Tuesday, June 29, 2010

1. I can’t stand labels. I don’t like to describe my sexuality in one word because I don’t associate myself with a label.

2. I am sexual. I enjoy sex. If you base sexuality on experience, you’d probably consider me straight, with lesbian fantasies/tendencies.

3. I have never told anyone about this before, but I suppose I technically lost my virginity at about 11, when my older brother wanted to play “games” with me. I don’t think of it as sex. In fact I barely remember it happening now that it’s been so long. It wasn’t a painful experience or anything like that. Just something that happened to me.

4. I am a 25 year old female, in a committed long-term relationship. It didn’t start out that way, but more about that later.

5. My first boyfriend was younger than I was, and I wasn’t particularly attracted to him. I was 17 and craved the attention of a boy as all my friends had boyfriends or at least the attentions of boys. I dated him to annoy my family as they didn’t like him and disapproved of us being together.

6. One day when we were alone together, he tried to have sex with me. I remember that his penis was really small, to the point where I wasn’t sure if he’d even entered me. At this stage I still wasn’t really aware of my sexuality, or even what it really was. I was a late bloomer I suppose.

7. We broke up not long after the above incident. It wasn’t so bad being single. I learned to love myself, to enjoy myself. I discovered Cosmo magazine and my sexuality. My mother tells me that all the women in our family have rampant libidos, and I’m no exception.

8. I enjoy talking to random people about sex online. I enjoy finding out what other people like to do, what turns them on.

9. I can be an attention-seeker sometimes. I crave sexual attention. I like to be told I am sexy, and that other people would want to have sex with me.

10. I had a drunken one-night stand with my best friend’s boyfriend. I remember a summer when he wouldn’t leave me alone. He wanted me. I told him he couldn’t have me unless he broke up with his girlfriend.

11. So he told me that he was breaking up with her. He told me he wanted me. He told me I was sexy. I gave in to temptation. I wanted him as well. It was amazing sex. We flirted for a long time after that. It never amounted to anything and for that I am actually now grateful.

12. When I met my current partner, we slept together straight away. I knew it wasn’t something most girls do but it felt right. We’ve now been together for over 4 years.

13. It took me a long time to figure out what I liked and to express what I wanted to do with my partner sexually. I remember when he introduced me to porn sites, and by seeing what others did, I soon learnt what I wanted.

14. After only knowing each other one week, he told me that he wanted me to be his girlfriend. We constantly had sex. I think I didn’t sleep for that first year of our relationship. Seriously, we were having sex at least 3 times per day/night.

15. After 6 months, we found ourselves in the circumstance of flatting together. He didn’t bring his bed with him, so we were sleeping together in my bed. Well, maybe not quite so much sleep as sex. See previous point.

16. I have a blog that documents my sex life. Whenever we have some amazing sex, I’ll sit and write about it the next day. It turns me on and turns on the people who read it and comment on it. It even turns my boyfriend on. We usually go to bed and have more hot sex after reading my blog.

17. We’ve talked about threesomes, toys, and other ideas, positions and places we’d like to try having sex. We’ve tried all but the threesomes. I think we’re more in love with the fantasy for the time being. I would love for him to tie me up and blindfold me and tease me until I beg for him to fuck me.

18. For the past 4 months, we have been doing the long-distance thing. Fortunately this makes for very hot steamy sex when we do see each other. It also makes for my imagination to come up with new fantasies.

19. When I’m horny, I’m insatiable. I can’t get enough. These are the times where my poor partner tells me to get a fuck buddy. I have actually tried to meet guys who would want to be just a fuck buddy but I think I need the deeper connection, so I’ll just put up with being horny for now.

20. When I fantasize about sex, it’s about being filled with cock that does it for me. There have been times when I’ve had fantasies about women as well. I have a certain friend who is very sexual and beautiful but the thought of getting naked with a girl scares me. Fantasies are free.

21. I don’t masturbate a lot. I find it difficult to get sexy by myself. As above, I crave a hard cock. I have toys, but I need more. I think I also prefer the interaction that sex with another person brings.

22. I masturbated earlier today and orgasmed 3 times. I suppose the toys can’t be that bad. As with number 19, I’m insatiable and still horny.

23. I just wrote in my blog about my masturbation and what I was thinking about when I did it.

24. I love to be teased. All that crazy dry-humping, groping, and kissing teenagers do. I love the feeling of being turned on.

25. Writing this did not help with my feeling horny.