Monday, May 10, 2010

1. I was sexually assaulted when I was 5, but it took until I was 15 before I realized quite how badly it had affected me. Today I feel like I have accepted it as a part of who I am, and I know just how it has affected my sexuality.

2. I grew up surrounded by erotic fiction and art, and nudity was never taboo.

3. Because of where I grew up I have always been comfortable with my naked body and I have even worked as a model for life-drawing classes/private artists. I am more comfortable naked than with clothes on.

4. If I'm alone and bored I watch porn.

5. I lost my virginity to a boy I loved when I was 17. Before that I had several sexual experiences, but I had never gone all the way. It was sexy, undramatic, and fun. I didn't tell the boy that I was a virgin until 7 years later (we are still close friends).

6. I once dated a guy who found my somewhat tragic past a massive turn-on. It was a destructive relationship and ending it was one of the best decisions of my life.

7. 2 of my close friends have experienced similar abuse as me, and we have all developed similar sexual patterns.

8. I have a very high sex drive and haven't been without sex for longer than a month since I was 17.

9. I use sex to make people fall in love with me.

10. I find it fairly easy to come, but impossible If I'm drunk.

11. My current "lover" is one of the best I have been with, even though he isn't as big as some of my previous boyfriends. I guess there's something to be said about experience.

12. I prefer to go for older men--the thought of dating or sleeping with someone my own age gives me the creeps. Daddy-issues? Maybe.

13. I like it rough in the beginning of a relationship. I can't do loving, slow, romantic sex unless I actually love someone and trust them completely. The man I'm sleeping with now pulls my hair, bites and has given me bruises, and I love it.

14. I love how when you're around a new sexual partner EVERYTHING is foreplay.

15. I believe in trying everything once, and I have had both good and not so good experiences due to that mantra.

16. In my first relationship we played with bondage a lot and I have since then developed a talent for dominating. It's not a role I am extremely turned on by, but I enjoy the look of disbelief when I try it on with a new partner. I guess I don't come off as the domineering type, and some have even described me as "innocent."

17. Sex became a way for me to regain control over my own body.

18. I have had sexual experiences with girls and enjoyed it, but I know that at the end of the day I want a man.

19. I find it hard to look my parter in the eye while he's fucking me, unless I completely trust him.

20. I love being bitten, gently, around my neck and back. And I love biting.

21. It took x amount of lovers and 8 years for me to find a guy who could make me come with his fingers. Once again, there's something to be said for experience.

22. I hardly ever masturbate without my vibrator.

23. I get addicted to people when I start having sex with them and find it difficult to not drag them off to the bedroom 24/7.

24. I have no clue as to how many sexual parters I have had. Not because the number is freakishly big, but I simply refuse to count them. What's the point?

25. The best sex I have ever had was always in a loving relationship.