Tuesday, March 3, 2009

1: I have been told that I am the master at giving head. It was by the only uncircumcised guy I've slept with.

2: I lost my virginity 18 months ago and feel like I've slept with too many people already. I've even had a threesome already with a couple. I don't think it makes me a slut, I think I'm just very open when it comes to sex and sexuality. I always make sure to keep it safe.

3: When I make eye contact with a very attractive stranger, man or woman, I immediately look away and am usually too afraid to look back because I don't think they'll find me attractive. I wish I had the cojones to stare them down and lick my lips a little or something, just to see what they would do.

4: I actually enjoy giving head and I'm not sure if having my tonsils removed has anything to do with that, but I like to think it does.

5: Once, I almost came just by having my breasts massaged and played with. Later, the guy asked if I had been faking my enthusiasm. Of course I said no and I'm still not sure why he asked, but I didn't even like him very much and only saw him one other time afterward, when he ignored me to read and post on some car blog. He wasn't very attractive and skinner than I am, but thought he was God's gift since he was pre-med.

6: I will not be happy until I have figured out the perfect music playlist for sex. I'm thinking that I'd like one for softer, love-filled sex and raunchy, dirty sex, but I think I need more experience before I figure them out. I also think they'll change with the men I sleep with. I'll figure it out eventually.

7: The meaner and less intelligent you are, the less I find you attractive. The smarter and sweeter you are, the more I find you attractive. Also, being funny and playing an instrument help a lot.

8: I'm very attracted to my boss, but he is engaged. I don't think his fiance likes me much, but she's pretty good at pretending.

9: I always seem to attract guys more on the skinny side, which surprises me because I'm pretty voluptuous. It doesn't really bother me, but it does make me want to try sleeping with a bigger, more muscular guy at some point. I'm in no rush, but I'd like to try it out.

10: I'm afraid that I need porn to cum while masturbating. It's pretty upsetting because it makes me feel like I'm losing my ability to use my imagination, but I don't feel like trying to get off without porn by myself.

11: The only guy I slept with and actually liked only slept with me once. The next night, at 3am, he asked me to go over. I said I didn't want to walk in the city alone at 3am, he said it was understandable, and never talked to me again. He was the first one to talk dirty to me and put his hand on my throat while fucking me. I still enjoy both things, especially dirty talk.

12: It doesn't take much for me to get incredibly wet, and most guys I've been with have noticed and pointed that out to me. They never said if they liked it or anything, just pointed it out in case I didn't realize, I guess.

13: Gangbang and some rape scenarios really turn me on. More gangbang than rape, but I'm embarrassed and ashamed about both and haven't told anyone about them.

14: Nothing (that I've experienced) turns me off faster than being called names, including bitch, slut and whore. I know they're supposed to be playful dirty talk, but I can't get that through my head.

15: My number one fantasy is getting fucked by two guys at once, but at the moment, I'm way too afraid to try it. I'm sure I'll figure out a way to try it as soon as I think I'm ready.

16: I used to masturbate with the handle of a hairbrush. I once tried to use the handle in the shower that controlled the water, but it didn't work out well. I now have a vibrator and a dildo, but don't use the vibrator much. I'm also afraid to use the dildo too much because I don't want it to stretch me out.

17: I have never spit - I always swallow. It doesn't taste that bad to me and don't really see what the big deal is, although I hate brushing my teeth and using mouthwash and STILL being able to taste it. It grosses me out, especially when I'm talking to my parents and still being able to taste it.

18: I've never been very confident of my body. Even when I was younger and fit, I'd wear a one-piece bathing suit because I was on the swim team and that's just what I was comfortable in. I moved to another state and gained a lot of weight and became even less body-confident, but as soon as I realized that some guys actually do find my body really attractive and lost my virginity, I gained an incredible amount of confidence. I'm still not happy with my body, but I still wear a bikini to the beach because I don't want to be ashamed of it. I know there are guys out there who will love it.

19: Twice, I have given head to a guy (two different guys), let him cum in my mouth, and then tried to have sex because he said it wouldn't be a problem. Both guys had problems keeping it up after the head. It was very disappointing, but lesson learned, I suppose.

20: The most play I'll give a guy's ass is a spank or a squeeze. I could never play with a guy's asshole in any way, but I love a finger in my ass while getting fucked from behind and am eager to try anal with the right guy.

21: I lost my virginity in the backseat of a car while incredibly drunk to a guy that I never cared about and am now repulsed by. It makes me feel bad that my first time wasn't special or anything since my first kiss wasn't either (unfortunately, I don't even remember when it was or who it was with), so I'm hoping my first time trying anal is a little more memorable.

22: When we were 13 or 14, two friends and I went to this guy's house to meet him and two of his friends. My friends and his friends went into a room where my friends gave his friends oral (apparently started with one partner, then switched halfway through). I feel like I'm not as disturbed by that as I should be.

23: A female friend and I used to pretend that we were boyfriend and girlfriend when we were about 5 years old. We would lightly kiss with open mouths and no tongue. I recently discovered that she is a lesbian.

24: I've never been able to climax without playing with my clit, and don't think I'll ever be able to. Most of the time, I only play with my clit to masturbate. I've heard this is pretty normal, but I wish it were easier for me to cum. I always have a hard time being able to relax enough to cum when I'm with someone.

25: For as long as I can remember, my barbies would always go on dates and have sex at the end of them, but only in the missionary position or standing up. Ballerina Barbie was best to play with because her knees, elbows, and wrists bent easily.