Thursday, November 19, 2009

1. I'm 23 and a virgin. It's partly by circumstances and choice, but I'm NOT waiting until I'm married to lose it.
2. I've also never had a boyfriend, never been on a date or never been kissed.
3. There was a guy where we had a mutual crush on each other, but I didn't let it go any further than just friends. He was gorgeous, and I had many fantasies about being fucked raw by him, but he was a player and my heart couldn't let me do something stupid.
4. At around 4 or 5 I was forced to perform oral sex on someone in my family. It was a female. She was in her teens. I have forgiven her, 'cause I believe in karma. Karma's paid her a visit, and I've moved on long ago.
5. I started masturbating at 6 years old. I knew what I was doing, I didn't know what it was called but it felt good. The person mentioned in #4 used to do the same thing in front of me sometimes while she would be on the phone talking to friends.
6. I started watching sex-related shows, like HBO's Real Sex, and watching soft-core porn at 12 years old. I got off on it sometimes, but mostly watched and still watch shows like that because I'm interested in learning as much about sex and human sexuality as possible (from the more informative TV shows, not the movies).
7. When I become a bit more sexually experienced, I definitely want to try BDSM. I would love to restrain/blindfold a guy and then have my way with him. I have a dominant side I'd like to try out.
8. I would identify myself as straight, but would like to have at least one same-sex adventure before I die, mostly because I just want to know what it would be/feel like with a woman (even if #4 never happened.)
9. I have a tiny attraction to androgynous and butch-looking lesbians.
10. When I'm a bit older, I would love to have artistic nude photos done of myself. I love my curves and the shape I'm in so to have a physical reminder of it would be amazing.
11. The idea of wild animalistic crazy sex is a turn-on. The same goes for the slow, passionate, but intense sex.
12. I would really love to learn burlesque dancing. It looks fun, sexy and liberating. It's one of my fantasies to perform in that dance style for a boyfriend in the future.
13. Although I know race shouldn't matter, I'm more sexually attracted to white guys than guys of my own race (black).
14. After being told by a random stranger that I had "dick sucking lips," I wondered how I would be at giving blow jobs. A decade of Cosmo magazine tips and books by sexperts, filed away in the sex knowledge part of my brain, would say that I could be pretty good.
15. I have the typical playlist of "sex songs." It grows as I hear songs that turn me on. I don't like the thought of sex without some good music in the background. It could be from the years of porn watching, but it makes sense to me.
16. Two years ago, when I found my brother's stash of porn mags, I told on him. My mom told me to throw them out, but I kept a couple for a few weeks for my own entertainment.
17. I don't own any sex toys, but I am creative.
18. I feel more comfortable masturbating after I've trimmed and shaped my pubic hair. it feels "cleaner" and I can see clearer about what I'm doing.
19. One of the things I look forward to about sex is the feeling of a dick going in and out inside me. I think it would feel amazing.
20. Because of #19, I can't get off when I'm masturbating and I don't put something inside me. For lack of a better word, I end up feeling empty.
21. I believe that the responsibility of protection during sex shouldn't be 100% placed with the guy. If I want to have sex with a boyfriend, I'm gonna be prepared.
22. If I wasn't going in a different career path, I would be a sex therapist.
23. I could care less about the inches in length of the dick of whichever guy I would be having sex with. I know that how it's used that would matter most to me.
24. I like being around gay people. I find it comforting.
25. I wanted to do this list because not all virgins are religious dumb prudes.