1.) When I was very young, my friend who lived next door would come over to play, and we devised a game in which one could earn points redeemable for toys from the other by taking down his pants and showing his ass or his penis, the latter being worth more. He euphemistically referred to this only as "The Game," and would harp on me relentlessly about coming over to play it. I only recall actually doing it twice because I began to sense a dominant/submissive dynamic developing that put me in a very vulnerable situation, so I told my parents what we was going on and they stopped inviting him over. I now realize this as feeling the first pangs of sexual guilt.
2.) The first time I kissed anyone, it was my best male friend, on the jungle gym at recess in second grade. A girl in my class saw us and menacingly shouted, "What? Are you GAY or something?" I was very young and had no concept of hetero /homosexual, had never even HEARD of "gay," but the way she said it was so threatening that I would flash back to it many times much later when I thought I might actually be gay. It's hard to remember exactly what I felt in these situations, but I don't believe "desire" really entered into it. Girls were simply non-entities to me.
3.) I was thirteen the first time I masturbated. That summer when I visited my grandma, who lived just a few blocks away, I had taken to playing with her handheld showerhead, pulling my foreskin over the tube and letting the stream of water rush around the head of my penis. I had no idea what was happening, and it didn't feel particularly good, or at least not good enough to make me as obsessed as I was about doing it. One afternoon, I started feeling really intense responses to it, not just physically but, like, animalistic monkey-in-a-zoo compulsions to KEEP DOING THIS!, and I came. I was then instantly aware of this being masturbation, and I grew so ashamed I started crying even before I fully stopped ejaculating. When my mom came to get me for dinner that night, I was so afraid she'd somehow know, smelling it on me, that threw up in my hat.
4.) Despite this, I did it again and again, which I find amazing considering how terrible I always felt after orgasm. In seventh grade, a girl I thought was cute bent over my neighbor's desk and I could see down the front of her loose yellow shirt. Her breasts were so jarringly white and pretty, and I thought of what it would be like to kiss them, which was my first explicitly sexual thought ever. I excused myself and jacked-off in the bathroom. This was my first sort-of public masturbation, which lead to me doing it in an airplane bathroom, in restaurant toilets, in a dressing room, and while driving.
5.) The longest I've ever gone without masturbating, no touching allowed at all, was nearly six weeks, when I was fifteen and going through a major religious crisis concerning any sexual feelings. I took a "no jacking-off" vow during Lent, and made it until Good Friday, three days short of my "goal," because there was an episode of "The Fresh Prince of Bel Aire" on T.V. that afternoon where Will and Carlton went to a pool party at the Playboy Mansion. At the time, I was, again, crushed and convinced I would have to answer for my actions, but now I realize it's a pretty fucking adorable story.
6.) The first time I kissed someone and knew what I was doing occurred during my first week of college. I was eighteen and this girl who thought I was cute drove me behind a used car lot and said that she was going to make out with me. It was horrible. I thought her mouth was like a sucking vacuole and I knew that I didn't want to kiss her ever again. I thought, "Eighteen years for THIS?"
7.) I lost my virginity when I was twenty to my third girlfriend. The first girl I dated was also totally sexually inexperienced, and I was terrified of being her first time. Our touching and kissing was never arousing or even exciting, but I found out much later that she really wanted to have sex and went on birth control "for me." By that time she had cheated on me over the summer break and it was a moot point. The second girl I dated fooled around with me a lot, and always came loudly when I'd give her cunnilingus. One of those times, she told me to slip myself inside her, but it all fell through because I couldn't keep an erection. Thank God. It would have made for a terrible scene, since I had wanted out of the relationship for a while and we broke up three days later, but even in those occasions you sometimes find yourself awfully close to naked genitals.
8.) I really do love giving oral sex and I've been told that I'm very good at it. So much of the appeal comes from the denial of my own personal physical pleasure and if my partner is particularly into it as well, my horniness mounts to unbelievable levels.
9.) I've never had a one night stand, not because of some upstanding moral code but for what is probably the most shallow reason: I would hate having someone with bad taste in my list of sexual partners. I did once date a girl for the express purpose of having sex with her, but we also liked doing a lot of the same things and figured that it might be nice to do them together. For instance, we watched a lot of Jim Jarmusch movies. We went out drinking together and talked about how bad the jukebox was. And we had a lot of sex.
10.) That particular girl couldn't get off without dirty talk, and it annoyed the piss out of me. Spontaneous outbursts can be incredibly sexy, but otherwise it seems like I'm being forced into an awkwardly written patter of stating the obvious. "Oh, yeah baby. You're fucking me so hard." "Do you like me fucking you, baby?" "Uh huh. You're really fucking me." I found myself spending boring lecture periods trying to think filthy things to lecherously mutter, and I'm sure my lack of enthusiasm frustrated her.
11.) I dated my last girlfriend for little more reason than to cross her off my list of people I wanted to have sex with before I graduated college and moved away. I have not allowed myself to admit this to anyone, most of all to myself until very recently. I feel especially terrible about this because now I don't think about how nice she was to me, or how it was probably the most dedicated relationship I could have ever had, but instead remember the feeling of my fingers guiding hers through her pubic hair to touch her clit.
12.) I find myself attracted to boyish women, and the natural extrapolation of this is that I'm also attracted to lithe and feminine young men. I am overwhelmed by heterosexual feelings, but I also think of sexuality as a two scale system and feeling some light-to-moderate gayness just serves to make my options more interesting. Making out with a cute boy would be a total turn-on, and though I rarely consider the mechanics of actual gay sex, if the circumstances were right, I'd undoubtedly allow the situation to go where it will.
13.) I have dreams that I'm able to fellate myself. They feel astoundingly authentic, and while the novelty of them was exciting at one time, I've started to find them kind of jarring and would rather not have to deal with them again.
14.) I fantasize about having sex in a library above all other places. (I once told this to #9/10, and the next night, she "warmed me up" by telling me how she masturbated to thoughts of giving me oral in the secluded reference section of our college library. I appreciated the spirit, if not the execution, of her gesture...) While loud, wanton, capital-F-Fucking satisfies a primal need, there is nothing so Goddamn hot as watching a girl come while she's trying to be quiet.
15.) I love girl-girl porn, and especially soft-core photos that claim the designation "art nudes." There is a glorious tension to those images, bodies touching but not quite touching, lips out for a kiss but not quite kissing. Watching two girls just barely stroke each other's naked bodies in evening sunlight is a far bigger turn on to me than those same women going at it with a double ended dildo.
16.) To that point, while the Internet has opened a vast world of beautiful perversion and helped me understand the pleasure in things I never believed could be pleasurable, I also feel that it has made me lazy and unimaginative. Knowing that there is smut tailored to every possible smutty feeling I may have, sitting down at a computer to find it takes up the time that could be spent on the giddy joy of developing a mental fantasy.
17.) The prospect of sex in costumes doesn't excite me, but I've watched enough David Lynch to think that a topless woman wearing cute underpants and a large animal head is pretty big turn-on.
18.) I had sex with only one girl who shaved her pubic hair, and though it was something I really was looking forward to, I absolutely prefer reaching into a girl's pants and feeling a soft, lovely thatch.
19.) A further confession related to #9: Part of my reluctance to random sex play is that, though I'm now very skinny, I spent much of my growing years as a fat kid. As a result, my skin is still stretched out around my chest and stomach and when I'm naked it makes me feel unattractive, or at least undesirable. To top it off, I'm pretty hairy. These things aren't really noticeable when I'm clothed, so I've conditioned myself to think that since my outward package is deceptive, I'm better off revealing it in little stages to someone in a position to judge my physical prowess.
20.) I love all of the "gross" parts of sex: the sweat, the cum, the spit, the wetness. I have a hard time with sexual partners who are repelled by these things and get out of bed to wash up right away.
21.) The most intense orgasm I ever felt was from a handjob.
22.) I develop sexual crushes on almost all of my women friends, and I think the line about sex ruining a friendship is a cop out. I see nothing wrong or awkward about attractive people who already clearly share some form of love trusting each other to not judge a need for sex and providing an outlet for such strong feelings. I also realize that this requires a level of understanding and suspension of jealousy that I don't have and is probably unreasonable to request of someone else. I merely bring it up as a concept that I think has merit and I'd like to strive to attain.
23.) I admit that breasts are important to my sexual satisfaction, but I love them in all variations. I've begun to appreciate backs, mostly because I think I perform best coming in from behind and there's so much back to look at. I've also got a little thing for armpits, not in a fuckable way, but a touching/kissing/fondling way. They're so warm and soft, and a little hair can be cute. I'm also obsessed with noses. A nose of the "right" style can get me lusting after a girl like *that.* All things have to work together, though, and I can be very picky.
24.) At the risk of this coming off like a personal ad, I think I'm a very generous lover. I'm naturally submissive, so I derive a lot of pleasure from doting on my partners, and when we're in bed together, I lavish their bodies with attention. All manner of physical quirk is fodder for interesting, unique sex experience; scars and moles are definitely make-outable. In this way, I feel dominant on the microcosm.
25.) I feel that my comfortability with sex is hard earned, and it bothers me when my aforementioned close women friends say something like "I think you're a good person on the whole, but a lot of the time you're just an Asshole Guy." Yes, I sometimes say things that make me sound arrogant or slutty, but as I've never been unfaithful to anyone I was seriously dating, I no longer think it's wrong to want interesting sex. If, for example, the subject of a threesome is never breached, how will a threesome ever occur? It's not that I'm unhappy with the sex I'm having; I'd be happy kissing, licking, sucking only my partner's left breast for hours. But, with so much beauty in the world, I see no harm or shame in wanting to expand the parameters of pleasure.
Tuesday, March 10, 2009
1. I consider myself an extremely sexual person. A relationship without sex to me is nothing, but there HAS to be intimacy. There has to be an extreme emotional connection as well as a physical. I will always prefer a passionate "making love" to a hard fucking. There can be equal pressure, pumping, whatever, but I need that eye contact and those hands all over my body and I like to hear "I love you."
2. On the flip side, I just love attention from boys. I love acting like a slut and seeing a hot guy stare at me like he wants me. I love going to bars or parties and making out with boys. I love dancing with random guys and having their hands all over my body and feeling them get hard. I do not, however, do the one-night-stand sex act (but I have before).
3. In general, my body has gotten a lot of compliments. My most complimented feature body-wise is my ass. My boyfriends have all commented on my ass and my friends like it too. My stomach and breasts (although they're small B's) were constantly complimented as well. My first real boyfriend when I was 13 told me that I turned him into a "stomach man" (as opposed to an ass man or tits man). Despite all the attention, I am VERY insecure about my body. I pretty much hate everything about it except for my butt. I find flaws in everything about it and always find it hard to believe compliments.
4. One of the hottest moments was this past summer when I had sex with my ex-boyfriend (he was my ex at the time too...) and I was laying on his bed naked. He looked me up and down and said, "God, I just want to look at you for a while and remember this..." He proceeded to stare at every part of me for a long time with such a longing and awe. I'll never forget that.
5. When I was 13, I wrote erotic stories and sent them to my best guy friend at the time. They were extremely explicit and he sent me some back. I got so incredibly horny but I didn't know how to even give a handjob. His and my relationship escalated to "hooking-up," although neither of us were entirely sure what we were doing. My parents found out we were touching each other and I was grounded and got a "Net Nanny" to prevent me from reading Erotica. My parents have always restricted my sexual behavior and we have never discussed my sex life. As far as they know, I'm still a virgin and sex is unimportant to me.
