1. I've got all female anatomy, and I like all my female anatomy, but I identify much more strongly as a guy than as a girl, woman, man, or boy. It just feels right. So I want to begin to claim the label "genderqueer," but I'm worried no one will take me seriously or, worse, people who are much more gender non-conforming will be offended that I would call myself that, too. I don't want to trivialize the much harder road people who are more visibly gender-variant are on.
2. I had my first sexual contact when I was 14, with my first serious boyfriend. He would finger me and I would stroke him, and no one ever had an orgasm, but I think of those dizzy, secretive, hormonally crazed summer nights with deep fondness.
3. My first exposure to the queer world was through my first boyfriend, who more accurately would be called my first girlfriend. She told me a few months after we began having penetrative sex that she'd always wished she'd been born female.
4. Despite #3, I didn't realize I wasn't straight until about a year later. At that time, my first girlfriend had become increasingly emotionally abusive and the final straw that made me break up with her came when she refused to allow me to go to a hot tub party of a mutual female friend. I realized afterwards that the reason that one controlling act and not all the others upset me enough to break up with her was that I was crazy in love with that mutual friend.
5. I identify as a submissive masochist, but I think I may be more of a switch on the inside. Unfortunately, I'm terrified of my sadism, so I don't think I'll ever be able to let it out.
6. It wasn't until I took an online psychological research survey about sexual assault experiences that I realized one of my girlfriends had raped me, many times. I don't know how to feel about this, or what to do about it. I would say no, and she'd pressure me with anger, wheedling, and accusations of not finding her attractive until I would have sex with her. Sometimes I would just skip the coercion part and have sex with her when I knew she expected it, no matter what I wanted. Often, I would feel a growing sense of dread and nausea as the time for bed came nearer, knowing that I would not be given a choice of whether I wanted to have sex or not. The longer this kept up, the more often I didn't want to. While I was trying to figure out if I should break up with her, every time we had sex I felt like screaming, crying, and puking all at once. I'm not sure how it was that I didn't realize this wasn't okay.
7. I told many friends about what was going on, and none of them thought she was raping me, either. At worst they thought she was demanding or irrational.
8. Despite #6, my favorite sexual fantasies are and have nearly always been rape fantasies.
9. I began masturbating when I was 6, and found myself getting aroused at thoughts of cruel, dominating, non-consensual sexuality, although I didn't know what any of it was called or what it meant. Princess Jasmine in her gold chains, being yanked around and spat on by Jaffar, sent me into spirals of lust. I had my toy ponies divided into two countries, and have one be conquered by other, who would proceed to, as I know it was now but didn't then, rape them with cunnilingus.
10. Because of #8 and #9, I have wondered if something happened to me when I was a child. I don't remember anything, and I don't have negative feelings towards any male relatives, and I also believe that fantasies revolving around power are perfectly normal to have, so most of the time I am firmly convinced that I was just born kinky.
11. I'm currently in a polyamorous relationship with a cisman and ciswoman. It's the most fulfilled and happy I've ever been.
12. #11's cisman is very perverted, and I enjoy more than he knows every time he unveils a new level of his kinkiness. On top of that, I thrill to have discovered someone who won't be repulsed by my own perversions.
13. #11's cisman rarely goes as far as I want him to go, but I know that he also stops himself short of how far he wants to go, too, being afraid of pushing me too far despite the fact that I have a safeword.
14. #11's ciswoman is a switch, and she's much more free with her dominance and sadism. The very first time we did a rape scene together, I had to use my safeword. I regret now that I did - I think I was just afraid of how deeply we were both into it.
15. I masturbate to sociological studies. The ones that get me especially hot are those that support hypotheses with well crafted quantitative research - those high levels of statistical significance really turn me on. Another type that turns me on are those studies that use thought experiments and slowly build to their conclusion. The layering of evidence and logical connections excite me like slow foreplay.
16. I have had sex with 22 people. I turned 21 last week.
17. Oh, about that polyamorous relationship - the cisman is 46, the ciswoman is 20. His age is less important than I thought it would be.
18. I have sex with people for all sorts of reasons, and I'm a big supporter of sex being something without inherent meaning. It can be like a friendly game of hopscotch, or it can be a way to express deep love. It can be highly narcissistic or giving. It can be transcendent in a multitude of ways. It can affirm ties, it can revel in anonymity. It can be anything you and your partner(s) want it to be.
19. I actually prefer threesome sex. Maybe I'd like moresome sex even more, but I've yet to try it. For some reason, relating in threes feels most natural for me.
20. I became wet instantaneously when #11's cisman told me a fantasy he'd had of me being a young man. I was wearing my strap-on when he told me this, and he proceeded to suck my cock. I came within two minutes. Since then, I've fantasized more and more often of being a young man, in all sorts of situations. For some reason, when I do this, I'm more likely to fantasize something romantic and gentle.
21. I would fuck most of the people I'm friends with, enthusiastically.
22. Reading about that study that says women register sexual response to videos of bonobos mating relieved me greatly. Animal Planet mating season shows always made me feel a little turned on, and I had been worried I was a closet zoophiliac.
23. I know smoking is bad for your health, but I have about 20 photos of sexy girls smoking saved in my porn folder.
24. There is a certain way to touch the area around my clit that I've only been able to get right with a high powered vibrator that #11's ciswoman can do with her tongue, just perfect, every time. When that spot is touched in just that way, I can orgasm nearly continuously for as long as the stimulation continues or I can't take anymore, and will usually also ejaculate.
25. When I'm frustrated, I get incredibly aroused. Marble Madness was a lust-drenched video game in my world.
Sunday, April 18, 2010
1. I was 18 when I had sex with a guy for the first time. I was 20 when I had sex with a girl for the first time. Now I'm 25 and I've slept with 3 men and 7 women.
2. I have a younger brother and sister who have had more sexual partners than me. That really bothers me.
3. The first time I had sex with a guy was with a girlfriend on whom I had a secret crush. Every time the guy touched me, I secretly hoped it was her. It never was. I really enjoyed having sex with the guy though.
4. I was 20 when I got my first girlfriend. Since then I've had four relationships, all with women. The longest time I've been really single was about two months.
5. I'm afraid I’m not that good at being alone. But then again: why be alone, if you can be with someone?
6. I know it’s a cliché, but I love being in love and I’m really good at it.
7. I have a thing for writing love letters. I believe it’s a real art to put your love, or lust, into the right words. I love writing dirty letters as well.
8. With my love letters, I’ve made people laugh, blush and cry. My ultimate goal is to make someone come, just with my words.
9. I like it a bit dirty. I think great sex should be a little filthy, very sweaty and absolutely without shame.
10. I like to talk about sex. I'm curious to what other people do in their bedroom. Because maybe they can give me inspiration, but even more so because I think people become as real and genuine as it gets when they're having sex. I think: if you really want to get to know someone, see how they have sex.
11. I could never tape myself having sex. A former girlfriend once tried, but shortly after we started my roommate came in. I think it was a sign. God's way of saying: you can better just do it than tape it.
12. I identify as a lesbian but fantasize a lot about sex with men. There is just something about a guy sticking his dick inside you.
13. Having that said: I think being fucked with fingers feels at least 10 times better than being fucked with a dick. Maybe it’s because the fingers that fucked me all belonged to girls, and as we all know, girls happen to be better in bed.
14. I can been quite aggressive in bed. I think that scares me more than it scares the girls I'm aggressive to.
15. I masturbate almost every day, some days more than once. My record is about 10 times a day. I’m not really ashamed about masturbating, and I can easily talk about it with lovers, friends and even family. I never tell anyone, though, that I use my electric toothbrush.
16. I've faked an orgasm twice, with a girl I later would have the best sex ever with. I still feel kinda guilty for faking, even though I'm sure I've made up for it.
17. Knowing that, I feel it still would really suck to find out someone faked an orgasm with me. I absolutely love it when I make people come. To me it’s better than having an orgasm myself.
18. I've made girls squirt, it's real sexy but because of the mess, there were times I performed lousy on purpose so I wouldn't have to clean up afterwards.
19. All the women I've had sex with have told me I was really good at it. I wonder if it's their low standards or my great accomplishments.
20. I believe people who are too confident are lazy in bed. I’d rather be insecure than lazy. The biggest compliment someone ever gave me was when she said that I am gracious in bed.
21. I love love love cunnilingus. I think it tastes sweet, and in some weird way, lying between her legs licking her pussy makes me feel safe. And of course horny as hell.
22. At the moment I have a fuckbuddy whom I love to have sex with. She has a killer body and her kisses taste like spring.
23. For the last couple of hours I haven't been able to stop thinking about this morning when she sat on top of me and was so wet, it was dripping all over my belly.
24. I’d love to have a threesome with her and a guy. I have this fantasy where she’s riding on top of him while touching herself. I told her about it. All she said (with a big smile) was "I’m in." I love her for that.
25. To me, sex is not that important; it's all about being close to someone. When I think about it, my favorite part about sex (apart from getting her off) is when you’re both immensely sweaty, crawl into each other's arms and fall asleep.
2. I have a younger brother and sister who have had more sexual partners than me. That really bothers me.
3. The first time I had sex with a guy was with a girlfriend on whom I had a secret crush. Every time the guy touched me, I secretly hoped it was her. It never was. I really enjoyed having sex with the guy though.
4. I was 20 when I got my first girlfriend. Since then I've had four relationships, all with women. The longest time I've been really single was about two months.
5. I'm afraid I’m not that good at being alone. But then again: why be alone, if you can be with someone?
6. I know it’s a cliché, but I love being in love and I’m really good at it.
7. I have a thing for writing love letters. I believe it’s a real art to put your love, or lust, into the right words. I love writing dirty letters as well.
8. With my love letters, I’ve made people laugh, blush and cry. My ultimate goal is to make someone come, just with my words.
9. I like it a bit dirty. I think great sex should be a little filthy, very sweaty and absolutely without shame.
10. I like to talk about sex. I'm curious to what other people do in their bedroom. Because maybe they can give me inspiration, but even more so because I think people become as real and genuine as it gets when they're having sex. I think: if you really want to get to know someone, see how they have sex.
