1. My first kiss was at age 12 with a Chinese boy with a mullet. I knew nothing about him and have never seen him since. It was unremarkable.
2. I estimate that since then I have probably kissed around 300 people. I love kissing.
3. I lost my virginity when I was 16 with a boy I managed to convice myself I was in love with, on a sofa bed in his living room. It was sore, awkward and left me feeling disillusioned. I thought I was abnormal for not enjoying it until me and my friends started discussing sex in depth a couple of years later. I have since come to the conclusion that no one enjoys their first time.
4. As I write this I am 3 weeks shy of my 21st birthday and have had sex with 46 men. I can name 45 of these men and am on friendly terms with around 30 of them.
5. I have also slept with 4 girls. I'm a lot fussier when it comes to girls.
6. My first serious relationship, he was a virgin, I wasn't. He loved me, I didn't reciprocate. I stayed with him for two years then broke his heart. I still feel guilty for this, and for taking his virginity.
7. He was the first person I ever watched porn with. At the time, I found it hilarious and couldn't get off on it. Three years on, not much has changed. I often watch it with my current boyfriend just for the comedic value.
8. Erotica, on the other hand, drives me wild. My boyfriend often returns home to find me masturbating while reading erotica on his laptop.
9. I cannot remember when I started masturbating, I just know that it felt wrong, which in turn made it feel oh so good.
10. If I'm alone in bed I cannot get to sleep without masturbating. Same goes for getting up in the morning.
11. My last serious boyfriend taught me a lot in the bedroom. Thanks to him I know I love a bit of pain and humiliation. He would often tie me to his bed, whip my ass raw then leave me there while he grocery shopped.
12. While fucking me from behind, he would often choke me til I almost passed out. I enjoy this so much it scares me a bit, but it's something that is definitely reserved for people I trust implicitly.
13. I hate receiving oral, but giving is another matter entirely. I'm a massive fan of surprise fellatio, whether my guy is busy with something or just waking up in the morning. Never fails to drive him wild.
14. In between every serious relationship I go through a bit of a 'slut phase' and have lots of short flings and one night stands. During one of these one-nighters I pushed the guy off me, got dressed and went back to the club where I had picked him up, much to my friends' amusement. Yes, the sex was that bad. He is the only one of my 46 I can't name, and has been nicknamed 'Fresher guy.'
15. I have only ever owned one vibe. I was not impressed; can get myself there much quicker and I never run out of batteries.
16. Last summer I dated a French boy for 3 weeks simply because I got seriously wet whenever he said "Fuck me" in french. I have since discovered this works with anyone. This has to be the strangest thing that turns me on.
17. I love anal sex but after a horrible incident with a random hook-up it's another thing I'll be saving for trusted partners.
18. The horrible incident: I had been fucking this guy for a few days, his was easily the largest cock I've ever had inside me, in girth as well as length. He suggested anal; I was wasted so I agreed on the condition that he stopped if I told him to. It hurt. Like hell. I said stop. He kept going. When he was finished I went home and cried for hours. I'm still unsure as to whether this counts as rape.
19. Cock size has never bothered me too much, as long as they're over 4 inches. I love the male genitalia and find it incredibly fascinating and arousing.
20. I'm a trained acrobat and have had sex in some interesting positions, but nothing beats the classics. Less effort involved, for one thing.
21. There are two experiences that compete for the strangest I have ever had. The first one being a drug-fueled, baby oil-soaked foursome with a good friend and a couple who had come to his house party. People kept coming into the room to get stuff and a couple of them even joined in for a little bit.
22. The second one: Fucking my best mate's brother while my best mate fucked his girlfriend in the same bed. Me and the girlfriend then fucked each other while the boys watched and shared a beer.
23. The first girl I ever slept with was also my first real love. We would spend whole nights having sex on the roof of her parents' garage while listening to grunge music and drinking expensive booze stolen from her parents. She's the same age as me and now married with two kids and a mortgage. The last time I saw her we fucked in a coffee shop bathroom while her fiancé was outside with their children.
24. I'm immensely claustrophobic but also get turned on in really small spaces. God forbid I ever get trapped in an elevator with someone I'm attracted to.
25. I orgasm incredibly easily and have been known to just by having someone tell me what they want to do to me. As far as I can see, there are no bad points about this.
Sunday, January 24, 2010
1.) Male, not straight, not into guys. Which may seem like three things, but other sexualities get one word like "Gay" or "Bi" or "Straight". My word hasn't been made up yet. I haven't found one I identify with that is commonly understood.
2.) I show up on gaydar. I have been hit on by more men in my time then women. No trans people yet.
3.) When I was young I used to fantasize about women, but thought I was gay because I was never attracted to any in real life.
4.) I recently realize I am not attracted to straight women. Which explains #3.
5.) I lost my virginity at 24, to my first girlfriend.
6.) I let her sleep with another guy after we were together for 6 months. It went well and was a liberating experience for me.
7.) She started a relationship without asking first, thereby cheating. We broke up soon after. Which was traumatic. She managed to cheat on someone who is OK with all kinds of relationships. Which is kind of an achievement really. Vowed that I would never ever cheat on anyone because of that.
8.) Had my first threesome with my second girlfriend and a mutual friend. MFM.
9.) He is bi and I really gave myself permission to do whatever I wanted to him... Realized I didn't want to do anything to him. He was extremely nice about the whole thing.
10.) I did kiss him... It was awkward. But made her hot.
11.) Met my future wife and fell in love, lust and partnership.
12.) Broke up with second girlfriend and promised to stay friends. The break up went well... Then I was a terrible friend to her while focusing too heavily on the new girl. Which kind of violated the spirit, although not the wording, of the vow from # 7.
13.) Thought future wife was straight and I would have to be monogamous. Sad boy. :(
14.) We were together for a year when she asked if she could date another guy. Ecstatic boy! So relieved.
15.) After being married for a year I met my fourth girlfriend.
16.) Fourth girlfriend has PSAS, and is amazing in bed.
17.) We date for a couple of months and she starts getting jealous and we realize that she is not cut out to be an "Other Significant Other." There are many things that she deserves in a relationship that I can't give her, and it hurts both of us. So we decide to break things off.
18.) During this time my wife starts seriously dating her boyfriend. Who is an awesome guy, and a great friend.
19.) My wife is terrific and understanding and my emotional rock during the breakup.
20.) Realized that the relationship between your partners is critical. My wife and girlfriend didn't have much of a relationship, but did respect each other. Things would have gone better if they had established more of a connection.
21.) Discovered that you can be totally in love with your wife, and depressed and sad that you have broken up with your girlfriend at the same time.
22.) Discovered that dancing with both of them at the same nightclub can be really fun, but can also have emotional consequences.
23.) Dating while married is so much easier, emotionally, than dating while single. See #19.
24.) Still wish I had a girlfriend, miss her terribly. Realized that triad is my natural and preferred state. Which may not be fair to my wife, as when we married that wasn't really the plan. But people grow and change over time, and it is not a threat to my happy marriage, yet.
25.) They say that the average member of the population tends to have the same number of lovers before marriage as they do after marriage. I think that I will skew that statistic a bit over the course of my lifetime. Here's hoping!
2.) I show up on gaydar. I have been hit on by more men in my time then women. No trans people yet.
3.) When I was young I used to fantasize about women, but thought I was gay because I was never attracted to any in real life.
4.) I recently realize I am not attracted to straight women. Which explains #3.
5.) I lost my virginity at 24, to my first girlfriend.
6.) I let her sleep with another guy after we were together for 6 months. It went well and was a liberating experience for me.
7.) She started a relationship without asking first, thereby cheating. We broke up soon after. Which was traumatic. She managed to cheat on someone who is OK with all kinds of relationships. Which is kind of an achievement really. Vowed that I would never ever cheat on anyone because of that.
8.) Had my first threesome with my second girlfriend and a mutual friend. MFM.
9.) He is bi and I really gave myself permission to do whatever I wanted to him... Realized I didn't want to do anything to him. He was extremely nice about the whole thing.
10.) I did kiss him... It was awkward. But made her hot.
11.) Met my future wife and fell in love, lust and partnership.
12.) Broke up with second girlfriend and promised to stay friends. The break up went well... Then I was a terrible friend to her while focusing too heavily on the new girl. Which kind of violated the spirit, although not the wording, of the vow from # 7.
13.) Thought future wife was straight and I would have to be monogamous. Sad boy. :(
14.) We were together for a year when she asked if she could date another guy. Ecstatic boy! So relieved.
15.) After being married for a year I met my fourth girlfriend.
16.) Fourth girlfriend has PSAS, and is amazing in bed.
17.) We date for a couple of months and she starts getting jealous and we realize that she is not cut out to be an "Other Significant Other." There are many things that she deserves in a relationship that I can't give her, and it hurts both of us. So we decide to break things off.
18.) During this time my wife starts seriously dating her boyfriend. Who is an awesome guy, and a great friend.
19.) My wife is terrific and understanding and my emotional rock during the breakup.
20.) Realized that the relationship between your partners is critical. My wife and girlfriend didn't have much of a relationship, but did respect each other. Things would have gone better if they had established more of a connection.
21.) Discovered that you can be totally in love with your wife, and depressed and sad that you have broken up with your girlfriend at the same time.
22.) Discovered that dancing with both of them at the same nightclub can be really fun, but can also have emotional consequences.
23.) Dating while married is so much easier, emotionally, than dating while single. See #19.
24.) Still wish I had a girlfriend, miss her terribly. Realized that triad is my natural and preferred state. Which may not be fair to my wife, as when we married that wasn't really the plan. But people grow and change over time, and it is not a threat to my happy marriage, yet.
25.) They say that the average member of the population tends to have the same number of lovers before marriage as they do after marriage. I think that I will skew that statistic a bit over the course of my lifetime. Here's hoping!
Tuesday, January 19, 2010
1. My earliest sexual feelings that I can remember were when I used to play with my cousins when I was 10 or 11. We used to roughhouse a lot, and they used to hold me down and tickle me or play “glass pedal” where they would stick their feet between my legs and push hard. I loved being held down and the feel of their foot being pressed against my pussy, so I used to beg my parents to go to their house as much as possible.
