Tuesday, January 19, 2010

1. My earliest sexual feelings that I can remember were when I used to play with my cousins when I was 10 or 11. We used to roughhouse a lot, and they used to hold me down and tickle me or play “glass pedal” where they would stick their feet between my legs and push hard. I loved being held down and the feel of their foot being pressed against my pussy, so I used to beg my parents to go to their house as much as possible.

2. I started masturbating when I was 12 years old. I used to take Crayola markers, rub them against my clit and stick them inside of me. I didn’t know what an orgasm was, I just knew that I liked the feeling. It was a little bit frustrating, though, because I came from a poor family and had to share a bed with my younger sister (3 years younger). This would involve me hiding the markers under my pillow and waiting until I was sure she was asleep before I thought it was safe.

3. I like to watch men masturbate. When I was 14 I dated a boy who was 12 and he used to masturbate for me when we were alone. We never had sex, but sometimes he would grab my hand and hold it against his cock while he jacked off. I loved watching him cum, and later I would go home and masturbate alone.

4. I have a glasses fetish. I think men with glasses are incredibly sexy. Having sex with a man wearing glasses is very, very hot.

5. I lost my virginity when I was 15 years old. I had barely even kissed a boy at that age. My boyfriend at the time was 18. He didn’t know that I was a virgin. We had sex on the 3rd day after we met. He lived on his own and was very independent and I found that exciting. He was also very open and sexual and we experimented with lots of different things.

6. When I was 15 I conned my parents into buying me a computer and ordering the internet. I instantly became addicted to internet chatting. At that time (1995) there were mostly adults hanging out in chatrooms and I quickly learned about cybersex. I loved when men would send me messages telling me their fantasies and describing how they were masturbating. There were many nights that I didn’t sleep, because I stayed up all night cybersexing.

7. When I was 16 my parents installed a detachable showerhead in our shower and I quickly learned that holding the showerhead up to my clit gave me a very instense orgasm. I took a lot of showers during that time.

8. At 17 I became pregnant from a boy that I had only known for 2 weeks. My parents let him sleep over (since he was apparently kicked out of his house) and all we did was have sex whenever we could. Turned out he was an asshole and I dumped him a week later. I haven’t really talked to him since and he has shown no interest of being in my daughter’s life.

9. My skin is very sensitive to touch and I get turned on very, very easily.

10. When I was 18 my relationship with my boyfriend ended because I had phone sex with his best friend (repeatedly) while he was sleeping. I like to blame it on the fact that I was going through a very difficult time in my life, but I don’t think that is really the truth.

11. Anyone who knows me probably finds #10 hard to believe, because I am so shy. I love it when a man talks during sex but I find it very, very hard to do the same. Something about talking during sex makes me very self-conscious and I stop enjoying the sex because all I can focus on is what I am saying.

12. My best friend and I used to make out at the bar in exchange for free drinks. It would be awkward the next day, but that didn’t stop us.

13. I have had several threesomes. They’ve all been with another girl and a guy. I wouldn’t call myself bi, I’m not particularly attracted to girls, but I guess I can get caught up in the moment. Alcohol also helps. What I would really love is to watch my husband fuck another woman while I watched.

14. I have had sex with 15 men in my life. I would say that I only loved a few of them, but the fact of the matter is, I didn’t know what love was until I met my husband.

15. When I was 23 I bought a webcam for my computer, and shortly after discovered video chat rooms. I used to spend many nights drinking and flashing men in the chatrooms.

16. When I downloaded ISPQ I discovered that men would actually pay me money for masturbating on webcam, and watching them masturbate. I made lots of money doing this, but after having someone take snapshots and video recordings (without my knowledge) and posting them on a website, I decided it was time to stop.

17. My ex-boyfriend was heavily into bondage and S/M. When we met, he told me that he wasn’t interested in sex and only wanted to be tied up and tortured. I cared for him a lot so for 7 years I would dominate him while my needs went unmet. Turns out he was also having sex with girls behind my back.

18. I used to fantasize about rape until I was followed home one night while I drunkenly walked home alone from the bar. Two men were walking behind me making comments and eventually caught up with me and pushed me into a bush and tried to pull down my pants. They stopped when they heard some other people walking nearby and I was able to get away.

19. I am only attracted to white men. In certain cases I find black men attractive, but I’ve never considered dating anyone who wasn’t white.

20. I really enjoy pornography. Especially voyeur porn. I love watching videos where the people are oblivious to the fact that they are being videotaped.

21. I made a videotape once when I was 15 with the boyfriend in #5. I wished that I had taken it when I left him, but it didn’t even cross my mind. I often wonder what happened to that tape. Did he throw it out? Does he still watch it? Am I not safe to run for public office?

22. When I am really turned on, I squirt when I cum. Sometimes it sprays all over. When it first happened, I was very embarrassed of it, but I’m not so embarrassed anymore. I just focus on how incredibly good it feels.

23. I love giving head. I’ve been told I’m very good at it, but I haven’t been able to figure out if that’s because I’m actually good at it, or if it’s just something the man feels he needs to say afterwards.

24. Once I met a lawyer on a dating site. I invited him over that same night for sex. He wasn’t as good as I was expecting him to be.

25. Currently I am 29, and married to the man who was made perfect for me. He makes me feel very secure, and very loved, and as a result I feel I can let go, and the sex is the best I’ve ever had. I know sometimes he worries about a time when we might get bored with each other, but I’m not worried because I know that we’re both open, willing, and dedicated to making it work.