11. I could never tape myself having sex. A former girlfriend once tried, but shortly after we started my roommate came in. I think it was a sign. God's way of saying: you can better just do it than tape it.
12. I identify as a lesbian but fantasize a lot about sex with men. There is just something about a guy sticking his dick inside you.
13. Having that said: I think being fucked with fingers feels at least 10 times better than being fucked with a dick. Maybe it’s because the fingers that fucked me all belonged to girls, and as we all know, girls happen to be better in bed.
14. I can been quite aggressive in bed. I think that scares me more than it scares the girls I'm aggressive to.
15. I masturbate almost every day, some days more than once. My record is about 10 times a day. I’m not really ashamed about masturbating, and I can easily talk about it with lovers, friends and even family. I never tell anyone, though, that I use my electric toothbrush.
16. I've faked an orgasm twice, with a girl I later would have the best sex ever with. I still feel kinda guilty for faking, even though I'm sure I've made up for it.
17. Knowing that, I feel it still would really suck to find out someone faked an orgasm with me. I absolutely love it when I make people come. To me it’s better than having an orgasm myself.
18. I've made girls squirt, it's real sexy but because of the mess, there were times I performed lousy on purpose so I wouldn't have to clean up afterwards.
19. All the women I've had sex with have told me I was really good at it. I wonder if it's their low standards or my great accomplishments.
20. I believe people who are too confident are lazy in bed. I’d rather be insecure than lazy. The biggest compliment someone ever gave me was when she said that I am gracious in bed.
21. I love love love cunnilingus. I think it tastes sweet, and in some weird way, lying between her legs licking her pussy makes me feel safe. And of course horny as hell.
22. At the moment I have a fuckbuddy whom I love to have sex with. She has a killer body and her kisses taste like spring.
23. For the last couple of hours I haven't been able to stop thinking about this morning when she sat on top of me and was so wet, it was dripping all over my belly.
24. I’d love to have a threesome with her and a guy. I have this fantasy where she’s riding on top of him while touching herself. I told her about it. All she said (with a big smile) was "I’m in." I love her for that.
25. To me, sex is not that important; it's all about being close to someone. When I think about it, my favorite part about sex (apart from getting her off) is when you’re both immensely sweaty, crawl into each other's arms and fall asleep.
Monday, April 12, 2010
1. When I was a very little kid I liked pool jets. A lot. Also, bathtub faucet water, which is an angle that’s only easily accessible when you’re a very little kid.
2. When I was maybe young-teenager-ish and would masturbate, I’d feel so guilty I would burn my hands with a candle. This was really a turn-on more than a punishment, so I’m not quite sure what the point was.
3. I didn’t kiss anyone till I was 19. Mostly because I’d been dating boys who I found hopelessly unattractive, but I went on dates with them because for some reason I thought to turn them down wouldn’t be polite. Then I wouldn’t let them touch me. My first kiss was with a girl at a party, one of those parties where people are just drunk and kissing everybody. It was a nice little kiss, sort of sunny and innocent, and then she turned around and kissed the boy behind me. I’m sure she had no idea that was my first kiss!
4. I wandered around for a long time feeling fragile and dazed because I knew I was a lesbian-or-something-like-that but was too scared to let anyone else know.
5. I knew the girl who would become my first girlfriend liked me because of the way she played with my hair. We made out the first night we met, outside in the school’s courtyard on a blanket with another couple who were also busy snoodling each other. When we kissed I was so nervous and turned on that I felt sick to my stomach. She said “you taste like mint tea” and I said “you taste like iron” and all I could think of was that iron is poisonous to fairies.
6. When we were together she would mark me up, even when I told her no. I would have embarrassing bruises on my neck and torso from where she sucked too hard. I still don’t like people to leave marks.
7. The first and only person I have had sex with is my current partner. The first time was a really great experience, we were so ready for it and we were already in love. We’d just gotten back from seeing Rocky Horror Picture Show, and I had on lacy underthings under my boy clothes. I remember more about touching zir then about zir touching me. But the whole time was gentle and caring and good. After that we went into sort of a frenzy and did almost nothing but have sex for days!
8. Having sex for the first time took two tries though because I stopped breathing and my hands went numb! It took awhile before I learned to breathe normally during sex. I learned to follow my partner’s breath.
9. When I have sex I generally think of myself as male, strap-on or no. I’m pretty happily female-ish the rest of the time, if a bit on the genderqueer side. But it’s always sexy to be called “boy.”
10. Before I actually started having sex I thought I’d be a total and complete submissive. In reality, I’m pretty switchy. I love topping because it gives me a chance to come up with creative scenarios and pay close attention to my partner’s pleasure. I like bottoming because it allows me to get lost in sensation.
11. I love anal sex. Giving and receiving. It’s powerful and a little naughty.
12. I think I would have a difficult time having sex with a person with an original-plumbing penis. I have a terrible gag reflex and I only like vaginal penetration occasionally and with something very small.
13. I like oral sex from time to time. Giving and receiving.
14. The craziest place I have had sex was in a snowbank by a frozen river (the clothes stayed on). Everything was still and beautiful.
15. I make my own bondage gear. I sewed beautiful wrist-and-ankle cuffs, they are vel-cro with a celestial pattern. They’re for adorable bondage. I like rope bondage too, tying my partner up in pretty patterns.
16. When I first started having sex I would see strange patterns and pictures during, especially if I was sleepy. I don’t anymore, but I am also less inclined to have sleepy sex now, preferring morning or afternoon lovemaking.
17. Most of the time my sexual fantasies are about gay-boy couples. I don’t know why. I also like stories about hardcore s&m that are way more intense than anything I’d probably want to try in real life.
18. I sometimes wonder how things would be with a different partner. Since I’ve only had sex with one person, sometimes I feel like I’m missing out on variety of experience. I am in a very monogamous relationship. I can’t even have a sexual dream about someone other than my partner without feeling terrible about it IN THE DREAM. Sometimes I’d like to kiss other people; not sleep with, just kiss. I really like kissing and when I’m single I’ll kiss just about anyone and not attach much serious emotion to it. But I have never cheated/gone beyond pre-discussed boundaries.
19. I like porn, especially pretty-dykes-who-actually-look-queer porn. I cringe at the loooong fingernails in lots of the designed-for-straight-men lesbian porn. My partner likes penis porn. I don’t usually seek out porn with boys-who-have-penises on my own, but it’s hot when we watch it together.
20. I like vibrators. And butt-plugs. And dildos, more for use on my partner than on myself. I have a sizeable and still-growing toy collection.
21. Smell is a big part of attraction for me. When my partner started taking testosterone, zir smell changed. When ze stopped again, ze smelled really really good to me and I wanted to pounce zir all the time. My nose likes estrogen-based people I guess.
22. When asked to name my sexual orientation/identity I use “queer” these days. It’s umbrella enough to encompass me. It’s a social identity too, and a way of thinking outside of “gay” and “straight.”
23. From time to time I like packing and then going to the dance club and grinding with my boi.
24. I do drag/cabaret, sometimes with very little on. Taking my clothes off in a bar full of people feels more empowering and less objectifying than I would have imagined. I love it that people find me--a very far cry from traditional media beauty--sexy. I like to make people question their notions of what’s attractive. I like to turn gay boys on.
25. I think I am lucky to get to express my sexuality often, safely, with someone I love. I have never had bad sex.
2. When I was maybe young-teenager-ish and would masturbate, I’d feel so guilty I would burn my hands with a candle. This was really a turn-on more than a punishment, so I’m not quite sure what the point was.
3. I didn’t kiss anyone till I was 19. Mostly because I’d been dating boys who I found hopelessly unattractive, but I went on dates with them because for some reason I thought to turn them down wouldn’t be polite. Then I wouldn’t let them touch me. My first kiss was with a girl at a party, one of those parties where people are just drunk and kissing everybody. It was a nice little kiss, sort of sunny and innocent, and then she turned around and kissed the boy behind me. I’m sure she had no idea that was my first kiss!
4. I wandered around for a long time feeling fragile and dazed because I knew I was a lesbian-or-something-like-that but was too scared to let anyone else know.
5. I knew the girl who would become my first girlfriend liked me because of the way she played with my hair. We made out the first night we met, outside in the school’s courtyard on a blanket with another couple who were also busy snoodling each other. When we kissed I was so nervous and turned on that I felt sick to my stomach. She said “you taste like mint tea” and I said “you taste like iron” and all I could think of was that iron is poisonous to fairies.
6. When we were together she would mark me up, even when I told her no. I would have embarrassing bruises on my neck and torso from where she sucked too hard. I still don’t like people to leave marks.
7. The first and only person I have had sex with is my current partner. The first time was a really great experience, we were so ready for it and we were already in love. We’d just gotten back from seeing Rocky Horror Picture Show, and I had on lacy underthings under my boy clothes. I remember more about touching zir then about zir touching me. But the whole time was gentle and caring and good. After that we went into sort of a frenzy and did almost nothing but have sex for days!
8. Having sex for the first time took two tries though because I stopped breathing and my hands went numb! It took awhile before I learned to breathe normally during sex. I learned to follow my partner’s breath.
9. When I have sex I generally think of myself as male, strap-on or no. I’m pretty happily female-ish the rest of the time, if a bit on the genderqueer side. But it’s always sexy to be called “boy.”
10. Before I actually started having sex I thought I’d be a total and complete submissive. In reality, I’m pretty switchy. I love topping because it gives me a chance to come up with creative scenarios and pay close attention to my partner’s pleasure. I like bottoming because it allows me to get lost in sensation.
11. I love anal sex. Giving and receiving. It’s powerful and a little naughty.
12. I think I would have a difficult time having sex with a person with an original-plumbing penis. I have a terrible gag reflex and I only like vaginal penetration occasionally and with something very small.
13. I like oral sex from time to time. Giving and receiving.
14. The craziest place I have had sex was in a snowbank by a frozen river (the clothes stayed on). Everything was still and beautiful.
15. I make my own bondage gear. I sewed beautiful wrist-and-ankle cuffs, they are vel-cro with a celestial pattern. They’re for adorable bondage. I like rope bondage too, tying my partner up in pretty patterns.
16. When I first started having sex I would see strange patterns and pictures during, especially if I was sleepy. I don’t anymore, but I am also less inclined to have sleepy sex now, preferring morning or afternoon lovemaking.