2. I started masturbating when I was 12 years old. I used to take Crayola markers, rub them against my clit and stick them inside of me. I didn’t know what an orgasm was, I just knew that I liked the feeling. It was a little bit frustrating, though, because I came from a poor family and had to share a bed with my younger sister (3 years younger). This would involve me hiding the markers under my pillow and waiting until I was sure she was asleep before I thought it was safe.
3. I like to watch men masturbate. When I was 14 I dated a boy who was 12 and he used to masturbate for me when we were alone. We never had sex, but sometimes he would grab my hand and hold it against his cock while he jacked off. I loved watching him cum, and later I would go home and masturbate alone.
4. I have a glasses fetish. I think men with glasses are incredibly sexy. Having sex with a man wearing glasses is very, very hot.
5. I lost my virginity when I was 15 years old. I had barely even kissed a boy at that age. My boyfriend at the time was 18. He didn’t know that I was a virgin. We had sex on the 3rd day after we met. He lived on his own and was very independent and I found that exciting. He was also very open and sexual and we experimented with lots of different things.
6. When I was 15 I conned my parents into buying me a computer and ordering the internet. I instantly became addicted to internet chatting. At that time (1995) there were mostly adults hanging out in chatrooms and I quickly learned about cybersex. I loved when men would send me messages telling me their fantasies and describing how they were masturbating. There were many nights that I didn’t sleep, because I stayed up all night cybersexing.
7. When I was 16 my parents installed a detachable showerhead in our shower and I quickly learned that holding the showerhead up to my clit gave me a very instense orgasm. I took a lot of showers during that time.
8. At 17 I became pregnant from a boy that I had only known for 2 weeks. My parents let him sleep over (since he was apparently kicked out of his house) and all we did was have sex whenever we could. Turned out he was an asshole and I dumped him a week later. I haven’t really talked to him since and he has shown no interest of being in my daughter’s life.
9. My skin is very sensitive to touch and I get turned on very, very easily.
10. When I was 18 my relationship with my boyfriend ended because I had phone sex with his best friend (repeatedly) while he was sleeping. I like to blame it on the fact that I was going through a very difficult time in my life, but I don’t think that is really the truth.
11. Anyone who knows me probably finds #10 hard to believe, because I am so shy. I love it when a man talks during sex but I find it very, very hard to do the same. Something about talking during sex makes me very self-conscious and I stop enjoying the sex because all I can focus on is what I am saying.
12. My best friend and I used to make out at the bar in exchange for free drinks. It would be awkward the next day, but that didn’t stop us.
13. I have had several threesomes. They’ve all been with another girl and a guy. I wouldn’t call myself bi, I’m not particularly attracted to girls, but I guess I can get caught up in the moment. Alcohol also helps. What I would really love is to watch my husband fuck another woman while I watched.
14. I have had sex with 15 men in my life. I would say that I only loved a few of them, but the fact of the matter is, I didn’t know what love was until I met my husband.
15. When I was 23 I bought a webcam for my computer, and shortly after discovered video chat rooms. I used to spend many nights drinking and flashing men in the chatrooms.
16. When I downloaded ISPQ I discovered that men would actually pay me money for masturbating on webcam, and watching them masturbate. I made lots of money doing this, but after having someone take snapshots and video recordings (without my knowledge) and posting them on a website, I decided it was time to stop.
17. My ex-boyfriend was heavily into bondage and S/M. When we met, he told me that he wasn’t interested in sex and only wanted to be tied up and tortured. I cared for him a lot so for 7 years I would dominate him while my needs went unmet. Turns out he was also having sex with girls behind my back.
18. I used to fantasize about rape until I was followed home one night while I drunkenly walked home alone from the bar. Two men were walking behind me making comments and eventually caught up with me and pushed me into a bush and tried to pull down my pants. They stopped when they heard some other people walking nearby and I was able to get away.
19. I am only attracted to white men. In certain cases I find black men attractive, but I’ve never considered dating anyone who wasn’t white.
20. I really enjoy pornography. Especially voyeur porn. I love watching videos where the people are oblivious to the fact that they are being videotaped.
21. I made a videotape once when I was 15 with the boyfriend in #5. I wished that I had taken it when I left him, but it didn’t even cross my mind. I often wonder what happened to that tape. Did he throw it out? Does he still watch it? Am I not safe to run for public office?
22. When I am really turned on, I squirt when I cum. Sometimes it sprays all over. When it first happened, I was very embarrassed of it, but I’m not so embarrassed anymore. I just focus on how incredibly good it feels.
23. I love giving head. I’ve been told I’m very good at it, but I haven’t been able to figure out if that’s because I’m actually good at it, or if it’s just something the man feels he needs to say afterwards.
24. Once I met a lawyer on a dating site. I invited him over that same night for sex. He wasn’t as good as I was expecting him to be.
25. Currently I am 29, and married to the man who was made perfect for me. He makes me feel very secure, and very loved, and as a result I feel I can let go, and the sex is the best I’ve ever had. I know sometimes he worries about a time when we might get bored with each other, but I’m not worried because I know that we’re both open, willing, and dedicated to making it work.
2. I started masturbating when I was 12 years old. I used to take Crayola markers, rub them against my clit and stick them inside of me. I didn’t know what an orgasm was, I just knew that I liked the feeling. It was a little bit frustrating, though, because I came from a poor family and had to share a bed with my younger sister (3 years younger). This would involve me hiding the markers under my pillow and waiting until I was sure she was asleep before I thought it was safe.
3. I like to watch men masturbate. When I was 14 I dated a boy who was 12 and he used to masturbate for me when we were alone. We never had sex, but sometimes he would grab my hand and hold it against his cock while he jacked off. I loved watching him cum, and later I would go home and masturbate alone.
4. I have a glasses fetish. I think men with glasses are incredibly sexy. Having sex with a man wearing glasses is very, very hot.
5. I lost my virginity when I was 15 years old. I had barely even kissed a boy at that age. My boyfriend at the time was 18. He didn’t know that I was a virgin. We had sex on the 3rd day after we met. He lived on his own and was very independent and I found that exciting. He was also very open and sexual and we experimented with lots of different things.
6. When I was 15 I conned my parents into buying me a computer and ordering the internet. I instantly became addicted to internet chatting. At that time (1995) there were mostly adults hanging out in chatrooms and I quickly learned about cybersex. I loved when men would send me messages telling me their fantasies and describing how they were masturbating. There were many nights that I didn’t sleep, because I stayed up all night cybersexing.
7. When I was 16 my parents installed a detachable showerhead in our shower and I quickly learned that holding the showerhead up to my clit gave me a very instense orgasm. I took a lot of showers during that time.
8. At 17 I became pregnant from a boy that I had only known for 2 weeks. My parents let him sleep over (since he was apparently kicked out of his house) and all we did was have sex whenever we could. Turned out he was an asshole and I dumped him a week later. I haven’t really talked to him since and he has shown no interest of being in my daughter’s life.
9. My skin is very sensitive to touch and I get turned on very, very easily.
10. When I was 18 my relationship with my boyfriend ended because I had phone sex with his best friend (repeatedly) while he was sleeping. I like to blame it on the fact that I was going through a very difficult time in my life, but I don’t think that is really the truth.
11. Anyone who knows me probably finds #10 hard to believe, because I am so shy. I love it when a man talks during sex but I find it very, very hard to do the same. Something about talking during sex makes me very self-conscious and I stop enjoying the sex because all I can focus on is what I am saying.
12. My best friend and I used to make out at the bar in exchange for free drinks. It would be awkward the next day, but that didn’t stop us.
13. I have had several threesomes. They’ve all been with another girl and a guy. I wouldn’t call myself bi, I’m not particularly attracted to girls, but I guess I can get caught up in the moment. Alcohol also helps. What I would really love is to watch my husband fuck another woman while I watched.
14. I have had sex with 15 men in my life. I would say that I only loved a few of them, but the fact of the matter is, I didn’t know what love was until I met my husband.
15. When I was 23 I bought a webcam for my computer, and shortly after discovered video chat rooms. I used to spend many nights drinking and flashing men in the chatrooms.
16. When I downloaded ISPQ I discovered that men would actually pay me money for masturbating on webcam, and watching them masturbate. I made lots of money doing this, but after having someone take snapshots and video recordings (without my knowledge) and posting them on a website, I decided it was time to stop.
17. My ex-boyfriend was heavily into bondage and S/M. When we met, he told me that he wasn’t interested in sex and only wanted to be tied up and tortured. I cared for him a lot so for 7 years I would dominate him while my needs went unmet. Turns out he was also having sex with girls behind my back.
18. I used to fantasize about rape until I was followed home one night while I drunkenly walked home alone from the bar. Two men were walking behind me making comments and eventually caught up with me and pushed me into a bush and tried to pull down my pants. They stopped when they heard some other people walking nearby and I was able to get away.
19. I am only attracted to white men. In certain cases I find black men attractive, but I’ve never considered dating anyone who wasn’t white.
20. I really enjoy pornography. Especially voyeur porn. I love watching videos where the people are oblivious to the fact that they are being videotaped.
21. I made a videotape once when I was 15 with the boyfriend in #5. I wished that I had taken it when I left him, but it didn’t even cross my mind. I often wonder what happened to that tape. Did he throw it out? Does he still watch it? Am I not safe to run for public office?
22. When I am really turned on, I squirt when I cum. Sometimes it sprays all over. When it first happened, I was very embarrassed of it, but I’m not so embarrassed anymore. I just focus on how incredibly good it feels.
23. I love giving head. I’ve been told I’m very good at it, but I haven’t been able to figure out if that’s because I’m actually good at it, or if it’s just something the man feels he needs to say afterwards.
24. Once I met a lawyer on a dating site. I invited him over that same night for sex. He wasn’t as good as I was expecting him to be.
