social inequalities that are being referenced and played with in these fantasies? I don’t know, but I am a fierce feminist, and love to be submissive in bed.
5. I orgasm easily sometimes, but other times enjoy myself a lot but don’t really reach a climactic point. This is not really something that bothers me, I know the difference between feeling satisfied and feeling unsatisfied, and for me it’s not always defined by climax.
6. I like big men... but I’ve had a skinny guy ask me to dominate him. That was fun too.
7. Giving blowjobs might possibly be my favorite sexual act. I love the feeling of constantly learning new skills to craft the perfect orgasm on the other person, who loves every minute of your creative performance. I love figuring out new blowjob skills, and if I dominant man wants to teach me some new ones, I’m eager to learn.
8. I’m overweight as well as sexy as hell. No contradiction there.
9. Watching porn has led me to imagine the people I meet naked or having sex infinitely more often than I did before, especially women. I think I have been able to do this while continuing to respect them.
10. There are a few dirty pictures of me floating around on the internet.
11. Most good orgasms involve me rubbing my clit a bit in just the way that I need... I don’t think that’s a problem. On the contrary, my clit is amazing and I wouldn’t want to leave it out of any orgasm!
12. I have group sex and threesome fantasies.
13. I have double and triple penetration fantasies.
14. I have never removed any hair on my pussy. To me it just seems wrong, though of course I would never dictate what someone else should do. But this doesn’t seem to be a problem for most people I have slept with.
15. I have two vibrators but hardly ever use them; my hands work way better for me.
16. The best orgasms- and possibly the best feeling- I think I have ever had is masturbating by myself, after smoking a joint.
17. I once took a man’s virginity and totally got off on how nervous and trembling with excitement he was.
18. I love to be spanked.
19. Although variation is the spice of life, I think my favorite trajectory when fucking my boyfriend is to start with him on top, switch on doggy style when I just need it deeper, and then get myself to climax while he fingers me.
20. I really love my boobs a lot.
21. And my pussy.
22. Some things I have not yet experienced that I would like to include learning to squirt and finally having pleasurable anal sex.
23. I would like to meet a sexual partner who gets turned on by menstrual blood. I think it’s gorgeous but none of my past sexual partners have cared for it, to say the least.
24. Every morning when I wake up my hands are down my pants... I guess my hands are just most comfortable tucked away in my pussy.
25. I know you aren’t reading this, French lover, but I want so much right now to light up a cigarette and have you go down on me for old times' sake.
2. Until a year ago, I had had slept with 2 people, both of whom were men my age who I was in long-term relationships with. Now, that number is up to six and someone 20 years older than me and a woman were added to my list. 2010 was good for me.
3. The sex workers I have met are some of the most incredible, brilliant, masters of the art of seduction and sexuality that I know.
4. Would BDSM/power play be as interesting if it weren’t for the terrible social inequalities that are being referenced and played with in these fantasies? I don’t know, but I am a fierce feminist, and love to be submissive in bed.
5. I orgasm easily sometimes, but other times enjoy myself a lot but don’t really reach a climactic point. This is not really something that bothers me, I know the difference between feeling satisfied and feeling unsatisfied, and for me it’s not always defined by climax.
6. I like big men... but I’ve had a skinny guy ask me to dominate him. That was fun too.
7. Giving blowjobs might possibly be my favorite sexual act. I love the feeling of constantly learning new skills to craft the perfect orgasm on the other person, who loves every minute of your creative performance. I love figuring out new blowjob skills, and if I dominant man wants to teach me some new ones, I’m eager to learn.
8. I’m overweight as well as sexy as hell. No contradiction there.
9. Watching porn has led me to imagine the people I meet naked or having sex infinitely more often than I did before, especially women. I think I have been able to do this while continuing to respect them.
10. There are a few dirty pictures of me floating around on the internet.
11. Most good orgasms involve me rubbing my clit a bit in just the way that I need... I don’t think that’s a problem. On the contrary, my clit is amazing and I wouldn’t want to leave it out of any orgasm!
12. I have group sex and threesome fantasies.
13. I have double and triple penetration fantasies.
14. I have never removed any hair on my pussy. To me it just seems wrong, though of course I would never dictate what someone else should do. But this doesn’t seem to be a problem for most people I have slept with.
15. I have two vibrators but hardly ever use them; my hands work way better for me.
16. The best orgasms- and possibly the best feeling- I think I have ever had is masturbating by myself, after smoking a joint.