17. Most of the time my sexual fantasies are about gay-boy couples. I don’t know why. I also like stories about hardcore s&m that are way more intense than anything I’d probably want to try in real life.
18. I sometimes wonder how things would be with a different partner. Since I’ve only had sex with one person, sometimes I feel like I’m missing out on variety of experience. I am in a very monogamous relationship. I can’t even have a sexual dream about someone other than my partner without feeling terrible about it IN THE DREAM. Sometimes I’d like to kiss other people; not sleep with, just kiss. I really like kissing and when I’m single I’ll kiss just about anyone and not attach much serious emotion to it. But I have never cheated/gone beyond pre-discussed boundaries.
19. I like porn, especially pretty-dykes-who-actually-look-queer porn. I cringe at the loooong fingernails in lots of the designed-for-straight-men lesbian porn. My partner likes penis porn. I don’t usually seek out porn with boys-who-have-penises on my own, but it’s hot when we watch it together.
20. I like vibrators. And butt-plugs. And dildos, more for use on my partner than on myself. I have a sizeable and still-growing toy collection.
21. Smell is a big part of attraction for me. When my partner started taking testosterone, zir smell changed. When ze stopped again, ze smelled really really good to me and I wanted to pounce zir all the time. My nose likes estrogen-based people I guess.
22. When asked to name my sexual orientation/identity I use “queer” these days. It’s umbrella enough to encompass me. It’s a social identity too, and a way of thinking outside of “gay” and “straight.”
23. From time to time I like packing and then going to the dance club and grinding with my boi.
24. I do drag/cabaret, sometimes with very little on. Taking my clothes off in a bar full of people feels more empowering and less objectifying than I would have imagined. I love it that people find me--a very far cry from traditional media beauty--sexy. I like to make people question their notions of what’s attractive. I like to turn gay boys on.
25. I think I am lucky to get to express my sexuality often, safely, with someone I love. I have never had bad sex.
Sunday, April 11, 2010
1. I was born female and I'm glad, but gender hasn't ever been very important to me. I like people, elements, animals, objects--life turns me on.
2. The first time I heard the term bisexual I was 12. That was me until kids started saying I was just doing it to get boys' attention or I was gay and in denial--I was dating a boy at the time. Later I switched to answering that I was pansexual, which led to explaining "pansexual" to everyone who asks.
3. #2 and I never had sex. We made out and dry-humped, he nagged me for sex, I let him finger me once. I shaved beforehand, I thought he'd be grossed out if I hadn't. He was awful and it didn't turn me on at all, I faked what I thought an orgasm would be like just so he'd finish. He went to wash his hand and when he came back he said "my hand smelled kinda funny." He wouldn't lay off about sex. I told him I didn't want to risk using just condoms. He talked me into going on the pill, I started it but told him it took 30 days to start working. I dumped him on instant messaging later that week.
4. I stayed on the pill until I was 16. I wish I hadn't. It smothered my libido, I had my first orgasm at about 14... but I still made out a lot with friends, a few foolings around, but never any actual sex, per se.
5. The first person I actually fucked was a girl--I didn't know her name. I had turned 17 a few days before. We fucked drunk and high for at least 12 hours next to two friends of mine on a small bed, I yelled, moaned and screamed. I ate her out for hours, her body was similar to mine, almost eerily so. I couldn't come the whole time, I don't remember if she did.
6. I wasn't with anyone for 7 months. I ran into an old friend, we flirted comfortably, sang, took lots of drugs, some homemade. We fucked the whole night, awkwardly but enjoyably. I wanted to have anal sex but he was too big for no lube. When the sun rose we went outside and fucked against trees, he was wearing a skirt, I loved it and I'm glad we used condoms. We met up once later that month at a party--I was on coke. We fucked without protection all night, the weather was stifling, we didn't sleep until morning. I got some Plan B the next day and swore to myself I'd always carry condoms with me from now on.
7. I've only ever come by myself, and I worry about gushing with other people, most seem like they couldn't handle it.
8. I'm a slut at heart, but people assume I don't get laid because I never date and I don't usually talk my random hook-ups.
9. I masturbate all the time and I love it more than any two-person sex I've had. I hope to be with people I can feel that way with.
10. It saddens me when people are anti-sex and they don't even realize it. I try to be as overtly sex-positive as possible; it sparks a lot of fun conversations.
11. I'm not attracted to most people I meet, but when I am it's usually because of how comfortable they are with themselves.
12. I want to fuck my way around the world, but when people ask me what I like about travel I tell them that I love experiencing new cultures...
13. I try to be as comfortable with my physicality as possible, but sometimes mainstream brainwashing makes me feel worthless/less entitled to behave however I want because I'm not thin. I know it's stupid, but it still happens.
14. I love being roughed up when having sex. I'm tired of nice boys, they're too nice. They get flustered when I ask them to be mean.
15. I hate when guys sincerely "can't find the clit!" Or don't want to go down on a girl because they "aren't very good at it." I've only heard these excuses from younger boys. I have trouble finding older guys to fuck that aren't total creeps.
16. I've been uninterested in sex physically for a couple months, seeing as I've been really depressed, but I continue to read porn/fantasize. My body just doesn't react much.
17. I've got an incredible mother who supports my sexuality and porny ambitions in life.
18. I'm 18 now. #2 killed himself a few months ago. I wasn't surprised or regretful.
19. I'm most turned on when hiking or backpacking, when totally immersed in the real world. All my camping friends I have aren't hot to me, though.
20. When I was a young girl, I'd always get weird feelings toward jerk boys I wasn't even friends with. I now realize I just wanted to hatefuck them. Maybe I should have tried that instead of punching.
21. I love, love, love orgasms. I often have trouble stopping after just one or five or eight. Occasionally I'll run late because I took more time than I thought I would coming!
22. I've never been in deep love, I'm not sad about it. If it ever happens it will probably be one of the best and worst thing to happen to me. In the meantime, I love getting to know people in and out of bed.
23. I've never participated in group sex beyond #5. I think I'd be very well-suited to it, though.
24. I'm incredibly turned on by bloodplay, being held down, and many other dark things, but I don't trust anyone enough for any of it, at least not at this point in my life.
25. I love happy sex that doesn't take itself too seriously.
2. The first time I heard the term bisexual I was 12. That was me until kids started saying I was just doing it to get boys' attention or I was gay and in denial--I was dating a boy at the time. Later I switched to answering that I was pansexual, which led to explaining "pansexual" to everyone who asks.
3. #2 and I never had sex. We made out and dry-humped, he nagged me for sex, I let him finger me once. I shaved beforehand, I thought he'd be grossed out if I hadn't. He was awful and it didn't turn me on at all, I faked what I thought an orgasm would be like just so he'd finish. He went to wash his hand and when he came back he said "my hand smelled kinda funny." He wouldn't lay off about sex. I told him I didn't want to risk using just condoms. He talked me into going on the pill, I started it but told him it took 30 days to start working. I dumped him on instant messaging later that week.
4. I stayed on the pill until I was 16. I wish I hadn't. It smothered my libido, I had my first orgasm at about 14... but I still made out a lot with friends, a few foolings around, but never any actual sex, per se.
5. The first person I actually fucked was a girl--I didn't know her name. I had turned 17 a few days before. We fucked drunk and high for at least 12 hours next to two friends of mine on a small bed, I yelled, moaned and screamed. I ate her out for hours, her body was similar to mine, almost eerily so. I couldn't come the whole time, I don't remember if she did.
6. I wasn't with anyone for 7 months. I ran into an old friend, we flirted comfortably, sang, took lots of drugs, some homemade. We fucked the whole night, awkwardly but enjoyably. I wanted to have anal sex but he was too big for no lube. When the sun rose we went outside and fucked against trees, he was wearing a skirt, I loved it and I'm glad we used condoms. We met up once later that month at a party--I was on coke. We fucked without protection all night, the weather was stifling, we didn't sleep until morning. I got some Plan B the next day and swore to myself I'd always carry condoms with me from now on.
7. I've only ever come by myself, and I worry about gushing with other people, most seem like they couldn't handle it.
8. I'm a slut at heart, but people assume I don't get laid because I never date and I don't usually talk my random hook-ups.
9. I masturbate all the time and I love it more than any two-person sex I've had. I hope to be with people I can feel that way with.
10. It saddens me when people are anti-sex and they don't even realize it. I try to be as overtly sex-positive as possible; it sparks a lot of fun conversations.
11. I'm not attracted to most people I meet, but when I am it's usually because of how comfortable they are with themselves.
12. I want to fuck my way around the world, but when people ask me what I like about travel I tell them that I love experiencing new cultures...
13. I try to be as comfortable with my physicality as possible, but sometimes mainstream brainwashing makes me feel worthless/less entitled to behave however I want because I'm not thin. I know it's stupid, but it still happens.
14. I love being roughed up when having sex. I'm tired of nice boys, they're too nice. They get flustered when I ask them to be mean.
15. I hate when guys sincerely "can't find the clit!" Or don't want to go down on a girl because they "aren't very good at it." I've only heard these excuses from younger boys. I have trouble finding older guys to fuck that aren't total creeps.
16. I've been uninterested in sex physically for a couple months, seeing as I've been really depressed, but I continue to read porn/fantasize. My body just doesn't react much.
17. I've got an incredible mother who supports my sexuality and porny ambitions in life.
18. I'm 18 now. #2 killed himself a few months ago. I wasn't surprised or regretful.
19. I'm most turned on when hiking or backpacking, when totally immersed in the real world. All my camping friends I have aren't hot to me, though.
20. When I was a young girl, I'd always get weird feelings toward jerk boys I wasn't even friends with. I now realize I just wanted to hatefuck them. Maybe I should have tried that instead of punching.
21. I love, love, love orgasms. I often have trouble stopping after just one or five or eight. Occasionally I'll run late because I took more time than I thought I would coming!
22. I've never been in deep love, I'm not sad about it. If it ever happens it will probably be one of the best and worst thing to happen to me. In the meantime, I love getting to know people in and out of bed.