25. Currently I am 29, and married to the man who was made perfect for me. He makes me feel very secure, and very loved, and as a result I feel I can let go, and the sex is the best I’ve ever had. I know sometimes he worries about a time when we might get bored with each other, but I’m not worried because I know that we’re both open, willing, and dedicated to making it work.
1. I'm afraid I'll never find a sex partner that will give me as good orgasms as I give myself. When you can give yourself multiple orgasms with just your fingers, how can anyone else measure up?
2. My first sexual experience was with another woman. I was eleven, she was nine. We never really spoke about, but when I saw her six years later she avoided me. I'm a bit scared I screwed her up for life.
3. I could have lost my virginity to a boy when I was seventeen and again when I was nineteen. I'm now almost twenty-three and I haven't given it up yet. I'm happy with my decision.
4. At age twenty, I started fooling around with my best friend. I almost lost her because of it, but it was the most fun I'd had sexually besides on my own.
5. I often think about taking pictures of myself when in the throes of an orgasm. I just don't know if I have the guts to really do it.
6. I'm bisexual, although I'm probably more attracted to women. I'd be more likely to date a woman and just fool around with a man... does that make me a bad person?
7. The strangest time I've had sex was 2:30PM in my house with all of my family home. This was before my door had a lock and anyone could have walked in. I think that made it more thrilling for me and my partner.
8. I've never eaten another woman out, but I think I'd like to. Even if I can't stand the smell of my own vagina.
9. I masturbate while listening to Japanese pop music. I'm still not sure if this is normal or not.
10. I'd rather watch girl on girl porn than hetero porn or boy on boy porn. Does this make me more of a lesbian than just bisexual?
11. The only time I like to see cock in my porn is if it's boy on boy. I'd rather cocks stay far away from any vaginas present when I watch porn.
12. I've watched porn with my best friend before (the one mentioned above slept with) and it wasn't awkward. I wonder if it's what started us in the first place.
13. I love masturbating in my living room in the wee hours of the morning. Anyone could walk in on me, but I don't mind. It's somehow thrilling.
14. I don't really see myself as an attractive person, but apparently I'm sexy. I just wish someone else would fuck me.
15. I think one of the reasons I assert myself as more of lesbian than a straight woman is that I enjoy being on the outside when I spoon someone. I don't think a boy would let me do it and it saddens me a little.
16. I've never tried anal play before, but I think I'd rather try it out on my own first.
17. I bought my first vibrator when I was twenty-one. Up until then, it was just my fingers. Sometimes I still get off better without the vibrator.
18. My best orgasms are always the day after my period ends. They're usually the quickest, but also the most satisfying.
19. Sometimes I enjoy denying myself orgasm. I get myself all worked up and then stop, then start again, then stop. It's such a rush and I love it.
20. Just once I'd like to go to a bar and find someone for a random hook-up. Male or female, I don't really care. It would just be fun, I think.
21. I used to discuss masturbation with my high school friends. We'd sit around and talk about what makes us feel good and share secrets... I don't talk to those girls anymore, and it feels weird when I see them on the street.
22. I prefer my women with a bit of meat on their bones. I like my men on the skinner side with a bit of muscle definition.
23. I have a strange fetish for people in glasses. I'd love to be fucked hard by someone wearing glasses and I don't know why.
24. I'm pretty sure Asian, female or both is my type. The only exception to that rule is my best friend, although I'm trying to not think about her like that anymore.
25. I've never had a relationship last longer than three weeks. Somehow this suits me just fine.
2. My first sexual experience was with another woman. I was eleven, she was nine. We never really spoke about, but when I saw her six years later she avoided me. I'm a bit scared I screwed her up for life.
3. I could have lost my virginity to a boy when I was seventeen and again when I was nineteen. I'm now almost twenty-three and I haven't given it up yet. I'm happy with my decision.
4. At age twenty, I started fooling around with my best friend. I almost lost her because of it, but it was the most fun I'd had sexually besides on my own.
5. I often think about taking pictures of myself when in the throes of an orgasm. I just don't know if I have the guts to really do it.
6. I'm bisexual, although I'm probably more attracted to women. I'd be more likely to date a woman and just fool around with a man... does that make me a bad person?
7. The strangest time I've had sex was 2:30PM in my house with all of my family home. This was before my door had a lock and anyone could have walked in. I think that made it more thrilling for me and my partner.
8. I've never eaten another woman out, but I think I'd like to. Even if I can't stand the smell of my own vagina.
9. I masturbate while listening to Japanese pop music. I'm still not sure if this is normal or not.
10. I'd rather watch girl on girl porn than hetero porn or boy on boy porn. Does this make me more of a lesbian than just bisexual?
11. The only time I like to see cock in my porn is if it's boy on boy. I'd rather cocks stay far away from any vaginas present when I watch porn.
12. I've watched porn with my best friend before (the one mentioned above slept with) and it wasn't awkward. I wonder if it's what started us in the first place.
13. I love masturbating in my living room in the wee hours of the morning. Anyone could walk in on me, but I don't mind. It's somehow thrilling.
14. I don't really see myself as an attractive person, but apparently I'm sexy. I just wish someone else would fuck me.
15. I think one of the reasons I assert myself as more of lesbian than a straight woman is that I enjoy being on the outside when I spoon someone. I don't think a boy would let me do it and it saddens me a little.
16. I've never tried anal play before, but I think I'd rather try it out on my own first.
17. I bought my first vibrator when I was twenty-one. Up until then, it was just my fingers. Sometimes I still get off better without the vibrator.
18. My best orgasms are always the day after my period ends. They're usually the quickest, but also the most satisfying.
19. Sometimes I enjoy denying myself orgasm. I get myself all worked up and then stop, then start again, then stop. It's such a rush and I love it.
20. Just once I'd like to go to a bar and find someone for a random hook-up. Male or female, I don't really care. It would just be fun, I think.
21. I used to discuss masturbation with my high school friends. We'd sit around and talk about what makes us feel good and share secrets... I don't talk to those girls anymore, and it feels weird when I see them on the street.
22. I prefer my women with a bit of meat on their bones. I like my men on the skinner side with a bit of muscle definition.
23. I have a strange fetish for people in glasses. I'd love to be fucked hard by someone wearing glasses and I don't know why.
24. I'm pretty sure Asian, female or both is my type. The only exception to that rule is my best friend, although I'm trying to not think about her like that anymore.
25. I've never had a relationship last longer than three weeks. Somehow this suits me just fine.
Thursday, January 14, 2010
1. I am a 19 year old female. I've had sex with four partners, two of each gender.
2. I discovered masturbation when I was probably around 9 or 10, but didn't really know what was going on; around that same time I started using objects like lip gloss tubes and similar to see how it felt.
3. I popped my cherry while masturbating during cybersex when I was thirteen.
4. When I lost my virginity, I had just turned sixteen. I was dating a girl at the time, and ended up fucking my best male friend and I guess cheated on her, even though we weren't serious at all and we'd never done more than make out. I've never counted it as cheating and if someone asks me, I tell them I've never cheated.
5. When I was really young and played house or royalty type games, I always wanted to be the servant or play the submissive role, and now I believe that helped form my current sexual appetite. I am a full submissive. I've tried domming with my current partner but I can never hold onto it, I always end up being submissive in the end.
6. My biggest fantasy is to submit completely to a master figure, becoming his fuckdoll and his slave. I fantasize about doing this with my current partner, being at his beck and call when he works from home, kneeling at his feet next to his desk waiting on him. I love scening in public, wearing rope underneath my clothes and obeying commands from my Dom. It turns me on so much to have that secret that only the two of us know.
7. It used to scare me how amazing the words "good girl" made me feel. Now when I hear them said to me I feel genuine pride and happiness that I've been obedient.
8. The last time I had vaginal intercourse was around eight or nine months ago with my last boyfriend but I haven't been celibate since. He didn't believe me when I told him I hadn't fucked anyone since we broke up, but he doesn't really know the whole truth of it.
9. A few months ago at a house party thrown by my last boyfriend I got offered to come home with a guy friend of mine, but I declined. Looking back it was probably the best idea because I was definitely too high on ketamine to function, but I do wish we'd hooked up at some point.
10. The guy I lost my virginity to told me that I was terrible at giving head and so I was reluctant to do it for any guy afterwards, but I've learned that experience wins over and I've heard nothing but good things about my skills now. I love giving head and one of my favorite things to do with guys is tease an orgasm out of them. Hearing guys let loose and moan and groan is one of the sexiest things ever.
11. I came out as a lesbian when I was young, my parents just told me to do what I wanted, but as I grew older I started identifying as bisexual. On the Kinsey scale I rate around a 2. I love kissing and touching women but I love fucking men more.
12. The very first time I played with a girl was in a dressing room in a Sears, on the last day of 7th grade. It was mostly one-sided since I wasn't sure what was going on at first. After that day we never brought it up again and I haven't seen her in years.
13. My partner bought me a g-spot vibrator for Christmas this year and while experimenting with it we discovered I can squirt. It was ridiculously embarassing for me at first but I'm learning to enjoy it since it really turns him on.
14. Strangely enough I love being the big spoon when cuddling, and I love to have the guy's head on my shoulder instead of the other way around. It makes me feel like I'm protecting the person I'm with.
15. Only within the last six months have I really considered myself a sexy, beautiful person. The first time my current partner called me sexy I didn't believe him. No one before that had called me anything besides cute or adorable or pretty, and I didn't see myself as an erotic or sexual person. Things have changed.
16. I love the feeling of being choked during sex.
17. Sometimes I wish I had a few more numbers underneath my belt, but the situation that I'm in right now is more than satisfying even if we're not fucking. I've never had so many orgasms in my life than the amount I've had in six months, without a cock involved.
18. I rarely masturbate when I'm by myself, mainly because I've never really accomplished an orgasm just with my fingers. I've come close with my new toy but I'm almost convinced I need someone else there to make me orgasm.
19. I've participated in two threesomes, with my partner and his girlfriend. I'd love to do a MMF threesome someday, with both partners abusing and dominating me.
