Thursday, June 25, 2009

1 - This blog has become part of my (almost) daily reading and has been extremely liberating. I often try to figure out if one of the posters is someone I know.

2 - I am 23 and am going through a remarkably easy divorce right now.

3 - My husband, though a lovely man, was unsatisfying on many levels, including sexually.

4 - He was the ninth man I ever slept with and I never cheated on him.

5 - The first guy I slept with was the brother of my best friend (at the time). I was 17 and he was a few years older than me. We were both drunk and it didn't really go far.

6 - The second guy is still one of my very dear friends and the best lay of all of them. He was the only one I ever came with and to this day I regret breaking up with him. I secretly hope that we will get back together again.

7 - The third and fourth guys happened in the same night as the one girl I've slept with. We had a foursome in college. It was fun, and I'd do it again with the right people. I don't even remember the guys' names.

8 - The fifth guy was the girl in 7's boyfriend. We had a threesome, I wasn't allowed to kiss him but had a great time being fucked from behind while eating her out.

9 - The sixth guy was a total failure. I had a huge crush on him and ended up dry humping with him in an elevator one night when we were drunk. He later pulled his (massive) cock out while we were walking along a high way and I started giving him a hand job.

10 - A few weeks later I booty called 9 and we finally fucked. He was too big to penetrate me in any way that was remotely pleasurable, so I tried to suck him off, but he was too big for that too and he never came. Apparently he was pretty emotionally distraught because he ended up crying and thanking me anyway.

11 - The seventh guy was 10 years older than me, and mentally ill. I didn't know this until he went off his meds and moved across the country. We fucked like bunnies, including on his desk at work once. He was hot and I loved being with him, but it was bad news.

12 - The eighth guy was even worse news, he was even older than the guy in 11, and not as hot. He was emotionally abusive and I didn't know if I could ever leave him even though I wanted to. I met my husband and I did though.

13 - I love to give head, and I think I'm fairly good at it. I never managed to actually get my husband off this way though, and that was a huge disappointment for me.

14 - I have a hard time taking sex seriously and am often silly in bed. This usually made my husband mad and tell me it was a turn off.

15 - 5, my first, was the most fulfilling sexual relationship I ever had. I got together with him again after 6 and I broke up and we just screwed around for months. We tried a number of different things together and while we weren't a good match, we were comfortable with each other and learned a lot about ourselves in the process.

16 - I started masturbating when I was very young, I don't remember exactly when, but I do remember my mom walking in on me several times. Luckily my parents are hippies and didn't really care.

17 - My sister and I never got 'the talk', sex and sexuality were just normal conversation in our house. I never walked in on my parents, but knew the basics from very young. I learned most of the kinky stuff from the internet though. I spent hours as a pre teen and teen online in forums and on erotic websites.

18 - I had a friend when I was about 16 that would webcam with me. I didn't have one, but he did. He would jerk off and let me watch. He was also the first to go down on me. He did it just once, but it was the best orgasm I ever had. Very few guys have gone down on me since, and usually with limited success.

19 - I don't come easily. I can get myself off in about two minutes flat, but for some reason when there's another person involved it just doesn't happen. I have come with other people, like 18 and a few times with 6, but since then I've been faking.

20 - I watch porn and masturbate on an almost daily basis. My favorites are amateur porn, especially POV and public stuff. As soon as I come though, I lose interest, even if it's in the middle of something.

21 - I would love to have sex in a public or semi-public place. The idea of being caught excites me and I often masturbate while there's people close by. I even masturbated while driving on a highway one day.

22 - I totally have penis envy. The thought of being able to penetrate someone like that drives me crazy and I often fantasize about being a man and fucking someone silly. It's just not the same with a finger or strap on.

23 - My favorite position is doggy style, it's much more pleasurable for me to be penetrated from behind. I hate missionary, I don't like feeling like I'm pinned down. I'm also self-conscious about my face during sex for some reason, so if he's not looking at me I can be more into it.

24 - At the end of high school and the beginning of university I fooled around with a lot of guys. I had a mostly male group of friends and I did something with most of them. 6, 9 and 18 all belonged to that group. I also made out with another one of them, who wanted to finger/fuck me but I didn't let him (don't know why, just being a cock tease I guess). Another one I gave a hand job to while he fingered me under a blanket at a party, he had the smallest dick I ever ran across, it was about the size of my thumb.

25 - I hope to someday meet someone, man or woman, who is willing to explore their sexuality with me. I feel like I have a lot to learn and explore. This is one of the reasons I'm not sad to be divorcing my husband, as he was into "wham-bam-thank-you-ma'am" vanilla sex and not a lot of it.