17. I once took a man’s virginity and totally got off on how nervous and trembling with excitement he was.
18. I love to be spanked.
19. Although variation is the spice of life, I think my favorite trajectory when fucking my boyfriend is to start with him on top, switch on doggy style when I just need it deeper, and then get myself to climax while he fingers me.
20. I really love my boobs a lot.
21. And my pussy.
22. Some things I have not yet experienced that I would like to include learning to squirt and finally having pleasurable anal sex.
23. I would like to meet a sexual partner who gets turned on by menstrual blood. I think it’s gorgeous but none of my past sexual partners have cared for it, to say the least.
24. Every morning when I wake up my hands are down my pants... I guess my hands are just most comfortable tucked away in my pussy.
25. I know you aren’t reading this, French lover, but I want so much right now to light up a cigarette and have you go down on me for old times' sake.
Monday, January 10, 2011
1. I am a 24-year-old female who hates labels regarding sexuality almost as much as labels regarding religion.
2. It took me years, and obviously lots of practice, but I am fully able to have multiple orgasms. Only two, at the most (for now).
3. I love talking about sexuality with my partners - even past partners. All the time, constantly.
4. I own a small travel-sized bullet vibrator, and two larger dildos. (One of which is the infamous Rabbit. I've only used it twice).
5. I prefer vibrational stimulation while masturbating, but penetrative stimulation during sex.
6. I've wept sometimes at the intensity of my emotions, and the physical sensations, during an orgasm..
7. I want to try everything, at least once. (Except for a very slim list of things I deem degrading; but, to each their own!)
8. I love, love, love laughing during sex. Funny noise? Laughter! Banged our teeth together? Laughter! And so on.
9. I've never made out with a woman - I do not wish to die without having done so. I'd also love to simply ravish her body with my mouth.
10. Sometimes I just want to lose myself with my current partner and let go of rational thought. Maybe get a little rough, bite him more deeply, go faster and harder. (But I worry too much of what he'd think).
11. Despite weighing (currently) 130 pounds, I am still extremely body-conscious. I'd love to videotape at some point, though. I just want to feel more comfortable with myself first.
12. I enjoy being dominated sometimes. But there's a fine line between shivering because I'm turned on, and shivering because I'm frightened. (I've never felt 'safe' enough to experiment with this).
13. I am a sexual abuse survivor. I have never been to therapy to discuss my sexual life. All healing has been done on my own, and with extremely understanding and, I stress, patient partners. I am forever grateful to them - but I feel most of the work done came from within. I'm proud of myself, and I feel this is only just the beginning. It's an extremely exciting time in my life, as a sexually active being.
14. I enjoy amateur, couple porn. I can't stand porn stars talking dirty throughout an entire video (clearly not enjoying themselves).
15. Only recently did I finally get a guy off in my mouth. I was grinning from ear to ear all day. I'm really looking forward to practicing deep-throat again too.
16. I have had six sexual partners. But I'm tired of thinking about the number. I don't think it matters.
17. Although I have never had children (and never want to), I had an IUD inserted. I love having sex without a condom as well as the sight of my partner's cum in the toilet-water afterward. I don't know why, but I think that's incredibly hot to see physical proof of just how hard I got him off.
18.Getting facials in the shower, hell yeah - easy clean-up, and the water that's already falling masks the actual cum-splatter sensation.
19. I love my breasts. 34 D, and I am very particular about making sure they've got proper support. (Underwire, ladies!)
20. High sex is amazing. I adore having high sex with my partner. We turn into animals, and become all about nothing but each other's pleasure.
21. At some point, my partner and I have agreed to try a day of only physicality as our means of communication - nothing verbal. I'm very much looking forward to using just my body as the only way able to express how I feel about him.
22. The sounds he makes when he gets off are the hottest I've ever heard. I love it when he makes noise.
23. I prefer uncircumcised penises (but do not discriminate). I just think they're natural and more beautiful (and more fun!).
24. My favorite position (currently) is something he and I refer to as 'chair' - he sits down, I straddle him, and I'm in full control of how fast, how hard, and how deep we go. It's amazing, and I'm glad he enjoys it so much too.
25. Sometimes I feel that intercourse (in whatever fashion: making love, sex, etc). is a purer form of love than anything I could possibly say or write with words.
2. It took me years, and obviously lots of practice, but I am fully able to have multiple orgasms. Only two, at the most (for now).