20. I vaguely remember comparing private parts with a boy who was in my daycare when I was in early elementary school. I don't recall if we touched each other or not. Part of me doesn't really want to remember.
21. The thought of being tied up and left alone for hours to simmer, with a vibrator in me and not being allowed to cum, turns me on. I wish I had a way to do it.
22. I'm fiercely attracted to Asian men, usually of the Japanese or Korean variety. Asian girls are gorgeous, but I usually find myself flirting with more androgynous, butchy white girls.
23. I could kiss someone all day long. I love curling up next to someone and kissing them for hours on end. I especially love kissing people's necks and collarbones, as well as hands and wrists. I hate when foreplay is rushed or abandoned altogether in favor of sex: Sex is fucking awesome, don't get me wrong, but foreplay also has its place and in my bed it's got a huge place. Foreplay goes a long way with me and in my past experience has resulted in some seriously amazing orgasms.
24. I'd secretly like to be taped during a BDSM scene or while fucking in general, but I'm not sure whether I'd like to know it's there or not. Both ideas seem equally appealing.
25. My mom and I have a very open relationship when it comes to talking about sex. She doesn't know about my BDSM play, but we talk about sex in general and acknowledge that we both have active sex lives. I'm so grateful that my mother and I can talk about this sort of thing, even if I don't give her all the gory details (which I'm sure she appreciates since she doesn't give me hers) of my sex life. Even though the majority of my friends are sexually open, I still have issues talking to them about my own experiences.
2. I discovered masturbation when I was probably around 9 or 10, but didn't really know what was going on; around that same time I started using objects like lip gloss tubes and similar to see how it felt.
3. I popped my cherry while masturbating during cybersex when I was thirteen.
4. When I lost my virginity, I had just turned sixteen. I was dating a girl at the time, and ended up fucking my best male friend and I guess cheated on her, even though we weren't serious at all and we'd never done more than make out. I've never counted it as cheating and if someone asks me, I tell them I've never cheated.
5. When I was really young and played house or royalty type games, I always wanted to be the servant or play the submissive role, and now I believe that helped form my current sexual appetite. I am a full submissive. I've tried domming with my current partner but I can never hold onto it, I always end up being submissive in the end.
6. My biggest fantasy is to submit completely to a master figure, becoming his fuckdoll and his slave. I fantasize about doing this with my current partner, being at his beck and call when he works from home, kneeling at his feet next to his desk waiting on him. I love scening in public, wearing rope underneath my clothes and obeying commands from my Dom. It turns me on so much to have that secret that only the two of us know.
7. It used to scare me how amazing the words "good girl" made me feel. Now when I hear them said to me I feel genuine pride and happiness that I've been obedient.
8. The last time I had vaginal intercourse was around eight or nine months ago with my last boyfriend but I haven't been celibate since. He didn't believe me when I told him I hadn't fucked anyone since we broke up, but he doesn't really know the whole truth of it.
9. A few months ago at a house party thrown by my last boyfriend I got offered to come home with a guy friend of mine, but I declined. Looking back it was probably the best idea because I was definitely too high on ketamine to function, but I do wish we'd hooked up at some point.
10. The guy I lost my virginity to told me that I was terrible at giving head and so I was reluctant to do it for any guy afterwards, but I've learned that experience wins over and I've heard nothing but good things about my skills now. I love giving head and one of my favorite things to do with guys is tease an orgasm out of them. Hearing guys let loose and moan and groan is one of the sexiest things ever.
11. I came out as a lesbian when I was young, my parents just told me to do what I wanted, but as I grew older I started identifying as bisexual. On the Kinsey scale I rate around a 2. I love kissing and touching women but I love fucking men more.
12. The very first time I played with a girl was in a dressing room in a Sears, on the last day of 7th grade. It was mostly one-sided since I wasn't sure what was going on at first. After that day we never brought it up again and I haven't seen her in years.
13. My partner bought me a g-spot vibrator for Christmas this year and while experimenting with it we discovered I can squirt. It was ridiculously embarassing for me at first but I'm learning to enjoy it since it really turns him on.
14. Strangely enough I love being the big spoon when cuddling, and I love to have the guy's head on my shoulder instead of the other way around. It makes me feel like I'm protecting the person I'm with.
15. Only within the last six months have I really considered myself a sexy, beautiful person. The first time my current partner called me sexy I didn't believe him. No one before that had called me anything besides cute or adorable or pretty, and I didn't see myself as an erotic or sexual person. Things have changed.
16. I love the feeling of being choked during sex.
17. Sometimes I wish I had a few more numbers underneath my belt, but the situation that I'm in right now is more than satisfying even if we're not fucking. I've never had so many orgasms in my life than the amount I've had in six months, without a cock involved.
18. I rarely masturbate when I'm by myself, mainly because I've never really accomplished an orgasm just with my fingers. I've come close with my new toy but I'm almost convinced I need someone else there to make me orgasm.
19. I've participated in two threesomes, with my partner and his girlfriend. I'd love to do a MMF threesome someday, with both partners abusing and dominating me.
20. I vaguely remember comparing private parts with a boy who was in my daycare when I was in early elementary school. I don't recall if we touched each other or not. Part of me doesn't really want to remember.
21. The thought of being tied up and left alone for hours to simmer, with a vibrator in me and not being allowed to cum, turns me on. I wish I had a way to do it.
22. I'm fiercely attracted to Asian men, usually of the Japanese or Korean variety. Asian girls are gorgeous, but I usually find myself flirting with more androgynous, butchy white girls.
23. I could kiss someone all day long. I love curling up next to someone and kissing them for hours on end. I especially love kissing people's necks and collarbones, as well as hands and wrists. I hate when foreplay is rushed or abandoned altogether in favor of sex: Sex is fucking awesome, don't get me wrong, but foreplay also has its place and in my bed it's got a huge place. Foreplay goes a long way with me and in my past experience has resulted in some seriously amazing orgasms.
24. I'd secretly like to be taped during a BDSM scene or while fucking in general, but I'm not sure whether I'd like to know it's there or not. Both ideas seem equally appealing.
25. My mom and I have a very open relationship when it comes to talking about sex. She doesn't know about my BDSM play, but we talk about sex in general and acknowledge that we both have active sex lives. I'm so grateful that my mother and I can talk about this sort of thing, even if I don't give her all the gory details (which I'm sure she appreciates since she doesn't give me hers) of my sex life. Even though the majority of my friends are sexually open, I still have issues talking to them about my own experiences.
1. I lost my virginity within an hour of Obama’s election.
2. It didn’t hurt; the guy was not only lacking in size but in skill: the sex with him was all the most boring I’ve ever had.
3. I’ve never made myself come, with or without toys.
4. I’m a screamer, squirmer and squirter. I can control the first if I need to and the last isn’t an “every time” thing, but it’s been known to happen
5. The most intense orgasm I’ve ever had ever was from being fingered (I’m a girl, by the way). It was incredible.
6. I’m worried no sex I have again will live up to that orgasm or any of the sex I had with that boy.
7. I’ve never been in love with anyone with whom I’ve had sex and I’ve never had sex with anyone with whom I’ve been in love. I’ve almost always said that love and sex are inherently connected but I’m beginning to believe that, in my life at least, they are mutually exclusive. This worries me as well.
8. I love being dominated, fully and completely. My view on gender roles in relationships certainly affects and is affected by this both. It’s an old-fashioned one and I have no idea why.
9. Likely related to this, a rape fantasy seems like a nice one to act out. I don’t think rape is a good thing, of course, and no one deserves something like that, but if you want the treatment and have a willing partner, then by all means…
10. I love giving head to men. I feel like I have a sort of power when I’m down there and knowing that every reaction he’s having, every bit of pleasure he’s feeling is because of me and what I’m doing is wonderful.
11. Oh, and feeling him orgasm and come with me between his thighs, straight into my mouth. I get turned on just thinking about it, not to mention actually experiencing it.
12. I’m not too keen on receiving head, though. I’ve never gotten off from it and I’ve only ever had good head twice, really.
13. My most interesting places I’ve hooked up (making out or more) include: near Pirates of the Caribbean at Disney in Florida; behind the history portable in high school; and in a refrigerator box.
14. I’ve had sex with a Santa. Thanks to SantaCon and alcohol, of course. And while I’m usually not that great at dirty talk (I can’t keep a straight face) the line “I can’t wait to sit on Santa’s lap all night” came up. Sometimes I think my life could be a bad porno. Or at least that night could.
15. I love laughing during, before and after sex. I usually laugh during foreplay and pillow talk and try not to during the act so that he doesn’t think he’s doing something wrong, I guess, but sex can be pretty ridiculous. I mean, what else do you do when the bed breaks underneath you!
16. Oh yeah, I’ve broken a bed. Or more specifically, bed risers. You know those plastic things (that I’m sure are marketed as “unbreakable”)? Apparently we crashed through those (as well as woke up the neighbors; you can rightly assume this was with that “best ever” guy).
17. I’m willing to try almost anything once and despite having been “deflowered” for just over a year I’ve already tried quite a lot. I’m not ashamed of that but rather proud, as I can say definitively what I do and do not like for more things than most girls can.
18. I’ve had anal only once and I didn’t LOVE it but definitely didn’t hate it. I’ve used a butt plug as well and that also was not bad. I would definitely do it again, though I don’t really get why it’s such a big deal for guys.
19. I’ve made out with girls before but never been turned on or aroused by one. Or any. I find many girls attractive on various levels but can’t see myself hooking up with one for my own pleasure.
20. If I were to participate in a threesome I would prefer MMF. I think I’d get jealous if there were another girl involved. Also impatient. I quite like cock.
21. I’ve always wanted to give head to a guy while he was doing something else, specifically watching a movie or playing a video game.
22. For the most part pornography doesn’t turn me on. I would rather talk or read about a sexual situation or fantasy of my own (or even think about it) rather than watch other (phony) people fuck.
23. I’ve been spoiled when it comes to cock size. Aside from a couple (like that first one…) every guy has been quite well endowed both in length and girth. This has actually made most of my encounters a bit painful but I don’t have a problem with that.