6. I think something I will never try is anal sex or anal play. I just am really grossed out by touching or having someone touch my asshole. Um, hello? I poop out of there. POOP. Call me immature or close-minded, but that's just gross and awkward. Eugghhh. I would try pretty much any other kinky thing out there (that's not gross in my mind).
7. I had a pretty serious first official relationship (for my age at least) with a guy I met online (sort of). He knew my friends but I wasn't aware of this when we first talked online. He fingered me and it hurt so bad that I cried. I hadn't even figured out how to get a tampon in. He gave me a pillow to put over my mouth to muffle what he expected were going to be moans of pleasure because his mom was home. I moaned in pain instead. He always asked if he could go down on me, but I didn't even know what that was so I said no. I sort of wish I had said yes.
8. I dated a guy in high school for two and a half years. He was unpopular, unexperienced, and ugly, but he made an extensive effort to date me so I decided why not, and I sort of liked him. We didn't have sex until we had dated for one year and three months. The first time we had sex, we had already done every other sexual act you can think of, minus anal play or sex. It didn't hurt at all and we had sex 6 times that day and night in several different positions and places in my house. I thought I loved him at the time. My sexual life with him was repetitive and boring. Our parents were always home, so we almost always had sex with our clothes on. I could never be loud. He never made me orgasm, but I thought he did. Sometimes I pretended he was other people when I had sex with him.
9. The day we finally broke up, I had graduated high school already and my parents were out of town. I got drunk and invited the guy I had really been in love with the whole time (ex mentioned in #4) over to my house and he slept in my bed and we were almost naked but I didn't want to rush things. I gave him a handjob and he attempted to finger me but didn't know what he was doing. I taught him as well as the previous ex pretty much every basic sexual thing they needed to know. I wonder if either one of them ever secretly thanks me for that.
10. I have taken the "first kiss" of at least four boys and the "first fuck" of only one (it was non-mutual). I have been told I'm a good kisser by everyone I've dated. Kissing is an art and I don't like boys who don't appreciate it or know what they're doing.
11. I think my current boyfriend has the perfect sized dick. It's seven inches and a nice width and fills me up very nicely. He's bigger than the other boys I've had sex with, but he's uncircumcised. Every other dick I've dealt with has been circumcised, so I was sort of taken aback and confused as to what to do with it. But now, I think it's a lot of fun and I also think his orgasms are much more intense because of his extra sensitive skin. My current boyfriend and I have amazing sex. We're in love, so I always believe that makes the sex more amazing, but we are adventurous and I guess kinky by most terms and I'm pretty damn satisfied.
12. The ONLY complaint I have is that he doesn't try hard enough to make me orgasm. He has very amazing, intense orgasms almost every time, but I am left sort of... unsatisfied. He sometimes cums too quickly so I feel like I haven't had enough stimulation. I don't want to tell him this because I think it will make him sad. I love him and I love the sex we have, so I guess if I'm patient I might orgasm eventually.
13. That being said, I fully am aware that I am a sexual perfectionist. I get extremely upset if a guy I'm having sex with doesn't cum. But, I'm also upset if the sex is too short. I prefer the former to the latter, because I love to please. But if either happens, I don't really consider it "good sex." This is a fact about myself that I'm trying to change, but it's pretty damn hard.
14. I don't know if I've ever had an orgasm (I think I might have once from current boy). I don't masturbate. I have before but I get bored with it. Sex to me is an act. I like to put on a show for others. I think I'm good at that. I don't care about putting on a show for myself. I like to be loud and look at the person pleasuring me to let him know that he's making me feel amazing. I want to buy a vibrator and figure out my body and make myself orgasm, but I don't feel like spending money and am skeptical as to it's ability to get me off (stupid excuses, I know.)
15. Sex in public turns me on. I've done some pretty f-ed up shit. I fucked a guy while his roommate was sleeping in the bunk bed below us, I've fucked in my room many a time when my parents are home (sometimes with the door slightly open...but always with clothes on), I've fucked two different guys in two different college laundry rooms and almost gotten walked in on both times, I've given road head a few times and really not cared if anyone saw me. When I want it, I want it, and I pretty much don't care where I am or who I'm with. It turns me on most when a guy carries the same attitude. Spontaneity is everything in that instance.
16. All of the guys that I've hooked up with in college have been more on the kinky side. One in particular was super kinky with me, and he even sometimes called me "the kinkster." We had the hottest, most passionate make-out and touching sessions EVER. He was SO good with his hands and mouth, but he's not even very attractive. He's awkward and goofy and weird, but knows what he's doing in bed. That being said, he had what he called a "botched circumcision" so his penis had this weird extra flap of skin... kinda weird, but whatever.
17. My biggest turn on is wanting something I have to work for to have. Teasing me is the best way to turn me on. I love that in-the-moment pause where the guy refuses to let you kiss him completely, or when he kisses up and down my thighs before going down on me.
18. My current boyfriend is an example of a guy where I gave everything up right way expecting pretty much nothing. I fucked him something like the third day of this school year, I let him take pictures of me naked, I was REALLY loud right away... I just had no inhibitions. Part of it was him. His personality just made me feel very relaxed and trusting, and I am so lucky I was right about him because we're together now and he's amazing.
19. After I came home from college, I was newly into biting and scratching, and I hooked up with my ex (see #8). He cheated on me when we were together and we didn't speak for a year, but once we started speaking again, the old sparks came back and we kissed and slept in the same bed one night at a party and then had sex the night before I left for school. He was very impressed with my new sexual style, and secretly I was so happy that I had been taught it by the college boys I'd hooked up with. I think if I ever hook up with anyone else (hard to imagine since I'm in love with my boyfriend), I won't really enjoy it unless they're into that too.
20. Being in love with my current boyfriend has opened me up to a lot of aspects of sex that I had never really been able to experience before. While I think I've loved one other person at least, the feeling was not mutual, and the one boy who loved me as deeply as my current boyfriend I did not feel the same about at all. Now, I have the opportunity for the most, romantic, passionate, and intimate sex I've ever experienced. I love it most when we look at each other straight in the eyes and I also love it when he cums inside me (no condom, but the pill). Seeing him orgasm because of me is seriously one of the sexiest things I've ever read, heard of, seen, or experienced in my life.
21. I'm really open with my friends about my sex life. I sort of don't consider you a close friend if you're not willing to at least accept my sex talks or talk to me about your sex life. Prudes are boring. Because of this, I *might* seriously want to be a sex therapist on the side of my main future job. Human sexuality and intimate relationships seriously fascinate me, and I want to know everything I can about them. And how cool would it be for my boyfriend to say he's dating a sex therapist? ;-)
22. I'm very insecure about my current boyfriend's sexual past. He's fucked a lot more people than me (11 total I believe) and once he unfortunately let it slip that I was second best. Fuck the bitch who is before me. I don't know if I still stand in that order right now, because he did say that months ago, but I guess it's best not to know if I am. He also had sex with someone while we were unofficially dating, and I hate that anonymous bitch too. I'm territorial and jealous when it comes to things like that. The dick that I'm fucking is MY dick, and I hate when bitchy girls come in the way of that.
23. I like being spanked and held down a lot. I just love being completely submissive and letting a guy have his way with me. Sometimes I wonder if that's bad because it's similar to rape, but it's not like I ever would want to have non-consensual sex. I can't explain it, but I just hope it's not dangerous to enjoy being dominated.
24. I really like watching porn, but I want more porn for women! Unfortunately I really don't want to pay. I love plot lines and emphasis on the girl orgasming and being pleasured as opposed to the guy. I don't get how some things in porn could possibly feel good for a girl. I also like artsy black and white shots of couples having sex.
25. I've been told more than once that I am the horniest girl anyone's ever met. I mean, I might just be. I think about sex probably as often as any 15 year old boy would think about sex, maybe more. Probably part of this is attributed to the fact that I don't masturbate, and I really should. At the same time, I love my sex drive, but it does become a burden when I want it more frequently than my boyfriend does (which happens quite frequently).
2. On the flip side, I just love attention from boys. I love acting like a slut and seeing a hot guy stare at me like he wants me. I love going to bars or parties and making out with boys. I love dancing with random guys and having their hands all over my body and feeling them get hard. I do not, however, do the one-night-stand sex act (but I have before).
3. In general, my body has gotten a lot of compliments. My most complimented feature body-wise is my ass. My boyfriends have all commented on my ass and my friends like it too. My stomach and breasts (although they're small B's) were constantly complimented as well. My first real boyfriend when I was 13 told me that I turned him into a "stomach man" (as opposed to an ass man or tits man). Despite all the attention, I am VERY insecure about my body. I pretty much hate everything about it except for my butt. I find flaws in everything about it and always find it hard to believe compliments.
4. One of the hottest moments was this past summer when I had sex with my ex-boyfriend (he was my ex at the time too...) and I was laying on his bed naked. He looked me up and down and said, "God, I just want to look at you for a while and remember this..." He proceeded to stare at every part of me for a long time with such a longing and awe. I'll never forget that.
5. When I was 13, I wrote erotic stories and sent them to my best guy friend at the time. They were extremely explicit and he sent me some back. I got so incredibly horny but I didn't know how to even give a handjob. His and my relationship escalated to "hooking-up," although neither of us were entirely sure what we were doing. My parents found out we were touching each other and I was grounded and got a "Net Nanny" to prevent me from reading Erotica. My parents have always restricted my sexual behavior and we have never discussed my sex life. As far as they know, I'm still a virgin and sex is unimportant to me.
6. I think something I will never try is anal sex or anal play. I just am really grossed out by touching or having someone touch my asshole. Um, hello? I poop out of there. POOP. Call me immature or close-minded, but that's just gross and awkward. Eugghhh. I would try pretty much any other kinky thing out there (that's not gross in my mind).
7. I had a pretty serious first official relationship (for my age at least) with a guy I met online (sort of). He knew my friends but I wasn't aware of this when we first talked online. He fingered me and it hurt so bad that I cried. I hadn't even figured out how to get a tampon in. He gave me a pillow to put over my mouth to muffle what he expected were going to be moans of pleasure because his mom was home. I moaned in pain instead. He always asked if he could go down on me, but I didn't even know what that was so I said no. I sort of wish I had said yes.
8. I dated a guy in high school for two and a half years. He was unpopular, unexperienced, and ugly, but he made an extensive effort to date me so I decided why not, and I sort of liked him. We didn't have sex until we had dated for one year and three months. The first time we had sex, we had already done every other sexual act you can think of, minus anal play or sex. It didn't hurt at all and we had sex 6 times that day and night in several different positions and places in my house. I thought I loved him at the time. My sexual life with him was repetitive and boring. Our parents were always home, so we almost always had sex with our clothes on. I could never be loud. He never made me orgasm, but I thought he did. Sometimes I pretended he was other people when I had sex with him.
9. The day we finally broke up, I had graduated high school already and my parents were out of town. I got drunk and invited the guy I had really been in love with the whole time (ex mentioned in #4) over to my house and he slept in my bed and we were almost naked but I didn't want to rush things. I gave him a handjob and he attempted to finger me but didn't know what he was doing. I taught him as well as the previous ex pretty much every basic sexual thing they needed to know. I wonder if either one of them ever secretly thanks me for that.