3. I love talking about sexuality with my partners - even past partners. All the time, constantly.
4. I own a small travel-sized bullet vibrator, and two larger dildos. (One of which is the infamous Rabbit. I've only used it twice).
5. I prefer vibrational stimulation while masturbating, but penetrative stimulation during sex.
6. I've wept sometimes at the intensity of my emotions, and the physical sensations, during an orgasm..
7. I want to try everything, at least once. (Except for a very slim list of things I deem degrading; but, to each their own!)
8. I love, love, love laughing during sex. Funny noise? Laughter! Banged our teeth together? Laughter! And so on.
9. I've never made out with a woman - I do not wish to die without having done so. I'd also love to simply ravish her body with my mouth.
10. Sometimes I just want to lose myself with my current partner and let go of rational thought. Maybe get a little rough, bite him more deeply, go faster and harder. (But I worry too much of what he'd think).
11. Despite weighing (currently) 130 pounds, I am still extremely body-conscious. I'd love to videotape at some point, though. I just want to feel more comfortable with myself first.
12. I enjoy being dominated sometimes. But there's a fine line between shivering because I'm turned on, and shivering because I'm frightened. (I've never felt 'safe' enough to experiment with this).
13. I am a sexual abuse survivor. I have never been to therapy to discuss my sexual life. All healing has been done on my own, and with extremely understanding and, I stress, patient partners. I am forever grateful to them - but I feel most of the work done came from within. I'm proud of myself, and I feel this is only just the beginning. It's an extremely exciting time in my life, as a sexually active being.
14. I enjoy amateur, couple porn. I can't stand porn stars talking dirty throughout an entire video (clearly not enjoying themselves).
15. Only recently did I finally get a guy off in my mouth. I was grinning from ear to ear all day. I'm really looking forward to practicing deep-throat again too.
16. I have had six sexual partners. But I'm tired of thinking about the number. I don't think it matters.
17. Although I have never had children (and never want to), I had an IUD inserted. I love having sex without a condom as well as the sight of my partner's cum in the toilet-water afterward. I don't know why, but I think that's incredibly hot to see physical proof of just how hard I got him off.
18.Getting facials in the shower, hell yeah - easy clean-up, and the water that's already falling masks the actual cum-splatter sensation.
19. I love my breasts. 34 D, and I am very particular about making sure they've got proper support. (Underwire, ladies!)
20. High sex is amazing. I adore having high sex with my partner. We turn into animals, and become all about nothing but each other's pleasure.
21. At some point, my partner and I have agreed to try a day of only physicality as our means of communication - nothing verbal. I'm very much looking forward to using just my body as the only way able to express how I feel about him.
22. The sounds he makes when he gets off are the hottest I've ever heard. I love it when he makes noise.
23. I prefer uncircumcised penises (but do not discriminate). I just think they're natural and more beautiful (and more fun!).
24. My favorite position (currently) is something he and I refer to as 'chair' - he sits down, I straddle him, and I'm in full control of how fast, how hard, and how deep we go. It's amazing, and I'm glad he enjoys it so much too.
25. Sometimes I feel that intercourse (in whatever fashion: making love, sex, etc). is a purer form of love than anything I could possibly say or write with words.
Sunday, January 9, 2011
1. I am a 31-year-old black male. I am tall, fit, and since puberty have never had any problem getting what I want sexually.
2. I am attracted to men and women, though I do not affiliate with the politics or socialization of a queer identity.
3. Most women I know find me attractive and a few of them have gotten scared by the idea that I am also attracted to men.
4. I lost my virginity at a graduation party. I was really drunk.
5. I’ve had sexual intercourse with 9 different people, all of them women.
6. The best handjob I’ve ever had was from a man.
7. I love eating pussy. I could do it for hours.
8. The majority of “muscled” gay men are not remotely attractive to me. As an athlete, I like well-proportioned men, rather than the muscle-heads that just lift weights and wear tight t-shirts.
9. Large penises and round bottoms turn me on. If women naturally had penises, I’d probably go for that.
10. I had sex with two different women on the same day. Didn’t use a condom either time. Not the coolest. One was my then-girlfriend and the other was the girl I was cheating on her with. I don’t do such foolish things anymore.
11. I’ve simultaneously made out with two different girls twice. The first time was in 8th grade. They both let me finger them under a blanket for a while. We all just giggled. The second time was in 10th grade, but everyone got naked. It was fun, but the two girls hated each other afterward.
