Thursday, March 22, 2012

1. I am a 19-year-old straight female. It took experimenting my freshman year of college to realize that I am only attracted to men.

2. I haven’t had sex yet. I'm glad it hasn’t happened yet, because only now do I feel ready psychologically. I’m not sure I’m ready to have another person see me that vulnerable.

3. When I masturbated today, I tied down my feet for the first time. I have bound my hands behind my back and gagged myself before. It got me horny when I did it—I can’t imagine what I would be going through if someone else was doing it.

4. I feel like I’ve been behind the curve when it comes to sexual experience—psychologically, that is. I don’t understand how some individuals can date a person they’re not interested in or attracted to.

5. I had a guy sleep over in the beginning of the year for the first time. He never called back. I’m afraid that has set me back.

6. This year feels like one of the few times I've looked in the mirror and found my face beautiful. I don’t feel the same way about the rest of my body.

7. The first time I gave a blowjob, I was in high school. I did it so my ex-boyfriend would still be interested in me. I wish I could explain to my 17-year-old self that he wasn’t worth it.

8. The thought of a guy going down on me is unnerving. I feel like I would enjoy the experience, but I would also be worried about my flabby inner thighs.

9. I’ve never had a mutual sexual relationship. I always feel like I want it more than they do.

10. I have experimented with denying my own orgasms, but I don’t have the will to do it for longer than an hour. I like the feeling of coming too much.

11. My father never molested me or touched me inappropriately, but I link a lot of my negative feelings towards sex and love to him.

12. I don’t enjoy professional porn. I would much rather read erotica. However, amateur porn can turn me on too.

13. I don’t have a shaved pussy, and I feel like that will be a deal-breaker or a turn-off for my partner.

14. I am interested in taking on a dominant role with my partner. I can also be a very happy sub.

15. While physical attractiveness is important to me, I need to be attracted to a guy’s face. Usually, the guys I’m attracted to have slightly angular features, light brown/blonde hair, and very defined masculine features.

16. I am turned off by stubby fingers. I can't imagine them inside me-- and that's the first thing I do imagine when I look at a guy's hands who I am attracted to.

17. I want to lose my virginity to someone I feel connected to on an emotional level—I don’t think I need to be in a relationship for that.

18. Yet, I love being in a relationship. But my past two partners I haven’t felt emotionally connected to, which left the relationship in pieces.

19. One of the most nerve-wracking experiences with a previous boyfriend was when I asked him to bite me on my neck. I think he was a little shocked, but it felt amazing.

20. I am more attracted to older guys. Something about them having their lives together is really sexy.

21. I don’t find my breasts to stimulate me that much. If my partner uses light feather touches and drags his hands down my sides... well, it works much better.

22. I love kissing. You can tell a lot about a person by the way they kiss. If I’m attracted to someone, I imagine what it would be like to make out with them.

23. I feel slightly embarrassed by my lack of sexual experience.

24. I love lacy lingerie—it brings out my sexier side.

25. I have been told I’m cute. I’m not sure whether I find that to be a compliment.