10. I have taken the "first kiss" of at least four boys and the "first fuck" of only one (it was non-mutual). I have been told I'm a good kisser by everyone I've dated. Kissing is an art and I don't like boys who don't appreciate it or know what they're doing.
11. I think my current boyfriend has the perfect sized dick. It's seven inches and a nice width and fills me up very nicely. He's bigger than the other boys I've had sex with, but he's uncircumcised. Every other dick I've dealt with has been circumcised, so I was sort of taken aback and confused as to what to do with it. But now, I think it's a lot of fun and I also think his orgasms are much more intense because of his extra sensitive skin. My current boyfriend and I have amazing sex. We're in love, so I always believe that makes the sex more amazing, but we are adventurous and I guess kinky by most terms and I'm pretty damn satisfied.
12. The ONLY complaint I have is that he doesn't try hard enough to make me orgasm. He has very amazing, intense orgasms almost every time, but I am left sort of... unsatisfied. He sometimes cums too quickly so I feel like I haven't had enough stimulation. I don't want to tell him this because I think it will make him sad. I love him and I love the sex we have, so I guess if I'm patient I might orgasm eventually.
13. That being said, I fully am aware that I am a sexual perfectionist. I get extremely upset if a guy I'm having sex with doesn't cum. But, I'm also upset if the sex is too short. I prefer the former to the latter, because I love to please. But if either happens, I don't really consider it "good sex." This is a fact about myself that I'm trying to change, but it's pretty damn hard.
14. I don't know if I've ever had an orgasm (I think I might have once from current boy). I don't masturbate. I have before but I get bored with it. Sex to me is an act. I like to put on a show for others. I think I'm good at that. I don't care about putting on a show for myself. I like to be loud and look at the person pleasuring me to let him know that he's making me feel amazing. I want to buy a vibrator and figure out my body and make myself orgasm, but I don't feel like spending money and am skeptical as to it's ability to get me off (stupid excuses, I know.)
15. Sex in public turns me on. I've done some pretty f-ed up shit. I fucked a guy while his roommate was sleeping in the bunk bed below us, I've fucked in my room many a time when my parents are home (sometimes with the door slightly open...but always with clothes on), I've fucked two different guys in two different college laundry rooms and almost gotten walked in on both times, I've given road head a few times and really not cared if anyone saw me. When I want it, I want it, and I pretty much don't care where I am or who I'm with. It turns me on most when a guy carries the same attitude. Spontaneity is everything in that instance.
16. All of the guys that I've hooked up with in college have been more on the kinky side. One in particular was super kinky with me, and he even sometimes called me "the kinkster." We had the hottest, most passionate make-out and touching sessions EVER. He was SO good with his hands and mouth, but he's not even very attractive. He's awkward and goofy and weird, but knows what he's doing in bed. That being said, he had what he called a "botched circumcision" so his penis had this weird extra flap of skin... kinda weird, but whatever.
17. My biggest turn on is wanting something I have to work for to have. Teasing me is the best way to turn me on. I love that in-the-moment pause where the guy refuses to let you kiss him completely, or when he kisses up and down my thighs before going down on me.
18. My current boyfriend is an example of a guy where I gave everything up right way expecting pretty much nothing. I fucked him something like the third day of this school year, I let him take pictures of me naked, I was REALLY loud right away... I just had no inhibitions. Part of it was him. His personality just made me feel very relaxed and trusting, and I am so lucky I was right about him because we're together now and he's amazing.
19. After I came home from college, I was newly into biting and scratching, and I hooked up with my ex (see #8). He cheated on me when we were together and we didn't speak for a year, but once we started speaking again, the old sparks came back and we kissed and slept in the same bed one night at a party and then had sex the night before I left for school. He was very impressed with my new sexual style, and secretly I was so happy that I had been taught it by the college boys I'd hooked up with. I think if I ever hook up with anyone else (hard to imagine since I'm in love with my boyfriend), I won't really enjoy it unless they're into that too.
20. Being in love with my current boyfriend has opened me up to a lot of aspects of sex that I had never really been able to experience before. While I think I've loved one other person at least, the feeling was not mutual, and the one boy who loved me as deeply as my current boyfriend I did not feel the same about at all. Now, I have the opportunity for the most, romantic, passionate, and intimate sex I've ever experienced. I love it most when we look at each other straight in the eyes and I also love it when he cums inside me (no condom, but the pill). Seeing him orgasm because of me is seriously one of the sexiest things I've ever read, heard of, seen, or experienced in my life.
21. I'm really open with my friends about my sex life. I sort of don't consider you a close friend if you're not willing to at least accept my sex talks or talk to me about your sex life. Prudes are boring. Because of this, I *might* seriously want to be a sex therapist on the side of my main future job. Human sexuality and intimate relationships seriously fascinate me, and I want to know everything I can about them. And how cool would it be for my boyfriend to say he's dating a sex therapist? ;-)
22. I'm very insecure about my current boyfriend's sexual past. He's fucked a lot more people than me (11 total I believe) and once he unfortunately let it slip that I was second best. Fuck the bitch who is before me. I don't know if I still stand in that order right now, because he did say that months ago, but I guess it's best not to know if I am. He also had sex with someone while we were unofficially dating, and I hate that anonymous bitch too. I'm territorial and jealous when it comes to things like that. The dick that I'm fucking is MY dick, and I hate when bitchy girls come in the way of that.
23. I like being spanked and held down a lot. I just love being completely submissive and letting a guy have his way with me. Sometimes I wonder if that's bad because it's similar to rape, but it's not like I ever would want to have non-consensual sex. I can't explain it, but I just hope it's not dangerous to enjoy being dominated.
24. I really like watching porn, but I want more porn for women! Unfortunately I really don't want to pay. I love plot lines and emphasis on the girl orgasming and being pleasured as opposed to the guy. I don't get how some things in porn could possibly feel good for a girl. I also like artsy black and white shots of couples having sex.
25. I've been told more than once that I am the horniest girl anyone's ever met. I mean, I might just be. I think about sex probably as often as any 15 year old boy would think about sex, maybe more. Probably part of this is attributed to the fact that I don't masturbate, and I really should. At the same time, I love my sex drive, but it does become a burden when I want it more frequently than my boyfriend does (which happens quite frequently).
1 - I know I'm not gay, and I know I'm not straight, but I won't admit I'm bisexual cos the lesbian community judges me - it saddens me that I am effectively excluded from my own community but I guess I don't identify with a lot of 'bisexual' women who will kiss girls, claim they're bi but could never sleep with/date one.
2 - I own enough sex toys to fill a small 'adult store' - flag that, a BIG adult store. Unfortunately I only use 3 or 4 of the hundred odd I own.
3 - I used to fuck my friend and his wife (both at the same time) but I think she fell in love with me so I walked away.
4 - I think my anal fantasies date back to when I was abused as a young teenager. I think it's also the reason I like the song Pony by Ginuwine, I remember it playing in the car when he drove me somewhere to molest me for the last time - I feel kinda guilty for liking the song because of this.
5 - I fucking LOVE breasts, I only just discovered how much I like small breasts when I was dating a girl with possibly the world's hottest A cups.
6 - I am more self conscious fully clothed than when I am butt nekkid, maybe it has something to do with company, maybe not.
7 - I secretly fucked a good male friend of mine a couple of times in the last few months, neither of us can tell any of our friends because of the first thing on my list, and I feel bad he has to lie about what he's been up to but I am selfish enough to still want it kept a secret.
8 - I love to kiss, it's the best kind of foreplay ever, I could kiss for hours and I know I do it well - the woman (who is in a relationship) that I have been sneakily kissing when we're not with her partner kisses like she's raping my mouth... and not in a good way.
9 - I dream about fucking someone's mouth, call it oral fixation, but I dream of having a penis and using it to almost choke someone.
10 - I masturbate almost daily, whether I'm in a relationship or not, some people feel this is because they're not satisfying me, I can't tell if that's what it is, or if it's a comfort thing.
11 - I can't count the amount of people I have slept with on two hands but I can count the amount of people who have taken my breath away with AMAZING bedroom talents on one.
12 - Rape fantasy gets me hot.
13 - I moan, scream, swear etc. something chronic when I'm really enjoying sex but I hate when my partner at the time is silent, I know some people just are, but no matter how much they're enjoying it I feel inadequate.
14 - I used to date a squirter, I thought it was incredibly hot because when she squirted it meant she was really letting go and coming hard, she hated it because of the mess and therefore rarely did it.
15 - The smell of a particular soap always reminds me of the girl whose pussy smelled like soap and sexiness.
16 - I know I give good head, to guys and girls, I love the taste of a woman but I'm not too fussed on guys.
17 - When I masturbate I always have to lie on my back, with my legs clenched, playing only with my clit - I can rarely come any other way by myself.
18 - I had the most passionate sex with the girl listed in number 14, I miss just lying naked in bed exploring her, I could literally go down on her for hours at a time.
19 - I wish I could see all of my friends naked so I could see what it is they're all so paranoid about with their bodies. I can assure you that seeing them naked would not make them any less beautiful in my eyes.
20 - Kink and the idea of people exploring their taboo fetishes intrigues me, I look at websites of people with odd fetishes just to see if I can figure it out, I can't.
21 - I just bought a new ball gag.
22 - I find androgyny incredibly attractive in women, but not at all in men.
23 - I think I may have only gone out with one of my first boyfriends to make his best friend jealous (because that's who I wanted) but I used him and let him use me until I achieved my goal - he cried over the break up, I felt nothing. I bedded his best friend and cheated on him the entire time.
24 - I love being fucked with a strap-on if the person who's doing it knows how to do it properly.
25 - I wish someone would dominate me, I wish they would tie me up, hold me down, pull my hair, call me names, and take what they want from me. No one has yet done this with my consent and the only person who did it without my consent doesn't count anyway.
2 - I own enough sex toys to fill a small 'adult store' - flag that, a BIG adult store. Unfortunately I only use 3 or 4 of the hundred odd I own.
3 - I used to fuck my friend and his wife (both at the same time) but I think she fell in love with me so I walked away.
4 - I think my anal fantasies date back to when I was abused as a young teenager. I think it's also the reason I like the song Pony by Ginuwine, I remember it playing in the car when he drove me somewhere to molest me for the last time - I feel kinda guilty for liking the song because of this.
5 - I fucking LOVE breasts, I only just discovered how much I like small breasts when I was dating a girl with possibly the world's hottest A cups.
6 - I am more self conscious fully clothed than when I am butt nekkid, maybe it has something to do with company, maybe not.
7 - I secretly fucked a good male friend of mine a couple of times in the last few months, neither of us can tell any of our friends because of the first thing on my list, and I feel bad he has to lie about what he's been up to but I am selfish enough to still want it kept a secret.
8 - I love to kiss, it's the best kind of foreplay ever, I could kiss for hours and I know I do it well - the woman (who is in a relationship) that I have been sneakily kissing when we're not with her partner kisses like she's raping my mouth... and not in a good way.
9 - I dream about fucking someone's mouth, call it oral fixation, but I dream of having a penis and using it to almost choke someone.