12. I am very attracted to androgynously athletic women. Not manly, but tall, lean, fit women are very sexy.
13. My former girlfriend and I used to play with dildos often. We both enjoyed it a great deal.
14. Pornography has played a large role in developing my sexuality. Too large a role, but more sex-positive, feminist porn is really changing my life. I first saw porn magazines around age 9 or 10. I didn’t know what it was. Maybe around 11 or 12 I started to really get it... and i liked it.
15. I started masturbating around age 11 and ejaculated for the first time around age 12. It scared me. I just rubbed my penis into the bed until I came. That first ejaculation wasn’t so good because it made a mess.
16. I think about sex all the time.
17. I have a large penis--9 or 10 inches long and pretty thick. One of my former girlfriends used to have a hard time handling it, but she also loved it. I don’t enjoy the fetishization of black dick in popular media and culture. I don’t need people speculating about whether I have a large dick. I do. End of story. Get over it.
18. I enjoy anal sex.
19. Sexuality is increasingly sacred in my life.
20. Being black and having a non-hetero reality is not something that many black people accept. Different people for some very interesting and bizarre reasons.
21. I like that people like my physical body. I show it off when I get the opportunity.
22. I have always liked nerdy girls. There is something about eating a nerdy girl's pussy that I love. It’s almost like they just don’t expect it, but they totally love it.
23. I used to love masturbating outside.
24. I cannot understand why I never made out with my best friend from high school. He was hot, fit, and he was also attracted to me. very strange. I don’t think either of us really knew what to do about it, but many people thought we used to hook up.
25. I am very cautious about STDs these days. I’ve been lucky and don’t want to rely on that. “No glove, no love.”
2. I am attracted to men and women, though I do not affiliate with the politics or socialization of a queer identity.
3. Most women I know find me attractive and a few of them have gotten scared by the idea that I am also attracted to men.
4. I lost my virginity at a graduation party. I was really drunk.
5. I’ve had sexual intercourse with 9 different people, all of them women.
6. The best handjob I’ve ever had was from a man.
7. I love eating pussy. I could do it for hours.
8. The majority of “muscled” gay men are not remotely attractive to me. As an athlete, I like well-proportioned men, rather than the muscle-heads that just lift weights and wear tight t-shirts.
9. Large penises and round bottoms turn me on. If women naturally had penises, I’d probably go for that.
10. I had sex with two different women on the same day. Didn’t use a condom either time. Not the coolest. One was my then-girlfriend and the other was the girl I was cheating on her with. I don’t do such foolish things anymore.
11. I’ve simultaneously made out with two different girls twice. The first time was in 8th grade. They both let me finger them under a blanket for a while. We all just giggled. The second time was in 10th grade, but everyone got naked. It was fun, but the two girls hated each other afterward.
12. I am very attracted to androgynously athletic women. Not manly, but tall, lean, fit women are very sexy.
13. My former girlfriend and I used to play with dildos often. We both enjoyed it a great deal.
14. Pornography has played a large role in developing my sexuality. Too large a role, but more sex-positive, feminist porn is really changing my life. I first saw porn magazines around age 9 or 10. I didn’t know what it was. Maybe around 11 or 12 I started to really get it... and i liked it.
15. I started masturbating around age 11 and ejaculated for the first time around age 12. It scared me. I just rubbed my penis into the bed until I came. That first ejaculation wasn’t so good because it made a mess.
16. I think about sex all the time.
17. I have a large penis--9 or 10 inches long and pretty thick. One of my former girlfriends used to have a hard time handling it, but she also loved it. I don’t enjoy the fetishization of black dick in popular media and culture. I don’t need people speculating about whether I have a large dick. I do. End of story. Get over it.
18. I enjoy anal sex.
19. Sexuality is increasingly sacred in my life.
20. Being black and having a non-hetero reality is not something that many black people accept. Different people for some very interesting and bizarre reasons.
21. I like that people like my physical body. I show it off when I get the opportunity.
22. I have always liked nerdy girls. There is something about eating a nerdy girl's pussy that I love. It’s almost like they just don’t expect it, but they totally love it.
23. I used to love masturbating outside.
24. I cannot understand why I never made out with my best friend from high school. He was hot, fit, and he was also attracted to me. very strange. I don’t think either of us really knew what to do about it, but many people thought we used to hook up.
25. I am very cautious about STDs these days. I’ve been lucky and don’t want to rely on that. “No glove, no love.”
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