24. I’m tight. This isn’t just what I’ve heard from boys. When I masturbate one finger is adequate, two is tight and three isn’t possible on my own (if I worked on it I’m sure I could get it in there, but it would involve my other hand and possibly even additional lubrication).
25. My favorite (in that I felt accomplished) compliment during sex was that I use good suction during head; my favorite (in that it made me laugh) was “you’re soooo voluptuous” while I was straddling drunk Santa.
2. It didn’t hurt; the guy was not only lacking in size but in skill: the sex with him was all the most boring I’ve ever had.
3. I’ve never made myself come, with or without toys.
4. I’m a screamer, squirmer and squirter. I can control the first if I need to and the last isn’t an “every time” thing, but it’s been known to happen
5. The most intense orgasm I’ve ever had ever was from being fingered (I’m a girl, by the way). It was incredible.
6. I’m worried no sex I have again will live up to that orgasm or any of the sex I had with that boy.
7. I’ve never been in love with anyone with whom I’ve had sex and I’ve never had sex with anyone with whom I’ve been in love. I’ve almost always said that love and sex are inherently connected but I’m beginning to believe that, in my life at least, they are mutually exclusive. This worries me as well.
8. I love being dominated, fully and completely. My view on gender roles in relationships certainly affects and is affected by this both. It’s an old-fashioned one and I have no idea why.
9. Likely related to this, a rape fantasy seems like a nice one to act out. I don’t think rape is a good thing, of course, and no one deserves something like that, but if you want the treatment and have a willing partner, then by all means…
10. I love giving head to men. I feel like I have a sort of power when I’m down there and knowing that every reaction he’s having, every bit of pleasure he’s feeling is because of me and what I’m doing is wonderful.
11. Oh, and feeling him orgasm and come with me between his thighs, straight into my mouth. I get turned on just thinking about it, not to mention actually experiencing it.
12. I’m not too keen on receiving head, though. I’ve never gotten off from it and I’ve only ever had good head twice, really.
13. My most interesting places I’ve hooked up (making out or more) include: near Pirates of the Caribbean at Disney in Florida; behind the history portable in high school; and in a refrigerator box.
14. I’ve had sex with a Santa. Thanks to SantaCon and alcohol, of course. And while I’m usually not that great at dirty talk (I can’t keep a straight face) the line “I can’t wait to sit on Santa’s lap all night” came up. Sometimes I think my life could be a bad porno. Or at least that night could.
15. I love laughing during, before and after sex. I usually laugh during foreplay and pillow talk and try not to during the act so that he doesn’t think he’s doing something wrong, I guess, but sex can be pretty ridiculous. I mean, what else do you do when the bed breaks underneath you!
16. Oh yeah, I’ve broken a bed. Or more specifically, bed risers. You know those plastic things (that I’m sure are marketed as “unbreakable”)? Apparently we crashed through those (as well as woke up the neighbors; you can rightly assume this was with that “best ever” guy).
17. I’m willing to try almost anything once and despite having been “deflowered” for just over a year I’ve already tried quite a lot. I’m not ashamed of that but rather proud, as I can say definitively what I do and do not like for more things than most girls can.
18. I’ve had anal only once and I didn’t LOVE it but definitely didn’t hate it. I’ve used a butt plug as well and that also was not bad. I would definitely do it again, though I don’t really get why it’s such a big deal for guys.
19. I’ve made out with girls before but never been turned on or aroused by one. Or any. I find many girls attractive on various levels but can’t see myself hooking up with one for my own pleasure.
20. If I were to participate in a threesome I would prefer MMF. I think I’d get jealous if there were another girl involved. Also impatient. I quite like cock.
21. I’ve always wanted to give head to a guy while he was doing something else, specifically watching a movie or playing a video game.
22. For the most part pornography doesn’t turn me on. I would rather talk or read about a sexual situation or fantasy of my own (or even think about it) rather than watch other (phony) people fuck.
23. I’ve been spoiled when it comes to cock size. Aside from a couple (like that first one…) every guy has been quite well endowed both in length and girth. This has actually made most of my encounters a bit painful but I don’t have a problem with that.
24. I’m tight. This isn’t just what I’ve heard from boys. When I masturbate one finger is adequate, two is tight and three isn’t possible on my own (if I worked on it I’m sure I could get it in there, but it would involve my other hand and possibly even additional lubrication).
25. My favorite (in that I felt accomplished) compliment during sex was that I use good suction during head; my favorite (in that it made me laugh) was “you’re soooo voluptuous” while I was straddling drunk Santa.
1. I remember asking my older brother what pud was when I was a kid. He told me to ask my dad. I'm still suspicious that he didn't know either.
2. I remember trying hard to masturbate when I was around 9 or 10--it didn't work the first few times.
3. I remember worrying that I had harmed my penis during one of these failed attempts.
4. I remember being more relieved than ecstatic the first time I came--glad that my equipment worked.
5. I remember shoving a small wooden wand from a saxophone stand up my ass as a kid--probably age 12 or so.
6. The first time I saw a photo of a pussy, I had to ask my brother and his friend what the hell I was looking at. He again told me to ask my dad--then he remembered that we had swiped the nudie mag from under my Dad's dresser, changed his mind, and explained the image.
7. I sucked my first tit in the summer between 6th and 7th grade. I tried to eat her pussy, but she wasn't having it. I remember her box (through her jeans, as close as I got), smelled strongly of fabric softener.
8. I lost my virginity to a McDonald's co-worker. I was 15, and worried that I wouldn't lose my cherry before age 16. I had read that 15 was the national average for boys.
9. Like a dumbass, when cherry popper asked if I had had sex before, I said yes, and acted indignant.
10. During my first sexual escapade with a partner, I was unable to find the vaginal cavity without assistance, and I came after about 5 strokes. No condom (?) (!). Jesus.
11. My first sex partner, after sex the first time, told me she 'liked to be called the next day'. Did I call her? No. Did I ever get to fuck her again? No. As a former horny boy, I still ask: "Why are horny boys so fucking stupid?"
12. I fucked a hooker for the first time when I was in the Navy, during a weekend off from bootcamp.
13. I fucked my next hooker when I was overseas, in Israel. The condom broke. I am glad I didn't get a disease. I hope she didn't get preggers. Glad I didn't come. (Yes, I know pre-cum can make babies)
14. I've only taken the virginity of one person, but I also fucked her ass before anyone else. I think that should count as two virgins.
15. With my first real girlfriend (the virgin), I felt compelled to act as though I was all-knowing about sex. As most high-school girls do, she was happy to follow my lead. This was awesome, as I got to hump her butt, AND we played with edible bodypaints when I was still 16, and she was 15. She once painted my nuts orange, and then licked my unshaven sac clean, humming and speaking 'orange, orange orange' as she licked and sucked my balls. She was a 6-foot tall, blonde, hot track athlete, so yeah, the memory has stuck with me.
16. From age 18 until age 22, I had very little sex. Perhaps 3 or 5 times per year. This includes hookers. Ouch.
17. At age 22, when I left the Navy, I met a cute girl and dated her for a couple of years. She was willing to have sex several times per week, but she clearly didn't like it much.
18. I did have anal sex with that same girlfriend from age 22. She suggested it.
19. The largest boobs I have ever played with during sex were f cups. They didn't have much sensation in the nips, she told me.
20. I've discovered that I like the feeling of a well-designed butt plug.
21. Vibrating butt plugs are even better, but I'll take a well-shaped butt plug with no vibes over a poorly shaped vibrating plug any day.
22. I just bought a $48 (with shipping) fake pussy called sex in a can. To celebrate, I had 3 hits of pot, inserted a brand new butt plug in me bum, and humped this fake pussy until I came. Twice. Mind-bending!
23. I'm worried that if my wife doesn't start doing kegel exercises, I won't be able to come in her pussy anymore. My new fake pussy is very tight.
24. I sucked a real dick once, and I'll probably do it again. I don't remember ever being interested in stiff dicks (other than mine), until I started watching porn. I still think that kissing men is a turn-off, but I would love to suck porn star Mark Ashley's lovely, upturned stiff cock.
25. I still visit hookers on occasion. The next hooker I see will probably be a tranny. She has an 8 inch cock that I am going to try and fit in my ass. Wish me luck!
2. I remember trying hard to masturbate when I was around 9 or 10--it didn't work the first few times.
3. I remember worrying that I had harmed my penis during one of these failed attempts.
4. I remember being more relieved than ecstatic the first time I came--glad that my equipment worked.
5. I remember shoving a small wooden wand from a saxophone stand up my ass as a kid--probably age 12 or so.
6. The first time I saw a photo of a pussy, I had to ask my brother and his friend what the hell I was looking at. He again told me to ask my dad--then he remembered that we had swiped the nudie mag from under my Dad's dresser, changed his mind, and explained the image.
7. I sucked my first tit in the summer between 6th and 7th grade. I tried to eat her pussy, but she wasn't having it. I remember her box (through her jeans, as close as I got), smelled strongly of fabric softener.
8. I lost my virginity to a McDonald's co-worker. I was 15, and worried that I wouldn't lose my cherry before age 16. I had read that 15 was the national average for boys.
9. Like a dumbass, when cherry popper asked if I had had sex before, I said yes, and acted indignant.
10. During my first sexual escapade with a partner, I was unable to find the vaginal cavity without assistance, and I came after about 5 strokes. No condom (?) (!). Jesus.
11. My first sex partner, after sex the first time, told me she 'liked to be called the next day'. Did I call her? No. Did I ever get to fuck her again? No. As a former horny boy, I still ask: "Why are horny boys so fucking stupid?"
12. I fucked a hooker for the first time when I was in the Navy, during a weekend off from bootcamp.
13. I fucked my next hooker when I was overseas, in Israel. The condom broke. I am glad I didn't get a disease. I hope she didn't get preggers. Glad I didn't come. (Yes, I know pre-cum can make babies)
14. I've only taken the virginity of one person, but I also fucked her ass before anyone else. I think that should count as two virgins.