10 - I masturbate almost daily, whether I'm in a relationship or not, some people feel this is because they're not satisfying me, I can't tell if that's what it is, or if it's a comfort thing.
11 - I can't count the amount of people I have slept with on two hands but I can count the amount of people who have taken my breath away with AMAZING bedroom talents on one.
12 - Rape fantasy gets me hot.
13 - I moan, scream, swear etc. something chronic when I'm really enjoying sex but I hate when my partner at the time is silent, I know some people just are, but no matter how much they're enjoying it I feel inadequate.
14 - I used to date a squirter, I thought it was incredibly hot because when she squirted it meant she was really letting go and coming hard, she hated it because of the mess and therefore rarely did it.
15 - The smell of a particular soap always reminds me of the girl whose pussy smelled like soap and sexiness.
16 - I know I give good head, to guys and girls, I love the taste of a woman but I'm not too fussed on guys.
17 - When I masturbate I always have to lie on my back, with my legs clenched, playing only with my clit - I can rarely come any other way by myself.
18 - I had the most passionate sex with the girl listed in number 14, I miss just lying naked in bed exploring her, I could literally go down on her for hours at a time.
19 - I wish I could see all of my friends naked so I could see what it is they're all so paranoid about with their bodies. I can assure you that seeing them naked would not make them any less beautiful in my eyes.
20 - Kink and the idea of people exploring their taboo fetishes intrigues me, I look at websites of people with odd fetishes just to see if I can figure it out, I can't.
21 - I just bought a new ball gag.
22 - I find androgyny incredibly attractive in women, but not at all in men.
23 - I think I may have only gone out with one of my first boyfriends to make his best friend jealous (because that's who I wanted) but I used him and let him use me until I achieved my goal - he cried over the break up, I felt nothing. I bedded his best friend and cheated on him the entire time.
24 - I love being fucked with a strap-on if the person who's doing it knows how to do it properly.
25 - I wish someone would dominate me, I wish they would tie me up, hold me down, pull my hair, call me names, and take what they want from me. No one has yet done this with my consent and the only person who did it without my consent doesn't count anyway.
1. My biggest regret in life is losing my virginity to a virgin. I sometimes think I sort of pressured him into it, other times I think it was the other way around. Either way, neither of us knew what we were doing and it took us a few tries before we ACTUALLY had sex. It was a little painful, but I didn't bleed, which made me think I was a slut and unpure. The sex itself was pretty blah.
2. I've had sex with 6 or 8 guys. Most of which I DEEPLY regret.
3. I had sex with one woman, I don't regret it, but it wasn't really that satisfying.
4. I have been masturbating since I was about maybe 12 years old. Though I think from age 6 till 11 I used to cross my legs really tight while hanging on something and I remember really liking the feeling.
5. I watched my first porno with my friend when I was 6 years old. We had stayed up really late and we were flipping channels when we saw it. We thought it was hilarious and I highly doubt it affected the rest of my life in any way.
6. While I don't identify myself as a lesbian or bisexual, lesbian porn is the only porn that gets me off when I masturbate.
7. I think out of all the guys I've fooled around with or slept with only about 2 or 3 have gone down on me. And that really pisses me off as I love getting eaten out.
8. I'm very excited for the next time I have sex because I have lost a lot of weight since my last sexual experience.
9. None of the guys I have slept with have ever been adventurous or rough enough for me. I want to try crazy things like getting tied up/tying my partner up or at least spankings
10. I secretly really want to be a slut and dress slutty. But I want to be more comfortable with my body before I do it.
11. I love older men. I mean A LOT older than I am, usually by 20 or 30 years. Something about their sophistication and intelligence really makes me hot. I would LOVE to have sex with a man who was in his 40s or 50s.
12. A running theme for my partners (with one or two exceptions) is the bigger the asshole they were, the better they were in bed, my best fuck happened to be the biggest asshole.
13. I tried anal sex twice with the same partner. It hurt a LOT (no lube, no preparation). The first time I tried it I told him to pull out before he even got halfway in. I tried it again and after a while it didn't feel half bad. But I got so grossed out when I saw the condom after he was done.
14. I currently have a crush on a man my older sister used to have a crush on. I don't want to date him, but I have a semi-elaborate plan on how I'm going to screw his brains out when/if I see him. I'm really ashamed with myself because a very small reason I want to sleep with him is so I can feel prettier than my older sister.
15. I burn a guy with cigarettes while he gets off for money. I am very attracted to him and probably wouldn't say no if he asked me to have sex with him, even if he's old enough to be my dad.
16. My biggest fantasies are fucking a guy in the ass with a strap-on and having a three way with two bisexual men.
17. I'm not sure what happened, but I have become a very mean ice queen to men nowadays. If I don't find a man attractive I will not tolerate them hitting on me. There was a scenario where a guy was seriously trying to pressure me into sex, and had I not been forceful enough, I'm sure he would have raped me. While it didn't really traumatize me I feel like it made me a bit stronger as a woman. Since then, however, I have been less interested in guys.
18. I've never "made love" because I've never been in love with any of my boyfriends. I don't even really believe in it anymore.
19. I try to avoid patterns in my sex life. I refuse to have sex with Asians, boys who are younger than me, or guys who are teetering on the gay side (even though I'd love to fuck a gay guy who is out of the closet).
20. I could never, EVER have sex with a fat guy. I think I would get sick.
21. I hate being short because all of my lovers tend to be much taller than me. Making sex VERY limited and stiff.
22. I've only had sex with a man who was my religion once. I have kissed 2 men of my religion. One of whom has a girlfriend.
23. I've had sex in a car more than I have had sex in a bed.
24. I am freakishly attracted to muscle. I love seeing big beefy men in real life. There was one time this really muscly Hispanic guy hit on me, and I acted like I was grossed out but I was totally turned on.
25. I wish I was a gay man because I really think men are more romantic with other men than women.
2. I've had sex with 6 or 8 guys. Most of which I DEEPLY regret.
3. I had sex with one woman, I don't regret it, but it wasn't really that satisfying.
4. I have been masturbating since I was about maybe 12 years old. Though I think from age 6 till 11 I used to cross my legs really tight while hanging on something and I remember really liking the feeling.
5. I watched my first porno with my friend when I was 6 years old. We had stayed up really late and we were flipping channels when we saw it. We thought it was hilarious and I highly doubt it affected the rest of my life in any way.
6. While I don't identify myself as a lesbian or bisexual, lesbian porn is the only porn that gets me off when I masturbate.
7. I think out of all the guys I've fooled around with or slept with only about 2 or 3 have gone down on me. And that really pisses me off as I love getting eaten out.
8. I'm very excited for the next time I have sex because I have lost a lot of weight since my last sexual experience.
9. None of the guys I have slept with have ever been adventurous or rough enough for me. I want to try crazy things like getting tied up/tying my partner up or at least spankings
10. I secretly really want to be a slut and dress slutty. But I want to be more comfortable with my body before I do it.
11. I love older men. I mean A LOT older than I am, usually by 20 or 30 years. Something about their sophistication and intelligence really makes me hot. I would LOVE to have sex with a man who was in his 40s or 50s.
12. A running theme for my partners (with one or two exceptions) is the bigger the asshole they were, the better they were in bed, my best fuck happened to be the biggest asshole.
13. I tried anal sex twice with the same partner. It hurt a LOT (no lube, no preparation). The first time I tried it I told him to pull out before he even got halfway in. I tried it again and after a while it didn't feel half bad. But I got so grossed out when I saw the condom after he was done.
14. I currently have a crush on a man my older sister used to have a crush on. I don't want to date him, but I have a semi-elaborate plan on how I'm going to screw his brains out when/if I see him. I'm really ashamed with myself because a very small reason I want to sleep with him is so I can feel prettier than my older sister.
15. I burn a guy with cigarettes while he gets off for money. I am very attracted to him and probably wouldn't say no if he asked me to have sex with him, even if he's old enough to be my dad.
16. My biggest fantasies are fucking a guy in the ass with a strap-on and having a three way with two bisexual men.
17. I'm not sure what happened, but I have become a very mean ice queen to men nowadays. If I don't find a man attractive I will not tolerate them hitting on me. There was a scenario where a guy was seriously trying to pressure me into sex, and had I not been forceful enough, I'm sure he would have raped me. While it didn't really traumatize me I feel like it made me a bit stronger as a woman. Since then, however, I have been less interested in guys.
18. I've never "made love" because I've never been in love with any of my boyfriends. I don't even really believe in it anymore.
19. I try to avoid patterns in my sex life. I refuse to have sex with Asians, boys who are younger than me, or guys who are teetering on the gay side (even though I'd love to fuck a gay guy who is out of the closet).
20. I could never, EVER have sex with a fat guy. I think I would get sick.
21. I hate being short because all of my lovers tend to be much taller than me. Making sex VERY limited and stiff.
22. I've only had sex with a man who was my religion once. I have kissed 2 men of my religion. One of whom has a girlfriend.
23. I've had sex in a car more than I have had sex in a bed.
24. I am freakishly attracted to muscle. I love seeing big beefy men in real life. There was one time this really muscly Hispanic guy hit on me, and I acted like I was grossed out but I was totally turned on.
25. I wish I was a gay man because I really think men are more romantic with other men than women.
Sunday, March 8, 2009
1. At a size 14, I often wonder what sex is like if you're thinner. However, a lot of times I feel plush and womanly.
2. Oral sex is the only way I can get off, and my current boyfriend makes that almost impossible sometimes. He tries WAY too hard (usually he ends up looking like he ran a 5k marathon afterwards) and therefore I feel pressured to perform.
3. Making this list has made me decide to tell my partner exactly what I want.
4. I am convinced that one day I will have an abortion (even though I am on birth control and never let anyone come inside me unless they're wearing a condom). If there is the slightest inconsistency in my menstrual cycle, I spend a lot of time trying to mentally prepare myself for that event.
5. I had a one night stand one time only, and at first I couldn't figure out why I did it because a) I didn't like him that much b) It was out of my character and c) I wasn't horny. I realized later that I did it to get back at someone and I'm really surprised at myself.
6. I have HPV and I don't think sex with new people is impossible, but I'm utterly clueless about etiquette in this type of situation. I might be crazy, but I feel like this will only lead me to the best relationship of my life.
7. I like erotic fiction. I don't read it terribly often, but when I do I find myself attracted to stories about losing virginity, because losing mine was so fiercely typical I almost feel cheated, even though it was with someone I loved at the time.
8. I've always wondered what it would be like to watch two people having sex right in front of me. Or better, if they can't see me. However, I don't feel strongly enough to ever actually make it happen.
9. I had what I call an "almost threesome" which consisted of making out and being fingered by two guys. Even though it caused me quite a bit of drama, I would never take it back and I'm proud of myself.
10. I used to be silent during sex - never made a peep. I have been pleaded with to moan, and I never could bring myself to do it. Now I find myself doing it mostly to give my partner confidence but find it distracting.
11. My most recent sexual idea for me and my boyfriend of 2 years is to have drunk sex. Obviously, we are running out of ideas to "spice things up."
12. I find carnivals/festival type places really romantic. When I was about 13 I was sitting at the top of a ferris wheel with my gay best friend (unbeknownst to me at the time) wishing he would kiss me and was really disappointed when he didn't. Two years later, I had my first kiss at that event.