23. I've never participated in group sex beyond #5. I think I'd be very well-suited to it, though.
24. I'm incredibly turned on by bloodplay, being held down, and many other dark things, but I don't trust anyone enough for any of it, at least not at this point in my life.
25. I love happy sex that doesn't take itself too seriously.
Saturday, April 10, 2010
1. I am bisexual.
2. I am biologically and mentally female, but in my sexual fantasies I'm sometimes a boy.
3. I've had a threesome once with a boy and a girl. The best part of it was making out with just the girl and feeling her naked torso against mine.
4. I get really annoyed when the person I'm making out with/fucking doesn't give my breasts enough attention.
5. The feeling of my naked breasts against someone's torso is probably the best feeling in the world. (Doesn't matter if the other person is a guy or a girl)
6. I love porn. What works best for me is girl on girl, or just a girl masturbating.
7. Masturbation in the shower is the best kind of masturbation.
8. I never try to take control during sex--I like being bossed around.
9. I like being penetrated, but I've only ever orgasmed as a result of being fingered.
10. I love breasts. I love looking at them, touching them, kissing them, anything. I prefer breasts that are round, firm and not too big.
11. Skinny, androgynous girls with short hair, tattoos and piercings turn me on.
12. I've made out with fourteen boys and five girls (some of them just once at parties, some of them several times. Sometimes I had feelings for them, sometimes I didn't). I gave head to two of the guys. I had sex with three of the guys, and one of the girls. I'm eighteen; the first time I ever made out with someone was when I was fifteen. I lost my virginity at sixteen to my then boyfriend. I've only had one boyfriend that I slept with, the others that I had sex with were all one-night stands.
13. I once had a one-night stand with a stranger in an unfamiliar city in a foreign country. It was the best sex I've ever had.
14. My favorite places to be touched are: breasts, stomach and inner thighs. I also love it when someone kisses my neck.
15. I fantasize about being hand-cuffed and fucked really hard and having absolutely no control over the situation.
16. I like skinny guys and guys that are fit, but not overly muscular. I like skinny to normal girls. I don't like girls with a lot of curves, but I find a slim waist and round-but-not-too-big hips very attractive.
17. I've never received oral sex, but I really want to. I imagine it would be way better than being fingered (not that being fingered isn't awesome!)
18. I think I'm crushing on this girl that I've made out with a few times, but she's very inexperienced, and that worries me, because I don't want to be the one who has to take control during sex. Then again, she might surprise me.
19. I've given head in semi-public places twice. Luckily, we didn't get caught in either of the cases.
20. I really want to have sex with the girl from #3. Like, just her and me. But she's one of my best friends, it would probably be weird, and I wouldn't know how to initiate it without just causing a really awkward situation.
21. I like talking about sex. I have a few friends with whom I can speak completely freely about sex, and honestly that's one of the reasons I count them among my best friends.
22. For a really long time I thought I couldn't have several orgasms after each other, but suddenly I discovered that I could. Now I always give myself two or three orgasms, and with #13 I think I had four or five.
23. I really want to have sex in a public place where there is a big risk of getting caught.
24. I've looked at porn and masturbated since I was little. I've been absolutely sure about my bisexuality since I was fourteen or fifteen.
25. I don't know if I'm easy or liberated or a slut or what, but I don't think twice about e.g. sleeping with someone I don't really know.
2. I am biologically and mentally female, but in my sexual fantasies I'm sometimes a boy.
3. I've had a threesome once with a boy and a girl. The best part of it was making out with just the girl and feeling her naked torso against mine.
4. I get really annoyed when the person I'm making out with/fucking doesn't give my breasts enough attention.
5. The feeling of my naked breasts against someone's torso is probably the best feeling in the world. (Doesn't matter if the other person is a guy or a girl)
6. I love porn. What works best for me is girl on girl, or just a girl masturbating.
7. Masturbation in the shower is the best kind of masturbation.
8. I never try to take control during sex--I like being bossed around.
9. I like being penetrated, but I've only ever orgasmed as a result of being fingered.
10. I love breasts. I love looking at them, touching them, kissing them, anything. I prefer breasts that are round, firm and not too big.
11. Skinny, androgynous girls with short hair, tattoos and piercings turn me on.
12. I've made out with fourteen boys and five girls (some of them just once at parties, some of them several times. Sometimes I had feelings for them, sometimes I didn't). I gave head to two of the guys. I had sex with three of the guys, and one of the girls. I'm eighteen; the first time I ever made out with someone was when I was fifteen. I lost my virginity at sixteen to my then boyfriend. I've only had one boyfriend that I slept with, the others that I had sex with were all one-night stands.
13. I once had a one-night stand with a stranger in an unfamiliar city in a foreign country. It was the best sex I've ever had.
14. My favorite places to be touched are: breasts, stomach and inner thighs. I also love it when someone kisses my neck.
15. I fantasize about being hand-cuffed and fucked really hard and having absolutely no control over the situation.
16. I like skinny guys and guys that are fit, but not overly muscular. I like skinny to normal girls. I don't like girls with a lot of curves, but I find a slim waist and round-but-not-too-big hips very attractive.
17. I've never received oral sex, but I really want to. I imagine it would be way better than being fingered (not that being fingered isn't awesome!)
18. I think I'm crushing on this girl that I've made out with a few times, but she's very inexperienced, and that worries me, because I don't want to be the one who has to take control during sex. Then again, she might surprise me.
19. I've given head in semi-public places twice. Luckily, we didn't get caught in either of the cases.
20. I really want to have sex with the girl from #3. Like, just her and me. But she's one of my best friends, it would probably be weird, and I wouldn't know how to initiate it without just causing a really awkward situation.
21. I like talking about sex. I have a few friends with whom I can speak completely freely about sex, and honestly that's one of the reasons I count them among my best friends.
22. For a really long time I thought I couldn't have several orgasms after each other, but suddenly I discovered that I could. Now I always give myself two or three orgasms, and with #13 I think I had four or five.
23. I really want to have sex in a public place where there is a big risk of getting caught.
24. I've looked at porn and masturbated since I was little. I've been absolutely sure about my bisexuality since I was fourteen or fifteen.
25. I don't know if I'm easy or liberated or a slut or what, but I don't think twice about e.g. sleeping with someone I don't really know.
Friday, April 9, 2010
1. I am a 24-year-old female and a virgin (of everything). It’s not because of religion. I have no real reason for it. Most of this list is going to be stuck on that fact.
2. I’m not sure if my lack of interest in dating and sex now is normal. I’ve never dated and never been kissed. I masturbate less now than in my teens. I don’t want to be headed on this downward slope! I use to wonder if I was asexual but I think I’m afraid of intimacy.
3. I think there is too much emphasis on virginity in societies. It leads to a double standard. My virginity is my business. How, when, who is MY business too. I’ll let you know if I think you should!
4. Sometimes I am embarrassed to have been a virgin for so long. I know I shouldn’t be. I didn’t consider having sex until after high school. I was too shy. I hate when people talk about sex around me, only because I don’t want to actually confess the virgin part. I can fake it if no one knows!
5. Before I had access to the Internet to find out about sex, it was all from books. I just had to be very discreet with what I was reading. The book "Everything You Wanted to Know about Sex but Were Afraid to Ask" has a terrible, BRIGHT YELLOW cover. Even when you take off the dust jacket! This was never on my bookshelf.
6. Porn movies rarely compare to my own mental fantasies. I need a plot AND sex scenes. I have an active fantasy life and I love reading slash fan fiction. I prefer gay porn. I wonder if my fantasy life is going to ruin my actual sex life.
7. Often, I imagine myself as a man having sex with another man during my fantasies. I still like being a woman. I may just turn out to be a woman trying a strap-on in real life.
8. I didn’t get much of a sex education from my parents. I believe it was a short pamphlet by Dear Abby or some advice columnist. That’s all I remember getting.
9. I feel vaguely guilty and dirty after masturbating to non-con fantasies (between gay and hetero couples). I rationalize my slight guilt afterwards that it’s only in my head, and I’m not actually contributing to an increase in rape crimes. I still feel bad.
10. I’m more aroused by the thought of male bodies than females. I’m not really attracted to women but I wouldn’t say a definite no. I can admire their bodies.
11. Androgyny? Guys in eyeliner? Tattoos? Oh yes. Make me smile and laugh. Oh yes. Arousal.
12. Two months ago, I finally bought my first sex toys. The vibrator was too big. The only one that fits isn’t anywhere close to a normal penis size. At the rate I’m going, it’ll be a while before it fits. I’ll make sure it will. Why should I be uncomfortable/in pain during my first time? I’m going to make sure that I enjoy sex as much as my partner.
13. I’ve never had an orgasm from penetration yet. I never used my fingers until a year ago. It just seemed unhygienic to me before. I love my clit stimulator more.
14. I love the idea of being cuddled and touching someone and think about sex less now. I used to masturbate with a pillow as a child. Now I mostly cuddle with it.
15. It took me a long time to figure out my vagina. I remember the first time I discovered that I could insert a pencil inside. I was astonished it could go so far in. Sometimes I think the words "vagina" and "labia" are weird. I haven’t found a good name for my vagina yet.
16. I know sex would lead me to be more committed in a relationship. Sometimes I worry that having sex will make me lose common sense and stay with someone who isn’t good for me. This makes no sense. I can still date and not have sex and not worry about it... but I don’t.
17. I’m okay with not marrying (ever). But I think I’d feel a stronger desire to marry if I’m in a long term relationship. It’s a mix of possessiveness and a little bit of childhood pressures. I am also very stubborn when faced with pressure. So maybe not.
18. I have a deathly fear of pregnancy. I’ve had nightmares where I mysteriously become pregnant. I don’t want children. I see at least two forms of birth control in my sex life. Or someone’s vasectomy.
19. I don’t like seeing public displays of affection between anyone. It's part feeling like an unwelcomed voyeur, and part jealousy.
20. My neck and back are more sensitive than my breasts.
21. I hate my hairy legs. I have a great body but I hate all my body hair. I just trim my bush, though; I’m not caring about that part. I hate the pressure on women to be beautiful and perfect. It doesn’t stop me from feeling the pressure.
22. One of my inner labia is longer than the other. I hated it for a long time. I even contemplated surgery. I can’t believe I even thought of that. I didn’t think on the differences women had in their shapes. Now my idea is “love me, love my body as-is."
