Thursday, February 26, 2009

1. I am a virgin, but that doesn't matter right now. I'm pretty sure I'll be able to come up with another 24 things about my sexuality.
2. I received my first Sex Ed lesson from my older male cousin at the age of about 4. To be honest, I can't actually remember how old I was, but 4 is the most likely age. I DO however, remember agreeing to the whole “I'll show you mine if you show me yours” thing.
3. From there I spawned an obsession with sex that has never quite left me. I remember being acutely aware of how unusual this was at the age of 5, when I first started school.
4. I'm straight, but not going to rule out the possibility that I like girls; i've had female crushes before and I don't find anything about the female body unappealing. In fact, i think it's downright beautiful most of the time.
5. I'm incredibly shy of new people and physical contact. Even brushing against someone makes be want to pull away. It's a trust thing though, I think, because I can't get enough hugs or physical contact from my family or partner.
6. I live in a family that's quite open (though not promiscuous) about sex. We're comfortable with each other, which is fantastic, because it means it's not weird knowing that your sister has sex toys, or that your brother watches porn. We can talk and joke about sex with each other and even with our mum.
7. I had my first kiss at 17 after going out with the guy for 6 months. It was fantastic, because it meant something and we'd both been anticipating it for so long.
8. I like having sex dreams. Even the bad ones. They leave a surreal impression on me which I like to play around with in my mind for the rest of the day.
9. I think it would be great to get into a relationship with an older man. Experience!
10. I think it's a really bad idea to date within your friendship circle (especially the inner one) even though that's exactly what I'm doing right now.
11. There's so much I want to try when the time comes. I'm very open to experimentation.
12. I've never had an orgasm. I can work myself up to a and extreme pitch of excitement, but I can never quite push myself over the edge. Maybe I'm scared to. Or it could be that I've done it already and never even realised it (but I doubt this). From what I've learned about myself though, I can guess that when I DO finally orgasm, it will be mindblowing. I can drive myself almost over the edge without even touching myself.
13. I used to get so bored in church that I would sit there, cheeks flushed, fantasising about unspeakable acts, even though I knew how very wrong it was. I did it right up until I was 13 when we stopped going to mass. Then I started doing it on the bus and during school assemblies and occasionally even in class.
14. When I was younger, any thoughts of giving or receiving oral sex terrified and disgusted me. Now they make me blush. I wonder what my boyfriend's face would look like when I take him in my mouth.
15. Vulnerability is extremely attractive. But not ALL the time.
16. There should be more bisexual males. After thousands of years of homosexual behaviour in various cultures, I can't understand while it's still such a difficult topic with some. I know plenty of exclusively gay or straight guys, but I've only ever come across 2 that are bi.
17. A threesome with 2 guys is way more appealing for me than having one with another girl. The idea of being sandwiched, and doubly penetrated is hot even if I am kind of scared of anal.
18. I have rather unconventional tastes in guys when it comes to looks, but I must say, personality is the deciding factor.
19. Everyone seems to think I'm a dominatrix, I even got given a set of handcuffs as a joke. But secretly, I want to be dominated. Ropes, cuffs, even to be restrained with bare hands, oh!
20. I have an ok body but I'm very self conscious about it. I would however, love to be able to throw away those feelings/inhibitions and become a nude model for artists or photographers.
21. My first crush was Kevin Sorbo as Hercules when I was about 4. Actually it was more of an ongoing obsession.
22. Smell is very important for me. My boyfriend smells amazing. I secretly try to catch a whiff every time I'm near him.
23. Pubic hair is sexy. I don't like that shaved prepubescent look.
24. Doing naughty things in places where you might get caught is hot. The whole risk factor is a real turn on.
25. I think that when I do actually start having sex, I'll easily become addicted to it. Sexually, I already have to mind and drive of your stereotypical guy. I'm holding off because I know it wouldn't be right, but if I could go there, I probably would.