13. In my first relationship, I had times where once he satisfied me I didn't feel like returning the favor. I stupidly never imagined it would happen to me and now I would never do that again.
14. The relationships I end up in are always with guys who like most girls. The kind who has a crush on all his female friends as long as they are nice and somewhat attractive in one way or another. It's annoying and I wish they, AND I, knew how to be more selective.
15. My current boyfriend has literally the sweetest kiss - his breath is almost ALWAYS like candy.
16. I'd really love to have sex outside, but I can't think of ANYWHERE private enough. I think it would make me feel more connected to everything.
17. The best orgasms I've ever had are the ones I've given myself.
18. I'd never try anal because I think I would feel degraded.
19. Daydreaming about sex is something I rarely do anymore, but did a LOT of in high school.
20. I enjoy the intimacy of sex more than the actual sensations.
21. I have hardly any memories of the sex I had with my 2nd partner. We only did it a handful of times (both absolutely sober) but you'd think that would make them more memorable?
22. I like to be seduced slowly and treated like a goddess, but I don't think that has happened in a really long time.
23. Male moaning makes me hot.
24. I only swallow when I feel my significant other has earned it by pleasing me outside the bedroom.
25. I can't get over the idea that it's the male's job to make sure the sex is good, even though that's probably unfair.
2. Oral sex is the only way I can get off, and my current boyfriend makes that almost impossible sometimes. He tries WAY too hard (usually he ends up looking like he ran a 5k marathon afterwards) and therefore I feel pressured to perform.
3. Making this list has made me decide to tell my partner exactly what I want.
4. I am convinced that one day I will have an abortion (even though I am on birth control and never let anyone come inside me unless they're wearing a condom). If there is the slightest inconsistency in my menstrual cycle, I spend a lot of time trying to mentally prepare myself for that event.
5. I had a one night stand one time only, and at first I couldn't figure out why I did it because a) I didn't like him that much b) It was out of my character and c) I wasn't horny. I realized later that I did it to get back at someone and I'm really surprised at myself.
6. I have HPV and I don't think sex with new people is impossible, but I'm utterly clueless about etiquette in this type of situation. I might be crazy, but I feel like this will only lead me to the best relationship of my life.
7. I like erotic fiction. I don't read it terribly often, but when I do I find myself attracted to stories about losing virginity, because losing mine was so fiercely typical I almost feel cheated, even though it was with someone I loved at the time.
8. I've always wondered what it would be like to watch two people having sex right in front of me. Or better, if they can't see me. However, I don't feel strongly enough to ever actually make it happen.
9. I had what I call an "almost threesome" which consisted of making out and being fingered by two guys. Even though it caused me quite a bit of drama, I would never take it back and I'm proud of myself.
10. I used to be silent during sex - never made a peep. I have been pleaded with to moan, and I never could bring myself to do it. Now I find myself doing it mostly to give my partner confidence but find it distracting.
11. My most recent sexual idea for me and my boyfriend of 2 years is to have drunk sex. Obviously, we are running out of ideas to "spice things up."
12. I find carnivals/festival type places really romantic. When I was about 13 I was sitting at the top of a ferris wheel with my gay best friend (unbeknownst to me at the time) wishing he would kiss me and was really disappointed when he didn't. Two years later, I had my first kiss at that event.
13. In my first relationship, I had times where once he satisfied me I didn't feel like returning the favor. I stupidly never imagined it would happen to me and now I would never do that again.
14. The relationships I end up in are always with guys who like most girls. The kind who has a crush on all his female friends as long as they are nice and somewhat attractive in one way or another. It's annoying and I wish they, AND I, knew how to be more selective.
15. My current boyfriend has literally the sweetest kiss - his breath is almost ALWAYS like candy.
16. I'd really love to have sex outside, but I can't think of ANYWHERE private enough. I think it would make me feel more connected to everything.
17. The best orgasms I've ever had are the ones I've given myself.
18. I'd never try anal because I think I would feel degraded.
19. Daydreaming about sex is something I rarely do anymore, but did a LOT of in high school.
20. I enjoy the intimacy of sex more than the actual sensations.
21. I have hardly any memories of the sex I had with my 2nd partner. We only did it a handful of times (both absolutely sober) but you'd think that would make them more memorable?
22. I like to be seduced slowly and treated like a goddess, but I don't think that has happened in a really long time.
23. Male moaning makes me hot.
24. I only swallow when I feel my significant other has earned it by pleasing me outside the bedroom.
25. I can't get over the idea that it's the male's job to make sure the sex is good, even though that's probably unfair.
1.I have only had sex with one man, and I plan to keep it that way. We had been together for 9 months when I lost my virginity to him.
2.I like performing sexual acts in places other than our bed. (Someone else's bed, a tent, a riverbank, a public restroom, a desk, living room floor, and a bar are the memories that come to mind first.)
3.I started masturbating when I was 10 years old. I always felt guilty about it. (I still associate sex with guilt sometimes.) I had a few-year-long period when I would masturbate at least once a day. I hardly ever do now.
4.I love being grabbed, spanked, scratched, pinned down, pushed around and told what to do.
5.I have tried anal sex, and it was okay. It was more of an emotional experience than a physical one. It wasn't so great that I would ask for it again.
6.I do love assplay though. Having a finger in my ass while having sex is a huge turn-on.
7.I had a boyfriend 8 years older than me who basically forced me to give him head multiple times. Our relationship wasn't exactly rosy... I hardly remember anything about him today, I've blocked him out.
8.Sometimes when I can't sleep I turn on the TV, and in the middle of the night there isn't usually anything much to watch besides porn. So I watch porn and masturbate to it. I orgasm almost every time.
9.I stare at girls more often than boys. I don't ever fantasize about anything sexual involving girls, though, nor have I ever had romantic feelings for a girl. I simply think they are aesthetically more pleasing than boys.
10.On New Year's Eve when I was 14, I went down on a (girl) friend, and she went down on me, too. It was bad. We were both drunk.
11.I have gotten sexual offers on the street from strangers many times. I wouldn't ever take them up on their offers, but they do make me smile to myself.
12.I have kissed with 9 people. 3 of those were girls.
13.Up until I was 10, we used to play sexual games with my friends. Mostly roleplay. Dry-humping, touching were everyday. I find it odd that I have never thought this was odd...
14.I love having sex in front of a mirror. I have always been jealous of boys because they usually see much more of what is happening down there during sex than girls do.
15.I have a bad habit of imagining what people look like during sex. By people I mean almost everyone I know. This sometimes becomes disturbing.
16.I love having sex right after waking up.
17.My sex drive depends on the amount of sex I get. If I get it often, my sex drive will skyrocket, if I get it rarely, it will conveniently turn itself off.
18.Sometimes just laying next to someone and feeling their chest rising and falling can be the sexiest thing.
19.My then-boyfriend shaved my pussy for the first time when I was 16. It was humiliating. I shave it ever since, though. I've had it completely bare, but I find that having a small triangle of hair is more appealing.
20.I hate completely shaved dicks, but I hate entirely hairy ones as well.
21.I would love to be able to do deep throat. I've tried and it never worked.
22.I love having sex when I'm drunk or stoned.
23.I love it when my partner makes me orgasm from oral and penetrates me right after. It makes me feel completely helpless and his, and it is also amazing physically.
24.The idea of bloodplay excites me. I've mentioned it to my boyfriend, but I've never been quite brave enough to initiate it.
25.I plan to try sex on coke in the near future. (I got wet just writing that.)
2.I like performing sexual acts in places other than our bed. (Someone else's bed, a tent, a riverbank, a public restroom, a desk, living room floor, and a bar are the memories that come to mind first.)
3.I started masturbating when I was 10 years old. I always felt guilty about it. (I still associate sex with guilt sometimes.) I had a few-year-long period when I would masturbate at least once a day. I hardly ever do now.
4.I love being grabbed, spanked, scratched, pinned down, pushed around and told what to do.
5.I have tried anal sex, and it was okay. It was more of an emotional experience than a physical one. It wasn't so great that I would ask for it again.
6.I do love assplay though. Having a finger in my ass while having sex is a huge turn-on.
7.I had a boyfriend 8 years older than me who basically forced me to give him head multiple times. Our relationship wasn't exactly rosy... I hardly remember anything about him today, I've blocked him out.
8.Sometimes when I can't sleep I turn on the TV, and in the middle of the night there isn't usually anything much to watch besides porn. So I watch porn and masturbate to it. I orgasm almost every time.
9.I stare at girls more often than boys. I don't ever fantasize about anything sexual involving girls, though, nor have I ever had romantic feelings for a girl. I simply think they are aesthetically more pleasing than boys.
10.On New Year's Eve when I was 14, I went down on a (girl) friend, and she went down on me, too. It was bad. We were both drunk.
11.I have gotten sexual offers on the street from strangers many times. I wouldn't ever take them up on their offers, but they do make me smile to myself.
12.I have kissed with 9 people. 3 of those were girls.
13.Up until I was 10, we used to play sexual games with my friends. Mostly roleplay. Dry-humping, touching were everyday. I find it odd that I have never thought this was odd...
14.I love having sex in front of a mirror. I have always been jealous of boys because they usually see much more of what is happening down there during sex than girls do.
15.I have a bad habit of imagining what people look like during sex. By people I mean almost everyone I know. This sometimes becomes disturbing.
16.I love having sex right after waking up.
17.My sex drive depends on the amount of sex I get. If I get it often, my sex drive will skyrocket, if I get it rarely, it will conveniently turn itself off.
18.Sometimes just laying next to someone and feeling their chest rising and falling can be the sexiest thing.
19.My then-boyfriend shaved my pussy for the first time when I was 16. It was humiliating. I shave it ever since, though. I've had it completely bare, but I find that having a small triangle of hair is more appealing.
20.I hate completely shaved dicks, but I hate entirely hairy ones as well.
21.I would love to be able to do deep throat. I've tried and it never worked.
22.I love having sex when I'm drunk or stoned.
23.I love it when my partner makes me orgasm from oral and penetrates me right after. It makes me feel completely helpless and his, and it is also amazing physically.
24.The idea of bloodplay excites me. I've mentioned it to my boyfriend, but I've never been quite brave enough to initiate it.
25.I plan to try sex on coke in the near future. (I got wet just writing that.)
1. I feel like I became sexually aware unusually young. I don't recall how I developed a knowledge of what sex was, but I think it was a combination of eves dropping on my older sister with her friends, sneaking out of my room at night and watching things on TV that I wasn't supposed to and piecing that together with the vague euphemisms my parents used when I asked them where babies came from. I remember at least as early as age 7 having sexual fantasies. As I was also raised in a strict Christian household, these fantasies were often accompanied by a great deal of guilt.
2. My first kiss was with a neighbor girl on a dare. We were about the same age and were playing with a couple other neighborhood friends outside. We hid in the bushes and were dared to kiss. I liked it and found it exciting, but also embarrassing, because at that age I was still supposed to think girls were gross. This must have also been around 6 or 7. I think her name was Sara.
3. My first shared sexual experience was at age 11, at a sleep over. We masturbated together, but did not touch one another. Two good Christian boys jacking off in the basement.