15. With my first real girlfriend (the virgin), I felt compelled to act as though I was all-knowing about sex. As most high-school girls do, she was happy to follow my lead. This was awesome, as I got to hump her butt, AND we played with edible bodypaints when I was still 16, and she was 15. She once painted my nuts orange, and then licked my unshaven sac clean, humming and speaking 'orange, orange orange' as she licked and sucked my balls. She was a 6-foot tall, blonde, hot track athlete, so yeah, the memory has stuck with me.
16. From age 18 until age 22, I had very little sex. Perhaps 3 or 5 times per year. This includes hookers. Ouch.
17. At age 22, when I left the Navy, I met a cute girl and dated her for a couple of years. She was willing to have sex several times per week, but she clearly didn't like it much.
18. I did have anal sex with that same girlfriend from age 22. She suggested it.
19. The largest boobs I have ever played with during sex were f cups. They didn't have much sensation in the nips, she told me.
20. I've discovered that I like the feeling of a well-designed butt plug.
21. Vibrating butt plugs are even better, but I'll take a well-shaped butt plug with no vibes over a poorly shaped vibrating plug any day.
22. I just bought a $48 (with shipping) fake pussy called sex in a can. To celebrate, I had 3 hits of pot, inserted a brand new butt plug in me bum, and humped this fake pussy until I came. Twice. Mind-bending!
23. I'm worried that if my wife doesn't start doing kegel exercises, I won't be able to come in her pussy anymore. My new fake pussy is very tight.
24. I sucked a real dick once, and I'll probably do it again. I don't remember ever being interested in stiff dicks (other than mine), until I started watching porn. I still think that kissing men is a turn-off, but I would love to suck porn star Mark Ashley's lovely, upturned stiff cock.
25. I still visit hookers on occasion. The next hooker I see will probably be a tranny. She has an 8 inch cock that I am going to try and fit in my ass. Wish me luck!
Sunday, January 10, 2010
1. I lost my virginity in a hotel room. I was 17, my boyfriend was 21. He was also a virgin.
2. The only other person I've slept with, my current boyfriend, was also a virgin.
3. I have never had a vaginal orgasm.
4. I was 15 the first time I masturbated (and made myself orgasm). I was watching The Cosby Show and began touching myself. I realize this is strange, but I will probably never forget it.
5. After 10 years of masturbating, I've realized that while my boyfriend is really great about taking care of my needs, sometimes manual stimulation is the best.
6. I found my father's porn stash when I was younger. I remember getting turned on by the women, not the men. To this day, I'm still kind of icked out by penises, and am still turned on by women.
7. This complicates my sexuality. I have never been with a woman so I'm unsure as to whether I would enjoy it, but I think I might.
8. I am currently in a long-term monogamous relationship with a guy I might end up marrying. I'm currently feeling indifferent about this, because of #7. Lately I've begun wondering what it would be like to be in a relationship with a woman.
9. By most people's standards, I'm a fan of the vanilla sex life. My favorite position is girl on top, I don't like BDSM or any kind of pain (maybe a little hair pulling, but light), though I think toys definitely have a place in the bedroom.
10. I'm continously bothered by the fact that my female friends do not wish to discuss sexuality in any aspect with each other. I am pretty open about this, and I find it distressing that they think talking about orgasms and vibrators and oral sex are something to giggle about.
11. I am fat, and while I'm not in love with my body, I think that I deserve to have a good sex life regardless of this fact.
12. Good orgasms put me to sleep. Because of this, I like my partner to get off first just to ensure I don't have the chance to return the favor.
13. But really, I want him to get me off and let me go to sleep. I am kind of a selfish lover.
14. I am not interested in any type of anal play.
15. I bought my first vibrator on my 18th birthday. It was cheap and hard (that's what she said?), but it did the job. I've since upgraded to a fantastic little waterproof bullet, and it's become a regular character in my bed, whether it's used for solo or partner fun.
16. I really like receiving oral sex, but I've become incredibly self-conscious about it all.
17. I've never tasted semen before, despite the fact that I have given a lot of blowjobs.
18. I have masturbated at work before, in the bathroom on a lunch break. I was tired and stressed and overworked and debated taking a nap in my 30 minutes, but thought that an orgasm would be a better way to relieve the stress. I was right.
19. When I was 15, I started talking to a guy I met on the internet. We were the same age, had a lot in common, and swore we'd meet one day. It's nearly 10 years later, we still talk sporadically, but have never met, though he plays a reoccuring role in my sex dreams.
20. I have a lot of sex dreams. They are always generally pretty awesome.
21. The past few months have been crucial to helping me define not only my sexuality, but my gender identity. Being attracted to trans boys (FtM), androgynous folks, and sexy queer femme ladies, has all been confusing and awesome for me. This is, of course, based solely on photographs on the internet or through films, never in real life. I never meet anyone interesting in real life that I would want to have sex with, but I hope to one day.
22. The idea of meeting someone on the internet solely for casual sex terrifies me. I am way too cautious of STD/I's for my own good.
23. Generally, I find the idea of having sex with someone I am not interested in and/or want to be friends or more with kind of odd. A lot of my friends have casual sex and I don't think any differently of them for it, but for me I think it would be difficult. I have issues, I know.
24. My boyfriend is not incredibly dominant, and while I appreciate the fact that he is a good feminist boy who is adamant about showing me respect, I sometimes want him to pin me down to the bed and fuck me hard.
25. I like quickies. They're fun, sexy, and efficient!
2. The only other person I've slept with, my current boyfriend, was also a virgin.
3. I have never had a vaginal orgasm.
4. I was 15 the first time I masturbated (and made myself orgasm). I was watching The Cosby Show and began touching myself. I realize this is strange, but I will probably never forget it.
5. After 10 years of masturbating, I've realized that while my boyfriend is really great about taking care of my needs, sometimes manual stimulation is the best.
6. I found my father's porn stash when I was younger. I remember getting turned on by the women, not the men. To this day, I'm still kind of icked out by penises, and am still turned on by women.
7. This complicates my sexuality. I have never been with a woman so I'm unsure as to whether I would enjoy it, but I think I might.
8. I am currently in a long-term monogamous relationship with a guy I might end up marrying. I'm currently feeling indifferent about this, because of #7. Lately I've begun wondering what it would be like to be in a relationship with a woman.
9. By most people's standards, I'm a fan of the vanilla sex life. My favorite position is girl on top, I don't like BDSM or any kind of pain (maybe a little hair pulling, but light), though I think toys definitely have a place in the bedroom.
10. I'm continously bothered by the fact that my female friends do not wish to discuss sexuality in any aspect with each other. I am pretty open about this, and I find it distressing that they think talking about orgasms and vibrators and oral sex are something to giggle about.
11. I am fat, and while I'm not in love with my body, I think that I deserve to have a good sex life regardless of this fact.
12. Good orgasms put me to sleep. Because of this, I like my partner to get off first just to ensure I don't have the chance to return the favor.
13. But really, I want him to get me off and let me go to sleep. I am kind of a selfish lover.
14. I am not interested in any type of anal play.
15. I bought my first vibrator on my 18th birthday. It was cheap and hard (that's what she said?), but it did the job. I've since upgraded to a fantastic little waterproof bullet, and it's become a regular character in my bed, whether it's used for solo or partner fun.
16. I really like receiving oral sex, but I've become incredibly self-conscious about it all.
17. I've never tasted semen before, despite the fact that I have given a lot of blowjobs.
18. I have masturbated at work before, in the bathroom on a lunch break. I was tired and stressed and overworked and debated taking a nap in my 30 minutes, but thought that an orgasm would be a better way to relieve the stress. I was right.
19. When I was 15, I started talking to a guy I met on the internet. We were the same age, had a lot in common, and swore we'd meet one day. It's nearly 10 years later, we still talk sporadically, but have never met, though he plays a reoccuring role in my sex dreams.
20. I have a lot of sex dreams. They are always generally pretty awesome.
21. The past few months have been crucial to helping me define not only my sexuality, but my gender identity. Being attracted to trans boys (FtM), androgynous folks, and sexy queer femme ladies, has all been confusing and awesome for me. This is, of course, based solely on photographs on the internet or through films, never in real life. I never meet anyone interesting in real life that I would want to have sex with, but I hope to one day.
22. The idea of meeting someone on the internet solely for casual sex terrifies me. I am way too cautious of STD/I's for my own good.
23. Generally, I find the idea of having sex with someone I am not interested in and/or want to be friends or more with kind of odd. A lot of my friends have casual sex and I don't think any differently of them for it, but for me I think it would be difficult. I have issues, I know.
24. My boyfriend is not incredibly dominant, and while I appreciate the fact that he is a good feminist boy who is adamant about showing me respect, I sometimes want him to pin me down to the bed and fuck me hard.
25. I like quickies. They're fun, sexy, and efficient!
1. The first time I ever masturbated I was afraid. It felt so good, but as I approached climax, the intensity scared me and I stopped. The book "Everything you Ever Wanted to Know About Sex.. But Were Afraid To Ask" said this is what you do... It felt so good but it burned, sort of. I thought I hurt myself.
2. I love the look, the smell, the taste and the elaborate-ness of the female vulva. It makes the dick seem - well, boring. There is nothing more intimate than orally pleasing a woman - even intercourse is LESS intimate.
3. I first made out, like a lot of people, in the back set of my dad's huge car. My girlfriend was a bit on the large size but had big, beautiful breasts. I still recall seeing them for the first time, and how, in the winter, we steamed up the car windows. I also tasted pussy and got a blow job for the first time there.
4. I made love to that same girlfriend for the first time at her parents cabin. Her parents were out with friends, and her little brother was sleeping (I think... I hope) right above us in a loft. I was still partly clothed because we were afraid parents would come back. I was inside her (with a condom) but I thought I heard something, and pulled out and we stopped... it was nothing. I ruined my condom, our first time, and the sex we were having. Damn!
5. I made it up to her when we got back - I got a 12 pack of LifeStyles Ultra Thins and we made love after school. We went all the way and it was awesome.