23. I’d be open to a threesome someday. But I think I would be too much of a possessive lover. It may just stay a lovely fantasy.
24. I’m making a list of things I’d be interested in trying out. It’s turning out longer than I thought. I keep finding new things to add. I love the Internet, it's opened me up to so many more sexual possibilities.
25. This is not so easy to write with my mother in the room. I hope she doesn’t turn around and ask what I’m typing again.
2. I’m not sure if my lack of interest in dating and sex now is normal. I’ve never dated and never been kissed. I masturbate less now than in my teens. I don’t want to be headed on this downward slope! I use to wonder if I was asexual but I think I’m afraid of intimacy.
3. I think there is too much emphasis on virginity in societies. It leads to a double standard. My virginity is my business. How, when, who is MY business too. I’ll let you know if I think you should!
4. Sometimes I am embarrassed to have been a virgin for so long. I know I shouldn’t be. I didn’t consider having sex until after high school. I was too shy. I hate when people talk about sex around me, only because I don’t want to actually confess the virgin part. I can fake it if no one knows!
5. Before I had access to the Internet to find out about sex, it was all from books. I just had to be very discreet with what I was reading. The book "Everything You Wanted to Know about Sex but Were Afraid to Ask" has a terrible, BRIGHT YELLOW cover. Even when you take off the dust jacket! This was never on my bookshelf.
6. Porn movies rarely compare to my own mental fantasies. I need a plot AND sex scenes. I have an active fantasy life and I love reading slash fan fiction. I prefer gay porn. I wonder if my fantasy life is going to ruin my actual sex life.
7. Often, I imagine myself as a man having sex with another man during my fantasies. I still like being a woman. I may just turn out to be a woman trying a strap-on in real life.
8. I didn’t get much of a sex education from my parents. I believe it was a short pamphlet by Dear Abby or some advice columnist. That’s all I remember getting.
9. I feel vaguely guilty and dirty after masturbating to non-con fantasies (between gay and hetero couples). I rationalize my slight guilt afterwards that it’s only in my head, and I’m not actually contributing to an increase in rape crimes. I still feel bad.
10. I’m more aroused by the thought of male bodies than females. I’m not really attracted to women but I wouldn’t say a definite no. I can admire their bodies.
11. Androgyny? Guys in eyeliner? Tattoos? Oh yes. Make me smile and laugh. Oh yes. Arousal.
12. Two months ago, I finally bought my first sex toys. The vibrator was too big. The only one that fits isn’t anywhere close to a normal penis size. At the rate I’m going, it’ll be a while before it fits. I’ll make sure it will. Why should I be uncomfortable/in pain during my first time? I’m going to make sure that I enjoy sex as much as my partner.
13. I’ve never had an orgasm from penetration yet. I never used my fingers until a year ago. It just seemed unhygienic to me before. I love my clit stimulator more.
14. I love the idea of being cuddled and touching someone and think about sex less now. I used to masturbate with a pillow as a child. Now I mostly cuddle with it.
15. It took me a long time to figure out my vagina. I remember the first time I discovered that I could insert a pencil inside. I was astonished it could go so far in. Sometimes I think the words "vagina" and "labia" are weird. I haven’t found a good name for my vagina yet.
16. I know sex would lead me to be more committed in a relationship. Sometimes I worry that having sex will make me lose common sense and stay with someone who isn’t good for me. This makes no sense. I can still date and not have sex and not worry about it... but I don’t.
17. I’m okay with not marrying (ever). But I think I’d feel a stronger desire to marry if I’m in a long term relationship. It’s a mix of possessiveness and a little bit of childhood pressures. I am also very stubborn when faced with pressure. So maybe not.
18. I have a deathly fear of pregnancy. I’ve had nightmares where I mysteriously become pregnant. I don’t want children. I see at least two forms of birth control in my sex life. Or someone’s vasectomy.
19. I don’t like seeing public displays of affection between anyone. It's part feeling like an unwelcomed voyeur, and part jealousy.
20. My neck and back are more sensitive than my breasts.
21. I hate my hairy legs. I have a great body but I hate all my body hair. I just trim my bush, though; I’m not caring about that part. I hate the pressure on women to be beautiful and perfect. It doesn’t stop me from feeling the pressure.
22. One of my inner labia is longer than the other. I hated it for a long time. I even contemplated surgery. I can’t believe I even thought of that. I didn’t think on the differences women had in their shapes. Now my idea is “love me, love my body as-is."
23. I’d be open to a threesome someday. But I think I would be too much of a possessive lover. It may just stay a lovely fantasy.
24. I’m making a list of things I’d be interested in trying out. It’s turning out longer than I thought. I keep finding new things to add. I love the Internet, it's opened me up to so many more sexual possibilities.
25. This is not so easy to write with my mother in the room. I hope she doesn’t turn around and ask what I’m typing again.
Tuesday, March 23, 2010
1) I like obviously artificial makeup. I like dye jobs. I like band shirts. I like tattoos. I like hoodies. I listen to Panic! At the Disco purely because Ryan Ross’s outfits turn me on. Tim Burton’s aesthetic I love. I could care less about naked bodies.
2) I hate my breasts because they make my tight T-shirts hang weirdly and they mess up the lines of my torso. It’s all sleek and lean and feline, and then there are these two round things, and I hate them. I’m the only person in the world who picks their bras on the basis that they minimize my breasts.
3) Weirdly, breasts are the one of the few body parts I actually find attractive. Well, and guys’ pelvises and penises, and very occasional arms.
4) There is nothing hotter than a sweaty, unwashed musician shredding.
5) Unless it’s a sweaty, unwashed musician with a sexy voice. I have a playlist, actually. I prefer a low, gravelly, almost-tenor voice on a woman, and a waily, melodramatic voice on a man. Sex noises are always a plus.
6) I’m turned on by suicide, codependent relationships, mindfuckery and (fictional) serial killers. I have no traumatic experience. I just came this screwed-up, I guess.
7) Most of my fantasies involve someone having sex they don’t want to have because they’re so turned on, possibly because of the supernatural (yay incubi).
8) When I fantasize, I am almost always a man.
9) I fall in love at first sight about once every two years. Love-at-first-sight me has great taste—I’ve never fallen for someone I wouldn’t marry. Unfortunately, she’s not quite so good at picking out people who are interested in me.
10) In eighth grade I jerked off in class. Every day. It took three or four months for anyone to notice. I lied and claimed I’d just been resting my hand on my stomach because I had cramps. The adults believed me, but the kids mocked me for the rest of the year.
11) I’ve been turned on by my sister touching my back before. I’m not attracted to her at all and, obviously, I’d never sleep with her.
12) It is impossible to freak or gross me out with anything sexually. I blame the Internet.
13) I have two platonic friends, if you don’t count relatives. Everyone else I’d fuck, if they’d have me. (Note: this doesn’t mean I’m attracted. It just means I’d sleep with them, if they offered.)
14) I read erotica, but I hate porn. It doesn’t offend me or anything; it’s just boring. On the other hand, a singer grabbing his crotch on stage or lifting his shirt a little or pelvic thrusting gets me every time.
15) I almost always get crushes on people because I think they like me. Unfortunately, my brain tends to instantly jump from “they talked to me” to “they want to jump my bones.” In my defense, it works that way for me.
16) I’ve never fucked someone I’m honestly attracted to, as opposed to having a crush on because of #15. I’ve never had as good orgasms in regular sex as in masturbation.
17) Despite #16, I’ve never regretted a sexual encounter.
18) I crave pain during sex. It’s not necessary during masturbation, but screwed-up power dynamics in my head are.
19) I get distracted during masturbation and start thinking about random stuff. This doesn’t happen during sex. I like erotica, because it keeps my focus at the task at hand (pun entirely intended).
20) Naked cuddling is better than sex.
21) Sometimes I get so lonely I hug myself or a pillow and pretend I’m cuddling a particularly cuddle-worthy celebrity. I guess you could call it cuddling masturbation.
22) Of the blogs I check on a regular basis, about half are sex blogs. I like to stay informed.
23) I think I’m terrible in bed. My sex-to-male-orgasm ratio is quite embarrassing. I don’t want to have sex with someone else again in case it proves that I’m right. I’m more embarrassed by #23 than #11.
24) I can’t remember the name of my first kiss. I’m pretty sure I’m going to forget the name of my first fuck soon. I can, however, remember both my and their outfits from both occasions.
25) I think everyone in the world has beautiful eyes. No matter how ugly, or mean, or stupid the person: stare into their eyes and they are beautiful and someone you’d like to sleep with.
2) I hate my breasts because they make my tight T-shirts hang weirdly and they mess up the lines of my torso. It’s all sleek and lean and feline, and then there are these two round things, and I hate them. I’m the only person in the world who picks their bras on the basis that they minimize my breasts.
3) Weirdly, breasts are the one of the few body parts I actually find attractive. Well, and guys’ pelvises and penises, and very occasional arms.
4) There is nothing hotter than a sweaty, unwashed musician shredding.
5) Unless it’s a sweaty, unwashed musician with a sexy voice. I have a playlist, actually. I prefer a low, gravelly, almost-tenor voice on a woman, and a waily, melodramatic voice on a man. Sex noises are always a plus.
6) I’m turned on by suicide, codependent relationships, mindfuckery and (fictional) serial killers. I have no traumatic experience. I just came this screwed-up, I guess.
7) Most of my fantasies involve someone having sex they don’t want to have because they’re so turned on, possibly because of the supernatural (yay incubi).
8) When I fantasize, I am almost always a man.
9) I fall in love at first sight about once every two years. Love-at-first-sight me has great taste—I’ve never fallen for someone I wouldn’t marry. Unfortunately, she’s not quite so good at picking out people who are interested in me.
10) In eighth grade I jerked off in class. Every day. It took three or four months for anyone to notice. I lied and claimed I’d just been resting my hand on my stomach because I had cramps. The adults believed me, but the kids mocked me for the rest of the year.
11) I’ve been turned on by my sister touching my back before. I’m not attracted to her at all and, obviously, I’d never sleep with her.
12) It is impossible to freak or gross me out with anything sexually. I blame the Internet.