5. My first heterosexual experience was when I was 15 with a girl who was 23. I was very drunk and felt really gross afterward. I don't think I would have gone along with it if I had been sober and it was more curiosity that carried things on my end than it was sexual desire.
6. The first several times I had sex I felt sick afterward. I attribute this mostly to my repressive Christian upbringing. Though I had refuted the church fairly early on as a teenager, it was years before I could undo the mental conditioning I had been instilled with in my youth.
7. I have never been physically faithful in a relationship. I think this is the direct result of my own personal insecurities and vulnerability to flattery. This too causes that dreadfully familiar feeling of guilt. I do however feel that I am emotionally faithful.
8. Until around 22, I feel I was more sexually submissive. Now, I am quite dominant. I think that sex has gotten much better since I have become dominant for all parties involved. I think that taking a more active role has allowed me to work out a lot of my guilt issues.
9. I still occasionally enjoy my partner taking control, provided they do it well and convincingly. A good wrestling match can be very exciting.
10. I like pain at the *right moments* during sex. Timing is everything.
11. I often feel more feminine than I do masculine, which I think would surprise a lot of people that know me, since I have a fairly large, muscular, male frame, a full beard, a very low voice and a very dominant personality.
12. I do not agree with contemporary western societies views of "gay" and "straight" and the emphasis placed on rigid categorization and neither does your body or emotions.
13. I feel that the variety of possible relationships is as varied in number as there are humans to have existed, are existing and will exist. Love is a beautiful thing in all its forms and it is heartbreakingly wrong for others to pass legislation on what type of relationships get to be validated by law, provided all parties are consensual.
14. Sometimes I find it hard to be mentally present during sex. I often find myself fantasizing about other scenarios to get off. I don't know why I do this, since sex when I am fully in the moment is always the best sex.
15. I don't always want to have sex when my girlfriend wants to have sex, but I am afraid that she would feel rejected if I told her to stop. In these scenarios in particular, I find myself fantasizing to get off: often about other lovers. This makes me feel guilty.
16. I think I watch too much porn and that this might also contribute to me not always being fully present during sex. Though the porn I watch often consists of sexual scenarios that I feel wouldn't happen in my current relationship, though I don't know that for sure because I've haven't brought up the subject. Which brings me to my next point.
17. I am with someone who is more loving and accepting of me than anyone else I've ever met in my life. Whenever I have had the courage to talk with her about something I felt uncomfortable discussing, she is always understanding, helpful and usually excited to explore that curiosity. I project my own sexual hangups on my partners and when I get over them, I feel silly - but ultimately relieved.
18. I find it very difficult to be completely open and honest with anyone, because of the subconscious fear that they won't approve and therefore won't love me if they know who I really am.
19. I have had sex in public on 4 occasions. These experiences are some of the most exciting sexual experiences I've ever had. The fear of possibly being caught plus the feeling of potentially being on display makes me very aroused.
20. I've recently had fantasies about having sex with either a beautiful transsexual or a waify effeminate man that is in love with me and then getting caught sharing a meal with them in public afterward at which point I act like our relationship is completely nonsexual.
21. Often when I have sexual fantasies about attractive women I see, in the fantasy, I am also a woman.
22. On more than one occasion I have had a dream that involves me sucking my own penis. It takes me forever to come, but once I do, I can't stop coming at which point it becomes embarrassing.
23. Most of the time, I think I have a fairly average sex drive, though I occasionally shift between extremes of wanting sex several times a day to having no sexual interest at all. When I'm going through an asexual phase, I find the concept any kind of sex repulsive.
24. Another fantasy I've been having lately is of being pursued by an older woman who does not respect me, even though she pretends she does and uses me only for sex, to get back at her husband.
25. I think jealousy is a destructive, negative, unattractive emotion caused by insecurity; though, I often struggle with feelings of jealousy myself. I would like to tackle my personal insecurities and get over the issues that make me feel jealous. That sounds really difficult.
2. My first kiss was with a neighbor girl on a dare. We were about the same age and were playing with a couple other neighborhood friends outside. We hid in the bushes and were dared to kiss. I liked it and found it exciting, but also embarrassing, because at that age I was still supposed to think girls were gross. This must have also been around 6 or 7. I think her name was Sara.
3. My first shared sexual experience was at age 11, at a sleep over. We masturbated together, but did not touch one another. Two good Christian boys jacking off in the basement.
5. My first heterosexual experience was when I was 15 with a girl who was 23. I was very drunk and felt really gross afterward. I don't think I would have gone along with it if I had been sober and it was more curiosity that carried things on my end than it was sexual desire.
6. The first several times I had sex I felt sick afterward. I attribute this mostly to my repressive Christian upbringing. Though I had refuted the church fairly early on as a teenager, it was years before I could undo the mental conditioning I had been instilled with in my youth.
7. I have never been physically faithful in a relationship. I think this is the direct result of my own personal insecurities and vulnerability to flattery. This too causes that dreadfully familiar feeling of guilt. I do however feel that I am emotionally faithful.
8. Until around 22, I feel I was more sexually submissive. Now, I am quite dominant. I think that sex has gotten much better since I have become dominant for all parties involved. I think that taking a more active role has allowed me to work out a lot of my guilt issues.
9. I still occasionally enjoy my partner taking control, provided they do it well and convincingly. A good wrestling match can be very exciting.
10. I like pain at the *right moments* during sex. Timing is everything.
11. I often feel more feminine than I do masculine, which I think would surprise a lot of people that know me, since I have a fairly large, muscular, male frame, a full beard, a very low voice and a very dominant personality.
12. I do not agree with contemporary western societies views of "gay" and "straight" and the emphasis placed on rigid categorization and neither does your body or emotions.
13. I feel that the variety of possible relationships is as varied in number as there are humans to have existed, are existing and will exist. Love is a beautiful thing in all its forms and it is heartbreakingly wrong for others to pass legislation on what type of relationships get to be validated by law, provided all parties are consensual.
14. Sometimes I find it hard to be mentally present during sex. I often find myself fantasizing about other scenarios to get off. I don't know why I do this, since sex when I am fully in the moment is always the best sex.
15. I don't always want to have sex when my girlfriend wants to have sex, but I am afraid that she would feel rejected if I told her to stop. In these scenarios in particular, I find myself fantasizing to get off: often about other lovers. This makes me feel guilty.
16. I think I watch too much porn and that this might also contribute to me not always being fully present during sex. Though the porn I watch often consists of sexual scenarios that I feel wouldn't happen in my current relationship, though I don't know that for sure because I've haven't brought up the subject. Which brings me to my next point.
17. I am with someone who is more loving and accepting of me than anyone else I've ever met in my life. Whenever I have had the courage to talk with her about something I felt uncomfortable discussing, she is always understanding, helpful and usually excited to explore that curiosity. I project my own sexual hangups on my partners and when I get over them, I feel silly - but ultimately relieved.
18. I find it very difficult to be completely open and honest with anyone, because of the subconscious fear that they won't approve and therefore won't love me if they know who I really am.
19. I have had sex in public on 4 occasions. These experiences are some of the most exciting sexual experiences I've ever had. The fear of possibly being caught plus the feeling of potentially being on display makes me very aroused.
20. I've recently had fantasies about having sex with either a beautiful transsexual or a waify effeminate man that is in love with me and then getting caught sharing a meal with them in public afterward at which point I act like our relationship is completely nonsexual.
21. Often when I have sexual fantasies about attractive women I see, in the fantasy, I am also a woman.
22. On more than one occasion I have had a dream that involves me sucking my own penis. It takes me forever to come, but once I do, I can't stop coming at which point it becomes embarrassing.
23. Most of the time, I think I have a fairly average sex drive, though I occasionally shift between extremes of wanting sex several times a day to having no sexual interest at all. When I'm going through an asexual phase, I find the concept any kind of sex repulsive.
24. Another fantasy I've been having lately is of being pursued by an older woman who does not respect me, even though she pretends she does and uses me only for sex, to get back at her husband.
25. I think jealousy is a destructive, negative, unattractive emotion caused by insecurity; though, I often struggle with feelings of jealousy myself. I would like to tackle my personal insecurities and get over the issues that make me feel jealous. That sounds really difficult.
1. I love to give head. Knowing that I'm giving the other person so much pleasure really turns me on.
2. Sometimes I secretly fantasize about making out with the fattest/most unattractive guys who look like they've never been kissed even at the age of 25. The feeling of power it gives me in knowing that I'm blowing their mind is incredible.
3. I've been masturbating since the age of 5, although I had no idea what I was doing at the time, it was just something that felt good.
4. I lie to others and say that I only discovered masturbation in my late teenage years.
5. When I was in primary school and we had weekly spelling tests when the teacher dictated words out and we had to write them, I used to wait until she had said about four or five words, then write them down quickly, because the panicky feeling that I might forget some of the words excited me. Then I would touch myself under the table.
6. I have never had an orgasm.
7. I really like to sit on guys' faces whilst they give me oral sex.
8. I identify as straight, but the naked female body turns me on more than the naked male body.
9. I like both female-on-female and male-on-male.
10. I am still a virgin.
11. And sort of scared about the pain of the first time.
12. I have only kissed three boys in my life.
13. Only two of them were my boyfriends at the time.
14. I probably won't get any more experience with guys because I love my current boyfriend and I think I will be with him for life.
15. Part of the reason I think I like his looks so much is because he is not good looking.
16. I have a lot of fantasies involving control.
17. Although I enjoy looking at the naked female body, I'm not sure if I would feel comfortable doing anything sexual with a girl.
18. I want my boyfriend to tie me down and strip me roughly, then give me oral sex until I come.
19. I really like dirty talk, and I want my boyfriend to call me his slut, but I'm too scared to ask him.
20. I love making out with people when they're asleep.
21. I'm really paranoid about bad things that could happen with my first time during sex, e.g. vaginismus.
22. My number-one turn-on is when my boyfriend is pissing others off, and he gives them a really evil smirk. So hot.
23. I think I would like to try out stripping. Knowing I'm driving a bunch of guys crazy with lust really gets me off.
24. I love to bite and scratch.
25. When I was little, I used to fantasize a lot about sexual activities... particularly sucking a guy's cock.
2. Sometimes I secretly fantasize about making out with the fattest/most unattractive guys who look like they've never been kissed even at the age of 25. The feeling of power it gives me in knowing that I'm blowing their mind is incredible.
3. I've been masturbating since the age of 5, although I had no idea what I was doing at the time, it was just something that felt good.
4. I lie to others and say that I only discovered masturbation in my late teenage years.
5. When I was in primary school and we had weekly spelling tests when the teacher dictated words out and we had to write them, I used to wait until she had said about four or five words, then write them down quickly, because the panicky feeling that I might forget some of the words excited me. Then I would touch myself under the table.
6. I have never had an orgasm.
7. I really like to sit on guys' faces whilst they give me oral sex.
8. I identify as straight, but the naked female body turns me on more than the naked male body.
9. I like both female-on-female and male-on-male.
10. I am still a virgin.
11. And sort of scared about the pain of the first time.
12. I have only kissed three boys in my life.
13. Only two of them were my boyfriends at the time.
14. I probably won't get any more experience with guys because I love my current boyfriend and I think I will be with him for life.
15. Part of the reason I think I like his looks so much is because he is not good looking.
16. I have a lot of fantasies involving control.
17. Although I enjoy looking at the naked female body, I'm not sure if I would feel comfortable doing anything sexual with a girl.