6. Another girlfriend and I made love in semi-public places; a dorm study room with the door closed, and between semesters in an open floor lounge. I know it was between semesters, but someone COULD have come in. It was great having clothes everywhere and doing 69, knowing you could be caught!
7. When I was 12 or 13, a male friend was talking to some girls in his house and I guess was horny. He said "I need to talk to you" and we went to his room - I walked in first. When I turned around, he had blocked the door, undone his pants and pulled out his erection and was stroking it. I was shocked, partly because he was huge (I was two crucial years younger - big difference) and had pubes (I did not yet...) but he gave me no warning. I mean - if he had said "have you ever jacked off? I'm really horny and my parents are gone - do you want to?" I might have said yes. I was so shocked, though, that he put it away and we left the room.
8. I like (discreetly) looking at nude guys in the locker room - I think everyone does, but most won't admit it.
9. In high school, I ran track with this one guy. He was a red head. In the shower I saw he also had bright red pubic hair.
10. Though it almost never happens, I have "faked" orgasm a few times... I can do this because I wear condoms.
11. I have only ONCE been inside a vagina WITHOUT a condom. My girlfriend and I were swimming, and no one was at my house. We took off our bathing suits, then got in each other's arms and made out. I was so hard! The next thing I knew I was inside her. GOD, was it nice... I thrusted gently a few times, then pulled out.
12. On a scale of 1 to 9, 1 being completely straight, not even vague fantasies, and 9 totally homosexual, I am a 3... or 4.
13. Until I saw YouPorn, I figured the "wet spot" was from sweat (which I guess it could be) - now I know it's from semen coming back out of the vagina and getting all over the bed. Oh, now I get it!
14. I know of a gay bathhouse in my town... I have always wanted to go in. Not to DO anyone, just sit in the steam room, watch the action, jack off and then leave.
15. I am married and my sex life sucks. I have not had sex in a year. She won't let me eat her (oral sex), and I don't know why. I am afraid to talk to her about it.
16. Until 14 years ago I had full pubes. Now my balls are shaved, my inner thighs, my butt crack and the area below my navel. All I have now is a small patch of full pubes above my cock and the hair that goes up to my navel. That's it. I love it and so does my wife.
17. I had same-sex sex (oral only) once or twice, with the same person. I was comfortable with him, and he said OK when I asked if I could. I was just curious... if you're a woman, what did a dick feel like in your mouth? What were women going through? I undressed him and made out with him - the biggest surprises were 1) his height, 2) his stubble 3) his narrow hips, 4) the smell of cologne, 5) his broad shoulders and 6) no smell of makeup, perfume, lipstick.
At first I was freaked out - THIS WAS A GUY! - but then relaxed. It took some courage to undo his belt, and he said "look, don't worry - we don't have to", but I was curious. Eventually I did, we stripped each others' underwear. That was one of the hottest few minutes in my life.
Oh, his erection? Really, not a shock - standard in size, girth, length etc. His crotch smelled sweaty, and his penis in my mouth felt like mine does in my hand. Actually it was all kind of a let-down, except the stripping and making out part. That was really hot. By the way I was really drunk.
18. I would easily do a threesome for my wife that was MMF - or MMMF for that matter. I don't care - as long she lets me have MFF...
19. I have toys and play with my prostate. I have had dozens of orgasms with them. The prostate is the man's G-spot. It is a GREAT and very different orgasm. TRY IT!
20. I would like to get into spanking/BDSM - a little.
21. I would also do voyeur/exhibitionism stuff too. I would be happy to watch my wife do someone and I could only j/o. Of course, she would have to do that for me too.
22. I would like to go to a nudist resort for a weekend.
23. I would gladly go to an erotic/swingers party with my wife, but she would never do it. I wish she would.
24. I have had only 4 lovers in my life.
25. Out of 4 lovers, 3 have been virgins (believe me, you can tell when you break them). What is it about me that attracts virgins?
2. I love the look, the smell, the taste and the elaborate-ness of the female vulva. It makes the dick seem - well, boring. There is nothing more intimate than orally pleasing a woman - even intercourse is LESS intimate.
3. I first made out, like a lot of people, in the back set of my dad's huge car. My girlfriend was a bit on the large size but had big, beautiful breasts. I still recall seeing them for the first time, and how, in the winter, we steamed up the car windows. I also tasted pussy and got a blow job for the first time there.
4. I made love to that same girlfriend for the first time at her parents cabin. Her parents were out with friends, and her little brother was sleeping (I think... I hope) right above us in a loft. I was still partly clothed because we were afraid parents would come back. I was inside her (with a condom) but I thought I heard something, and pulled out and we stopped... it was nothing. I ruined my condom, our first time, and the sex we were having. Damn!
5. I made it up to her when we got back - I got a 12 pack of LifeStyles Ultra Thins and we made love after school. We went all the way and it was awesome.
6. Another girlfriend and I made love in semi-public places; a dorm study room with the door closed, and between semesters in an open floor lounge. I know it was between semesters, but someone COULD have come in. It was great having clothes everywhere and doing 69, knowing you could be caught!
7. When I was 12 or 13, a male friend was talking to some girls in his house and I guess was horny. He said "I need to talk to you" and we went to his room - I walked in first. When I turned around, he had blocked the door, undone his pants and pulled out his erection and was stroking it. I was shocked, partly because he was huge (I was two crucial years younger - big difference) and had pubes (I did not yet...) but he gave me no warning. I mean - if he had said "have you ever jacked off? I'm really horny and my parents are gone - do you want to?" I might have said yes. I was so shocked, though, that he put it away and we left the room.
8. I like (discreetly) looking at nude guys in the locker room - I think everyone does, but most won't admit it.
9. In high school, I ran track with this one guy. He was a red head. In the shower I saw he also had bright red pubic hair.
10. Though it almost never happens, I have "faked" orgasm a few times... I can do this because I wear condoms.
11. I have only ONCE been inside a vagina WITHOUT a condom. My girlfriend and I were swimming, and no one was at my house. We took off our bathing suits, then got in each other's arms and made out. I was so hard! The next thing I knew I was inside her. GOD, was it nice... I thrusted gently a few times, then pulled out.
12. On a scale of 1 to 9, 1 being completely straight, not even vague fantasies, and 9 totally homosexual, I am a 3... or 4.
13. Until I saw YouPorn, I figured the "wet spot" was from sweat (which I guess it could be) - now I know it's from semen coming back out of the vagina and getting all over the bed. Oh, now I get it!
14. I know of a gay bathhouse in my town... I have always wanted to go in. Not to DO anyone, just sit in the steam room, watch the action, jack off and then leave.
15. I am married and my sex life sucks. I have not had sex in a year. She won't let me eat her (oral sex), and I don't know why. I am afraid to talk to her about it.
16. Until 14 years ago I had full pubes. Now my balls are shaved, my inner thighs, my butt crack and the area below my navel. All I have now is a small patch of full pubes above my cock and the hair that goes up to my navel. That's it. I love it and so does my wife.
17. I had same-sex sex (oral only) once or twice, with the same person. I was comfortable with him, and he said OK when I asked if I could. I was just curious... if you're a woman, what did a dick feel like in your mouth? What were women going through? I undressed him and made out with him - the biggest surprises were 1) his height, 2) his stubble 3) his narrow hips, 4) the smell of cologne, 5) his broad shoulders and 6) no smell of makeup, perfume, lipstick.
At first I was freaked out - THIS WAS A GUY! - but then relaxed. It took some courage to undo his belt, and he said "look, don't worry - we don't have to", but I was curious. Eventually I did, we stripped each others' underwear. That was one of the hottest few minutes in my life.
Oh, his erection? Really, not a shock - standard in size, girth, length etc. His crotch smelled sweaty, and his penis in my mouth felt like mine does in my hand. Actually it was all kind of a let-down, except the stripping and making out part. That was really hot. By the way I was really drunk.
18. I would easily do a threesome for my wife that was MMF - or MMMF for that matter. I don't care - as long she lets me have MFF...
19. I have toys and play with my prostate. I have had dozens of orgasms with them. The prostate is the man's G-spot. It is a GREAT and very different orgasm. TRY IT!
20. I would like to get into spanking/BDSM - a little.
21. I would also do voyeur/exhibitionism stuff too. I would be happy to watch my wife do someone and I could only j/o. Of course, she would have to do that for me too.
22. I would like to go to a nudist resort for a weekend.
23. I would gladly go to an erotic/swingers party with my wife, but she would never do it. I wish she would.
24. I have had only 4 lovers in my life.
25. Out of 4 lovers, 3 have been virgins (believe me, you can tell when you break them). What is it about me that attracts virgins?
1. I've been wanting to write this list for ages but have only now gathered the courage to do so. It's one of my secret New Year's goals.
2. I'm 19 years old and still a virgin. It's funny because I do not fit the sterotypes for a virgin at all; I'm not religious nor asexual. I consider myself to be outgoing (in most situations), fun and attractive (albeit slightly curvy) and I'm smart too. I don't tend to put myself out there when I'm at parties because now that I've waited this long, I don't feel like it should be blown on some random fuck at a party. It's not like I want to be married or even wait until I know that the person is "the one" but I at least want some sort of connection before I engage in that sort of activity.
3. The thing is, is that those types of connections aren't happening in my life. I can't say that I've ever had a real boyfriend which would probably boggle your mind if you knew me in real life. I think a combination of certain factors contributes to my lack of love life, which includes: moving around (which makes it hard to make friends let alone a boyfriend), being branded a lesbian/feminist in highschool, my lack of self-confidence, my shyness around boys that I like a lot and my strong independence which tends to scare most guys away.
4. When people find out that I don't have a boyfriend they are genuinely surprised and that pisses me off even more because I really do not know what it is that I'm doing wrong. It's not that some boys aren't interested it's just that I never like them enough to follow through with a relationship. I think that deep down, I'm scared of relationships and letting people into my world. I trick myself into thinking that I'm ready for a relationship but when the opportunity comes knocking, I run away.