13) I have two platonic friends, if you don’t count relatives. Everyone else I’d fuck, if they’d have me. (Note: this doesn’t mean I’m attracted. It just means I’d sleep with them, if they offered.)
14) I read erotica, but I hate porn. It doesn’t offend me or anything; it’s just boring. On the other hand, a singer grabbing his crotch on stage or lifting his shirt a little or pelvic thrusting gets me every time.
15) I almost always get crushes on people because I think they like me. Unfortunately, my brain tends to instantly jump from “they talked to me” to “they want to jump my bones.” In my defense, it works that way for me.
16) I’ve never fucked someone I’m honestly attracted to, as opposed to having a crush on because of #15. I’ve never had as good orgasms in regular sex as in masturbation.
17) Despite #16, I’ve never regretted a sexual encounter.
18) I crave pain during sex. It’s not necessary during masturbation, but screwed-up power dynamics in my head are.
19) I get distracted during masturbation and start thinking about random stuff. This doesn’t happen during sex. I like erotica, because it keeps my focus at the task at hand (pun entirely intended).
20) Naked cuddling is better than sex.
21) Sometimes I get so lonely I hug myself or a pillow and pretend I’m cuddling a particularly cuddle-worthy celebrity. I guess you could call it cuddling masturbation.
22) Of the blogs I check on a regular basis, about half are sex blogs. I like to stay informed.
23) I think I’m terrible in bed. My sex-to-male-orgasm ratio is quite embarrassing. I don’t want to have sex with someone else again in case it proves that I’m right. I’m more embarrassed by #23 than #11.
24) I can’t remember the name of my first kiss. I’m pretty sure I’m going to forget the name of my first fuck soon. I can, however, remember both my and their outfits from both occasions.
25) I think everyone in the world has beautiful eyes. No matter how ugly, or mean, or stupid the person: stare into their eyes and they are beautiful and someone you’d like to sleep with.
Monday, March 22, 2010
1. I am biologically female, though I have no idea whatsoever what gender I identify as. This general indifference to gender is probably the reason I identify as bisexual.
2. One of my biggest fears is that I will turn out to be a heterosexual cisfemale once I'm grown. Because of this, sometimes I feel as if I'm forcing myself to be more masculine than I naturally am, even though I know I am queerer than an eight-legged cat.
3. I'm not sure whether or not I'm a virgin. I've been fingered many a time and have been on the giving and receiving end of cunnilingus, and I wouldn't mind being penetrated (or penetrating someone), but I have little to no access to cock and am in a relationship.
4. Being in this relationship is probably one of the worst ideas I've had in a while, but at least only a few people know we got back together. I don't really get emotionally attached and have never fallen in love (don't expect to), and she's one of the most emotional people I know, and fancies herself in love with me. If you include the week when we were broken up, we've been together for two and a half months.
5. As much as I convince myself I want out, I'm afraid that she's the best I can get, and she makes the best noises. And her breasts, despite being too small for me visually, are fantastically fun to play with.
6. Other than her, I've kissed six people, been felt up by three, and fingered by one. I was only romantically attracted to one of them, though I was sexually attracted to four or five.
7. I have never managed to orgasm, not by my own hands or with any help. I'm petrified that I never will.
8 . Despite never actually getting off, I get wet incredibly easily and masturbate at least four times a week. My fantasies have a tendency to focus on the romantic one from 6, my girlfriend, and David Tennant.
9. I write erotic fiction. All of it is slash or femmeslash, and it is some combination of fanfiction and original work. I find this incredibly shameful, but it gives me a feeling of giving back to the fic communities I'm a part of, and it helps to increase my feelings of self-worth.
10. On a similar note, I find it incredibly sexy when people play with gender roles, and thus homosexuality and androgyny are both enormously arousing for me. I would partake in androgyny more if I did not have an very feminine form (C-cup, 27-inch waist, 38-inch hips, barely five feet tall).
11. My figure is also one of the reasons I have difficulty figuring out my gender. When I can successfully pass, I feel much more like myself, but I love working with appearances and I know that I am only ever really attractive when dressed as a female.
12. I have gotten it on in a school building/vehicle at least half a dozen times. I have never been caught.
13. I like it rough, and the fact that marks aren't allowed in my current relationship (for the sake of maintaining secrecy) disappoints me to no end.
14. It's very hard for me to explain what I need and want in a relationship. I project a very hard exterior, and it is absolutely a huge part of who I am, but I would someday like someone who can pick up on my smaller emotional cues. I've also found that I'm quite good at picking up on those cues from others, and as long as I'm paying attention, I make a very good partner.
15. I'm sexually attracted to almost every one of my friends, at least a little bit. I think this is related to the fact that I've never really had feelings for anyone I was not friends with first, and also the fact that they're all pretty damn hot.
16. I used to think I could be attracted to anyone who showed any interest in me, based on my first two major crushes and what happened after I'd kissed each of them. This was proved very, very wrong when I went into a very, very short relationship with one of my close friends who was a year younger than me. I think I vomited a bit when I kissed her, and thus broke up with her four hours later. We're still very close, and I'm very grateful that she helped me realize that I am actually very selective about who I want to fuck, and that I've never been attracted to anyone younger than myself.
17. I never masturbated as a kid. At all. My first time was in the shower at age fourteen, and I didn't know what to do other than stick my fingers inside. It hurt, and soon after I discovered that the clit makes things a whole lot better.
18. Bad grammar is an instant turn-off for me. I can want somebody like nobody's business, but if they use the wrong form of your, I will be unable to think of them in that way again.
19. My first kiss was with one of my closest friends, at my thirteenth birthday party. I had been pining after her for months, and she initiated it. The next morning, she denied it had ever happened and that next summer was when both my anxiety and depression started to really take shape, but once we dealt with it, I learned to view it as a fantastic learning experience and I wouldn't go back and change it for the world.
20. I am fascinated by penises. I'm also a little grossed out, probably because I've little experience with them, but they're kind of really quite beautiful.
21. The award for hottest experience I've ever had would go to several weeks ago, a few days after the girlfriend and I got back together. We were staying after school to go to an evening event and she was having one of her characteristic breakdowns maybe twenty minutes before said event happened, so I comforted her in our science wing. Once she got over it, we went to the bio classroom, where she learned just how hard I need to be bitten for me to feel anything on my breasts, and I played with her hair and masturbated while she worked on them. That was probably the nearest I've ever come to orgasm, though I didn't make it all the way. Immediately after, we half-cuddled as I fingered her, and we ended up being two hours late for the event we were supposed to be at.
22. I have very little sensation in my breasts. I don't know why, but to me, touching them is no more arousing than touching any other part of my body. I don't really like having them, but I look oddly proportioned without them, and they really are gorgeous, just not for me.
23. The closest I've ever been to in love was with the boy from 6 and 8. He had a crush on my best friend and no chance, and the three of us spent quite a lot of time cuddling as I gradually began to develop feelings for him. He wasn't particularly gorgeous or nice, but he made me very, very happy, and the summer before high school, we made out at a friend's birthday party - I initiated it, and it was amazing. After that, I really wanted us to take it further, but he said never again. We kissed again one more time, and I might've gotten a little too obsessive, but it was all very worth it, and I still, several years later, have feelings for him. My only regret is that we haven't stayed friends, and one of these days, I'm going to try talking to him again.
24. Nothing turns me on like intelligence. No matter what someone looks like, if we can have a good, quick conversation, I will feel at least a bit of wanting. Shared obsessions have similar effects, which is probably why I'm such a fan of geeks.
25. I would love to have a one-night stand. The idea of sex with no strings attached appeals to me like nothing else. The problem with this, of course, is that I'm actually fairly shy when around people I don't know most of the time, but my confidence and snarkiness are my most attractive traits.
2. One of my biggest fears is that I will turn out to be a heterosexual cisfemale once I'm grown. Because of this, sometimes I feel as if I'm forcing myself to be more masculine than I naturally am, even though I know I am queerer than an eight-legged cat.
3. I'm not sure whether or not I'm a virgin. I've been fingered many a time and have been on the giving and receiving end of cunnilingus, and I wouldn't mind being penetrated (or penetrating someone), but I have little to no access to cock and am in a relationship.
4. Being in this relationship is probably one of the worst ideas I've had in a while, but at least only a few people know we got back together. I don't really get emotionally attached and have never fallen in love (don't expect to), and she's one of the most emotional people I know, and fancies herself in love with me. If you include the week when we were broken up, we've been together for two and a half months.
5. As much as I convince myself I want out, I'm afraid that she's the best I can get, and she makes the best noises. And her breasts, despite being too small for me visually, are fantastically fun to play with.
6. Other than her, I've kissed six people, been felt up by three, and fingered by one. I was only romantically attracted to one of them, though I was sexually attracted to four or five.
7. I have never managed to orgasm, not by my own hands or with any help. I'm petrified that I never will.
8 . Despite never actually getting off, I get wet incredibly easily and masturbate at least four times a week. My fantasies have a tendency to focus on the romantic one from 6, my girlfriend, and David Tennant.
9. I write erotic fiction. All of it is slash or femmeslash, and it is some combination of fanfiction and original work. I find this incredibly shameful, but it gives me a feeling of giving back to the fic communities I'm a part of, and it helps to increase my feelings of self-worth.
10. On a similar note, I find it incredibly sexy when people play with gender roles, and thus homosexuality and androgyny are both enormously arousing for me. I would partake in androgyny more if I did not have an very feminine form (C-cup, 27-inch waist, 38-inch hips, barely five feet tall).
11. My figure is also one of the reasons I have difficulty figuring out my gender. When I can successfully pass, I feel much more like myself, but I love working with appearances and I know that I am only ever really attractive when dressed as a female.
12. I have gotten it on in a school building/vehicle at least half a dozen times. I have never been caught.
13. I like it rough, and the fact that marks aren't allowed in my current relationship (for the sake of maintaining secrecy) disappoints me to no end.
14. It's very hard for me to explain what I need and want in a relationship. I project a very hard exterior, and it is absolutely a huge part of who I am, but I would someday like someone who can pick up on my smaller emotional cues. I've also found that I'm quite good at picking up on those cues from others, and as long as I'm paying attention, I make a very good partner.