18. I want my boyfriend to tie me down and strip me roughly, then give me oral sex until I come.
19. I really like dirty talk, and I want my boyfriend to call me his slut, but I'm too scared to ask him.
20. I love making out with people when they're asleep.
21. I'm really paranoid about bad things that could happen with my first time during sex, e.g. vaginismus.
22. My number-one turn-on is when my boyfriend is pissing others off, and he gives them a really evil smirk. So hot.
23. I think I would like to try out stripping. Knowing I'm driving a bunch of guys crazy with lust really gets me off.
24. I love to bite and scratch.
25. When I was little, I used to fantasize a lot about sexual activities... particularly sucking a guy's cock.
1. Every woman I've had sex with has had at least C-cup breasts. I don't actively seek out curvier women; it just happens that way.
2. I don't know what flipped the switch, but I've been interested in spanking since I was about seven. I was never physically punished as a child. But I've been into BDSM in one form or another since then -- especially spanking -- and have attended munches and conventions. None of my partners except one (see items 13 and 14) have ever been as into it as me. Good sex and a good variety will make up for BDSM, but as you'll see later, I don't even have that.
3. I recently became Facebook friends with the first person I truly fooled around with. She's the daughter of my parents' friends. We were 11 or 12 at the time, and after my sister went to bed, we went into my room, turned the light off, talked, and eventually I got to touch her entire front side, through her clothes. I was quite shocked and nervous at the time. I think she was about to reciprocate, but then our parents got home. Nothing ever happened with her again, though I did have a crush on her older brother's wife.
4. My first real girlfriend would let me use my mouth on her breasts, but only if I promised to keep my eyes shut. I did get a hand in her pants, but she didn't seem to enjoy that as much. I don't know why; looking back, I never forced her into anything, and I never hurt her (or if I did, she didn't tell me). I was 15; she was 16. It lasted four months.
5. My senior-year-of-high-school girlfriend was actively crazy. But we got to second base our first night hanging out, and the next night (like, literally the next night) she took my virginity in the back of my car. I lasted about ten minutes, and the whole time I alternated between "shouldn't I be coming by now" and "holy shit I'm having sex".
6. I never cheated on her, but she said she cheated on me once. Shortly thereafter, she said "what can I do to make it up to you?" I was 17. It was the first time I ever got head. It was pretty damn good, for a girl who said she'd only done it to one other guy.
7. She and I had a LOT of sex -- at least twice a week, usually in my bed. We tried a lot of positions, but usually ended up doing missionary.
8. My first condoms were purchased for me by a friend because I made the stupid mistake of going with the "pull out" method after she ran out of them. I was embarrassed. I'm not embarrassed anymore, but I still don't buy sex supplies (condoms and lube) where I normally shop for groceries.
9. That same girl allowed me to try anal with her twice. The first time, she asked me to stop because it hurt, and I stopped. The second time, months later, she asked me to stop because the position was awkward, and I stopped.
10. A woman has purchased airplane tickets for me to fly 1000 miles to her house in another state for the sole purpose of having sex. She had the most stay-in-place D-cup breasts I've ever seen. I didn't see any scars when we were having sex, so I'm pretty sure they were real.
11. The first time she and I had sex, I came a minute before she did and was mortified. The second time, she was on top, and came so much there was a wet spot under us afterward.
12. I have had one partner who I regret sleeping with. We met online, went out to play pool, went back to my dorm room, and I wouldn't say I pressured her into it, but I made it clear I wanted to sleep with her. Had she said "no way" and walked out, then that would have been that. I tried to make sure she had an orgasm, but she didn't seem into it, so I put the condom on, we had sex, I came, and she left. We haven't talked since.
13. The most adventurous sex partner I ever had was five years older than me and introduced herself to me on AOL by IMing me to ask, "do you like anal sex?" After I taught her how to kiss without eating my entire face, things went pretty well.
14. She was the first girl I ever: brought to orgasm with my mouth, had successful anal sex with, was with who had no hair between her legs, wanted me to orgasm on her breasts, answered the door naked, spanked with a spatula, fucked in my parents' bed (they weren't home, obviously), fucked in the shower, fucked in a swimming pool. I wonder how she's doing.
15. I met the woman who is now my wife when I was 18. She's the last person I'll have sex with until at least 2024, which is when my child turns 18 and goes off to college.
16. We used to be pretty adventurous in bed -- I gave her head, she gave me head, she used her breasts, she used both hands, she used her fingers and hands all over me and me all over her, anal sex, missionary, girl on top, her on all fours, in public places, me coming on her chest and/or stomach and/or back, with other people in the house, in my dorm room while my roommate slept, the works.
17. She doesn't like receiving oral sex. I know I'm at least decent at it because two other women have come from it when I do it and have asked for it on more than one occasion. She just dislikes it. I have no idea why.
18. She doesn't shave. Anything. Unless we have to go out somewhere that requires formal dress. I don't mind women with a little hair, but I'd prefer to avoid 70s bush if I can help it. (Interestingly, the women with whom I've had the two longest relationships have both had 70s bush.)
19. She stopped giving me head on a regular basis (say, once or twice a month) in 2002, shortly after her parents approved our marriage.
20. In college, for about two years, we had anal sex at least three times a month. That was when I lived in the dorms and she would come to visit. We've had it less than ten times since the turn of the century, and she's said flat out that she used certain sexual techniques to "hook" me in the same way I used poetry (which I don't write anymore because my poetry is atrocious).
21. My wife doesn't mind an occasional light spanking, but I'm much kinkier than that and she knows I am. So I told her I wanted her to spank me instead -- and not just playing around, but to really spank me. She's done it once, and the rest of the times that I bring it up, she says "well, if you ask for it that means you expect it, and I'm not doing it if you expect it." I hear that a lot when I put forth an interesting/new sex thing for us to do.
22. She can only come one way: her on her back with me telling her an erotic story that involves her fucking another woman with a strap-on, but the woman has to think she (my wife) is a different woman or a man. She admits she's trained herself to come that way and she refuses to try anything different or let herself go in any way. I can't even touch her clit while we fuck in the hopes that she comes with me inside her (which has never happened). It's her way or no way.
23. She refuses to use birth control, so I have to be the one to initiate it, using condoms. I don't mind them so much, but she constantly harps on me to not use them in hopes that I'll get her pregnant again. We have sex pretty infrequently because I don't want to get into the argument every damn time.
24. When I refuse to fuck her without a condom, she relegates me to masturbating in front of her while she turns on her side and uses one hand to help out, touching me in other places. It feels good, but it also feels like she's just going through the motions because I'm not doing exactly what she wants me to do in the exact way she wants me to do it.
25. I am very unhappy, sexually, because of items 15 through 25. I wish she was as adventurous (or at least as honest) as she was back when we met, or that I had known she would turn out like this (because I might not have married her), but I put up with her bedroom crap because I love our child and I wouldn't change anything that meant I didn't have her. Unfortunately, it also means that, until I find someone else to be with, sex will consist of: argue about getting her pregnant, fool around, argue some more, fool around, get her off in the same way every time, argue some more, and give myself a handjob while she watches. I wouldn't say it's a small price to pay, but I'll sacrifice my sexual satisfaction in the name of my child's happiness.
2. I don't know what flipped the switch, but I've been interested in spanking since I was about seven. I was never physically punished as a child. But I've been into BDSM in one form or another since then -- especially spanking -- and have attended munches and conventions. None of my partners except one (see items 13 and 14) have ever been as into it as me. Good sex and a good variety will make up for BDSM, but as you'll see later, I don't even have that.
3. I recently became Facebook friends with the first person I truly fooled around with. She's the daughter of my parents' friends. We were 11 or 12 at the time, and after my sister went to bed, we went into my room, turned the light off, talked, and eventually I got to touch her entire front side, through her clothes. I was quite shocked and nervous at the time. I think she was about to reciprocate, but then our parents got home. Nothing ever happened with her again, though I did have a crush on her older brother's wife.
4. My first real girlfriend would let me use my mouth on her breasts, but only if I promised to keep my eyes shut. I did get a hand in her pants, but she didn't seem to enjoy that as much. I don't know why; looking back, I never forced her into anything, and I never hurt her (or if I did, she didn't tell me). I was 15; she was 16. It lasted four months.
5. My senior-year-of-high-school girlfriend was actively crazy. But we got to second base our first night hanging out, and the next night (like, literally the next night) she took my virginity in the back of my car. I lasted about ten minutes, and the whole time I alternated between "shouldn't I be coming by now" and "holy shit I'm having sex".
6. I never cheated on her, but she said she cheated on me once. Shortly thereafter, she said "what can I do to make it up to you?" I was 17. It was the first time I ever got head. It was pretty damn good, for a girl who said she'd only done it to one other guy.
7. She and I had a LOT of sex -- at least twice a week, usually in my bed. We tried a lot of positions, but usually ended up doing missionary.
8. My first condoms were purchased for me by a friend because I made the stupid mistake of going with the "pull out" method after she ran out of them. I was embarrassed. I'm not embarrassed anymore, but I still don't buy sex supplies (condoms and lube) where I normally shop for groceries.
9. That same girl allowed me to try anal with her twice. The first time, she asked me to stop because it hurt, and I stopped. The second time, months later, she asked me to stop because the position was awkward, and I stopped.
10. A woman has purchased airplane tickets for me to fly 1000 miles to her house in another state for the sole purpose of having sex. She had the most stay-in-place D-cup breasts I've ever seen. I didn't see any scars when we were having sex, so I'm pretty sure they were real.
11. The first time she and I had sex, I came a minute before she did and was mortified. The second time, she was on top, and came so much there was a wet spot under us afterward.
12. I have had one partner who I regret sleeping with. We met online, went out to play pool, went back to my dorm room, and I wouldn't say I pressured her into it, but I made it clear I wanted to sleep with her. Had she said "no way" and walked out, then that would have been that. I tried to make sure she had an orgasm, but she didn't seem into it, so I put the condom on, we had sex, I came, and she left. We haven't talked since.
13. The most adventurous sex partner I ever had was five years older than me and introduced herself to me on AOL by IMing me to ask, "do you like anal sex?" After I taught her how to kiss without eating my entire face, things went pretty well.
14. She was the first girl I ever: brought to orgasm with my mouth, had successful anal sex with, was with who had no hair between her legs, wanted me to orgasm on her breasts, answered the door naked, spanked with a spatula, fucked in my parents' bed (they weren't home, obviously), fucked in the shower, fucked in a swimming pool. I wonder how she's doing.
15. I met the woman who is now my wife when I was 18. She's the last person I'll have sex with until at least 2024, which is when my child turns 18 and goes off to college.
16. We used to be pretty adventurous in bed -- I gave her head, she gave me head, she used her breasts, she used both hands, she used her fingers and hands all over me and me all over her, anal sex, missionary, girl on top, her on all fours, in public places, me coming on her chest and/or stomach and/or back, with other people in the house, in my dorm room while my roommate slept, the works.
17. She doesn't like receiving oral sex. I know I'm at least decent at it because two other women have come from it when I do it and have asked for it on more than one occasion. She just dislikes it. I have no idea why.