5. When I was in middle school I had little crushes on many boys in my grade. One boy in particular caught my attention and we would sometimes talk on the phone and have "phone sex" (if you can even call it that). Once, at a birthday party, we were dared to "go into the shower" and do all sorts of things, and my friend at the time got jealous and began to cry. She was thinner than me and this is when I began to develop my body issues. She once told me that I had a flat bum and it's influenced me ever since.
6. I don't consider myself a lesbian but most of my sexual experiences have happened with females. Towards the end of middle school I had a friend and we would experiment with each other. I loved the feelings that I got but I never enjoyed the kissing part. Fast-forward to my last year of highschool when I made out with a guy and I still did not enjoy the kissing.
7. In most ways, I am more afraid of actually kissing than I am of, say, giving head. I think that maybe kissing implies a closer connection than simply getting someone off.
8. Since I haven't had a boyfriend, I've learned to rely on myself. Sexually speaking, I am very comfortable talking about masturbation with my friends. I think that pleasure is so beautiful and I'm happy to know that I've explored my body so that I know what types of things that I respond to. I'm not drawn to anything that is crude or explicit; I become easily turned off by anything "hardcore." While watching porn, I like to see natural images and a genuine enjoyment in the union of two people.
9. Like I said before, I don't consider myself a lesbian but I am drawn to lesbain porn. Perhaps this means that I am a lesbian? Who even knows? My best friend once said "You will be with someone who you feel a connection with, be it a man or woman." I remember feeling peaceful after he said that. Since I haven't had any real boyfriends, my mom thinks I'm a lesbian. I know that she would probably be okay with it but I think that I would know if I was a lesbian or not.
10. Perhaps I just won't define myself. I think that maybe I should just live my life and not care about whether someone is a man or a woman.
11. I have so much to learn about myself. It's exciting to know that I have this whole side of me that I get to explore one day.
12. This summer while traveling, I saw two women who were beautiful and confident. They were together and I've thought about them ever since. I could be in a relationship like that... but the sterotypical "butch" woman wouldn't be for me.
13. Now that I'm thinking about it, I'm always attracted to a more "feminine" male. At my work there is a 17 year-old male who I am so attracted to. His face is so beautiful and his demeanor is so soft and calm, and recently I've felt his energy combine with my own. I feel so horrible for even thinking this way seeing as he is so young.
14. Over the past few months I've been feeling myself transform my mind and body to become more comfortable in my skin. It's been a long journey and it's still not over. Part of the reason why I wanted to write this list is because my old self would never write this out. Now, I'm learning to come to terms with myself, my sexuality, my body. It's a beautiful thing and It's exciting.
15. Sometimes I wish that I could have a threesome for my first time. Nothing in my life is ever "traditional" and I feel as if I'm always in a state of change or "newness" and so having a threesome (MFF) would just be another kick at "tradition". I would need a connection with both people first, though, and that would be hard to do.
16. Writing this list is ridiculously hard when you have no stories to tell.
17. I can't explain the feeling of relief that I get when I read other people's list and they are my age and still a virgin. Sometimes I feel as if I'm the only one in this world who isn't having a good romp in the bed every night. It also makes me feel like less of a freak.
18. Even though I am still a virgin, I instinctively know that I will be an amazing lover. I have no idea how I know this, but for some reason, I just know. Although I've spent many years pleasuring myself, I am so eager to make someone feel true bliss. That excites me more than anything. To know that I can make someone feel that way.
19. I think that making love on the earth would be the most amazing experience. Two people coming together, natural and free amongst the sky and trees and dirt and grass. It would be like going back to our roots and connecting ourselves with life.
20. I also think that making love on a huge canvas with lots of paint would be the ultimate expression of love. One day I intend to do this with the one I love and hang it somewhere in our home so that it's our own little secret when family and friends come over for visits. They will ask "where did you get the painting?" and we will lie and say "an art gallery".
21. I like that I've been able to develop my own personality and independence and feel comfortable in knowing that I can be my own person. When I fall in love, I will be me. I will be a great catch for some lucky person out there.
22. Surprisingly, I don't feel pressured to be "hardcore" or be kinky. I feel that most people tend to exaggerate their experiences anyway and sex is more about love and union and lust and being silly, rather than being "hardcore." In my opinion, anyway.
23. But who knows, maybe I will end up having completely different views in a few years time.
24. I like knowing that people from all walks of life will be reading this.
25. I can't believe I'm actually going to send this.
2. I'm 19 years old and still a virgin. It's funny because I do not fit the sterotypes for a virgin at all; I'm not religious nor asexual. I consider myself to be outgoing (in most situations), fun and attractive (albeit slightly curvy) and I'm smart too. I don't tend to put myself out there when I'm at parties because now that I've waited this long, I don't feel like it should be blown on some random fuck at a party. It's not like I want to be married or even wait until I know that the person is "the one" but I at least want some sort of connection before I engage in that sort of activity.
3. The thing is, is that those types of connections aren't happening in my life. I can't say that I've ever had a real boyfriend which would probably boggle your mind if you knew me in real life. I think a combination of certain factors contributes to my lack of love life, which includes: moving around (which makes it hard to make friends let alone a boyfriend), being branded a lesbian/feminist in highschool, my lack of self-confidence, my shyness around boys that I like a lot and my strong independence which tends to scare most guys away.
4. When people find out that I don't have a boyfriend they are genuinely surprised and that pisses me off even more because I really do not know what it is that I'm doing wrong. It's not that some boys aren't interested it's just that I never like them enough to follow through with a relationship. I think that deep down, I'm scared of relationships and letting people into my world. I trick myself into thinking that I'm ready for a relationship but when the opportunity comes knocking, I run away.
5. When I was in middle school I had little crushes on many boys in my grade. One boy in particular caught my attention and we would sometimes talk on the phone and have "phone sex" (if you can even call it that). Once, at a birthday party, we were dared to "go into the shower" and do all sorts of things, and my friend at the time got jealous and began to cry. She was thinner than me and this is when I began to develop my body issues. She once told me that I had a flat bum and it's influenced me ever since.
6. I don't consider myself a lesbian but most of my sexual experiences have happened with females. Towards the end of middle school I had a friend and we would experiment with each other. I loved the feelings that I got but I never enjoyed the kissing part. Fast-forward to my last year of highschool when I made out with a guy and I still did not enjoy the kissing.
7. In most ways, I am more afraid of actually kissing than I am of, say, giving head. I think that maybe kissing implies a closer connection than simply getting someone off.
8. Since I haven't had a boyfriend, I've learned to rely on myself. Sexually speaking, I am very comfortable talking about masturbation with my friends. I think that pleasure is so beautiful and I'm happy to know that I've explored my body so that I know what types of things that I respond to. I'm not drawn to anything that is crude or explicit; I become easily turned off by anything "hardcore." While watching porn, I like to see natural images and a genuine enjoyment in the union of two people.
9. Like I said before, I don't consider myself a lesbian but I am drawn to lesbain porn. Perhaps this means that I am a lesbian? Who even knows? My best friend once said "You will be with someone who you feel a connection with, be it a man or woman." I remember feeling peaceful after he said that. Since I haven't had any real boyfriends, my mom thinks I'm a lesbian. I know that she would probably be okay with it but I think that I would know if I was a lesbian or not.
10. Perhaps I just won't define myself. I think that maybe I should just live my life and not care about whether someone is a man or a woman.
11. I have so much to learn about myself. It's exciting to know that I have this whole side of me that I get to explore one day.
12. This summer while traveling, I saw two women who were beautiful and confident. They were together and I've thought about them ever since. I could be in a relationship like that... but the sterotypical "butch" woman wouldn't be for me.
13. Now that I'm thinking about it, I'm always attracted to a more "feminine" male. At my work there is a 17 year-old male who I am so attracted to. His face is so beautiful and his demeanor is so soft and calm, and recently I've felt his energy combine with my own. I feel so horrible for even thinking this way seeing as he is so young.
14. Over the past few months I've been feeling myself transform my mind and body to become more comfortable in my skin. It's been a long journey and it's still not over. Part of the reason why I wanted to write this list is because my old self would never write this out. Now, I'm learning to come to terms with myself, my sexuality, my body. It's a beautiful thing and It's exciting.
15. Sometimes I wish that I could have a threesome for my first time. Nothing in my life is ever "traditional" and I feel as if I'm always in a state of change or "newness" and so having a threesome (MFF) would just be another kick at "tradition". I would need a connection with both people first, though, and that would be hard to do.
16. Writing this list is ridiculously hard when you have no stories to tell.
17. I can't explain the feeling of relief that I get when I read other people's list and they are my age and still a virgin. Sometimes I feel as if I'm the only one in this world who isn't having a good romp in the bed every night. It also makes me feel like less of a freak.
18. Even though I am still a virgin, I instinctively know that I will be an amazing lover. I have no idea how I know this, but for some reason, I just know. Although I've spent many years pleasuring myself, I am so eager to make someone feel true bliss. That excites me more than anything. To know that I can make someone feel that way.
19. I think that making love on the earth would be the most amazing experience. Two people coming together, natural and free amongst the sky and trees and dirt and grass. It would be like going back to our roots and connecting ourselves with life.
20. I also think that making love on a huge canvas with lots of paint would be the ultimate expression of love. One day I intend to do this with the one I love and hang it somewhere in our home so that it's our own little secret when family and friends come over for visits. They will ask "where did you get the painting?" and we will lie and say "an art gallery".
21. I like that I've been able to develop my own personality and independence and feel comfortable in knowing that I can be my own person. When I fall in love, I will be me. I will be a great catch for some lucky person out there.
22. Surprisingly, I don't feel pressured to be "hardcore" or be kinky. I feel that most people tend to exaggerate their experiences anyway and sex is more about love and union and lust and being silly, rather than being "hardcore." In my opinion, anyway.
23. But who knows, maybe I will end up having completely different views in a few years time.
24. I like knowing that people from all walks of life will be reading this.
25. I can't believe I'm actually going to send this.
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