15. I'm sexually attracted to almost every one of my friends, at least a little bit. I think this is related to the fact that I've never really had feelings for anyone I was not friends with first, and also the fact that they're all pretty damn hot.
16. I used to think I could be attracted to anyone who showed any interest in me, based on my first two major crushes and what happened after I'd kissed each of them. This was proved very, very wrong when I went into a very, very short relationship with one of my close friends who was a year younger than me. I think I vomited a bit when I kissed her, and thus broke up with her four hours later. We're still very close, and I'm very grateful that she helped me realize that I am actually very selective about who I want to fuck, and that I've never been attracted to anyone younger than myself.
17. I never masturbated as a kid. At all. My first time was in the shower at age fourteen, and I didn't know what to do other than stick my fingers inside. It hurt, and soon after I discovered that the clit makes things a whole lot better.
18. Bad grammar is an instant turn-off for me. I can want somebody like nobody's business, but if they use the wrong form of your, I will be unable to think of them in that way again.
19. My first kiss was with one of my closest friends, at my thirteenth birthday party. I had been pining after her for months, and she initiated it. The next morning, she denied it had ever happened and that next summer was when both my anxiety and depression started to really take shape, but once we dealt with it, I learned to view it as a fantastic learning experience and I wouldn't go back and change it for the world.
20. I am fascinated by penises. I'm also a little grossed out, probably because I've little experience with them, but they're kind of really quite beautiful.
21. The award for hottest experience I've ever had would go to several weeks ago, a few days after the girlfriend and I got back together. We were staying after school to go to an evening event and she was having one of her characteristic breakdowns maybe twenty minutes before said event happened, so I comforted her in our science wing. Once she got over it, we went to the bio classroom, where she learned just how hard I need to be bitten for me to feel anything on my breasts, and I played with her hair and masturbated while she worked on them. That was probably the nearest I've ever come to orgasm, though I didn't make it all the way. Immediately after, we half-cuddled as I fingered her, and we ended up being two hours late for the event we were supposed to be at.
22. I have very little sensation in my breasts. I don't know why, but to me, touching them is no more arousing than touching any other part of my body. I don't really like having them, but I look oddly proportioned without them, and they really are gorgeous, just not for me.
23. The closest I've ever been to in love was with the boy from 6 and 8. He had a crush on my best friend and no chance, and the three of us spent quite a lot of time cuddling as I gradually began to develop feelings for him. He wasn't particularly gorgeous or nice, but he made me very, very happy, and the summer before high school, we made out at a friend's birthday party - I initiated it, and it was amazing. After that, I really wanted us to take it further, but he said never again. We kissed again one more time, and I might've gotten a little too obsessive, but it was all very worth it, and I still, several years later, have feelings for him. My only regret is that we haven't stayed friends, and one of these days, I'm going to try talking to him again.
24. Nothing turns me on like intelligence. No matter what someone looks like, if we can have a good, quick conversation, I will feel at least a bit of wanting. Shared obsessions have similar effects, which is probably why I'm such a fan of geeks.
25. I would love to have a one-night stand. The idea of sex with no strings attached appeals to me like nothing else. The problem with this, of course, is that I'm actually fairly shy when around people I don't know most of the time, but my confidence and snarkiness are my most attractive traits.
1. I am a 27 year old hetero male.
2. I lost my virginity when I was 15, to a partner I had been with for several months, and subsequently several years. Like a lot of first times, it was unremarkable and awkward, but we got better. She had been sexually active for years, and this intimidated me for most of our time together.
3. I am a serial relationship person, having not been out of a long term relationship for longer than 2-3 months, since I was 15. I have, however, cheated on every partner I have been with, some many times over.
4. When I was 7 years old I was molested by a sexually aggressive 7 year old girl. My parents would organise 'playdates' after school. We would play 'doctors' and sometimes her younger sister would be involved. Although I know this to not be an uncommon childhood experience, the enthusiasm with which she took to the game, and my meek unwillingness, left me feeling used and dominated, objectified. I didn't like it. I think this experience helped to shape my sexual habits in my adolescent and early adult life.
5. The cheating did not come from a place of wanting to hurt my partners, but a yearning for broader experience. If an opportunity for sex arose, I would generally take it. I would rarely seek it actively. In retrospect, I should have learned to be more open with my partners and suggest polygamy and the like, but was always certain that they would be negative and break off our relationship.
6. Some of the most beautiful and liberating sexual experiences I have had have been with people I cheated on my partners with. Because of this I don't really feel much guilt over what I've done in the past, only that I wasn't more honest.
7. Some of the most lousy and half-assed sexual experiences I've had have been with people I cheated on my partners with. Sometimes it would just be hollow and unfulfilling. Self respect and respect for others has deepened my experiences.
8. I have had very healthy and very fulfulling sexual relationships with all my past partners. I am a sensitive, gentle, giving sexual partner. Although I do like to play a little rough (choking, hair pulling, dirty talk, spanking, etc). I have engaged in roleplay before, but I love my current partner just as she is, and enjoy the connection too much to play games.
9. I once had a fling with a girl who insisted on fake names. I never got her real name. The sex was loud and rough and dirty and hot, I think partly because of the roleplay.
10. I was seeing a girl who had some emotional problems. One night she threw a pretty wild party and in the course of the evening cut herself pretty deep with a razor in her forearm. We treated the wound, it was OK. Eventually we wound up in bed and had some pretty awesome slow, grinding, very physical and wet sex. When I woke up later I discovered in the light that her wound had opened during sex and we were covered in blood. Covered. The realization that we had been smearing each other with it was amazing. I got instantly hard.
11. Only in one of my relationships was the sex life really unfulfilling. Because there wasn't one. Her libido seemed to just drop away and we stopped making love. Beforehand we'd had a healthy sex life, as far as I knew. Getting any answer as to why her libido disappeared was frustrating. It was difficult, because I realized intimacy is very important for me in a partnership. I felt guilty for wanting to leave her, but justified because we almost weren't in a relationship. I slowly came to realise that we didn't connect anyway, except on a fairly superficial level. I was a handbag to this woman. We broke up after not having sex for 6 months.
12. I am attracted to men. But I don't think I would ever sleep with one. The thought of sexual contact, especially anal, is kind of a turnoff, though I have no problem with homosexuality in others. I have queer friends. I have very specific taste in men. Rugged, masculine, sensitive, probably bearded. But I couldn't really define it without pointing someone out.
13. The closest I came to a gay encounter was with a friend of mine, a beautiful, feminine South American artist/drag queen. We got drunk and high and made out. He offered to go down on me but was too eager, and it turned me off. Maybe if the conditions are right, I could. Who knows? I am interested in an MMF threesome, but the attention would have to be on the woman.
14. The night of 13 I learned about some gay men's desire to turn or just to fuck hetero boys. Kind of like taking a virgin for some hetero men. I don't see the point of interest or excitement in either. I would rather fuck someone who knows what they want and how to get it.
15. I had sex with a virgin when I was about 17. She was 15. We are family friends, and grew up together from birth. I kind of knew for many years that I would eventually be her first. I was happy that it was me, and I could give her a safe and supportive place to go through it. We still had some problems afterwards, and fucked in a kind of love/hate sporadic way for years afterward, but we're close again now, and not fucking, and I'm happy for it.
16. My taste in women is quite broad, although I obviously have a predilection for petite, curvy women, and my friends say I go for redheads. For me, sexiness is much more than physical. True grace and confidence and courage come from within.
17. That being said, I love girls with tattoos and piercings and skinny jeans. Like my girlfriend. Seriously, seriously sexy.
18. My girlfriend has taught me the value of trust and honesty, not just sexually, but emotionally. I see now that the two go hand in hand. One benefits the other. Although I find some women I meet extremely attractive and have had the opportunity to go to bed with one or two of them, I have been uninterested. Well, still excited by the thought, but kind of physically unable to follow through. I'm in love, and want to share my body exclusively with my beautiful partner.
19. I still watch porn on a fairly regular basis. Erotic art is better though, or porn in which the participants look like they're genuinely having a good time.
20. Sex should be fun! It's play! I like to laugh and wrestle and lick and kiss and fuck.
21. My first sexual partner was a squirter. She would cum hard and long and loud. The bed would be utterly soaked when we were through. I thought at the time that all sex was to be like this. It was a rather daunting thought.
22. I have only met one other squirter. She was so surprised and ashamed that she froze up. She had no idea what had happened. Although I encouraged her and told her there was nothing wrong with her, she did not squirt again. I hope that one day she can be freer with her body.
23. I love giving and receiving oral. Love love love it. I'm good at it. I could live down there. If a girl's hygiene is good, I like the taste and smell and texture. I love that every pussy is completely unique, and so obviously belonging and suited to the woman they belong to. They are beautiful.
24. I have a large, thick penis. Though not huge. This has been a problem sometimes and a blessing other times. As a result I've learned that foreplay is very important, especially if the girl is small. I love long, drawn out foreplay.
25. Buddhism has taught me that all things are transitory. Desire, by its very nature, cannot be fulfilled or exhausted. It is desire, longing. This has relaxed my attitude towards sex a great deal. I now naturally look for a deeper experience, making the person or people involved more of a focus than the act itself. I want them to be happy. Getting her off can be a great deal more pleasurable and fulfilling for me than getting off myself.
2. I lost my virginity when I was 15, to a partner I had been with for several months, and subsequently several years. Like a lot of first times, it was unremarkable and awkward, but we got better. She had been sexually active for years, and this intimidated me for most of our time together.
3. I am a serial relationship person, having not been out of a long term relationship for longer than 2-3 months, since I was 15. I have, however, cheated on every partner I have been with, some many times over.
4. When I was 7 years old I was molested by a sexually aggressive 7 year old girl. My parents would organise 'playdates' after school. We would play 'doctors' and sometimes her younger sister would be involved. Although I know this to not be an uncommon childhood experience, the enthusiasm with which she took to the game, and my meek unwillingness, left me feeling used and dominated, objectified. I didn't like it. I think this experience helped to shape my sexual habits in my adolescent and early adult life.
