Wednesday, March 21, 2012

1. I'm 32 years old, have had one girlfriend, and have not had sexual intercourse.

2. The one girlfriend and I did cuddling, hand-holding, kissing and breast touching, but that's all.

3. I don't usually care about not having had sex, although I remain somewhat curious.

4. My level of libido is generally low, although it occasionally flares up.

5. My lack of sexual experience is mostly due to a few factors: social anxiety, dislike of romance/dating, and a tendency to prefer solitude.

6. I find breasts fascinating and always have. They are not only sexually attractive, but also interesting on other levels: aesthetic, cultural, etc. They are by far the most interesting aspect of sexuality for me. I can't remember a time when I didn't feel interested in them.

7. I usually like large breasts, but smaller ones can be appealing as well.

8. I occasionally find other parts of the (female) anatomy attractive, including legs, hips, and arms. But only mildly.

9. Despite the general cultural expectation that males are supposed to "chase" females, I greatly prefer it the other way around. The relationship mentioned above came about because she pursued me quite aggressively.

10. I seem to be considered good-looking, and other girls/women have approached/flirted with me with in the past. But, due to #5, I've usually turned them away.

11. I think the red hair/freckles look is aesthetically nice.

12. I've only watched one porn movie in my life, and only because my college roommate was making a copy of it for another dorm resident. I thought it was stupid and tasteless.

13. I do, however, sometimes browse the internet for softcore-type material. Specifically, pictures of busty women.

14. I find the idea of a blowjob disgusting. My girlfriend unfortunately really liked it and wanted to perform one on me, which is a factor that led to our breakup.

15. I find kissing boring.

16. I do enjoy physical contact as a more general thing. Hugging, cuddling, etc. are nice. I think there hasn't been enough of that in my life.

17. I've had two crushes in my life, one in preschool and one in 4th grade. At some point, I seemed to lose my ability to crush on anyone.

18. For some reason, a girl shaving her head is (mildly) erotic to me. It may be a combination of its taboo aspect along with its (relative) permanence. A woman with beautiful hair losing it all to the clippers (voluntarily or not) is oddly fascinating.

19. I think that a topless woman is much more attractive than one who is completely nude.

20. I don't have any problem with overweight women, although that's partly because they tend to have larger breasts.

21. I can sometimes appreciate aesthetic beauty in men, but have no desire to engage in any kind of sexual activities with them.

22. I masturbate fairly often, probably 5-6 times a week. This is usually not due to desire, but just because I find it fun. It's not a bad way to kill 10 or 15 minutes.

23. Lack of a relationship doesn't bother me, but I wouldn't mind having more experience with the physical aspects of sex. Or, at least, I often wish I could play with some boobs, as per #6. I think about them often.

24. I honestly don't think I could be in a relationship with a flat-chested woman. There would most likely be no attraction.

25. My parents once asked me if I was asexual. That would seem to sum up how people in my daily life see me.