Thursday, October 8, 2009

1. I came out as a lesbian to my mother when I was 13. I had a crush on a girl in my class and I didn't know how I really felt about it. I grew up in a Catholic household, and she just laughed at me. I cried and told her I liked girls. She responded by not taking me seriously at all. Seven years later, I am still confused about my sexuality.

2. That being said, I am a practicing heterosexual. I have slept with 10 men and am currently dating a man.

3. My current boyfriend knows that I don't have my sexuality pegged down, and he still loves me. I am really grateful about that.

4. I am an androgynous woman. I am letting my hair grow out mostly because I can't afford a haircut, but I love looking slightly ambiguous. Gender cues are overrated. (Although I do enjoy wearing a dress every now and then).

5. Porn rarely turns me on. I hate the forced quality of it. I love erotica though, especially really dirty incest/orgy erotica.

6. My brother and I used to play doctor with each other. I eventually told my parents about it, but they never reprimanded us for it. About the time when I came out as a lesbian to my mother, it horrified me. Now it barely fazes me at all.

7. I get really, really intense crushes on girls. I love beautiful faces, high cheekbones. Height and weight is unimportant. The last girl I had a crush on was a voluptuous, gorgeous Polynesian woman. Ugh, just thinking about her is sexy.

8. I bought my first vibrator a few months ago, and have succeeded in giving myself multiple orgasms. Some may think that this would ruin my sex life with my boyfriend, but it has taught me the details of what exactly I want done, and therefore I can please myself through communication during sex.

9. When I was around 11-14, I would get orgasms during my sleep. I would wake up not knowing what had happened and feel dirty. I would pray for it to stop. Sad, right?

10. I would do ANYTHING to get those wet dreams back.

11. I must dominate in bed. I can't handle being told what to do, sexually or otherwise. I am always in control. Many men have found this trait sexy.

12. I once took an interview for a job as a dominatrix. I am still interested in BDSM.

13. I fantasize about women and have really detailed dreams about being a hermaphrodite. I feel like my sexuality is more hermaphroditic--partially a woman, partially a man--in attractions to other genders, as well as attitude and presentation.

14. I would LOVE to fuck someone with a strap-on. Love it.

15. The idea of bringing food into bed grosses me out beyond belief.

16. However, the idea of play piercing is incredibly, incredibly sexy.

17. I would love to have my first sexual encounter with a woman with my boyfriend present. I sincerely love him and would want him to gain pleasure from the experience as well.

18. Until very recently, I have been guarded and uneasy of my sexuality. I am more open to exploration now.

19. I think hermaphrodites are sexy, as well as FTM and MTF transgender people. I would love to have a sexual experience with someone of any of these persuasions.

20. I love my back being touched during sex, or my belly. These are very erogenous zones for me, as well as the inside of my thighs.

21. I LOVE being spanked, no matter how much I dominate. I love sex doggy-style and being spanked.

22. When I first bought my vibrator I was staying at a friend's house for the night. I made myself come 4 times with it and I think I gushed a little. I had to clean the couch before they woke up. It was amazing.

23. The best sex I've ever had was with my current boyfriend. He is the first person I've ever been with who can make me come multiple times from sex. We are very silly with each other and bring our sense of humor into bed with us. I love it.

24. I can deep throat and I don't mind giving head at all. I think I'm pretty damn good at it. I love to 69, too.

25. My sexuality is constantly changing and evolving. Some days I feel more attracted to women, some days to men. It depends on the individual rather then their genitalia, in my opinion.