Wednesday, January 16, 2013

1. I am a 43-year-old straight male.

2. I have been hooked on porn since I discovered a bunch of Hustler magazines on someone's front porch when I was on my paper route when I was around 14 years old. My current GF has told me she is disgusted by porn and she believes that I don't view it anymore. I tried to stop, but I've had some relapses the last few months.

3. I was a virgin until I was 19, and lost it to a girl I dated in college for several years.

4. We broke up after 5 years when someone tried to seduce me at a church dance. It worked, but I wound up dating both of them for about 7 months.

5. When I was growing up, I always thought a pussy was just some weird triangle covered with hair, until i saw my first shaved one in a a porn magazine back in the late 80's. It was the most amazing, beautiful sight I have ever seen, and I have been really into shaving ever since, before it was fashionable as it is now. Every girl I've ever been with has been shaved. I used to shave all 3 of my long-term exes on a regular basis.

6. I have been unfaithful in some form in every relationship I've ever had, including my current one as of a few days ago. I am not proud of this.

7. I believe I have a sexual addiction problem that I have struggled to fight for the last 8 months. Like I said, I failed at this 3 days ago.

8. My last relationship before this one ended in May due to cheating, of course. It was rather devastating all around. She wound up suicidal and in a mental hospital for a few days.

9. I've had incredible sex in my life, but in the past few years, I've fooled around with girls but never totally fucked them cause it seemed like that was going too far (done everything but that).

10. I've never had a one-night stand, though (until 3 days ago); I've always been long-term relationship guy. My first relationship lasted over five and a half years. Followed by one that lasted over 13 years, followed by almost 5 years again.

11. When I was 25, I participated in a foursome with another couple. It was summer, we started in the pool, we were all really drunk. The other guy and I really wanted to see the girls get it on, so they said they would if we sucked each other's dicks first. He sucked me a little bit... I sucked him off to completion. This was my only gay experience.

12. My ex of 13 years really taught me a lot about my sexuality. She was also 10 years older than me and had much more experience than i did at everything. She introduced me to some light bondage, tying each other up, erotica... etc. Early on in our relationship, she also pegged me with a strap-on a few times and made me cry from the pleasure. It took me through a door that I have never really been through again.

13. Earlier this year, sex with my live-in relationship at the time had gotten kinda stagnant. We were looking for some ways to experiment to "save things." I tried to arrange a threesome with a female co-worker... that didn't work out at all. Never even got to try anything. So one night, we were looking at porn together... and we started talking about a strap-on. She was surprisingly into it, so we went out and got one that weekend. It was pretty good, but not quite the same as when I was much younger. She was a bigger girl and had a difficult time with it. Neither of us had good stamina, either.

14. There were two girls that I cheated on her with regularly for the past few years before we moved out of state, and a third that I was always trying to get with. This led to a lot of sexting and exchanging pics back and forth. A.lot of that. I didn't always see the two girls very often and, like I said, I didn't fuck them. They didn't know about each other. OK, the one, I did fuck her to say goodbye right before I moved away. The other was a virgin and was always begging me to do it, but I didn't feel right about taking that gift from her. She started dating some guy and gave it up to him within two or three weeks and regrets it.

15. There is nothing I enjoy more than making and watching a woman come. OK, that's not totally true, I also love eating pussy, and I believe I am quite skilled at it.

16. One of the girls from #15 was a squirter. I loved it when she would do it all over my face, the bed, the floor... anywhere and everywhere. I could make her come so many times in a row that she would pass out sometimes.

17. I also really enjoy just being naked, alone or with someone. All my exes have enjoyed being naked around the house, although we weren't total nudists or anything. I just love when you both feel totally comfortable with each other and have nothing to hide.

18. OK, I said I only had one gay experience, but when I was a teenager, I once tried to show my neighbors how to jerk off with porn magazines (other boys my age, who lived across the street). I also did this with my male cousin. My cousin was into it, but the neighbors were not, and humiliated me about it for a long time. I think they told other kids at school what I had tried to demonstrate for them.

18. I have been engaged twice, but never married.

19. I said I had an addiction problem, which I tried to keep under control. I have been seeing a woman now for the past 8 months, and I told her about issues that I had in past relationships and being unfaithful. I swore to her that I would never cheat on her, that she would be the last woman I ever kissed or touched or fucked or anything.

20. Due to the fact that I lived 500 miles away from her, I have only seen her once a month for the past few months. I moved back this weekend so that we could allow our relationship to progress. We have not had much time or opportunity to explore our sexuality very often, due to the distance between us.

21. She is someone I used to know over 25 years ago, and we got reacquainted earlier this year through a common social media site. The first time I saw her last spring, we wound up at a hotel within an hour and had sex. I used a condom, since I was still with my live-in relationship at the time, but that ended soon afterwards.

22. She is married right now, although she is ready to begin divorce proceedings. She hasn't been on any birth control and I have always used a condom with her. However, I have some kind of mental or physical block and I have never been able to finish inside her with a condom on. It's also been kinda hard for me to maintain an erection sometimes due to this. We always take it off and I wind up jerking off or she sucks me off.

23. I swore to her for months that I would never cheat on her. That I would forsake all other women. This weekend, I moved over 500 miles to be back with her to give this relationship a real chance for the future. My best friend helped me move... and then we started fooling around and I fucked her... and had unprotected sex and my first ever "one night stand," because now my best friend is 500 miles away again.

24. The girl, my best friend, went into some kind of weird sexual trance, like I have never experienced before in my life. She begged me to fuck her to release all the tension and pain I had built up in her body from fooling around so much. So I did. It was insanely passionate, but by the time I finally put it in her, we both came so fast and explosively. And now I have to go to the doctor and get tested for STDs and HIV. She is surgically sterilized after having 3 kids, so she won't get pregnant.

25. I'm supposed to have sex with my current GF tomorrow. With a condom, of course. We both enjoy masturbation and we have abstained from doing that for the past 25 days until we could be together again. And now I fucked my best friend and ruined that 3 days ago. I'll give it my best shot, but obviously I still have a serious addiction problem.