5. The cheating did not come from a place of wanting to hurt my partners, but a yearning for broader experience. If an opportunity for sex arose, I would generally take it. I would rarely seek it actively. In retrospect, I should have learned to be more open with my partners and suggest polygamy and the like, but was always certain that they would be negative and break off our relationship.
6. Some of the most beautiful and liberating sexual experiences I have had have been with people I cheated on my partners with. Because of this I don't really feel much guilt over what I've done in the past, only that I wasn't more honest.
7. Some of the most lousy and half-assed sexual experiences I've had have been with people I cheated on my partners with. Sometimes it would just be hollow and unfulfilling. Self respect and respect for others has deepened my experiences.
8. I have had very healthy and very fulfulling sexual relationships with all my past partners. I am a sensitive, gentle, giving sexual partner. Although I do like to play a little rough (choking, hair pulling, dirty talk, spanking, etc). I have engaged in roleplay before, but I love my current partner just as she is, and enjoy the connection too much to play games.
9. I once had a fling with a girl who insisted on fake names. I never got her real name. The sex was loud and rough and dirty and hot, I think partly because of the roleplay.
10. I was seeing a girl who had some emotional problems. One night she threw a pretty wild party and in the course of the evening cut herself pretty deep with a razor in her forearm. We treated the wound, it was OK. Eventually we wound up in bed and had some pretty awesome slow, grinding, very physical and wet sex. When I woke up later I discovered in the light that her wound had opened during sex and we were covered in blood. Covered. The realization that we had been smearing each other with it was amazing. I got instantly hard.
11. Only in one of my relationships was the sex life really unfulfilling. Because there wasn't one. Her libido seemed to just drop away and we stopped making love. Beforehand we'd had a healthy sex life, as far as I knew. Getting any answer as to why her libido disappeared was frustrating. It was difficult, because I realized intimacy is very important for me in a partnership. I felt guilty for wanting to leave her, but justified because we almost weren't in a relationship. I slowly came to realise that we didn't connect anyway, except on a fairly superficial level. I was a handbag to this woman. We broke up after not having sex for 6 months.
12. I am attracted to men. But I don't think I would ever sleep with one. The thought of sexual contact, especially anal, is kind of a turnoff, though I have no problem with homosexuality in others. I have queer friends. I have very specific taste in men. Rugged, masculine, sensitive, probably bearded. But I couldn't really define it without pointing someone out.
13. The closest I came to a gay encounter was with a friend of mine, a beautiful, feminine South American artist/drag queen. We got drunk and high and made out. He offered to go down on me but was too eager, and it turned me off. Maybe if the conditions are right, I could. Who knows? I am interested in an MMF threesome, but the attention would have to be on the woman.
14. The night of 13 I learned about some gay men's desire to turn or just to fuck hetero boys. Kind of like taking a virgin for some hetero men. I don't see the point of interest or excitement in either. I would rather fuck someone who knows what they want and how to get it.
15. I had sex with a virgin when I was about 17. She was 15. We are family friends, and grew up together from birth. I kind of knew for many years that I would eventually be her first. I was happy that it was me, and I could give her a safe and supportive place to go through it. We still had some problems afterwards, and fucked in a kind of love/hate sporadic way for years afterward, but we're close again now, and not fucking, and I'm happy for it.
16. My taste in women is quite broad, although I obviously have a predilection for petite, curvy women, and my friends say I go for redheads. For me, sexiness is much more than physical. True grace and confidence and courage come from within.
17. That being said, I love girls with tattoos and piercings and skinny jeans. Like my girlfriend. Seriously, seriously sexy.
18. My girlfriend has taught me the value of trust and honesty, not just sexually, but emotionally. I see now that the two go hand in hand. One benefits the other. Although I find some women I meet extremely attractive and have had the opportunity to go to bed with one or two of them, I have been uninterested. Well, still excited by the thought, but kind of physically unable to follow through. I'm in love, and want to share my body exclusively with my beautiful partner.
19. I still watch porn on a fairly regular basis. Erotic art is better though, or porn in which the participants look like they're genuinely having a good time.
20. Sex should be fun! It's play! I like to laugh and wrestle and lick and kiss and fuck.
21. My first sexual partner was a squirter. She would cum hard and long and loud. The bed would be utterly soaked when we were through. I thought at the time that all sex was to be like this. It was a rather daunting thought.
22. I have only met one other squirter. She was so surprised and ashamed that she froze up. She had no idea what had happened. Although I encouraged her and told her there was nothing wrong with her, she did not squirt again. I hope that one day she can be freer with her body.
23. I love giving and receiving oral. Love love love it. I'm good at it. I could live down there. If a girl's hygiene is good, I like the taste and smell and texture. I love that every pussy is completely unique, and so obviously belonging and suited to the woman they belong to. They are beautiful.
24. I have a large, thick penis. Though not huge. This has been a problem sometimes and a blessing other times. As a result I've learned that foreplay is very important, especially if the girl is small. I love long, drawn out foreplay.
25. Buddhism has taught me that all things are transitory. Desire, by its very nature, cannot be fulfilled or exhausted. It is desire, longing. This has relaxed my attitude towards sex a great deal. I now naturally look for a deeper experience, making the person or people involved more of a focus than the act itself. I want them to be happy. Getting her off can be a great deal more pleasurable and fulfilling for me than getting off myself.
Monday, March 15, 2010
1. I'm biologically female, but most of the time I would rather be and act like a boy.
2. The first person I ever had sex with (and a nine-month relationship) was my gay (male) best friend.
3. That relationship ended shortly after I slept with another friend, who is both straight and experienced.
4. Neither of them managed to give me an orgasm.
5. I really, really want to have a threesome with the two of them.
6. If I could combine them, I would have (physically) a ridiculously attractive partner. The gay one is hairy but not in shape, the other has been in martial arts for thirteen years. Muscle + hair, but unfortunately it's one or the other.
7. I don't like condoms, but there is also not a chance in hell I'm going on the pill. The only hormones I want going in are (maybe eventually) testosterone.
8. The straight one always tells me it's weird that I look like a guy; he once said that I was most attractive in the evenings when he could focus on my body instead of my clothing/mannerisms.
9. I have a D&D character with a +6 to Perform (Seduction) and I *really* want in the DM's pants.
10. I want to sleep with someone with female parts.
11. When my roommate found out that I slept with the straight one, she asked who was better. I said "Dear *God* there is no comparison." She wanted elaboration; I said "One is gay and scared of lady parts, the other is straight and experienced. Who do you *think* was better?!"
12. I occasionally consider jumping my roommate.
13. Despite his not wanting much to do with my parts, I loved sleeping with the gay one. It was always wonderful; we were hard in love.
14. The straight one has two-foot dreadlocks, and I one of the sexiest things I've ever seen was his flipping them out of his face, hands on my hips, as he moved to go down on me.
15. I don't shave anything and I don't wear deodorant.
16. The gay one has a much nicer penis. *Much* nicer. The straight one's is wider, so it's a different feeling, but the gay one could go *way* back in there.
17. The gay one liked to be on top. I also like to be on top; the straight one likes the bottom. Doggy style doesn't work because all of my height is in my torso, and all of theirs is in their legs. I get on my knees and the dicks are poking the small of my back.
18. I haven't told the gay one that I kissed the straight one three weeks before I slept with him. I told him about the sex the next day.
19. I like it rough, but the gay one didn't and the straight one is a lot stronger than I am.
20. My lower back is super-extra-crazy sensitive. I found this out when the straight one bit me for no reason at all.
21. I love it when people are grab-able. When the gay one's hair grew long enough to grab, I got inordinately excited.
22. I love having my chest played with and bitten. The straight one introduced me to the wonders of boob play. The gay one didn't care for them.
23. I've had sex in four states, four buildings, six rooms and once outside.
24. I don't masturbate; it bores me. This concerns me a little bit.
25. Double penetration porn turns me on.
2. The first person I ever had sex with (and a nine-month relationship) was my gay (male) best friend.
3. That relationship ended shortly after I slept with another friend, who is both straight and experienced.
4. Neither of them managed to give me an orgasm.
5. I really, really want to have a threesome with the two of them.
6. If I could combine them, I would have (physically) a ridiculously attractive partner. The gay one is hairy but not in shape, the other has been in martial arts for thirteen years. Muscle + hair, but unfortunately it's one or the other.
7. I don't like condoms, but there is also not a chance in hell I'm going on the pill. The only hormones I want going in are (maybe eventually) testosterone.
8. The straight one always tells me it's weird that I look like a guy; he once said that I was most attractive in the evenings when he could focus on my body instead of my clothing/mannerisms.
9. I have a D&D character with a +6 to Perform (Seduction) and I *really* want in the DM's pants.
10. I want to sleep with someone with female parts.
11. When my roommate found out that I slept with the straight one, she asked who was better. I said "Dear *God* there is no comparison." She wanted elaboration; I said "One is gay and scared of lady parts, the other is straight and experienced. Who do you *think* was better?!"
12. I occasionally consider jumping my roommate.
13. Despite his not wanting much to do with my parts, I loved sleeping with the gay one. It was always wonderful; we were hard in love.
14. The straight one has two-foot dreadlocks, and I one of the sexiest things I've ever seen was his flipping them out of his face, hands on my hips, as he moved to go down on me.
15. I don't shave anything and I don't wear deodorant.
16. The gay one has a much nicer penis. *Much* nicer. The straight one's is wider, so it's a different feeling, but the gay one could go *way* back in there.
17. The gay one liked to be on top. I also like to be on top; the straight one likes the bottom. Doggy style doesn't work because all of my height is in my torso, and all of theirs is in their legs. I get on my knees and the dicks are poking the small of my back.
18. I haven't told the gay one that I kissed the straight one three weeks before I slept with him. I told him about the sex the next day.
19. I like it rough, but the gay one didn't and the straight one is a lot stronger than I am.
20. My lower back is super-extra-crazy sensitive. I found this out when the straight one bit me for no reason at all.
21. I love it when people are grab-able. When the gay one's hair grew long enough to grab, I got inordinately excited.
22. I love having my chest played with and bitten. The straight one introduced me to the wonders of boob play. The gay one didn't care for them.
23. I've had sex in four states, four buildings, six rooms and once outside.
24. I don't masturbate; it bores me. This concerns me a little bit.
25. Double penetration porn turns me on.
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