18. She doesn't shave. Anything. Unless we have to go out somewhere that requires formal dress. I don't mind women with a little hair, but I'd prefer to avoid 70s bush if I can help it. (Interestingly, the women with whom I've had the two longest relationships have both had 70s bush.)
19. She stopped giving me head on a regular basis (say, once or twice a month) in 2002, shortly after her parents approved our marriage.
20. In college, for about two years, we had anal sex at least three times a month. That was when I lived in the dorms and she would come to visit. We've had it less than ten times since the turn of the century, and she's said flat out that she used certain sexual techniques to "hook" me in the same way I used poetry (which I don't write anymore because my poetry is atrocious).
21. My wife doesn't mind an occasional light spanking, but I'm much kinkier than that and she knows I am. So I told her I wanted her to spank me instead -- and not just playing around, but to really spank me. She's done it once, and the rest of the times that I bring it up, she says "well, if you ask for it that means you expect it, and I'm not doing it if you expect it." I hear that a lot when I put forth an interesting/new sex thing for us to do.
22. She can only come one way: her on her back with me telling her an erotic story that involves her fucking another woman with a strap-on, but the woman has to think she (my wife) is a different woman or a man. She admits she's trained herself to come that way and she refuses to try anything different or let herself go in any way. I can't even touch her clit while we fuck in the hopes that she comes with me inside her (which has never happened). It's her way or no way.
23. She refuses to use birth control, so I have to be the one to initiate it, using condoms. I don't mind them so much, but she constantly harps on me to not use them in hopes that I'll get her pregnant again. We have sex pretty infrequently because I don't want to get into the argument every damn time.
24. When I refuse to fuck her without a condom, she relegates me to masturbating in front of her while she turns on her side and uses one hand to help out, touching me in other places. It feels good, but it also feels like she's just going through the motions because I'm not doing exactly what she wants me to do in the exact way she wants me to do it.
25. I am very unhappy, sexually, because of items 15 through 25. I wish she was as adventurous (or at least as honest) as she was back when we met, or that I had known she would turn out like this (because I might not have married her), but I put up with her bedroom crap because I love our child and I wouldn't change anything that meant I didn't have her. Unfortunately, it also means that, until I find someone else to be with, sex will consist of: argue about getting her pregnant, fool around, argue some more, fool around, get her off in the same way every time, argue some more, and give myself a handjob while she watches. I wouldn't say it's a small price to pay, but I'll sacrifice my sexual satisfaction in the name of my child's happiness.
1. I lost my virginity when I was 18 to my first serious girlfriend. It was nice, but for most of our relationship, she was usually too tight for it to be much fun for her. This led to us mostly doing other stuff, which was fine with me.
2. The relationship ended because I was in love with her best friend. We had sex once next to her in a field near my house, we've never talked about it.
3.I masturbated for the first time when I was 14, I never felt guilty about it, or did to excess. The only thing I worry about is what to do with semen, I hate that stuff.
4. I've never came from oral sex, and I don't really enjoy it, so I don't receive it unless the girl is pushy about it. This happens surprisingly often.
5. I really like going down on girls, but only a handful of girls I've been with have been into it. A lot of them are self-conscious about appearance, or smell, or whatever. I don't get it.
6. Sex with my current girlfriend is okay, but sort of a clusterfuck. I'm pretty seriously ill right now, so my sex drive is shot, and all the painkillers make it hard to get an erection. Also she reminds me of my mother on some level, and she fondles my breasts like they're women's breasts, both of which are tremendous turn-offs. I really want to break up with her, but I think she would be crushed, and she's been so supportive about all my health problems.
7. My mother had a manic episode when I was a kid, and she got into drugs and had affairs with women, my dad told me and my sister about it, which was a shitty thing to do. I've always been into girls who are kind of crazy, and I only watch lesbian porn, I used to worry that it had something to do with my mother, but all my friends like crazy girls and like lesbian porn, so whatever.
8. I've only had one good female friend whom I wasn't kind of in love with, and she looks like my grandmother as a young woman.
9. I am very happy with my penis, although I don't like to let women see it flaccid. A flaccid penis is just a very unimpressive thing.
10. As soon I'm in better health, my first order of business is to have a three-way with two girls.
11. I made out with a dude once during spin the bottle. He was a very handsome gay man, but it didn't do anything for me.
12. My dad thinks I'm gay.
13. Once, when I had to have surgery on my ass, and part of it was held together with surgical twine, I hooked up with a really cute girl while I was recovering, and as soon as we finished, I put all my clothes back on, so she wouldn't see it. It made her really uncomfortable and we didn't hang out again.
14. I have a really unstable ego, sexually. Part of me thinks I can get any girl I want (and recent history more or less backs this up) and part of me thinks that I'm completely undesirable. I don't know how many other people feel this way.
15. I definitely have a type, tall women with big hips, who dress like hipsters, have big blue eyes and red hair and are kind of cold, but care a lot about politics and humanitarian issues. It doesn't mean I'm never attracted to other kinds of girls, it's just that if a girl has most of those qualities, I'll put up with pretty much any bullshit. On the other hand, I could never date a woman who's anti-feminist.
16. I have no interest in any kind of BDSM, in fact I find it extremely upsetting... particularly anything that resembles or simulates rape. If a girl asked me to do anything violent to her, I'd probably break up with her on the spot.
17. Once, I was high on Adderal with some friends after a night at a club, 3 dudes, this cute girl, and myself. We were taking joke "sexy" pictures of each other, and this led to all of us guys feeling up this girl, and then going to her bedroom, where she told me and one of the other guys that she didn't know us well enough, and asked us to leave. We went and hung out in her living room, had a great conversation and listened to the clash, he hit on me pretty forcefully, but I'm not into dudes and the whole situation was completely absurd. My pals in the next room asked me to get them bottled water, which seemed like a perfectly normal thing to do at the time, I went into the girl's room and my buddy was masturbating, trying to get an erection (we were on a lot of drugs) and went "dude, look at me". We've never talked about it, and I'm willing to chalk it up to the drugs.
18. Sometimes I love dirty talk, but a woman's vocabulary can really make or break the experience. I remember seeing a movie on showtime where a guy said "a cock is something you fuck with, a dick is something you piss with" and I think that about sums it up. Also, personification of sexual organs just sounds hilarious, calling a vagina "her" makes IT sound like a battleship.
19. I don't see why people think the term "making love" is cheesy, sometimes it's just a good description of what you're doing.
20. With a few exceptions, I want to have sex with all of my female friends.
21. I'm definitely an ass man. A girl with no tits is no big deal, but a girl with no ass and no hips is such a turn-off.
22. My first kiss was when I was 14. She was my first girlfriend. I recently found out that she's married to an army man, and has a baby on the way. She was an extremely warped person then, but I guess a lot of 14 year olds are.
23. I'm still attracted to all but one of my exes. I usually hit on them when I run into them and it's usually pretty uncomfortable.
24. I find other people's sexual histories, and sexual idiosyncrasies extremely interesting.
25. I find female sexuality totally perplexing.
2. The relationship ended because I was in love with her best friend. We had sex once next to her in a field near my house, we've never talked about it.
3.I masturbated for the first time when I was 14, I never felt guilty about it, or did to excess. The only thing I worry about is what to do with semen, I hate that stuff.
4. I've never came from oral sex, and I don't really enjoy it, so I don't receive it unless the girl is pushy about it. This happens surprisingly often.
5. I really like going down on girls, but only a handful of girls I've been with have been into it. A lot of them are self-conscious about appearance, or smell, or whatever. I don't get it.
6. Sex with my current girlfriend is okay, but sort of a clusterfuck. I'm pretty seriously ill right now, so my sex drive is shot, and all the painkillers make it hard to get an erection. Also she reminds me of my mother on some level, and she fondles my breasts like they're women's breasts, both of which are tremendous turn-offs. I really want to break up with her, but I think she would be crushed, and she's been so supportive about all my health problems.
7. My mother had a manic episode when I was a kid, and she got into drugs and had affairs with women, my dad told me and my sister about it, which was a shitty thing to do. I've always been into girls who are kind of crazy, and I only watch lesbian porn, I used to worry that it had something to do with my mother, but all my friends like crazy girls and like lesbian porn, so whatever.
8. I've only had one good female friend whom I wasn't kind of in love with, and she looks like my grandmother as a young woman.
9. I am very happy with my penis, although I don't like to let women see it flaccid. A flaccid penis is just a very unimpressive thing.
10. As soon I'm in better health, my first order of business is to have a three-way with two girls.
11. I made out with a dude once during spin the bottle. He was a very handsome gay man, but it didn't do anything for me.
12. My dad thinks I'm gay.
13. Once, when I had to have surgery on my ass, and part of it was held together with surgical twine, I hooked up with a really cute girl while I was recovering, and as soon as we finished, I put all my clothes back on, so she wouldn't see it. It made her really uncomfortable and we didn't hang out again.
14. I have a really unstable ego, sexually. Part of me thinks I can get any girl I want (and recent history more or less backs this up) and part of me thinks that I'm completely undesirable. I don't know how many other people feel this way.
15. I definitely have a type, tall women with big hips, who dress like hipsters, have big blue eyes and red hair and are kind of cold, but care a lot about politics and humanitarian issues. It doesn't mean I'm never attracted to other kinds of girls, it's just that if a girl has most of those qualities, I'll put up with pretty much any bullshit. On the other hand, I could never date a woman who's anti-feminist.
16. I have no interest in any kind of BDSM, in fact I find it extremely upsetting... particularly anything that resembles or simulates rape. If a girl asked me to do anything violent to her, I'd probably break up with her on the spot.
17. Once, I was high on Adderal with some friends after a night at a club, 3 dudes, this cute girl, and myself. We were taking joke "sexy" pictures of each other, and this led to all of us guys feeling up this girl, and then going to her bedroom, where she told me and one of the other guys that she didn't know us well enough, and asked us to leave. We went and hung out in her living room, had a great conversation and listened to the clash, he hit on me pretty forcefully, but I'm not into dudes and the whole situation was completely absurd. My pals in the next room asked me to get them bottled water, which seemed like a perfectly normal thing to do at the time, I went into the girl's room and my buddy was masturbating, trying to get an erection (we were on a lot of drugs) and went "dude, look at me". We've never talked about it, and I'm willing to chalk it up to the drugs.
18. Sometimes I love dirty talk, but a woman's vocabulary can really make or break the experience. I remember seeing a movie on showtime where a guy said "a cock is something you fuck with, a dick is something you piss with" and I think that about sums it up. Also, personification of sexual organs just sounds hilarious, calling a vagina "her" makes IT sound like a battleship.
19. I don't see why people think the term "making love" is cheesy, sometimes it's just a good description of what you're doing.
20. With a few exceptions, I want to have sex with all of my female friends.
21. I'm definitely an ass man. A girl with no tits is no big deal, but a girl with no ass and no hips is such a turn-off.
22. My first kiss was when I was 14. She was my first girlfriend. I recently found out that she's married to an army man, and has a baby on the way. She was an extremely warped person then, but I guess a lot of 14 year olds are.
23. I'm still attracted to all but one of my exes. I usually hit on them when I run into them and it's usually pretty uncomfortable.
24. I find other people's sexual histories, and sexual idiosyncrasies extremely interesting.
25. I find female sexuality totally perplexing.
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